Zhang Ailing has a saying, "If you know me in the past, then you will forgive me now." ”

No one is born with character, and not all of them are acquired.

Shi Yuan could swear that she must not have been such a sensitive and thoughtful character until she was eight years old. By the age of eight, she was content enough to think she was at the center of the universe.

"Mom, can I learn piano?"

"Mom, I want to be a big star in the future."

"Mom, I'm going to be quite a scientist in the future."

"Mom, is it okay for me to go to the police in the future?"

When she brought up the momentary thought in her head, her mother would smile and touch her head with two ponytails and smile lightly, "If you want, do it." ”

In Shi Yuan's childhood, she had too many fantasies, and she would be entangled like most children, whether to go to Tsinghua University or Peking University in the future? She will also watch the Pokémon episode by episode and shout at the end, "We will definitely come back again." ”； She would also hide in her room and play the concubine in "Huanzhu Gege" with a bed sheet, imagining that she would become a butterfly and fly away

But when she was eight years old, she suddenly realized that all the qiē she had was in vain.

She still remembers the first time she entered the door of her uncle's house, she pulled the bag of her schoolbag with both hands, and asked timidly to the uncle who came to greet her at the door, "Uncle, do I need to call you Dad?" ”

As soon as the words came out, Shi Yuan realized that her voice was shaking, and the fact that she had become precocious overnight made her feel scared.

"What's your name Dad, you have a Dad, I'm just helping your Dad take care of you, I've been your uncle all my life."

Listening to the relief of the eldest uncle, Shi Yuan almost cried, but she didn't, even in front of the uncle, because she didn't dare, she was afraid that she would be looked down upon.

In fact, however, she was overly worried.

Most of the TV series are still made up, and the uncles and aunts almost do their best to be good to Shi Yuan, but whatever Shi Xin has, Shi Yuan will not be bad, and even she has better than Shi Xin. But even so, Shi Yuan still lives carefully, she doesn't want to be a burden to anyone, being an orphan has made her sad enough, and it will be even more uncomfortable to label her as a drag.

Fortunately, Shi Rui and Jiang Xin run a small private pharmaceutical factory, and although it is not rich, it is always prosperous.

Of course, if there is no time in the quiet days, the days of the time garden will be a little better.

Two people of the same age will have a lot of comparisons, but because Shi Xin has not been in good health since he was a child, he can't catch up with Shi Yuan in many aspects, such as grades, such as the care of the boys in the class, such as sports; Shi Xin, who had been pressed by Shi Yuan for a long time, naturally felt uncomfortable, so he thought of something else to attract attention.

Shi Xin always said that if you have a great favor for a long time, you will become an enemy, but Shi Yuan and Shi Xin have an enmity not because of the favor of their family.

Shi Xin would twist his favorite dress in front of Shi Yuan, and then tell his uncle and aunt that Shi Yuan made it; The MP4 that Shi Rui bought for the two of them, Shi Yuan's was gone, and Shi Xin would stuff his own into Shi Yuan's clothes and say that she took it; and "accidentally" poured a basin of cold water on her when Shi Yuan came to menstruate.

At that time, Shi Yuan still couldn't understand how Shi Xin, who was so young, could have such vicious thoughts, because he had taken away her parents' love for her?

It wasn't until later that Shi Yuan learned Go, stepped into society, and understood the sophistication of human feelings, so she understood why, she just hated herself, maybe just because she had a face that she hated.

Of course, Shi Rui and Jiang Xin did not get blamed after learning about these things, but Shi Xin was scolded, "Xiao Xin, my sister will hang her dress when she hangs it, buy another one, what are you crying about." ”

"Xiaoxin, my sister just took your MP4 to play, and forgot to tell you, the family doesn't steal anything."

However, when they said this to their faces, they would avoid Shi Yuan behind their backs and secretly say, "Xiao Yuan, this child is also quite pitiful, she has no father and no mother, let alone her, just teach her well in the future." ”

That was the first time Shi Yuan cried after his parents died, this world seems to have always been like this, you don't have parents, so I pity you; You don't have parents, so you'll be forgiven for making mistakes.

However, what Shi Yuan couldn't accept the most was that others said to her, "It's not because you made mistakes, it's because you didn't have your parents to teach you." ”

How pitiful her parents are, after they die, they have to be pulled out from time to time to whip the corpse, and they are pointed at and say, look at the daughter you taught, what kind of broken look is it?

Since then, Shi Yuan has tried her best to be the best she can be in every aspect, and she doesn't want to affect her parents because of her mistakes.

Later, she began to avoid Shi Xin and applied to study in other classes and join the Go interest class after school, so that she didn't have to follow Shi Xin to take her uncle's car home.

And at this time, a man who is second only to her father in her life in influence appears.

