Lu Fengbai has been helping other students to change their paintings, she lowered her head and looked at her paint box, with the first feeling of staining the bright red on the color palette and mixing it evenly, and then spread it on the drawing paper, as if there was something guiding her, even if she didn't know what she wanted to paint before painting, but when she painted, she always knew what to paint next. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

When Lu Fengbai came over again and saw the painting she had drawn, his brows tightened.

"That's how you're feeling right now?" Lu Fengbai looked at the painting and asked.

Qiu Ci glanced up at him, then looked at the painting and shook his head: "I don't know, I painted it by feeling." ”

Lu Fengbai was shocked, is her heart so lonely and dark?

It can be vaguely seen that she painted a blood-red sky, a dark wasteland and dead branches, scattered white bones, a bird standing on a branch, red eyes, and a vaguely visible figure, looking alone into the distance.

This painting also reflects her painting work from the side, which is really good, but she is framed by some rules, and before she asked her to paint some still life watercolors by herself, she will always set a box for herself in the bottom of her heart, and she can't let go, which makes her look particularly restrained and unfamiliar.

Now let her paint by feeling, remove the darkness in the painting, her painting workmanship, whether it is color matching or composition, is very accurate, and very beautiful.

"Your painting is very good, the colors are used very well, the composition is also very good, and it is very open, and if you draw other paintings with this feeling, you may find a feeling."

Hearing Lu Fengbai say this, Qiu Ci immediately had a feeling in her heart that she had cleared the clouds and saw the blue sky, and when she just wanted to pull out the drawing paper and redraw, she was stopped by Lu Fengbai.

She glanced at Lu Fengbai suspiciously.

"Don't draw anything else now, finish this painting, and then go out after class to relax, keep yourself in a nervous spirit, it's not good to draw, painting is a beautiful thing, don't burden it." Lu Fengbai said very seriously.

Qiu Ci also stopped the urge to change the drawing paper again, she knew that what Lu Fengbai said was good for her, so she chose to believe her unconditionally.

In the evening class, Qiu Ci was still looking for the feeling of painting, that feeling was very subtle, and if she was not careful, it would disappear without a trace, and she needed to concentrate on grasping that subtle feeling and using it.

I don't know how long it took to draw, the water in the bucket turned into a thickened milk tea color, Qiu Ci looked at the painting on the paper, and couldn't help but smile, it seemed that she had really improved a lot, and she seemed to gradually understand that feeling.

In fact, it is very simple, as Lu Fengbai said, painting is a very beautiful thing, don't burden it, she finished painting in the process of enjoying it, but unexpectedly found that it was better than any previous painting.

Lu Fengbai came over and took a look at her painting, patted her shoulder, Qiu Ci looked at him, his face flushed because of excitement, Lu Fengbai's heart moved but the landscape was not revealed, and he gave a thumbs up: "Not bad." ”

Just as she was happy, she saw a boy outside looking into the classroom, and asked in a soft voice, "Is Qiu Ci here?" ”

When Qiu Ci saw him, the excitement in his eyes dissipated in an instant, and a cloud of sadness quietly came, Lu Fengbai didn't say anything in his eyes, just said, "Call you, go." ”

Qiu Ci got up and walked to the boy's side, but his expression was different from his usual sadness.

When Lu Fengbai saw her appearance, he found that he seemed to have just begun to know her, and he was very unfamiliar.

"What are you doing here?" Qiu Ci dragged the boy out and stood in the hallway and asked.

The boy looked at her with a calm expression: "Tomorrow is my birthday, will you come to my house to celebrate my birthday?" ”

"No, it won't." Qiu Ci rejected him very resolutely.

"Mom said she would come." He said.

His tone was a little excited, but it sounded so pathetic in Qiu Ci, but when he thought about it carefully, he was much happier than himself, at least he still had a father, and she only had cold money that came in every month.

Qiu Ci looked at his excited appearance, and didn't really want to spoil his interest, in fact, he could have made a phone call to ask her if she was willing to go, instead of coming in person, but he still came to her in person, which means that he still hopes that she can go.

"I'll go." Qiu Ci compromised: "But Qiu Jue, I won't give gifts." ”

Qiu Jue smiled and raised her eyebrows slightly: "Okay, it's good for you to come." After he finished speaking, he took out a box from the backpack behind him and handed it over: "This is a cookie made by my sister and me, and I will give it to you." ”

Cookies he and his sister made! Qiu Ci sneered, she would never admit that the daughter born to her father and someone else was her sister's.

Qiu Ci took the biscuits, she really wanted to throw them in the trash like this, but this was also made by her brother, she accepted it: "Go back, I'll pass." ”

After Qiu Jue left, she looked at the biscuit box, and she didn't know what it was like, but she knew that she was very uncomfortable, her heart ached, and her heart hurt so much that she couldn't breathe.

