The treatment of serious diseases is always a tragic battle between human beings and their own genetic defects.

Victory is always difficult, and sometimes it is inevitable to fall into the helpless situation of tearing down the east wall and making up the west wall.

After being admitted to the hospital, Hua Wan carefully followed the doctor's instructions and used blood transfusion therapy to alleviate the symptoms, but with the overload of iron in the body, he began to carry out iron removal therapy, coupled with the side effects of various auxiliary drugs and strange complications, the girl was tortured to the bone like firewood, and every day on the hospital bed limbs weakly waiting for new test results, for fear that it would turn into leukemia without cure.

Fortunately, this girl is optimistic and cheerful by nature, not only did she not languish because of this, but became the happiest existence in the blood ward.

Looking at her smiling face many times, Wang Wen felt that all this was just a nightmare.

But the diagnosis in black and white cannot deceive people, MDS has three types of transfer - improvement, lingering, and deterioration, and she seems to have fallen into a second kind of long hell, but she is always on the verge of danger.

From summer to winter, the long legs stayed in the hospital for half a year in a blink of an eye.

"What if I die?"

"I heard that there was a person in the neighborhood next door who also had this disease several years ago, and it didn't take long for him to die."

"Otherwise, let's have a bone marrow transplant, but everyone in the family has tested it, and there is no ...... worthy of the type"

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At first, these thoughts appeared frequently, but after the days of illness passed for too long, it was inevitable that the feeling would become numb.

One afternoon, Hua Wan stayed alone in the ward with two other patients, and couldn't help but miss Lan Jiashu in the United States.

After the separation, there was no contact, and I don't know how he is doing now or how he is doing.

She even began to regret her previous decision to ruthlessly block all his social accounts.

But how can there be regret medicine in the world?

Even if she had, she didn't deserve it.

Holding the mobile phone for a while, Hua Wan mustered up the courage to steal a lot of photos from the space of her former model friend, and used it to re-register a WeChat account to disguise herself as a beauty, and then applied for Lan Jiashu's friend.

At this time, the United States should have passed in silence in the middle of the night, and after a while, the little tree passed silently.

Hua Wan couldn't wait to click on his circle of friends, for fear of seeing sour traces of his new girlfriend and foreign girls, and worried that this silly boy would still miss him.

With a tangled mood, she found that Lan Jiashu was still that upright little straight man, except for a few boring photos of the laboratory and often reprinting some inexplicable science and technology news, there was no other content, and he looked very hard-working.

There are not a few pieces of content in the circle of friends for most of the year, and they were quickly flipped.

No matter what the previous record was, it was still late except for the late flower.

Looking at the happy self who had no worries on the screen, Hua Wan felt a lot of emotion in her heart, and she didn't understand why he didn't delete it, but she was also very sad.

Whenever she is tortured by pain, she really wishes that Xiaoshu will abandon the past ruthlessly, so that she can have no worries.

When he was lying on the hospital bed in a daze, Lan Jiashu's message suddenly came: "Who? ”

Hua Wan thought about it and replied: "Handsome guy, let's chat." ”

But Lan Jiashu has always been very clean, and probably didn't care about the photos of beautiful women that Hua Wan deliberately stole from her, which made her news sink into the sea in an instant.

Hua Wan couldn't help but owe again: "Who is that stupid big guy in your circle of friends?" ”

"You're stupid, aren't you? Brain-dead. After Lan Jiashu scolded rudely like this, he blocked her.

Hua Wan hugged the pillow and laughed, smiling and smiling and very sad, even the curvature of the corners of her mouth looked bitter.

Fortunately, Lori in the next bed attracted her attention: "Sister, what are you doing?" ”

"Didn't do it, what's wrong?" Turn off the phone screen at a late date.

"Look at the little white rabbit I drew." Lori held up a piece of sketch paper.

What stands out more than the childish paintings on paper is the ever-present needle and white tape on the back of her hand.

Don't look at Lori's young age, she has been hospitalized for more than a year, and her leukemia is in the advanced stage, basically in the stage of waiting for death.

"Gee, that's good." Hua Wan felt very sorry for her, so she struggled to get up, sat down and said with a smile: "How about I teach you to draw individual ones again?" ”

"I want to draw princesses." Lori said happily.

"Then you kiss me." Hua Wan grinned.

The two of them were playing, and Wang Wen brought the fruit into the ward.

"Hello grandma." Little Lori greeted warmly.

"Hey, hello, hello." Wang Wen smiled.

"Mom, what are you doing again on such a cold day, didn't you say I wouldn't call you here?" Hua Wan got up and worried: "Stay at home." ”

"I don't have anything to do after I retire, my daughter is here for treatment, who will come if I don't come?" Wang Wen replied.

Hua Wan looked at the rapidly turning gray hair on her mother's head, and didn't dare to express any uneasiness in her heart easily, so she could only reply with a smirk: "I think I'm almost fine." ”

Wang Wen shook her head helplessly: "You can coax me." ”

At this moment, the little Lori lying next to Hua Wan suddenly shrank into a ball, and her whole body kept shaking.

Wang Wen first noticed the abnormality and was anxious: "This child, this ...... Doctor, doctor! ”

"Sister, what's wrong with you?" Hua Wan was also scared half to death, holding her but not daring to touch it.

In less than two minutes, the doctors and nurses hurriedly came, and after a check and toss, they picked up the little Lori on the cart again and hurriedly pulled it away.

Another patient who was watching sighed: "It seems that she is not good either." ”

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Although the four things of birth, old age, sickness and death are the normal feelings of people in this world, accepting death is not such a simple process.

The little Lori in the next bed has been rescued many times on and off, and this time, it is also the last time.