"Little girl, you've been back and forth three times on this road, and you don't want to go home?"

"You've been following me? Don't come here, come here again, I'll find the police uncle. Seeing him approaching, Shi Yuan hurriedly took two steps back, almost planting himself in the flower bed on the side of the road.

"Are the current elementary school students as vigilant as you?" He wasn't too tall at that time, but Shi Yuan still needed to look up at him, only to see him looking at her with a smile on his face, and stretched out his hand towards her, "Don't go back any further, if you retreat again, you will really fall." ”

Shi Yuan faintly felt that the brother on the other side was kind, but her super vigilance still allowed her to run home as fast as possible.

Uncle asked Shi Yuan as usual, is there anything interesting today? While eating, Shi Yuan said something about today's school without emotion, but she didn't say anything about the episode after school.

The next day, they unexpectedly reunited, and when Shi Yuan finished the Go interest class, it happened to be when Ji Ran came home from the Youth Palace.

At that time, Ji Ran always held the piano score in his hand, while Shi Yuan never left the chess score.

"Why do you want to learn chess?" Ji Ran and Shi Yuan have gone from the initial one after the other to the current side-by-side for three months, getting closer and closer little by little, and getting to know each other little by little.

"Because it's cheap. To learn the piano, I need to buy a piano, to learn the cello, I need to buy a cello, and other interests require others to invest too much in me, but Go is different, I only need myself. Shi Yuan didn't want to add a burden to other people, although a piano was nothing to the uncle's family, but so what, she was not her daughter after all.

"What about you? Why learn piano? ”

"I've said it many times, I can't be like this, I want to call my brother."

"I'm a wild child with no father or mother, and I can only call people like that." Shi Yuan didn't know where his temperament came from, so he didn't scream, so in the end, he could only compromise with Ji Ran, and touched Shi Yuan's head with a smile.

"Hey, you haven't said why you studied piano?"

Ji Ran was still smiling indulgently, at the age of fifteen, he had already shown a calmness beyond his peers, Ji Ran didn't seem to want to answer Shi Yuan with a very perfunctory answer, he thought about it seriously, and still replied with a light smile, "Maybe it's because I want to meet the expectations in the eyes of others, everyone wants me to do this, then I did it, and the feeling of getting praise is addictive." ”

Shi Yuan listened half-incomprehensibly, and after a long time, so long that Ji Ran had already left Shi Yuan, she would still think of this sentence from time to time, and remembered that someone laughed helplessly and told her, "The feeling of being praised is addictive." ”

Their relationship was suspended when Ji Ran went to high school. No. 4 Middle School is a provincial model middle school, but it is a boarding school with strict management, and only on weekends can Shi Yuan be "lucky" to meet Ji Ran on the road.

How can people have so much luck, and many chance encounters are mostly man-made.

"Waiting for me here again?"

"I didn't." Shi Yuan lowered his head and kicked the stones on the side of the road, looking a little sullen.

"None? Why are you here every Saturday when you don't have classes? ”

"Can't I take a walk?" Shi Yuan had a kind of anger that was caught by others, and in the end, he simply broke the jar and broke it, "Yes, I'm waiting for you, you know I'm waiting for you, and you came back so late, you just did it on purpose." It's going to be dark, and how dangerous it is for my little girl to be here. "In the end, how did you become a scoundrel?

"Okay, I was wrong, a new dessert shop opened at the school gate, and I came back late to buy you something to try, are you still satisfied with this explanation?" Only then did Ji Ran magically take out the beautifully packaged dessert from his bag.

Shi Yuan doesn't like sweets like most girls, but when she saw Ji Ran's expectant eyes, she changed her heart and became happy for a moment, and she still ate it with joy.

Ji Ran pushed the mountain bike, and the two of them walked side by side, one big and one small figure silent in the reflection of the setting sun.

"Xiao Yuan—"

"Ji Ran—"

The two of them spoke at the same time, looked at each other, and both smiled.

"Would you like me to change bikes?" Ji Ran saw that Shi Yuan had no words for a long time, so he decided to speak first. He's on a mountain bike now, and he can't carry people.

Shi Yuan is also much more precocious than children of the same age, and he has long understood that he has extraordinary feelings for Ji Ran, so he can understand it when he hears it, but he still says, "You decide your own affairs." ”

"Ji Ran-" It's been a few years, and Shi Yuan still can't learn to call his brother. "Do you think I'm going to continue learning Go? If I continue to study, I want to go professionally, and the teacher said that I am very talented and hardworking, and I get a lot of happiness in Go that I didn't feel, so-"

"Don't ask me, you've already made a decision. Do whatever you want. ”

- Do whatever you want.

After many years, Shi Yuan heard this sentence again, and almost in an instant, she was already in tears.

And this sentence became a source of courage for her for a long time to come.