The Buddha said that the source of suffering in this life is nothing more than the three poisons of greed, hatred, and ignorance.

Before I met Ain, my world was gloomy.

All that exists in my memory is the infinite abuse of my parents and the brutal beating of my father......

I never tell others about the bloody past, but in the hot summer, when I go out in long sleeves to cover the scars, my friends will always cast curious and puzzled eyes, which make me embarrassed.

I'll never forget the first time we met, Ayin was like an elf, her pink dress turned into a dreamy light, and the smile on her face made me obsessed.

I never thought it would be like, just sank like this......

It was like a light in my life, and from then on I felt a place to belong. In my life, I have never taken the initiative to pursue anything, and Ah Yin is the first and last.

What happened after that, beyond my expectations, although my father was cruel, but I never thought that I was not his biological child, and when I saw my mother and Ah Yin's father hugging each other, my angina pectoris, not for others, but for Ah Yin, a strong person like her, if she knew all this, wouldn't she fall from heaven to hell?

After all kinds of misunderstandings, resentment, and swearing, I have never complained, I have been a wicked person who has been in hell for more than ten years, not so many days, and Ayin can't, I can't bear her to go to that dirty place for a day and a night.

She hated me, but I could feel her attachment to me every lonely night.

The little trembling body in my arms has since become the motivation for me to grit my teeth and persevere.

I don't have any feelings for He Xing, he doesn't have the grace to raise me, but makes Ah Yin have a deep misunderstanding and resentment towards me, and with him, I also hate him, especially when he looks at Ah Yin, the thick attachment in his eyes and the shadow of others make me angry and uneasy.

When I was a child, I was never scared of countless curses and whippings, but his eyes scared me.

So, I didn't dare to leave......

So, stay up all night......

I will never forget that rainy day, if I had been a little late, would I regret it for the rest of my life?

Fortunately, my Ayin is still intact in my arms, but the seeds of hatred have already sprouted and broken through the ground, and when the bright red blood spreads between my fingers, for the first time, I saw fear in He Xing's eyes.

After that, there was the mother's bitter plea......

She is a poor woman, I hate myself for being incompetent, I can't protect these two fragile women, and I faced punches and kicks again, but this time, it was He Xing who gave it, Ayin hid in the corner trembling and crying, I held my head and looked at her and tried to smile at her, but she cried even more.

That night, she didn't resent me, but let me hold her in my arms like a rag doll.

Ayin is older, and her body is no longer the strong smell of milk, but has become the aroma of peach blossoms, this aroma fascinates me, so, even if it is trapped for a lifetime?

Gradually, I grew up, and I could tolerate all the pain, the oppression from the top, the exclusion of He Xing, I could bear it, as long as I saw Ayin's smiling face.

But one day, she will also grow up.

She no longer calls me "sister" so sweetly, but every faint "sister" will make me exhausted.

I don't know what means He Xing used to maintain his image of a "good father" in Ayin's heart, and I don't want Ayin to believe those clues hastily, or that sentence, no matter how many grievances, as long as she is in heaven, I will be happy.

If you want me to be a pawn, I will be a pawn in your hand for you to distribute;

If you want me to be your enemy, I want to show you that cold side and let you grow;

Ayin, why don't you understand, as long as it is what you want, everything and everything, I can give it to you without reservation.

I have known since I was a child that Ayin's beauty is not only attractive to me, she is like the sun, burning everything around her.

I have never taken those suitors to heart, although they will be faintly sour, but I understand that they are just passing by, and Ah Yin will not look at them.

Until a man named Shen Shuoxi appeared......

I started to panic and be confused, and my heart hurt as if it exploded when I saw Ah Yin laughing beside her.

So, falling, resentful......

I seemed to be getting farther and farther away from that gentle sister in front of Ayin......

But I couldn't help but follow her pace, she has been my faith all these years, the spiritual pillar of my pursuit of everything, and I don't know how to persevere without her.

Later, Song Niannian, she was a kind girl, but she was not what I wanted.

Her sentence: "Let it go, don't let He Yin hate you to the core." "It completely broke my heart, and then I drank heavily, smoked, and all kinds of ......

Facing his mother's lost eyes again, He Xing tightened his complicated eyebrows......

I don't have the energy to face it.

Tears kept flowing, and my heart hurt to death, A-Yin, A-Yin, my A-Yin, don't you even want a sister?

The moment I fainted for the first time, I knew that my body would no longer allow such rampant. I can only swallow all the pain in my stomach with tears, I don't want Ayin to be embarrassed, even if she can't see her heart clearly, and I don't want outsiders to see my vulnerability, I refuse Song Nian Nian again and again, it's not that I don't feel guilty, but the guilt is not worth a lifetime.

The person I want for a lifetime, she has never changed.

Without her, I no longer have the desire to survive, and even secretly fantasize about whether I can be buried with her after death, but I know that even this simple wish has become unattainable now, and she no longer needs me by her side......

If it were someone else, maybe I would have fought for the ......

But Shen Shuoxi, such a person who loves He Yin deeply, protects her, follows her, tolerates her, and most importantly, Ah Yin loves deeply, how do I go about it?

I'm not afraid of anyone resenting me, but I'm afraid of Ayin's tears, the bitter taste, and I swear not to taste it again in this life and this life.

So, I let go, and during the operation, when I saw Ayin's crying and swollen eyes, I compromised again, reluctantly, just to see her again.

I love you and have nothing to do with you......

Hehe, what a pretentious word, but it is used on me at this moment.

Ayin, I love you, whether you hold my hand or not.

The habits from childhood to adulthood, I'm afraid they won't change in this life.

I am greedy and disgusted with you, in this life and this life, I am afraid that there is no one who can redeem me, so let me sink into hell, with my love for you, I think, when I meet Meng Po and drink that bowl of Meng Po soup, can my love for you be scattered under the tree on the other side?

A-Yin, A-Yin, A-Yin, A-Yin......