Hua Wan sat on the bed with her mother, watching her family come with tears streaming down her face, and crying and rushing away, the ups and downs in her heart are really difficult to describe in words.

Although she was also scared in her heart, Hua Wan still habitually played the role of comforting: "Mom, don't go back and think about it, my little sister and I don't have the same disease." ”

"Now, I'm just trying my best to treat you, and none of us can decide anything else." Wang Wen said with tears in her eyes: "Director Wang told me that as long as you persist and your condition is stable in the spring, you can be discharged from the hospital, even if you can't recover, you can try to live a normal life." ”

"Hmm." Hua Wan leaned on her and hugged her mother hard: "I'll do my best." ”

"Do another full check-up in a few days." Wang Wen and her wife spent almost all their life savings on their daughter, but they had no regrets: "You have been anemic since you were a teenager, I thought that today's children are all like this, and I didn't pay much attention to it, and I blamed me for being too careless." ”

"No, I did it all myself." Hua Wan has been ill for a long time, and has already understood that MDS cannot be cured by medicine, maybe she will suddenly deteriorate and die, maybe she will live in such a terrified way for another one or two decades, day by day, maybe she will be lucky enough to receive a transplant and have a completely healthy ...... In short, all the results are beyond human control, and she can't do anything but be strong.

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Midnight dreamed back, and the long legs inevitably dreamed of the little Lori who had just passed away.

In the dream, she pestered herself to paint, but as soon as she spread out the drawing paper, her body disappeared.

It wasn't until the inexplicable voice became clearer and clearer that her thoughts were pulled back to reality.

Hua Wan opened her eyes and burst into tears.

I don't know if I'm crying for little Lori, or crying for myself.

The voice still kept ringing, coming from the mobile phone that Hua Wan put on the pillow and vibrate.

She picked it up and saw the word "little tree" on the screen, of course she didn't pick it up, but just turned it to mute.

Since Lan Jiashu went to the United States, he has been calling from time to time.

Sometimes every other day, sometimes every week, not too often, but very persistent.

Although the long legs have never been picked up, there are no plans to change the number.

Because this is the only thing she has left in this world, the connection with the little tree.

Thinking of the object of her deep love, the tears that Hua Wan couldn't hold back just now dripped on the pillow again.

Now that she has no relatives around, she can finally stop being so dead.

Lan Jiashu still didn't hang up the phone, Hua Wan held the hot mobile phone, feeling his presence, as if he had gained endless strength.

Although the two of them are already on two sides of the earth, separated by thousands of rivers and mountains.

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Time flies, the late spring of the following year will pass, and the slightly better news is finally coming.

Director Wang, the attending doctor, took the latest test results and said: "After 11 months of treatment, Hua Wan's blood indicators have been stabilized in the normal range, and the symptoms have basically disappeared or alleviated, and I can prepare to be discharged from the hospital for a normal life, but I must recheck on time and strictly monitor the changes in my physical condition." ”

"Yes, okay." Wang Wen and Lao Hua looked at each other happily, and the wrinkles at the corners of their eyes deepened because of the smile.

Hua Wan sat next to her, took a deep breath, and put the gift she had prepared before on the table: "Director Wang, this year's toss, thanks to your hard work and encouragement, I can persevere, thank you very much." ”

"Isn't that how it should be?" Director Wang's greatest expectation was to watch the patient be discharged from the hospital, and said with a smile: "I want to thank you more for bringing so much happiness to everyone, otherwise the gloomy ward will not be conducive to treatment." ”

Hua Wan showed her dimples and said strangely: "I didn't do anything either......"

Director Wang patted her on the shoulder and replied, "You are a good girl, and the illness will stay away from you sooner or later." ”

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After such a long time, no one can guarantee that Yi Xun will not lack original artists.

After returning home and resting for a few days, Hua Wan was inevitably very nervous when she called Wang Linlin.

Unexpectedly, Sister Lin's attitude was very enthusiastic: "Oh, you have been discharged from the hospital, congratulations!" ”

"Yes, but it's not completely good, there will be a possibility of recurrence, and I still have to go for a bone puncture test every three months." Hua Wan will not lie in order to get a job, and tell the truth about the situation.

"It's okay, you must have confidence in yourself, no matter what, you are an employee of Yixun, and the company will support you." Wang Linlin assured that this is not because of her kindness, but because of the corporate culture.

"I ...... Is it really possible to go back to work? Hua Wan couldn't believe it.

"Of course, I have discussed this matter with the vice president of human resources, we will respect your wishes to keep it confidential for you, and we will also provide leave to cooperate with the treatment, as for the salary, it is the same as this year's school admissions." Wang Linlin replied, whispering: "The company has raised some starting salaries again." ”

"Thank you, Sister Lin." Hua Wan was very excited and hung up the phone with a thousand thanks.

In order to cure the disease, the family has sold the house that gave her as a dowry

Although the work that is too exhausting is not suitable for her physical condition, the desire to earn more money to support her parents is particularly strong.

Sitting on the edge of the sofa, his long legs caressing the needle holes and swelling marks on his arms that had faded, he had some impulses to contact Lan Jiashu.

But what to say?

Talking about missing, saying grievances, saying that you are still a death bomb from time to time?

She began to believe that he would let go after all, otherwise he would have been as naïve and innocent as he had been at the beginning, and would have taken advantage of the holidays to go back to Beijing to make a fuss and beg, and it would never be possible to stay in the United States without any news, so she shook her head with a smile and looked at the sunlight outside the window.

On the day I went to Yi Xun for an interview last year, he ran the whole street on his back and was not late, as if it happened yesterday, and everything is still vivid.

It's just that the human face doesn't know where to go, and the peach blossoms are still smiling in the spring breeze.

The memory of love makes Hua Wan's heart tingle, but her eyes are full of gentle calm.