Chapter 41: The Lover
In the silent night, Lu Fengbai stood beside the bed in thin clothes, looking down at the person lying on the bed, sleeping quietly and quietly like a child.
He propped his left palm against the wall, and the other hand on his head, and the nerves there kept beating, quickly pounding into the memories deep in his brain.
I don't know if it was sweat or tears, sliding down his face and dripping on the ground, he slowly squatted down, holding his head and desperately holding back the desire to wail, biting his lip and breathing heavily.
Why forget, why can't you remember...... He opened his mouth and breathed heavily, and finally as if he had exhausted all his strength, he sat down on the ground, raised his head to meet Shang Qiuci's sleeping face, and he raised his hand and gently brushed the warm fingertips across her face.
Xiaoci, do you really like me as much as I like you? Xiao Ci, Xiao Ci, if you really like me, don't let go, okay?
I'm really scared, I'm scared, don't leave me, okay? That night, Qiu Ci slept deeply!
After Qiu Ci woke up the next day, when she went out, she saw Lu Fengbai lying on the sofa with a thin quilt and falling asleep, she hurriedly walked over to wake up Lu Fengbai.
Lu Fengbai had insomnia last night, and he was woken up by Qiu Ci not long after he fell asleep, so he couldn't help but feel a little helpless, but he couldn't say it.
"What's wrong?" His voice was hoarse from waking up.
"You'll get sick if you sleep here, so if you're sleepy, go to bed."
"It's okay, don't sleep." Lu Fengbai lay on the sofa, gently rubbing Qiu Ci's messy hair, and smiled slightly.
Qiu Ci looked at her, pursed his lips and whispered, "I'm going back." ”
"Yes." After Lu Fengbai sent her to school, he left, on the way his car drove very slowly, and watched Qiu Ci's small figure gradually disappear from the mirror before he gradually walked away He has no way to explain everything to Qiu Ci now, but he is afraid that this kind of concealment will make Qiu Ci gradually leave him, so he can only take one step at a time now.
After Qiu Ci returned to school, she happened to meet Xu Feifei, who had been waiting for her. She is still so good-looking, although she knows that she may have some different feelings for Lu Fengbai, but in Qiu Ci's opinion, she is nothing more than Lu Fengbai's heterosexual hair, Lu Fengbai doesn't like her, and at most she is just a close friend.
When Xu Feifei saw Qiu Ci, her eyes lit up, and she hurriedly ran over and grabbed Qiu Ci, and before Qiu Ci could speak, she saw her and asked eagerly, "Have you seen Lu Fengbai?" "She's looking for Lu Fengbai!
Why are you looking for him, is Lu Fengbai avoiding her? But why did you avoid her? Qiu Ci frowned slightly when he thought of this, he was afraid that no one wanted his lover to have another woman in his heart, even if that kind of existence was not love, it would be inexplicably irritating.
She said, "What are you looking for him?" ”
"I haven't seen him in a long time." Her expression was a little dazed, and her eyes were red: "I searched for a long time to find you, and you just tell me where he is and let me meet him." Qiu Ci was inexplicably bored, why did he tell her in what capacity Xu Feifei came to her to inquire about Lu Fengbai's news.
"Why do you think I'm going to tell you, in what capacity do you think I'm asking him for news, and why do you think I'll know where he is?" Qiu Ci looked at her, and for the first time she realized that she could be so murderous.
Xu Feifei looked at her and suddenly sobered up. yes, what is she? Lu Fengbai didn't like her, she already knew, but she still had the idea of a little girl, thinking that Lu Fengbai was hers, because they grew up together, Lu Fengbai lost her memory of Qiu Ci, and she also destroyed all the things in Lu Fengbai's life about Qiu Ci, how could he be with Qiu Ci.
She's concerned about it! But what about weddings? They said that they would get engaged at the end of the year, but Lu Fengbai suddenly disappeared and couldn't be found anywhere.
Xu Feifei really had no choice, so he came out to try his luck. She said, "I'm sorry. ”
"Why do you want to say sorry to me?"
"It's nothing, I just want to say, if you see Lu Fengbai, please let her find me, I am willing to have a good talk with him."
"I won't tell you." Qiu Ci stood behind her and said loudly. Xu Feifei's body froze, and she smiled bitterly, she was like a clown jumping off the beam, doing self-righteous things.
It turned out that Lu Fengbai had known Qiu Ci for a long time, and she carefully deleted Qiu Ci's things, but he still came to Qiu Ci's side again, she was glad that Lu Fengbai had lost her memory, but in the end she found that Lu Fengbai's feelings for Qiu Ci far exceeded her imagination.
Even if you forget it, if you meet again, you will still fall in love again! She's already lost.
Xu Feifei, Xu Feifei, you tried so hard to please him, and for what reason, you tried your best to stand side by side with him, but it was not as deep as a smile from others.
When Xu Feifei returned to the company, he unexpectedly found that Lu Fengbai, who had disappeared for more than half a month, came back and walked around the building in a suit.
