N@5. Reason, a word written to the father
The little girl who was shouted by Li Shenglong finally turned to look at Li Shenglong under the frightened gaze of a group of girls.
With a height of more than 1.4 meters, shoulder-length smooth black hair, sparse barely visible eyebrows, big eyes, a delicate and cute little face full of fleshy baby fat, and milk-like white skin, this is Lee Sung-ryong's little sister, Kim Taeyeon.
In 01, she came here with a standard Korean square-faced uncle, enrolled in a music initiation class, and then began her musical journey.
Kim Taeyeon has a talent for singing, which is jointly certified by Lee Sung-ryong and his teacher, Jung Soon-won.
At that time, Mr. Jung Soon-won also happily said that Kim Tae-yeon was one of his most satisfied students besides Lee Sung-ryong, which gave Kim Tae-yeon great confidence in music.
Later, in a few years of study, Kim Taeyeon showed an amazing talent that others did not have, and it was really as Mr. Jung Soon-won said.
While other students were still proficient in opening their mouths and practicing breathing, this chick was already able to use it skillfully and try to imitate the singing voice of her predecessors.
In the field of music, Kim Taeyeon is always one step ahead of his peers, which makes Mr. Jung Soon-won very satisfied, and later decided to accept Kim Taeyeon as his second disciple, and the first disciple is naturally Lee Sung-ryong.
Teacher Jung Soon-won's recognition made Kim Tae-yeon full of confidence, and then did something eye-popping and challenged Lee Sung-ryong.
Originally, Teacher Zheng Chunyuan was a little disapproves, but later saw that Li Shenglong agreed at once, and gave him a look and asked him not to stop him, Zheng Chunyuan let the two of them go.
There was no surprise in the competition, Kim Taeyeon was defeated, and was greatly shocked by Lee Sung-ryong's high voice and long-lasting dolphin sound.
Kim Tae-yeon expressed her indignation at Lee Sung-ryong's shameless bullying of children, and later complained to the teacher.
Teacher Zheng Chunyuan not only did not punish Li Shenglong, but even praised Li Shenglong's singing skills.
Later, I explained to Kim Taeyeon that it turned out that since Kim Taeyeon studied music, it was too smooth, too flat, and even some were proud and complacent, and their confidence was inflated, thinking that they were already very powerful.
After hearing this, Kim Taeyeon realized her mistake, and then sincerely said that she would not make the same mistake again in the future, and she would continue to study modestly and pragmatically.
The matter is revealed, but Kim Taeyeon inexplicably dislikes Lee Sung-ryong, although Lee Sung-ryong's original idea was out of good intentions, but Kim Tae-yeon is inexplicably annoying, just like a child, some things are always fighting with Lee Sung-ryong, as if he regards Lee Sung-ryong as a competitor, and always works against him.
However, Lee Sung-ryong is all kinds of willing, and he feels that what Kim Taeyeon is doing is like a sister competing with her brother for favor, which is a wonderful feeling.
Since he was a child, he has lacked maternal love and warmth since he was a child, and there are not many friends, although his father gave him a strong father's love, but his father's love is deep, so he created Li Shenglong's not cheerful character, coupled with his father's practice of martial arts since he was a child, learning all kinds of knowledge, his character has become tough and precocious, and he has been smart since he was a child, far smarter than his peers, so that many children have a comparative inferiority complex, and he is unwilling to be friends with Li Shenglong, and the precocious Li Shenglong also disdains to catch up. So in the end, this guy's personality becomes tough, self-reliant, and arrogant.
Later, Li's father Li Zaitian saw that his son had no way to become this kind of character, and he heard that music can change a person's mind, so he simply sent Li Shenglong here to study music when Li Shenglong was 20 years old, not that Li's father didn't want to send him to a big company, he just wanted Li Shenglong's personality to be changed, not to send him to be a star artist who has no status, so he had to send Li Shenglong to Zheng Chunyuan, after all, Zheng Chunyuan is a very famous and powerful singer, and he has won a lot of awards.
Later, after a period of study that did not affect the academic time, Li's father found that Li Shenglong's personality began to change, changing in a good direction, and when he was satisfied, he gave up.
Father Li, who focuses on his career, never found out that Li Shenglong set off in the direction of a professional singer, and it was not until after several years of study that Li Shenglong went home and found his father and said that he wanted to debut as an artist, and Father Li found that things had come to this point.
He knows his son's character, although he has changed after studying music over the years and has become a little more outgoing and outgoing, he is still stubborn and arrogant in his heart, and it is almost impossible to twist him back in what he decides, just like his own military character.
The father and son didn't speak that night, and after each expressed his meaning, he confronted each other in the study all night, until the sky turned white, Li Zaitian remembered the child's mother's dying words, and couldn't help but feel a little guilty about Li Shenglong's neglect over the years, and finally sighed, completely let go of Li Shenglong, as long as he likes it, let him be, it should be the compensation for all these years.
Li Shenglong, who had finally won the all-night struggle, breathed a sigh of relief, and a charming smile hung on his face, a smile that came completely from the heart.
