When you wake up from a dream, you are confused, regardless of which is a dream or which is true

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After being reborn, the first awakening was probably like this, and my heart palpitations were terrible. I shrunk into the quilt and clutched my still good neck, my heavy eyelids skimming over the illusory floating shadows, and cold sweat on my back broke out layer after layer.

When the sun was up, Daddy came to drive me up with a stick, and the strength that was not heavy or light fell on the buttocks.

Ah, alive!

Wearing the dancing sticks, I threw on my shoes, tore off my coat and hugged my head, and rushed out quickly, all the way to His Majesty's study. When I closed the door, Daddy's anger was too far away to be heard, but the pounding in my chest made my ears hurt, I must have not been subjected to such an unexpected bamboo stick fried meat for a long time, and I was a little uncomfortable. After a slight breath, I looked back and saw the calmly drawn in front of the desk, the sunlight pouring by the window was scattered, and the eyebrows and eyes were exquisite, as if the white jade was flawless.

I gasped like a dog's breathing, and I stood up on the spot and said: "I, I was just kicked by Daddy with a stick, and I panicked for a while and suddenly made a sage, I am to blame for my death, I ......"

His Majesty glanced up at me from the book, his eyebrows were light, he frowned slightly, and threw out two words: "Shut up." ”

I immediately listened and was stunned for a long time, because his previous life had sharpened him for many years, and the heart of King Kong, who had almost become a complete achievement, was broken for a while.

Silently, he turned his back to the corner and carefully picked up his messy clothes.

After confirming that I was fully dressed, I secretly glanced back at the person sitting on it, and made sure that he didn't have anything on hand before whispering: "Your Majesty said yesterday that I would come to you today, yes, is there something wrong?" ”

His Majesty stopped his pen and said lightly: "Well, I want to ask you about rebirth." ”

I let out a long sigh of prodding.

I like the type of concise and concise, and I can't say much nonsense, so I sorted out the wording a little. honestly confessed the fact that he had eaten two steamed buns, drank a bowl of millet porridge, walked through three small alleys, and kicked his legs as soon as he met a eunuch on the morning of his killing. Then she looked at him stunned, waiting for him to say something.

However, His Majesty didn't give me any analysis, and after a moment of silence, he hit the bull's-eye and said, "It turns out that you didn't bring your brains when you went out that day?" ”

I covered my heart, and I felt the sound of clattering and shattering from within.

I was born timid, and last night I had a nightmare that was all about the despair of my dying moment, and I didn't want to mention it again. But he was an older brother, and he was born again together, and I trusted him and relied on him when I was a child. Therefore, he kept his heart-warming posture and was silent for a while, shivered slightly, lowered his head and began to speak softly.

"After I received the edict, I was sent to the capital by my father, and the restaurants I stayed in were all randomly selected, and I didn't notice that there were strange people around me, and there was no vision all the way to the gate of the palace. The man who killed me was the eunuch who led me the way after entering the palace, and I was very curious when I entered the palace for the first time, so I looked at him carefully. He is very straight, there is no smell on his body, his finger bones are very large, and there is a shallow scar from the tiger's mouth to the back of his hand, both in size and temperament, he looks like a more manly person, not much different from the eunuch described by Daddy. I was suspicious at first, but when I entered the palace gate, the man bowed his head, and although I did not see his face, the first two guards at the gate saw it, and did not say anything. I thought I was a hillbilly and had never seen a bold eunuch, so I followed without a squeak. “

His Majesty sighed and spoke again, "Did you see his waist card?" ”

"No, he avoided it intentionally or unintentionally, I didn't see it after a few glances, and I didn't have a good time chasing after it, so I went to see the scenery next to me. I followed him around a palace gate to a long, deserted walkway, and while I was looking back at the scenery behind the door, he suddenly turned his head...... "pause," he was half a head taller than me, and it was not a dagger that was used to cut my throat, but a silver pair of scissors, which was broken into a murder weapon with a sharp outward edge, and gave me a quick knife, and then turned and ran, and I didn't even have time to look back at his face. After the shadow of the knife, the blood flowed quickly, spurting out one after another, and I couldn't cover it, I was very alarmed, and I saw his back around a palace wall, which didn't seem to arouse the suspicion of the guards. What happened after that...... Can't remember. "Because I'm dying.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and shivered again.

