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"I think you're afraid of yourself, of your past life, and of being afraid that you are in this life and hallucinations of another, more 'real' self. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info"

"Whew......," Miss Patchy summed up the problem simply, and I felt much more relaxed, "You're right. ”

"Mistress Shenqi has been ignoring you," Patchy continued to decipher my thoughts, and since there was not much content, she quickly reacted, "You think it might be to protect you, but Princess Celestia didn't say anything. ”

"Although Princess Celestia is a big person to look up to me, what I say and what I experience is my own, and it is probably difficult for her to fully understand my feelings, or she has not experienced such a scene of entanglement between past and future lives."

"Then again, what do you think is the relationship between Lord Shenqi and you?"

"I don't know, I haven't actually touched the door of this heavy cultivation test."

"Then don't you think it's too early to worry about it now, maybe you won't be able to touch the so-called spiritual test of the mystery of your past life in your life."

"No, I think it's close, it's a girl's instinct."

“……”

The two large balloons under the starlight are extremely close together, but after all, it is not the earth environment, and the distance between the two is impossible to be shoulder to shoulder under the condition of maintaining their own life-sustaining measures, so it is impossible to see each other's faces with their eyes alone, but in such an environment, I feel that it is easier to open my heart, "If I fail to go through the spiritual test and re-enter reincarnation, then it is impossible to go to the underworld prototype with nothing like last time and come back again, which means that I may disappear, Will Patchy be able to get me out of the middle of nowhere by then? ”

It was a few moments before Patsy's voice came from the other side of the Thread of Mana, "I don't know, and I don't want to know. ”

"Well, give me a little hope, that's not what you said last time."

Last ......

"I don't want to have that experience like last time I know, and I don't want to see you cry in tears, hehe, although that kind of Patchy sauce is really rare to see, it's strangely unstoppable."

"Hmph, are you going to be a weird pervert?"

"No, just talk about it, lighten the mood, and don't take it seriously. Back to the topic, my concern is not to deliberately tempt you to express what feelings I want to see, you don't quite understand the situation of cultivators, every self-test in the cultivation is very dangerous, the previous dozen or so Hakurei shrine maidens, almost no one has reached my current height, let alone the achievement of Reimu, the reason is that the self-test caused by the practice of the Hakurei shrine maiden makes them either fail and die early, or their vitality is seriously injured and they can no longer progress and eventually do not live long. ”

"Hakurei Shrine Maiden's cultivation is more dangerous than others?"

"I can't say why, although I don't rely entirely on the non-traditional methods taught by Miss Kanako in my current practice, but I obviously don't have much difference from the previous Hakurei shrine maidens, and I don't know what kind of characteristics other practitioners will have, so I can't compare myself with others, so I can only look at the fate of the former shrine maidens and speculate on the results of my practice."

"No, no, you have seen the achievement of Reimu."

"She's different, she's just the inevitable result of probability, after experiencing so many witches, there will always be one that is particularly easy and smooth to cultivate, and Reimu happens to be that one."

"So you think you're likely to have the same problems as your predecessors?"

"Originally, I wasn't worried, but fate is such an unpredictable thing, the appearance of Lord Shenqi made me have a lot of doubts about myself, this doubt is impossible to eradicate by self-deception, I can only and must face it, otherwise once the test of cultivation comes, I will have no buffer, no resistance, no desire to resist, and die happily, even if I am lucky enough to be a person instead of a plant or a wild animal in the next life, you have a way to find and confirm that person is my reincarnation, But that person is absolutely impossible to be me at this moment at first, even if you guide that person to inherit my wishes, or even my practice, there may not be a chance for me to reappear, it is just to make another guy who has some inexplicable connection with me become a new magician. ”

"......" Patchy was speechless for a moment, "so you're so pessimistic enough to give up?" ”

"I haven't given up on the present, and what I really have to give up is the next life," I said, "Those who return to reincarnation can't control anything, and it's better to cherish the present than to hope for the favor of fate." ”

"That's a good point, so what are you going to do?"

"Let me share the burden of my mind," I said honestly, "and secondly, as I said before, asking for the advice of the Great Magician, but I don't really have much hope for this, and you are not a professional practitioner, and classical philosophy cannot help me." ”

"Well, after the mixing of your words, if you die at this moment, I don't think I can be sad at all."

“……”

"I really can't help with the spiritual test," she continued, "and you also said that the practice is personal, and the spiritual test is to some extent unavoidable, so no one can help. ”

"That's right, so I didn't even plan to seek the help of the Creation God and the former Archon of Civilization," I meant Lady and the Celestial Princess, and as for Xuantu, I had automatically ignored this ancient demon who was also highly cultivated, "Only you are the person I want to talk to in person, even if I can't get advice either." ”

"I should first thank Professor Magtroyd for his trust."

"Uh-huh, of course."

"I have a suggestion though."

"Tell me about it."

"Why don't you give it a try to find Lord Shenqi, she has something to do with your past life, and she herself is an unfathomable person, maybe she has a way to help you."

"Well, I already told you, and she chose to ignore me."

"That's not a reason why you don't take the initiative."

"But I don't think it's pointy to take the initiative, now even if I want to, I can't find her, not to mention her ignorance has shown everything, she may be protecting me in this way, or she may not intend to intervene in my life at all, but in any case, she should have seen through me somewhat with the connection in her previous life, the god of creation, the ancient only god of the past, would not be without this ability."

"Of course, if she hadn't seen through you, she wouldn't have to ignore you, and from your description, you can at least see that Mira-sama's interactions with the people of the moon are normal and well-intentioned, and she is not a big person with a bad personality and intention to embarrass people."

"That's it."