It's an old tradition, on the last day of each month, take stock of the current month and announce the next month's update plan. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Recently, except for the most basic update,The West has basically disappeared.,Whether it's QQ or a forum or something else,You must not be able to find me.。

Why not?

No face.

Anyway, another hour has passed in November, and even if it's a scumbag, it's still painful to look back. Actually, I really like to chat with book friends in PS or somewhere else.,Talking.,Say something from the heart.,Good and bad.,It's a kind of communication.。

The reason why I haven't shown up for a long, long time is because November is really difficult for me.

In just thirty days, it was roughly divided into three phases.

The first stage, which is the week after the 11.1st release.

How to say about the results at the beginning of the shelf, to describe it in one word, it is called unsatisfactory, not good, but it has not fallen below the psychological bottom line, it is acceptable, this is the truth, at that time I felt that the state was okay.

Because after all, it was a little bit worse than psychological expectations, so I thought about taking a week off first, and then adjusting the state, it was time to enter the regular state of five watches, after all, more updates are related to more manuscript fees, in fact, I look forward to more than anyone else, because I will make more money, and you will spend more money if you see more, from the perspective of motivation goals, no one can compare with me......

A week has passed, but Xilai has not been able to complete the planned explosive update.

The reason is more obvious, that is, when this book was written on the shelves, it was about 40w words, and the setting was a bit collapsed, and there were a lot of holes.

Both of these are issues of ability, or not careful enough in writing, not careful enough in planning, in short, it has come to this point, and I am a bit of a dilemma.

So in the second week of November, I entered a difficult writing period, which was not because I was dissatisfied with my grades, but because of the difficulty of writing.

It's actually hard to write about a crumbling crash setting, coupled with a messy and shallow pit.

But I'm still a face-saving person, I always remember the more than 100 debts, there is no speed, what to pay back?

However, the difficulty is difficult, not by my personal subjective will for the transfer, I want to be fast, but not fast at all, this is called the speed is not reached, well, this time the word fit is very perfect.

How difficult is it?

From 11.7th to 11.18th, I was almost all night!

Yes, a 34-year-old man, as if he was back in college games, lasted ten days and all-nighters!

How many words were written?

It's only 6000-8000 per day.

Where has the time gone?

Ponder......

It's also a day dog, often a lot of time during the day, people want to jump off the building, there is no idea at all, and then at night after the child sleeps a cup of coffee, about 23 o'clock, inspiration suddenly appears, and then what...... Let's ......

It's not an exaggeration to say that this kind of writing is deadly, but I'm really gritting my teeth and desperately trying to get out of this predicament, hoping to adjust back to normal.

11.18th,This state continues.,I was fine in the unit that day.,I started thinking about how to transition to the next plot at 8 o'clock in the morning.,Until 22.00 o'clock in the evening.,14 hours.,Zero gain.。 At this time, I have to update it regularly tomorrow morning, and the save is 0.

I don't want to break off, I don't want to.

So I desperately thought of a football transition that didn't match well, solved the problem of Liu Ming's enrollment, and thought about the transition, even if someone said that I was water, I could only admit it, and look back to see if I could pull back the rhythm.

Then everyone saw those three chapters of football.

As a result, the next day 24 hours to follow up the data came out, I was like ashes.

Overnight, the chase evaporated by 30%, from more than 1,500 to more than 1,100, and in one night, more than 400 book lovers who chased books left me.

My heart is like a knife, and I am very sad.

I said to myself: It turns out that they don't like football so much, this part is my pit, I'm sorry everyone, I'll carry this pot.

At the end of the football paragraph, I remember that I also posted a PS, saying that I really can't continue, and I have a problem with my ability, please understand.

It wasn't until the third day that a book friend communicated with me about the recent trend in the book review area, and I knew that it was not football that really exploded, but the handling of Guo Qiaolei, who made a low-level mistake.

In fact, to be reasonable, after two years in the industry, this kind of low-level mistake should not be made, maybe it is really too tired during that time, or too much pressure, and lost the basic sensitivity, so that the mistake will finally ferment and become the core element of the collapse.

By the time I reacted, it seemed too late.

On November 20th, I went out to play with my child, and let the child's mother take her, and I was at the door of the children's library, thinking about a question: should I continue this book.

Now it's a collapse of the setting and a collapse of the mentality, and by the way, the extreme exhaustion brought by the all-nighter for ten consecutive days.

Actually, I wanted to grit my teeth and throw it away, this thought was once so strong, and the angels and demons were constantly at war in my head.

I can't bear these lovely book friends, and hundreds of old readers who came from the last book "Make a Call to the Hero", all the way to the silent support, so that the West has come to this day, and it can be regarded as being able to support my family by writing, I really can't bear this feeling, I feel that if I give up, not to mention whether everyone forgives me, I can't pass that level in my heart.

So, stick with it.

Although this book has been written to everyone's dissatisfaction, I still have the cheekiness to arrange a big battle for the college entrance examination, the main purpose is to reset some settings, so that college is a beginning for Liu Ming, and also a new stage of the book.

From the 20th to the end of the 30th, this is the third stage of November, and I don't lie, I did have a lot of time not to spend on writing in the past ten days, I was resting and emptying myself, because the continuous all-nighter made me physically and mentally unsustainable, and that spelling simply couldn't last long.

The next 12 months followed, don't dare to shout more, or shout a guarantee 3 more, maybe it can't be reached, then it will be included in the arrears. I know more and more, and I hope that I can return to form as soon as possible and pay off my debts as soon as possible.

I don't know what I'm going to write next, I'll do my best, bow here to all the book friends who have read today, I'm sorry for you guys, it's Xilai who didn't do his job, I'm sorry! (To be continued.) )