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I'm so timid that I'm a little ashamed to say it to people.

Daddy said that when I was six or seven years old, I almost drowned, and Uncle who rescued me kept talking about seeing a pale child tear me off, but he picked me up and tried to save another child, but he didn't see anyone in the water.

I don't know if it's nonsense, anyway, my father saw that something really happened to me, so he was so scared that he invited the mage. The mage jumped up and down pretending to be a ghost, and finally came to the conclusion that I was yin and yang, and it was easy to run into bad things, so I asked my father to find someone to protect me, otherwise sooner or later someone would pull me away.

That's it, my father, who has been picking and picking on his life, gritted his teeth and invited me a personal maid, Ah Hua. She has a very good life, and she can suppress the yang energy of those little ghosts, and she is inseparable from me, and she will sleep together at night.

However, Ah Hua's favorite thing is to talk to me about some strange and ghostly things at night, and some people say that I have experienced it, which makes me tremble even more, and I can sweat in the quilt no matter spring, summer, autumn or winter.

Later, when I was thirteen years old, Ah Hua got married, and I had to sleep alone.

I was frightened, and the more frightened people were, the more scared I became, the more scared I became, for fear that I would see something when I opened my eyes. I used to be afraid that the little ghost would come back to haunt me, but now I am afraid of the person who claimed my life. I imagined that he always had a miserable white face, blue eyes, and in short, he could take my life as soon as he turned around.

Thinking of that person in detail again, I hugged my arms, and a trace of helplessness rose inexplicably in my heart. Only those who have experienced frequent deaths will understand the loneliness and despair of that moment at the end of life.

The two sides were silent for a long time, and the Majesty who was sitting on it suddenly got up and stopped in front of me. The cool fingertips brushed my clean and moist eyes, and the soft touch brought some pity for the first time. He met my eyes faintly, and said like the voice of the nine heavens: "Listen to me in the future, and you will be fine." ”

When he said this, although his expression was not very gentle, under the special effects of my own aura, it became extremely beautiful.

A simple sentence is simply a gold medal for avoiding death, which makes me rekindle my desire to survive. Flattered, I hurriedly smiled and approached his hand that was reaching out to me a little closer.

His majesty narrowed his eyes, but it was rare that he didn't push me away.

But I understand, it's like a reunion after a long absence, no matter how cold a person's temperament is, he will ease up and say a few good words, and after a long time, he will reveal his true form and throw me aside.

After all, His Majesty would never treat me so kindly.

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I've had a good relationship with him since I was a child, at least that's what I think.

At the age of fourteen, before he left home, I always thought he was my real brother. But whatever I have, I will keep half for him. He is not a picky eater, but he can remember his preferences firmly.

But when I was my brother, I was all cold. It's not that he slaps me in the face, but he treats me as air, and generally doesn't pay much attention to me. Whenever I was bored after leaving the school, I ran to his study. It's okay to stay without talking, and if I can say a word or two with him once in a while, I'll be satisfied.

Ah Hua always laughed at me, saying that I was an embarrassing unrequited love for my brother.

I think that's the right thing to say.

My mother died early, and I was only a few months old when I was sick and had no money for medical treatment. Dad was afraid that this kind of thing would happen again, and after becoming a county official, he was so congested that he was busy with money day and night, and then he hired a maid to take care of me, and he went out early and returned late.

Although my brother is a cold type who doesn't care about people, in general, I talk a lot more to him than my father, and I actually rely on him a lot. It's like a dog skin plaster, and I can't wait to stick to him.