She clutched her chest, her face flushed, and she breathed heavily, as if she was about to suffocate, she knelt on the ground, breathing desperately, and even her vision became a little blurred.

"Excuse me." Wen Ruojin's exclamation stimulated her eardrums, causing her ears to buzz.

Vaguely, she saw Lu Fengbai running out, looking anxious.

When she woke up, Lu Fengbai had been guarding beside her, she sat up, and Lu Fengbai hurriedly walked over to help her up.

"Teacher." Qiu Ci looked at him a little nervously.

Lu Fengbai helped her tuck the corners of the quilt, and said calmly: "The doctor said that you can leave after resting, but you should pay attention to it in the future, and don't be too excited." ”

Qiu Ci nodded.

He got up and went out to pour a cup of hot water for Qiu Ci and handed it over: "Take the medicine." ”

Qiu Ci obediently took the water cup and swallowed the medicine without hesitation: "Follow the doctor's instructions and take the medicine on time." ”

Qiu Ci still nodded obediently.

"Teacher, don't you have to go to class?" Qiu Ci asked in a low voice.

Lu Fengbai looked at her, his eyes were deep, and there was an indescribable emotion that made Qiu Ci dare not look directly.

"No, I'll accompany you, they finish painting and get out of class by themselves."

"That's not good!"

"They'll understand, don't worry." He is always so domineering, so domineering that Qiu Ci can't refuse.

Lu Fengbai sat with her for a while, and then took her out of the hospital.

On the way, Lu Fengbai kept holding her wrist through her clothes, Qiu Ci glanced at Lu Fengbai, his eyes kept looking ahead, as delicate as a sculpture, she looked at her face slightly red, lowered her head and whispered: "The teacher didn't contact my parents." ”

"Nope." Lu Fengbai responded.

Qiu Ci didn't expect him to be able to hear what he said clearly, because even she felt that her voice was really small and ruthless, and there were vehicles coming and going next to her, so she couldn't hear it clearly.

In fact, she didn't know that although Lu Fengbai's eyes were looking elsewhere, his whole mind fell on her, not to mention such a small voice, even if she peeked at herself a few times, how much she blushed, he was clear.

"That's good." Qiu Ci breathed a sigh of relief and patted his chest.

"Why don't you want them to know?" Lu Fengbai looked at her and asked.

Qiu Ci's eyes drooped slightly, and his long eyelashes covered most of the emotions in his eyes: "I don't know if they are my parents or not." ”

"Huh?" Lu Fengbai looked at him suspiciously.

"Dad has his own family, Mom has his own family, I have my dad and Mom, but there is no home, my father's home can't accommodate me, and my mother's home can't accommodate me, so not disturbing their happiness is my greatest filial piety." When Qiu Ci spoke, his voice was choked, and his eyes were slightly red, but he still couldn't bear to pull out a smile that was more ugly than crying at Lu Fengbai.

Lu Fengbai looked at her, but his heart became uncomfortable with her, he thought that everyone in this world deserved to be unhappy, but when he saw Qiu Ci, his heart softened, the unhappy people in this world are the most pitiful.

He couldn't help but feel a little heavier holding her wrist, he looked at Qiu Ci and asked calmly, "Do you want home?" ”

Qiu Ci looked at him and nodded, and then smiled bitterly: "But I don't have a family anymore, and it's just a house." ”

"I'll wait for you, when you grow up, I'll marry you and give you a home, and I will never leave you unless I die." When Lu Fengbai spoke, his tone was very firm, as if he would not waver no matter what happened.

It was the first time Qiu Ci faced such a thing, and the first time she heard that someone was willing to give her a home, and she was suddenly scared of this sudden happiness.

She used to be happy, loved, and was the pearl of her palm, she was born in heaven, but when she got used to this happiness, suddenly one day, God ruthlessly took away her happiness without a trace of hesitation.

From heaven to hell, she has experienced and knows how torturous that pain is, so when happiness comes, she is afraid, she suffers from gains and losses, and makes her afraid to touch what she expects but fears.

Qiu Ci looked at Lu Fengbai, but suddenly smiled: "Teacher." She called.

Lu Fengbai looked at her with a little expectation in her eyes, and she said: "You are a good teacher, whether what you just said is true or not, I am very grateful that you have a moment for my sake, but I am a person who will bring misfortune to others, so you are so good, I don't want you to be unlucky." ”

"Lucky or unfortunate, it's not someone else's story, only I know what it's like, I think I'm very happy and lucky." Lu Fengbai held her wrist tightly.

The strength was too big, Qiu Ci took it away with some pain, Lu Fengbai's body let go of his hand, and Qiu Ci took the opportunity to take it back.

"Teacher, I'm sorry." Qiu Ci lowered his head and ran away from him as if fleeing.

Lu Fengbai looked at her fleeing figure, but her hands were clasped together, and the melancholy in her eyes was like a small fish in the water, which disappeared into the night in an instant and was never seen again.