I wandered at the junction of black and white light, a beam of light splitting the world in half. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

I know I'm starting to make old mistakes again, and I'm starting to hesitate again, I don't know which one to choose, and I'm a phobia of terrible choice!

The white side made me feel very relaxed, and I couldn't help but be attracted to it. But I still have a shred of sanity, and what seems easy does not mean that there is no danger, and what seems to be dangerous may be hidden mysteries.

I strode into the black interface, walking in space where I couldn't see my fingers, and the whole world was pressed the mute button.

There was no sound of my footsteps, my breathing, or even my heartbeat.

There was a damp and rotten smell in the air, and I was wrapped in black without leaks, comparable to Belgian dark chocolate. (See, I'm a good person, too, and I'm at least optimistic.) Author: Why didn't I see that? ）。

Every minute in the darkness feels like a long time, and I feel like a year.

Little by little, my memories are degrading, eating away at endless time.

One day, I might not remember anything and become a heartless fool like Madoka.

I was reluctant to talk to myself every day, as if this would slow down the deterioration of my memory.

But it didn't have any obvious effect, only I was constantly deceiving myself.

The rate at which I forgot was not affected at all, and even accelerated at all.

The beautiful and tender boy in the courtyard, the pear blossom stuffed by the mother-in-law next door, the second girl who always secretly gave me candy to eat and then shyly begged me to help her with her homework, the old man who pinched the Tang people at the corner of the street, and the new sister who moved in with a flowing and silky black hair......

All the things that made me happy and happy faded in my mind until they dissipated.

I think it's okay that at least the pain in those memories can be erased, and then I can be a new me.

Just when I was ready to comfort myself, another tricky thing happened: those bad memories have not been washed away, and now they are clearer!

For example, my gambler father and mother, whom I haven't seen a few times since I was a child, my scumbag boyfriend in high school who confessed to me and then ran to hook up with my cousin and was found out by me, and the husky who was carefully raised for three years but lost.

It is said that it is a memory and it will be very clear, but in fact, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a reproduction of the scene. Because I even remember what the scumbag was wearing when he confessed to me was not a school uniform but a green mesh polo shirt, and I remember the fiery red coat that my mother wore on the day she left.

Invisibly, I was pitted by this mysterious thing called 'fate' that can't be more mysterious. I have infinite grief and indignation in my heart, and I can't wait to have a good chat about life with God Rulai Guanyin and other immortals: Is it interesting for me to make your sauce purple pit? Can we still have fun together?

I laughed at myself: "After all, I still don't have this blessing!" “

I thought that after losing my memory, I would become innocent and be happy, just like Madoka.

For the simple and kind girl like Madoka, I like to get close to it from the bottom of my heart, maybe people with different personalities are easier to get along with and can learn from each other's strengths.

She has a lively temperament, and I resisted at first. But her innocent smile was as warm as the sun, and I, who had been immersed in the dark for a long time, couldn't help but be attracted.

Madoka is a happy person! I sighed secretly, but as I got to know her step by step, I realized that she had a broken family, and she was even more unfortunate than me.

I was horrified, thinking that she was good at acting and deceived the people around me, and then I quietly distanced myself from her.

It wasn't until later, when I watched her feed an ugly cat in the park that she couldn't see the color, and then smiled at the stupid cat stupidly, that the haze in my heart was lifted again.

Sometimes I wonder why there are such happy people in the world. Her happiness is not pretentious but happiness from the heart, when will I have this happiness from the heart?

Now that things are moving further and further in the unknown, I have been deprived of even the happiness I have in my memory, and the rest is all misfortune.

I was forced to look at those unfortunate memories, and at first glance I was full of bitterness but helpless. One bad thing can ruin your day's mood, but what if there are many? What if you had endless time?

Watching again and again in exchange for the desolation and loneliness overflowing in my heart.

I saw that 'I' was hit by a car while walking Silly, and then Silly couldn't find it, and suddenly a woman in a red coat touched the top of my hair and told me something, and then turned and left, leaving me with only a back. I screamed at her throat in exchange for a slap in her body, and strode out of my sight.

The messy and illogical fragments of memory were pieced together like broken steps, but these things touched me extraordinarily. I knew it was fake, it was a dream, but I couldn't control myself.

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After watching these horrible heartache memories back and forth over and over again, I was miraculously immune to these things, at least the pain was slowly becoming lighter, or perhaps I was numb.

When I watched the memories three times without any reaction, something I didn't expect happened, and when I thought about it and stopped thinking about those things, the lost memories came back.

Those lost memories are like broken puzzle pieces, and as I become more and more calm, they come back little by little.

I am still moving forward in the black world, but my heart has changed dramatically. So, memories are really a wonderful thing, they exist in the past, they are remembered in the present, and they affect the future.

I smiled, and then, without warning, my body began to descend rapidly, and I had been in the endless darkness for a long time, but I felt that the night was not terrible, but the sudden change was terrible.

I could even feel the wind whistling past my ears and the screams of the crowd after a long absence!

There was a sudden light in front of my eyes, and before I even had time to react, the dazzling light came to my face, and my eyes were shining painfully!