I've always been a person who lacks security.

Because he is a "brother", he never minds whether it is unrequited love. Later, I found out that he was not my brother at all. The feeling of sudden realization accompanied by the loss left a deep impression on me for a long time.

There's no reason for him to spoil me, I see.

So after my brother left home, I recalled so many years of shameless nagging, and I didn't dare to contact him again. It was not until many years later that the turbulent government finally settled down and the new emperor ascended the throne. I received an edict, and then I learned that my brother had become emperor, and then he died in such a daze on the way to see him.

And now the situation is a little different, His Majesty said that he would cover me, I don't know if I can expect anything.

For example, those brother and sister family that I dare not hope for, but have always regarded as treasures.

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The news of the rich man's withdrawal of the marriage soon reached my father's ears, and I was fined that day, and I could only eat white tofu for three meals.

The first two bites of the fine white and tender tofu are quite fragrant, but the later they are, the more they look like chewing wax, and it is difficult to swallow.

I finally survived the third meal, lying on the lawn in front of the courtyard and caressing my stomach, thinking that I would have to go to the kitchen tomorrow morning to ask for chicken legs.

Unexpectedly, a fat bird flew low in the sky, and I stared at it, and I couldn't help but feel a little restless. Then there was a fragrance that was almost materialized in the fantasy, and I secretly wailed, holding my stomach in pain and curling up, and then I heard His Majesty's voice faintly and said casually: "It's cool underground, get up." ”

I was in the posture of covering my stomach, and my movements were faithful to the instructions before thinking, and I turned over on the spot for a week, and I got up twice, and naturally responded by the way: "belch"

The moment I stood and looked back, the fat and tempting roast chicken in His Majesty's hand scorched and occupied my field of vision. But it was not in my hands after all, so I had to refrain from sitting there silently, and honestly lowered my eyes.

Seeing that I didn't squeak, His Majesty sat down at the stone table, poured himself a cup of tea, and didn't glance at me: "Are you hungry?" ”

I nodded reservedly, but my voice couldn't contain eagerness, and I whispered, "Hungry." After a meal, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to hear, so he raised a little, "Hungry." After another meal, he sighed uncontrollably, "Hungry." ”

"Yes, let's eat."

The tone of His Majesty's opening was a little similar to when I ate bones for Xiao Wang in the school.

I was overjoyed and happily stepped forward.

He treated me like this, and it seemed that the joy of reunion after a long absence had not yet dissipated. I was anxious about accepting the good that he had waited for once in a thousand years, and my heart was almost sorrowful, but I didn't forget to please me while being excited, and broke off two chicken legs: "Brother, do you want to eat some?" ”

陛xià won't let me call him 陛xià because he's not 陛xià yet. In order to cooperate with the cover-up, I can only call him brother as before.

His Majesty held the scroll in his hand, his ink pupils were as moist as promise, and his eyes touched the greasy, broken roast chicken in my hand, and then moved his eyes to my face.

I was silent, withdrew the paw that was handed out, and hurriedly explained: "I'm sorry, I'm a little excited." Next time, I'll buy it for you next time. ”

I forgot that he was half-grounded and picky.

Eating and eating, people are a little satisfied and empty, their minds are thinking about things in a mess, and when they see that it is about to become a pile of bones, they can't help but murmur unconsciously, "I didn't expect to be reborn once, and I will kill one more living being, a sin, a sin." ”

The corners of His Majesty's lips moved almost inscrutably: "In my previous life, I also came to you with this mutilated creature, but you went out that day. ”

Not? I bit my mouth on the chicken leg and froze, my thoughts turned sharply, and after a short period of chaos, it suddenly dawned on me.

After being reborn, I haven't adapted to the environment, and my brain is so groggy that I almost forgot about it. Today is April 13th, a day that I always remember firmly.

Wasn't that the best day I finally met my first love!