'My name is Xu Canhao, the name of this life. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info I haven't laughed or spoken since I was born. I can't laugh because of my past; Because I don't know Korean, and because I don't have anything to say, I don't speak. In this life, I met my 'father', his name is Xu Youzhi. Also, my mother, Luo Bingzhen. Every day I feel like I'm living in an illusory dream, with only panic with me. Fear of everything broken, fear of everything repeated, fear of darkness, fear of boisterousness, fear of sleeping, fear of dreaming, fear of everything. I don't want to reminisce about the past, but they play out in my mind again and again, in my dreams. I tried to get out of it all, to kill myself. I thought about the end, oh, how a 5-year-old child would end this early life. It didn't work out, and I thought about how I came here. I have lived like this for five years, and perhaps, Xu's father and Luo's mother have also moved me: accompany me to play the piano; Take me to the playground like any other family; Singing unintelligible nursery rhymes to sleep with me; Pick up food for me, bathe me, and choose clothes for me that look rustic to me...... I also felt guilty and blamed myself, but the great anxiety and pain immediately eroded it all, and I struggled to grasp it, but I was powerless to resist the reality of my dreams. ’

Wanshan District (also called Wansan District in translation), Xiaozidong (Xiaocidong), Nanjiang Hospital.

Xu Canhao sat on the chair outside the door of the obstetrics and gynecology department, looking at Xu who was nervous walking back and forth... Elder brother. I don't know what to do with this couple who are about my age. Xu Canhao was in a daze aimlessly, thinking of the child who was about to be born, "It doesn't make sense to be a boy, the conditions promised to me have already reached half of them." 'Keeping his eyes on the warning light on the door of the operating room,' sister... How am I going to face you...'.

Not long after, the warning light turned green, and as the door opened, there was a quiet cry of a baby inside.

A nurse wearing a mask hurriedly walked out and said to Xu's father, "It's a girl." Regardless of Dad Xu's excited thanks, he immediately shouted to the duty room in the corridor: "Call Dr. Cui over quickly, the mother is in shock." ”

When Dad Xu heard the nurse's words, his heart went up and down like a roller coaster, making him stand on the spot, unable to react for a while. The warning lights in the operating room turned red again, and several medical staff hurried from outside the hallway. "Wait a minute, doctor! My wife will be fine, she..."Dad Xu grabbed the male doctor who was hurrying by, and asked eagerly with a pleading meaning.

"Sir, sir, please calm down first." The doctor turned around, trying to break free from Father Xu's strong pull, and comforted, "Don't worry, sir." The patient is only in shock for a short time, so please rest assured. Hearing this, Dad Xu slowly let go of the hand holding the male doctor's arm, and the doctor took the opportunity to withdraw it and quickly entered the operating room. Dad Xu looked at the door of the operating room in a daze, muttering to himself, either comforting himself or praying.

Xu Canhao was like an outsider, looking at everything that was happening in front of him, with a wooden expression and empty eyes. But in my heart, I thought, 'It's okay, what I promised, it's all been fulfilled so far, and nothing will happen.'" Xu Canhao kept silently thinking in his heart, and his two hands involuntarily clenched into fists to support his legs. At this moment, he only had the word 'mother' in his heart, not necessarily Xu's mother, nor necessarily his mother in his previous life.

Time passed little by little, and the warning light was always red. Dad Xu sat beside Chan Hao with his head buried, his hands clasped into his hair, his body continued to tremble slightly, and his mouth was still murmuring unconsciously.

Xu Canhao frowned and looked at the nurses coming in and out, and then looked at the man next to him. The younger sister had already been transferred to the nursery room, and the two men didn't have time to take a look, because..."The mother was bleeding heavily, and the patient's family was asked to be psychologically prepared. Faced with the bad news brought by the doctor, both of them were stunned, speechless at each other, and could only pray nervously.

I don't know when Xu Canhao said 'Mom, Mom' in his heart, he unconsciously opened his mouth to scream, although the voice was not loud, but after a long time, it attracted the attention of the man who was already in deep pain around him. "Chan-ho, Chan-ho! Are you talking? The man excitedly grabbed the boy's thin shoulders, shook his body, and kept asking. Mom... It's going to be fine..."A clear and complete sentence came out of the mouth of the son in front of him, and the man instantly rushed to the door of the operating room like a chicken blood, wanting to open the door and rush in to tell his wife that his son had spoken. was held up by the male nurses and doctors on both sides, and still shouted at the door without giving up, hoping that his wife could hear: "Bingzhen, Bingzhen... Our son, he spoke, he called Mommy. You have to hold on, don't you still have to teach Chan Ho to play the piano? I'm going to take you to Jeju Island! Bingzhen, Bingzhen, you must think about two children! By the end of the shout, the man couldn't stop crying. After struggling for a moment, he sat down on the ground, crying the woman's name over and over again.

I don't know how long it took when the warning light turned green again. The male doctor and two nurses pushed the door out and saw the man sitting on the ground, the doctor walked over and patted the man on the shoulder, and said with a smile: "This gentleman and lady are out of danger, but they are still very weak and need to be hospitalized for observation and recuperation." The man raised his head sharply and stood up, but because he had been kneeling on the cold ground for a long time, his feet were numb, and he was about to fall down because he was unbalanced for a moment. Fortunately, he was grabbed by the doctor's arm, so he narrowly avoided falling.

"Sir, please don't get too excited, don't worry, mother and daughter are safe now." The male doctor kindly comforted the man who had experienced a big ups and downs in front of him.

"Thank you, thank you (even salutation)! Thank you, doctor..."The man couldn't control the excitement in his heart, and kept bowing to the doctor to thank him. Seeing that he was fine, the male doctor smiled and beckoned the two nurses to go away.

