He heard Lin Qinghang say that there are maids who cook and do housework at home, but they stay in their rooms when they are not doing things, so they are only willing to sit at the table with Xiao Douding.

I'm willing to sigh that the dishes are good and feel like a waste at the same time. Xiao Douding sat down steadily and began to eat, stuffing his mouth full at the same time not forgetting to take care of Le, stretched out his little fat arm to pick up vegetables for him, his mouth was oily and slippery, and his eyes were smiling brightly.

Lin You's hazy eyebrows are a bit like Lin Qinghang, but they are much rounder, not as cold as Lin Qinghang, his skin is white and delicate, and after he went home, he took off his school uniform and changed into a beige thin sweater, which made him very well-behaved and cute.

I like Lin and Hazy very much, he always has a little drum in his heart when he gets along with other people, even if he knows that they don't doubt him, he still feels weak, but he is completely lax with Xiaodouding.

And the little guy looks very cute, most of the five-year-old children haven't grown up yet, Lin and Hazy are already beautiful, it's the kind of beautiful that will make people want to reach out and hug it if they play dirty in the mud, Lin and Hazy are almost crazy people's love, and this kind of thing has always had a relationship, and Leyi has only met him a few times and already hurt him from the bottom of his heart.

When Lin Qinghang came back, the two of them were still at the dinner table, and they were both puffing out their mouths to eat in a harmonious manner, and Xiao Douding was gesturing with his hands while eating, as if he was talking about things in school to Leyi. Lin Qinghang went over and patted the little guy's head, "Don't talk when eating, it's rude." ”

Lin Youhao turned his head and glanced at Lin Qinghang in a daze, "Dad, you're so early today!" ”

"Didn't you say busy?" Happy to be a little surprised that Lin Qinghang came back so early, Lin Qinghang looked calm, "I'll be back when I'm done." ”

He was indeed a little busy today, a little busy in the company, and he pushed off the dinner he had made with Xiao Luo. However, the work was completed faster than he had planned, but he did not contact Xiao Luo and went home directly.

Lin Qinghang sat next to Leyi and asked willingly, "Have you eaten?" ”

"Nope."

"I'll help you Sheng."

Lin Hehao came over and crawled on top of him, Lin Qinghang dragged him down, "Are you full?" ”

Xiao Douding nodded hesitantly, and climbed onto his lap with perseverance, Lin Qinghang didn't stop him this time, and leaned into his ear from his oily little mouth, "I gave Lele a big baby!" ”

"What is it this time? What did you pick up again? Lin Qinghang was helpless, Xiaodouding brought something home every once in a while, always said that it was a baby, and he brought a stone before saying that it could grow a small goldfish by soaking in water, but it turned out that the hair did not grow after soaking for half a month, and he cried to death or live, and he didn't know what it was this time.

"I didn't pick it up this time! It was Yang Mufang who sold it to me! Xiao Douding's tone was proud, "When you have eaten, I will take you to see it!" But I've already given it to Lele, don't rob it with Lele. ”

Lin Qinghang couldn't cry or laugh, and glanced at the willingness to watch the play next to him, the man held the rice bowl and pretended not to hear, but the smiling eyes revealed him, Lin Qinghang had to pat the little guy's buttocks, "Okay." ”

watched Lin Qinghang eat dinner, Xiao Douding pulled him to the happy room, Lin Qinghang looked at the eggshell on the ground that was as tall as his calf, and had already guessed what was going on.

After listening to Xiao Douding's logical and confusing introduction with a blank face, Lin Qinghang grabbed Xiao Bu and threw him into the bathroom to take a bath.

"Actually, it's pretty cute." Happy to say with a smile.

"You say this egg, or that little thing?"

"Both, cute." Leyi hugged the eggshell in front of him, "I like it." ”

The huge white eggshell leaned back slightly, looking clumsy and cute, Lin Qinghang laughed, "Don't you really need me to accompany you tomorrow?" ”

"No, you don't." Willing to shake his head. He didn't know what kind of mood he would feel when he saw the tomb, Lin Qinghang would have to take care of him if he accompanied him, and besides, he really wanted to be alone and quiet.

Lin Qinghang wanted to say something, after taking a shower and changing into pajamas, the fragrant little bean shook again, holding Leyi, "I want to sleep with Lele." ”

"Lin and Hao, you're 5 years old, you should sleep by yourself." Xiao Douding is never soft on kissing and hugging, these actions are particularly dazzling in Lin Qinghang's eyes, his heart is unhappy, and his tone is heavier.

"But Dad is so old, and he sleeps with Lele." Lin and Hazy looked up aggrievedly and looked at Leyi, willing to pick him up, "Together, sleep." ”

Lin Qinghang was a little depressed in his heart, and for the first time, he felt that Lin Hehao was so disgusting.

was willing to repeatedly say that he wanted to go alone, but Lin Qinghang was not reluctant, and sent Uncle Li to send him to Nanshan Cemetery.

The cemetery is in the suburbs, and he was happy to go in the afternoon, but just in time for a drizzle, he opened the car window, and the slanting wind carried the drizzle to his face, which made his heart feel stunned.

