Yes, there are some words that no one will say in her heart, which really makes her feel uncomfortable. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Especially at the end of the day, she suddenly found that there was still such a dark side of herself hidden in her body, and it was even possible that she had been like that a long time ago.

This kind of inner torment is not much worse than the struggle between life and death, and it doesn't matter if you don't understand it thoroughly, but now when she sees her other self so clearly, Meng Xia can't help but face it.

And in this case, she can't say it to anyone, and she doesn't dare, but only the Three Emperor Brothers, who can always be warm and reassuring, can help her face it together.

Seeing this, Meng Lang really didn't rush to say anything, but silently took Meng Xia's hand, listened carefully, and waited patiently.

He could see that Ah Xia was more serious than ever at the moment, maybe this was already a thorn in her heart, and since she had it, she had to pull it out after all.

"Third brother, do you know, when I first walked into Chu Zhengqian's tent, the smell of blood made me feel nauseous and wanted to vomit, but it didn't take too long, but I was used to that smell. Not only did I no longer feel nauseous, but I felt a special fishy sweet smell, which made my whole person extremely sober and even excited. ”

Meng Xia let Meng Lang hold her hand, looked at Meng Lang very calmly, and said very calmly: "Is this bloodthirsty? To be honest, I was shocked at the time, but I quickly accepted it with great peace of mind. Because, from that time on, I seemed to have seen my own essence thoroughly, and I had already done many despicable things without realizing it. ”

She said little by little, those were all things she had done, and it was only today that she realized that those dark seeds had been planted in her bones.

"Third brother, do you know, today Gu Xi told me that no matter who it is in the future, no matter what it is, he will help me, and he will only help me!"

Meng Xia laughed self-deprecatingly: "Actually, I already knew that he liked me, so I would unconsciously take advantage of his liking for me, slowly win him over, control him, and let him be used by me." And Chu Zhengqian is also ......"

Speaking of this, she paused slightly, but soon, she continued to confess her heart: "Although Chu Zhengqian must have some kind of purpose to take the initiative to approach me at the beginning, I know that after getting along slowly, he also likes me in his heart." So I know this but still get along with him like a friend, just to get such a good help from him in the future. And ......"

"Okay, Asha, don't say it!"

Hearing this, Meng Lang could no longer be silent, and said distressedly: "These are not any faults, even if there is a mistake, it is the fault of the third brother!" It's the third brother who is incompetent, it's the third brother who doesn't have the ability to protect you and avenge you! Otherwise, you don't have to be so aggrieved and so hard! ”

Meng Lang's heart really seemed to be pricked by countless needles, this stupid girl was really stupid, so stupid that she did such a little thing and suffered such a self-blame in her conscience.

"The third brother will always be like this, no matter what I do, no matter what I become, he will only indulge me and protect me!"

Meng Xia couldn't help laughing, but there were tears in his eyes: "I don't know when I became like this. Despicable, shameless, and unscrupulous, not only against their enemies, but even against those innocent people naturally use this set, as long as they feel that it is beneficial to themselves, they will unconsciously begin to calculate. ”

Gu Xi said that he hopes that when he really goes to the battlefield in the future, even if he is a butcher, he must be a sober butcher. But I'm afraid that I haven't really set foot on my own battlefield yet, but I have lost my last sobriety in advance. ”

In the end, Meng Xia's eyes revealed indescribable complexity and pain.

She knows what kind of path she has chosen, and she also knows what kind of price she will have to pay for embarking on such a road, but when one day she really sees herself bit by bit, she becomes a little unable to face it in her heart.

What she is really afraid of is not what she has done, what she is afraid of is that one day she will become unaware of herself, and she will become even the third emperor brother who is calculated by her!

"Silly girl, believe the third brother, it's really nothing."

Meng Lang let out a long sigh, making Meng Xia look at him squarely, and said, "You think too much, in the end, you are still too kind!" In the final analysis, the interaction between people is actually based on interests, and everyone has their own motives and purposes for doing everything, and there are intentional or unintentional uses, but sometimes they are not aware of it. If even you are despicable and unscrupulous, then wouldn't the Three Emperor Brothers become the heinous sinners? ”

Also, no matter what you've done, you've never done any real harm to those innocent people, so you really don't have to blame yourself like that. Even, for them, being used by you may be what they want, and it has nothing to do with what you think. Everyone has a dark side, this is unavoidable, today you are really aware of this, it just means that my Asha has really grown up! ”

Meng Lang stroked Meng Lang's cheek, with a lot of emotion in his heart, and continued: "No one can survive in a spotless world, and the price of growth is like this!" The third brother believes that this hurdle will not be difficult for you, and the third brother believes that we can all be the most sober butchers on any battlefield and protect each other! ”

"Third brother!"

Meng Xia's heart twitched, tears fell involuntarily again, she simply threw herself into Meng Lang's arms, and muttered with indescribable uneasiness: "What I'm really afraid of is not what I do, and I don't care what kind of person I am." What I'm afraid of is that one day in the future, I will become unaware of myself, and even the third brother will be used by me! ”

"Silly girl, with the third brother here, you will never let you not even know yourself!"

Meng Lang hugged Meng Xia tightly, moved and delighted: "Even if there is really such a day, the third brother is still willing to do anything for you." Since the third brother is willing to do it, how can it be regarded as exploitation? Silly girl, don't be embarrassed for yourself, no matter what kind of you are, the third brother will always be by your side, never the same! ”

This stupid girl, so smart and sensitive, but she doesn't understand, there are not many people in this world who are willing to be used and calculated by another person.

Because for them, it is the happiest and happiest thing in the world! (To be continued.) )