She was overjoyed in her heart, and a little hope was ignited, she took a step towards Lu Fengbai, looking calm and indifferent: "Back?" Lu Fengbai glanced at her, nodded lightly, and turned away without saying a word.
The hope that had been quietly ignited was extinguished in an instant. Sure enough, if you don't love it, you don't love it, Lu Fengbai doesn't like Xu Feifei, that is, he doesn't like it.
Xu Feifei followed Lu Fengbai into his office and sat down, Lu Fengbai looked down at the information as if he didn't see him or her.
His indifferent character, after knowing Qiu Ci, he often had attacks on Xu Feifei, which should be in response to what he said when he was a child, he said that if he likes someone, then he will not have anything to do with other women, he should not want to have anything to do with Xu Feifei now!
Xu Feifei felt uncomfortable but pretended not to know, and said with a forced smile: "Uncle said that an engagement ceremony would be held on New Year's Day. Lu Fengbai's action of turning things over, his eyes moved away from the information, and he glanced at her, his deep eyes exuded a dangerous aura, and that kind of indifferent alienation made Xu Feifei's heart chill.
He threw the things on the table, leaned back on the chair and looked at Xu Feifei: "You really want to marry me?" The tone was full of danger, but it had a fatal temptation for Xu Feifei, Xu Feifei's eyes dimmed a little, and lowered his eyes slightly: "You know, I liked you since I was very young......"
"So what?" Lu Fengbai interrupted her very unceremoniously. Xu Feifei looked at Lu Fengbai in surprise, although Lu Fengbai didn't have that so-called love for her, but he was as gentle as a sister to her, but today's unexpected indifference made Xu Feifei unable to accept it for a while.
"White." Lu Fengbai ignored what she was about to say, but raised his head, and said in a cold voice: "Xu Feifei, if you delusionally get something that doesn't belong to you, then you will end up in failure, and I'm not the kind of person who will compromise." His words couldn't be clearer, he Lu Fengbai was not Xu Feifei's, she got Lu Fengbai by force, and she would not be happy in the end, Lu Fengbai didn't like her, and he wouldn't obey her, there was an unbridgeable gap between him and her.
That chasm was his father at first, and his hatred of his father separated them like a chasm that could not be crossed, but now the chasm is getting bigger and bigger, because on the basis of his father, there is another autumn speech, and that man is even more powerful than his father.
She could swear that she could appease the conflict between his father and him, but she wasn't sure that she could let Lu Fengbai come out of Qiu Ci's tenderness.
Xu Feifei looked at Lu Fengbai, her heart became more and more sour, she seemed to hear something tearing in her chest: "You really have no feelings for me?" Lu Fengbai shook his head: "There are feelings." When Xu Feifei heard this, her heart immediately rejoiced, but before she could reach her whole body, she heard Lu Fengbai say: "It's just that the feeling is different from what you imagined." ”
"If I had to sum up your feelings, it might be a friend, or a distant relative." Xu Feifei's heart fell to the bottom again, people say that amorous people are the most ruthless, and ruthless people are the most affectionate, Lu Fengbai may be affectionate to Qiu Ci, he gave all his love to one person warmly, he can't see other people's contributions, he can't see the footsteps of others catching up, he only has the people he loves in his eyes.
This kind of affection is very extreme, he fills all the love of one woman, but also deprives another woman of her yearning for love.
It's a pity that Xu Feifei is a person who is divided by Lu Fengbai, and Qiu Ci is lucky to be divided by him, ruthless and amorous, two extremes, Lu Fengbai has achieved the extreme, and that layer of unbreakable barrier is himself, and no one can shake him.
Lu Fengbai said that he liked to paint, so she went to Italy to learn painting, thinking about being side by side with him, Lu Fengbai said that he didn't want to fall in love, so she rejected all suitors, and quietly waited for him to turn around, Lu Fengbai said that he fell in love with a girl, so she tried her best to please him and stay by his side, in order not to deprive her of her place in Lu Fengbai's heart because of a newcomer.
But in the end, the result of staying by his side was that she saw Lu Fengbai leave her with her own eyes, but she could only watch and couldn't catch it, and she had been playing the role that Lu Fengbai liked with all her heart, but in the end, she was hurt by herself.
Xu Feifei looked at Lu Fengbai and suddenly laughed, that smile was self-deprecation, unwilling to say to her: "Lu Fengbai, why don't you always see my efforts?" Lu Fengbai looked at him, his deep eyes darkened and deepened: "Fei Fei, emotional matters can't be forced, if we can, we will still be friends." ”
"Just friends?" Xu Feifei stood up and looked at her, she was very tall, she was also tall in high heels, almost as tall as Lu Fengbai: "Lu Fengbai, you know, I don't want to be friends with you at all." Lu Fengbai looked at her, he felt sorry for Xu Feifei in his heart, but if Xu Feifei had the wrong idea because of his pity, or had the heart of Qiu Ci, he would not allow it.
"We can be in any kind of relationship, but we can never be lovers," he said. ”