A week later......

"Son, it's called A~~ Dad, Abba." In the ward, Xu's father tirelessly taught Chan Hao, teasing his son to call him Dad. He was very happy, at least now his son's face was no longer dazed and numb, even if he showed boredom and contempt for himself, he was just as happy to accept it.

"Okay, okay, are you a child? We, Chanhao, are starting to get tired of you. Mother Luo, who was lying on the sick **, looked at her husband with a smile. A sense of happiness that she had never tasted before filled her body violently, looking at the baby in the baby next to the sick**, she felt that the real home should be like this at this moment. "Son, come here, come to Mommy." The woman watched dotingly at the little boy and beckoned to him. I remembered that day I was lying on the operating table, the boundless darkness hit, I cried and struggled inside, watching my husband lead the child farther and farther away from me, and my whole world collapsed. And the son turned around suddenly, called out to his mother, and recalled his senses. Although he has not heard the real voice of his own son. But at that time, she was very sure and decided that it was her son calling for her and did not want her to leave.

Xu Canhao broke free and pulled his pink little hand and kept rubbing his big hand, and walked quickly to the woman's ** head. glanced at Mother Xu, and then pulled the baby** guardrail, staring at the little baby carefully. I can't see if it's like it, children are born the same. If only I could grow up to be a little similar to Xiaoyi. Alas... Let's make this our home, Mom, sister... One more dad who never had. ’

Xu Youzhi stood up and looked at the mother and son in front of him, accompanied by the soft sunlight outside the window sprinkled indoors, making all this seem so warm and beautiful in his eyes. "Hehe, Yingzhi, it seems that we were too worried before. Chan-ho seems to like our little daughter very much! Xu You came straight to the side of the sick **, gently grabbed Xu's mother's hand and said. Mother Xu didn't answer, and looked at her son's back with a smile, wanting to firmly reflect this scene in her memory.

thinks that Xu Canhao's former single mother relied on a subsistence allowance and a small salary to pull her two children to grow up. He didn't want to watch his mother work too hard, so after finishing high school, he gave up continuing to go to college and went to work in other provinces alone. Send tuition fees for my sister, take my sister to the playground, visit parks, shopping malls, there are hardships, but also sweet memories. Thinking about it, Chan Hao, who fell into memory, unconsciously hummed a song, which was his sister's favorite to listen to in the past - "You... up" in a minor key.

“yaobo… (Husband)" accompanied by Xiao Canhao's whispering singing, Mother Jin grabbed Xu's hand tightly and murmured emotionally. Although she didn't know the lyrics, she was deeply moved by the music she had been immersed in music for many years, and she could feel the heavy love and pure encouragement inside. Dad Xu also felt that his eyes were astringent, looking at the eyes, praying in his heart that time could stop at this moment, so that he could enjoy the rich happiness at this moment.

Two months later, Xu's mother was discharged from the hospital, and the family of four returned to the familiar courtyard.

"Brother Youzhi, shouldn't Chan Hao go to school?" At night, Xu's mother snuggled in Xu's father's arms, and the two lay on the ** to discuss family affairs.

"Huh? Chan Ho's temperament... The point is that he is reluctant to speak. Hearing this, Dad Xu couldn't help but say worriedly.

In fact, this wronged our little Canhao, it's not that he doesn't want to speak, but... Embarrassed not to speak Korean. In his previous life, he could communicate in English, Thai, and Japanese, and he was bombarded with a lot of Korean songs, but he could only speak some simple words. And he doesn't want to call his father, but he is still struggling with his father, who he has never met in his previous life, and he hates a man in his life.

"It's not what you think, don't worry, I understand Chan-ho. He needs to reach out to his peers, he needs to communicate. You see he can simply play the piano now, and when I play the piano, I see the look in his eyes, you know? That's the desire, that's the desire to learn, to love! I think our son is really talented in music. Mother Xu said, as if she remembered the minor tune that Canhao was humming in the hospital, her eyes were foggy, and she reminisced for a while. I'll ask Principal Shen, your wife can still give her a little face. ”

"Oh, look at your beauty." Dad Xu chuckled, stroked Mother Xu's hair, and replied.

Mother Xu ignored his words and said in a slightly coquettish tone: "Hmph, I just believe in our Canhao's ability, he will definitely be able to become a great person." His eyes were something I hadn't seen in so long of life, and the story in them made me, a great mother of two, want to try to decipher it. As she spoke, Mother Xu felt her heart tingle.

"Oh? Great... Two children? Wife, or we..."Dad Xu hasn't seen his wife so cute and coquettish and childish for a long time. I couldn't help but turn over and pull the quilt, and I wanted to carry out a great man-making movement.

"Ah~ I'm going to die, you..." Mother Xu put her hands softly against Xu's father's shoulders, making an expression of disobedience. But this is not the slightest lethal in Dad Xu's eyes, it looks more like teasing, especially the rising tone of "Ahhh~" shouted is full of **. pulled the quilt and covered the two of them.

"Wow... Wow..."The baby is crying.

"Hey..."Dad Xu lifted the quilt in annoyance.

"No swearing. Hum... My daughter wants to do bad things while she's still around. Mother Xu took a ruddy face and got out of the quilt. Hurriedly walked to the baby ** and picked up the little daughter, "Oh, oh, our baby is hungry." Mom, this is for you... Ah, what are you doing in a daze, go get a bottle for your daughter! Mother Xu looked at her husband who was still sitting on the ** and looked at her husband stupidly, and couldn't help but say angrily.

"Hehe... Nae (yes), Mama (mother)! Dad Xu sneered and ran forward quickly.

"Wow..."Mother Xu glared at her husband who was playing treasure with amusement.

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