Suddenly I thought of watching cartoons when I was a child, all the children in the orphanage sat in front of the TV with a small bench and waited for Maruko, there was an episode of Maruko fantasizing about the end of the world, and she was the only one left in the whole world, and there was no answer to calls everywhere, he dragged his chin and thought, what a pitiful thing.

It's a pity to live alone in the world.

The mood now inexplicably overlaps with that time.

When he arrived at the cemetery, he was willing not to let Uncle Li accompany him, he held an umbrella alone, and went up the mountain with a bunch of stars in his hand.

Climbing up the stairs, I don't know if there are too many things in his heart, he didn't long climb before he felt that his steps were very heavy, so he had to take a break first.

There were very few people in the cemetery, and he didn't see anyone after walking for a long time, he wore a white shirt, cropped pants stuck at his ankles, and it was on the mountain on a rainy day, and the air was cool and cold, and he went straight to his heart and lungs along the respiratory tract.

He is a bit of a superstitious person, and in the past, the dean's mother-in-law also liked to tell them some ghost and god legends on cool summer nights, and he was happy to be one of the little furry children who wanted to continue listening while covering their ears and screaming in fright, but now, his heart was transparent and there was no fear.

Lin Qinghang didn't tell him the specific location, he looked for a while before he found his tombstone, which was very simple engraved with his name, date of birth, date of death, and a few bouquets of flowers in front of the tomb that were already a little dying, and put what he brought next to him, happy to feel a little ironic.

How many people can sweep their own graves?

Leyi looked at the photo of himself on the tombstone blankly, no matter how many times he sued himself, he was reborn with Chen Leyi's body, but his name was clearly engraved on the tombstone, reminding him that his life that belonged to Leyi had come to an end, and there would be no more Leyi in this world.

The evaluation of him from other people's mouths, even if he praises his efforts, he must add a premise that he is a bitter child, lonely and poor, and has no branches to rely on. Many children who are about the same age as him in the orphanage, and later they all went down the wrong path, gangsters and thieves, most of them ended up like this, and they were not so strong that they were always sunny and harmless, and he also had moments of despair and extremes, writing down the reasons for living in the notebook, the reasons for dying, and finally leaving only a full page of paper: live.

I want to always remember the boy with red eyes and a black pen to slash out the reason for his death, as if every stroke was exhausting his life's strength, and he hated to expel the pain as well.

Even if it is such a bad life, he doesn't want to waste it, unwillingly, unconvinced, he chooses to look at the good side, chooses to face the difficulties of life, chooses, smiles alone, and stands tall.

It's just that all the qiē, the good, the bad, the dark, the light, have become pale numbers on the tombstone, recording his life, leaving a full stop that is not very regrettable.

He imagined countless times that if he hadn't saved Chen Leyi at the beginning, then he should still have lived a simple life, although it was bumpy but he would not be knocked down, but now he was reborn, no matter how many entanglements he had in his heart before, and even if he couldn't enjoy the happiness that belonged to Chen Leyi with peace of mind, but he had been reborn, he was grateful to God for giving him the opportunity to be reborn, so that he could experience another life, and the past was broken if he didn't want to break it, he must grasp this opportunity that was almost a miracle, and still have that kind of belief, seriously, and hard.

Stay alive.

He was willing to stay in the cemetery for a long time, and when he went down the mountain, it rained a lot, and the umbrella was not used at all, he was soaked, and he was going to go to the place where he hid the cart before, but he kept sneezing when he got into the car, and Uncle Li said that he would send him back.

Uncle Li is the driver of the Lin family, he is quite old, and Lin Qinghang was also picked up by him when he was a child, so he trusts him very much. He didn't talk much, but he was very kind, and he was determined to send him home because he was frighteningly white and sneezed.

The car entered the yard, and the rain was much lighter. The Lin family villa has a small yard, a pond is built in the middle, and the rest is divided into several pieces of flowers and grasses, which is very charming.

It was an early summer evening, it had rained, the air seemed to have turned aqua blue, the aroma of plants and trees was refreshing, and when I was willing to get out of the car, I saw Lin Qinghang and Lin Hehao squatting in the corner with their backs to him, Lin Hehao's little milk voice muttered a few words from time to time, and was covered by the sound of small insects.

He walked over and saw Lin Qinghang rolling up his sleeves, holding a shovel in his hand, filling the eggshell with soil, neither of them noticed him, Xiao Douding was still muttering, his voice was glutinous, with a nasal voice, "If you change the soil, you can grow flowers?" ”

"Hmm."

"How long is that? A day? ”

"Not for a day, but for a month."

"So long."

A serious nonsense made Leyi laugh out loud, Lin Yu turned around, saw that it was him, pouted, his eyes were red and he was willing to pick him up, and asked Lin Qinghang, "Crying?" ”

"Well," Lin Qinghang stood up, "said that he told him at the same table that flowers would grow in one day, but when he went home today, he found that they didn't grow, and he rolled on the ground several times." ”

Willing to burst into laughter, Xiao Douding looked at him stupidly and laughed with him, Lin Qinghang glared at him, willing to try to hold back his laughter, Lin Qinghang found that his face was different, white and tired, his clothes were not dry, frowned, and put his hand on his forehead, "It's raining?" ”