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The city bureau is a very interesting place, across the road, is the old commercial area in the city center, there are high-end hotels and several old shopping malls to support the façade, through these "façade" gathered popularity, and derived a bunch of small commercial streets of different grades, out of the city bureau across the road, is facing the gate of the parking lot by a variety of food stalls around a circle, the more cold winter wax moon day, the more hot the sale, I don't know why the business is so prosperous - probably because this generation of police comrades are particularly greedy. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

A luxury trot that is incompatible with the surrounding environment is parked in the open-air parking lot, and not far from it is a food truck selling octopus balls.

Fei Du gave up after a glance, raised the window again, and chatted with Lu Jia next to him: "After the year-end bonus arrives, it is generally the peak period of resignation, do you have any plans for next year?" Do you want to continue working in me in the future, or do you plan to experience a different life? ”

Luo Wenzhou has been working overtime in the city bureau in the past few days, and it is more convenient to drive his own car when he comes out and in, and Fei Du drives his own car. The driver's seat of the sports car was a little cramped for Lu Jia, and he couldn't stretch his stomach a little, so he leaned back and leaned back: "Mr. Fei, do you think I eat too much and have a large displacement, and I can't afford it?" ”

"Isn't it," Fei Du glanced in the direction of the city bureau, "I still eat soft rice myself." ”

Lu Jia laughed silently for a while, and the early lights came in through the gaps in the unclosed car windows, falling into his slender eyes, and a little pinpoint-like light fell into the corners of his eyes.

Then his smile became lighter and fainter, and after a moment of silence, Lu Jia said: "I heard people say that those who have taken drugs will have the physiological structure of the brain changed by drugs/products - this statement sounds quite terrible, you think, if experience, personality, and upbringing, these are all detachable and detachable software on people, then the brain should definitely be hardware." The brain has changed, which means that you have changed from a 'superbook' to a 'little overlord', and this body is equivalent to being 'borrowed from the corpse' by another soul, even if you have previous memories, you are not the same person before. ”

Fei Du didn't interject and listened very patiently.

"But in fact, sometimes I think that 'trauma' is also a bit similar," Lu Jia's voice changed, unbuckled his seat belt, and stretched his waist slightly, "Trauma can also turn a person into another unrecognizable appearance, sometimes when you look at others and then look in the mirror, you will feel very trance-like, and you will think, how did I become like this?" I don't even know myself anymore. ”

"The pursuits of ordinary people are nothing more than houses, cars, careers, love, status, ideals, busy every day, everyone is full of worries and happy things, annoyed with real feelings, happy to take it seriously, they don't know what 'impermanence' is, they just feel that today is the same as yesterday and tomorrow, and they don't think, 'I am an ant floating in the river on a dead leaf, and I overturn it at every turn.'" ”

Fei Du didn't comment, propped his head and said "um", waiting for him to continue.

"But you're different, if you can't live like this, you're like a hen who scares the bald hairs of a cannonball, and you can't lay eggs anymore—you look at others and feel that these things they are pursuing are all mirrors, and you can't take them seriously, and if you don't say no, you don't have them. You have nightmares, delusions, irritability, anxiety, and nervousness for no reason...... When someone stops you on the street and asks for directions, you think he has some conspiracy, and sometimes you suspect that someone has hidden a murder weapon on their body after seeing someone fumbling around for a long time. ”

Lu Jia's voice became lower and lower.

Loud and noisy voices came from the cracks in the windows, mingling with the man's words, making him seem more and more out of place and lonely.

"Trust in society and the environment is the cornerstone of a sense of security," says Feidu, "and without that, you would be left in a state of long-term stress, which is really painful, even if the trauma has passed......

"I can't get by, this thing will never be over, even if the murderer is caught, 'the one who stares into the abyss, the abyss is also staring at you', I don't know if you feel this way," Lu Jia shook his head, "I sometimes feel like I'm like a psychopath, and life is very boring." ”

Fei Du silently reached out and patted his broad shoulder.

Lu Jia waved his hand: "I especially like to chat with you, although you haven't said a few words since you sat for a long time." ”

"According to the general social etiquette, I should comfort you with two sentences, such as 'Everything will pass, time will one day make you lose your memory and intelligence, and of course it will heal the wound'," Fei Du said this, and heard a car next to him honk twice briefly, he didn't look out the window, he directly picked up the coat next to him and put it on, "It's just that these are nonsense, and I don't bother to say it if you want to hear it." ”

Lu Jia smiled: "Mr. Fei, you are purely discriminating against your appearance, right?" I'm too lazy to say a word, it's all the truth, isn't it a beautiful big girl sitting here, you should pay attention to social etiquette? ”

"It's lucky to be a little simpler, it's not easy to listen to my truth." Fei Du said matter-of-factly, and then he suddenly turned to Lu Jia, "Old Lu, I was too lazy to tell you, but I talked to a beautiful little girl some time ago, and there are a few ready-made sentences, do you listen to them?" ”

Lu Jia, who was discriminated against, made a helpless deaf ear.