Seeing the child laughing so happily and brightly for the first time since he was a child, Li Zaitian's eyes were moist, and he waved Li Shenglong out of the study, looking at the only photo of the husband and wife on the desk, the photo on the marriage certificate, he was silent for a long time, turned his back and wiped away the tears from his eyes with his sleeves, and didn't even want his wife in the photo to see it, but he turned his back and didn't see Li Shenglong peeking out of the door with coffee outside the door.
Watching his father cry secretly in the study, Li Shenglong felt the feeling of heartache for the first time, this feeling was more convulsive than not being able to breathe, and it was a little heavier than the pain caused by being cursed at school for not having a mother, a single dog, etc., like carving a dull knife into his heart.
It turned out that over the years, he himself always complained that his father couldn't give him family warmth, but now he realized that he had never cared about his father, never let his father enjoy a little family fun, and always felt that what his father did for him was taken for granted, just like paying off debts.
Suddenly, remembering the confrontation with his father last night, it must have made his father very sad, Li Shenglong felt that he was very unfilial.
The heavy mood made Li Shenglong feel unpleasant in his throat, but when the words came to his mouth, he looked at his father's bent back, and was speechless again.
Holding back tears and turning away, he didn't want to stop here for a moment to look at his father's back, he couldn't let his heart continue to hurt.
He had a lot to say to his father, a lot of things he couldn't say, words that were not easily spoken between men and men.
He was going to write them down, make them into a song, and give them to his father.
Li Shenglong locked himself in his room all day, did not eat or sleep, and kept writing and drawing on the blank paper like a madman, writing a few times, no, crumpling it into a ball and throwing it away, and then pulling out a blank piece of paper and continuing to write, no more, then rubbing and throwing again, and so on and so forth.
A day and a night passed, Li Shenglong, who finally couldn't get through, fell asleep on the table, the ground was full of crumpled paper balls, and the blank paper was used up, he directly tore off the pages of some books to act, until the bedroom of more than 100 square meters was thrown full of more than 80 square meters, until his eyes were red and swollen and painful while crying while writing, until the fluctuating spirit could no longer bear it and fell asleep.
Li's father, Li Zaitian, who came back from overtime in the company, saw that his son's car was parked in that position for a day and a night, and he had not been dispatched, and he was very curious, didn't he say that he wanted to be an artist? Don't you have to practice?
Why did Father Li know that he hadn't gone out? Because it had rained heavily at noon, and there were no mud marks left by the vehicles in the garage.
When Li's father returned to the house, the lights were not turned on, there was no trace of cooking in the kitchen, and there were no take-out boxes in the kitchen waste bucket.
'Haven't you eaten all day?' ’
With doubts about his son's nest all day, and with the blame for his son not taking care of himself, Li's father went up to the second floor, came to his son's bedroom, knocked on the door, and did not respond to the half-ring.
Knock again, but no one responded for a long time, and Father Li pushed the door straight in.
There was a crumpled ball of waste paper, and his son was lying on the table and falling asleep, walking over, looking at his son even if he was asleep, he was holding the pen and writing, and curiously picked it up and looked at it.
'Daddy, I love you......'
'I'm sorry Abba......'
'Selfish me, it hurts you...'
'Always take it for granted......
'Now that I'm older, I know your pain......'
'Seeing you cry quietly......
Father Li looked at the lyrics that Li Shenglong scribbled on the paper, and the strong heart of the shopping mall over the years was instantly softened by these sentences and lyrics on the paper.
Tears flooded Li's eyes again, put down the paper in his hand, looked at the waste paper balls around him, picked them up one by one, spread them out, looked at each different lyrics on the paper, and dropped tears on it, and then stacked them together and put them on the table, and then picked up other waste paper balls, and the cycle began again and again, until Father Li picked up all the waste paper balls in the room, looked at them, and let his tears stain the handwriting before stacking them on the desk.
looked at Li Shenglong lying on the desk, his eyes were red and swollen, and he raised his slightly trembling hand to caress Li Shenglong's head.
This is my son, good son! ’
Brushing aside the bangs, he gently touched Li Shenglong's red and swollen lying silkworm with his thumb, which had left calluses on the fields, and wiped away the faint tears.
'It turns out that his son is already so handsome? Father Li looked at Li Shenglong's sunny face with emotion.
After wiping away the tears, cleaning up the mood, and making himself look like usual, he pushed Li Shenglong who was sleeping.
No response?
Pushed it again, but it didn't respond either?
Wrong!
Father Li frowned slightly, and reached for Li Shenglong's nose, his snort was still there, touching his neck, and his pulse was still there, but why didn't he wake up?
Inevitably there were many dreams at night, and something bad happened, Father Li helped up Li Shenglong's body, turned around and squatted down, and carried Li Shenglong directly on his back with his hand, and stood up as soon as he stood up, but he didn't expect to take two steps back.
Feeling the weight and pressure of Li Shenglong, Li's father shook his head slightly, although he has always practiced the simple internal skills of the family, but since he moved to Seoul, he has been busy with work and has not continued physical training.
entrusted Li Shenglong, 58-year-old Li's father carried 23-year-old Li Shenglong on his back and walked downstairs with heavy steps.