"Everyone will be shaped by external things, the environment, the circumstances, the people they like, the people they hate...... Even Lu Guosheng is a person like Lu Guosheng who makes you hate to peel him and cramp him. It is true that murderers will shape a part of your flesh through trauma, whether you want it or not. ”

Lu Jia looked at him stunned.

"Do you know what would happen to me if it were me? I'll cut off the piece of meat, release the bowl of blood, and chop up the deformed bones underneath with an axe and smash them. I am not the one who stares into the abyss, I am the abyss. Fei Du showed him a smile with a little blood, but before that smile could be unfolded, it was shattered by another car horn that caused the scenery, Fei Du shook his head helplessly, turned around and pulled the car door and got out of the car, "What do you urge - help me drive the car away, my parking space is a little tight, if you like it, you can just drive out and relax, Happy New Year." ”

Lu Jia's lips moved, and he saw that Fei Du didn't even confirm the license plate, and directly opened the door of the temporarily parked car next to him. Luo Wenzhou lazily got out of the car, changed to the co-pilot's side, waved at Lu Jia, and the two quickly left.

It's not the first time Luo Wenzhou has lived in the duty room for several days in a row, he used to live there, except for finding someone to feed the cat, he didn't have anything else to worry about, and he didn't feel the same as this time, and he felt that he had slept in the duty room for half his life. When he pressed the first horn, he saw Fei Du start to put on his coat in response, knowing that the other party heard it, but Luo Wenzhou saw that he was wearing a tattered dress for a minute, and he was still talking to the fat man there, and finally couldn't help but press the horn again very unqualifiedly.

Not seen for a day, such as every three autumns - according to this scale, Fei Du rubbed for one minute, which is equivalent to 18.25 hours, which is unbearable!

As soon as he closed the car door, Luo Wenzhou couldn't wait to insult the driver, but considering that the environment was too noisy, there was a fat man with no eyes behind him, he simply endured the impulse, and complained very dissatisfied: "Are you two plotting to subvert the galaxy regime?" What kind of meeting, to talk about it for so long? ”

Fei Du sighed, slapped the steering wheel steadily, kept the speed of not slowing down and got on the main road, and then took out his efforts and took out Luo Wenzhou's salty pig hand that had been stretched under the hem of his clothes: "I'm going to hit the roadside guardrail." ”

Fei Du's face was not obvious, in fact, he was a little overwhelmed in his heart, because the last words Luo Wenzhou said to him were "Fei Du, your uncle", which was really not very sweet, these days big things are connected to small things, no one has time to take care of anyone, at this time he was short of idleness, he felt like he came back to ask for peace after two days of cold war.

Fei Du has grown up to this age, he has played with life and fire, but he has never played the game of "Cold War Reconciliation" with others, and the aura of "I am the abyss" has already sprayed out of the clouds with the exhaust, and he searched his intestines for a moment: "You ......"

Before "you" could come up with a reason, I saw Luo Wenzhou slowly pull back the hand that had just been oiled, sniffed at the tip of his nose for a moment, and then licked his fingers.

Fei Du: "......"

"Hurry up," Luo Wenzhou said meaningfully, "I'm starving." ”

Generally in this context, whether it is an apology or an explanation, it is not a good time, Fei Du closed his mouth knowingly, and stepped on the accelerator with the speed limit.

However, I don't know if his car was driving too smoothly or what, Luo Wenzhou, the god of sleep, actually tilted his head and fell asleep again, a total of not more than ten minutes away, he had finished a nap very efficiently, when he was woken up by Fei Du, Luo Wenzhou slimyly stretched a big lazy waist inherited from Luo Yiguo, buckled Fei Du's arm, rolled the person in his arms as soon as he stretched out his arms, and said vaguely: "Trapped me." ”

Fei Du: "Wake up, go home." ”

"I don't want to move," Luo Wenzhou lay on him and pretended to die for a while, and then he had an idea, I don't know what to think, he pinched his throat and said, "Husband, you carry me up." ”

Fei Du: "......"

Luo Wenzhou didn't say anything for a long time after seeing him stiffen, thinking that the well-informed Mr. Fei was stunned by his shamelessness, and laughed loudly.

I saw Fei Du suddenly buttoned his coat, got out of the car and went around to the other side, opened the car door under Luo Wenzhou's stunned, turned around and half-knelt down: "Come on." ”