Chapter 8: The Mask with a Missing Corner
This side of the world, one night.
In London, England, in a girl's room, the girl had a dream after a long absence.
A dream about school.
The girl's family is a noble and ancient family far away from the country. Because of an ancient convention, their family has been serving the Clock Tower, using their own family heirloom [Magic Eye] to spy on the real history, and then organize and classify these things.
So, when the girl was about ten years old, she was "kicked out of the house", and after her father gave her enough utensils and money, he smiled and threw the girl who was still Lori on the train with an unquestionable attitude.
"The Bjonsen family is the recorder of history, and we are always facing everything as spectators. But if you just live in isolation, you will never awaken the Magic Eye, your eyes are crying to you, it says, 'I want to open', 'I want to see the world'. If you stay at home like this, you won't find a way to awaken the MONOCULUS. So, daughter, follow the old covenant and go to England and make some friends there. ”
Then, as his father said, the girl carefully participated in the entrance ceremony that year.
As the Sorting Hat screamed the name "Ravenclaw", the girl, cowering in the collar of her oversized garment, was curious to see a teenager sitting at the Ravenclaw table.
Maybe it's some kind of hunch, after the girl carefully sat far away from the boy she paid some attention to, she was shocked to learn from the discussion of the people around her that the boy was already a senior in the 4th grade!
It's incredible!
With this consternation, the girl began her own college life. It's gold that always shines, and the girl is very smart, at least smarter than the average person, and can get high grades in Ravenclaw, where there are many geniuses, even better than the former first-graders, and the current seniors are doing better.
However, the girl was so shy that she didn't talk to anyone other than her roommate for three months, and even the teacher who taught her didn't communicate with her. Maybe it's her silence that breeds the dark hearts of some people, other people who are dissatisfied with the achievements of the girl, or they can't get used to the girl's low-key, or maybe they can't get used to the girl's behavior, so if there is no bullying, there is.
A child's heart is the purest, so the good side is perfectly expressed on the outside, and the dark side of human nature is also revealed. Until they grow into capable adults and wear the masks they have purchased for themselves, they will always follow their emotions.
You can flood an entire ant nest with water on a whim, and you can cry for no reason because a toy is broken.
Can behave beyond their behavior because they "hate" someone.
The girl was targeted, and every day she could find strange and filthy animal entrails in her shoes, mustard inexplicably appeared in the food she ate, her books were replaced with scantily clad magazines, and the quill she bought could never be used.
The girl was at a loss.
None of her family knowledge could be used for this, and even if she had been taught magic to completely close her brain, to connect memories to others, she couldn't block the inkwells that flew through the hallway, and she couldn't shoot down every bucket that hung above the crack in the door.
What to do?!
What can I do to get rid of them?!
The girl was very frightened, and even looked at the faces of all her classmates for a while, and felt that their faces were covered with a layer of haze, and the behavior of the girls in the dormitory became strange in her eyes.
So, the girl chose to escape. chose patience, she firmly believed that there must be something at the end of patience, that may be the strength of human beings, or maybe it is her own salvation......
There's no way I'm going to deal with those people right now, and they're only like that because they don't like me, so I just need to make it impossible for them to hit me.
So, the girl began to work hard and began to study more carefully. Her abilities were quickly noticed, so she skipped a grade as a matter of course.
Then, in the face of her, there was an even more serious blow.
Those seniors who used to face her and Mei Shanmu began to target her everywhere, it doesn't matter if a genius is here, because this is the Magic Association, geniuses and things are everywhere, but a senior sister who broke their previous records and made them lose face, and even got the level of skipping a grade is too much of a threat to them. There is competition in the Tower, which is not visible in such schools, but when they are faced with the opportunity to choose other departments after the fifth grade, the merit-based admissions will not be considered because of their age, and in contrast, the girls who can reach the level of skipping grades are the better choice.
Thus, the cycle of events begins.
What once happened to the girl happened again.
Moreover, because it is the level of a second-grade student, this level of bullying has reached the point where the girl can't avoid it, and if she is not careful, the girl may have to lie in the school doctor for a few days.
Why is this happening?
So, the girl was confused.
Why is this happening? Why did this happen even to the point where I couldn't interfere with my peers?
Could it be that my level is not enough? So, I'm going to climb to a higher level this time.
The cycle rotates slowly.
One month, two months, three months.
What it took a year for others to learn, she took a month, or even less, but at the price, she lost all her freedom, and she devoted all her time to books. The teachers ignored her, on the one hand, because the girl was unfamiliar with all the teachers, and on the other hand, the "teachers" wanted to see what level the girl could reach, or she would be shattered by a certain experience and swallowed up by the darkness of the Clock Tower.
The heart was slowly swallowed up by the darkness, and unconsciously, the girl's original personality formed in the past 10 years was swallowed up by the knowledge she had memorized a lot in the past six months, and the memories of just ten years were submerged, covered, and swallowed up by the indifferent appearance.
Then, on a winter morning, she met a teenager.
The boy said, "Hello, my name is Helsin."
Can you talk about it?
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On the other side of the world, some day.
Somewhere in Japan, in a teenager's room, after a long absence, the teenager had a dream.
A dream about school.
After his experience in Romania at the age of seven, perhaps because of the expectations of his father who knew magic, or the desire of his mother, who did not know magic but was also frightened by that power, he joined the Clock Tower and became a member of the inheritance department as a simple student.
Although the boy is a prodigy, in a broad sense, he can quickly grasp the core knowledge of magic and turn the magic he learns into his own prodigy, but he has always been in the norm and has not skipped any grades - yes, the boy is a fourth-grader who follows the rules.
Although he has been targeted in various ways, but maybe it is a certain trait, as long as there is no threat to his life, he ignores it, and on the contrary, as long as there is a level of threat, those people will be "solved" by him with [magician means], so he is much luckier than the girl.
At the entrance ceremony for the fourth year, he saw the girl with glasses, childish hair, and her face hidden under a vertical collar hat and glasses.
Perhaps it was some kind of hunch, and the boy noticed that the girl carefully observed herself, and then carefully sat down in the place where she was far away but could observe herself well. Rarely, he had an urge to pay attention to this girl. Hawkers,It must be those dusty eyes.,Notice the girl's surname and the related legend.。 The boy thought to himself.
Then, it was half a year of peace and quietness. The teenager also had a life of his own, and after that glimpse, the teenager soon left the matter behind. By chance, he could hear that a new student in his academy had a genius who had not only broken many records for the clock tower, but also jumped several steps in a row.
By the way, the boy is also from Ravenclaw, and one winter morning, he found the girl he had observed at the fourth-grade dinner party. It's incredible.,It's like a mirror.,It's only a reaction to the actions of others.,The boy who basically has no desire to act on his own came to the girl's side and said hello.。
What was he thinking at the time? The boy can't remember anymore, and sometimes, an inexplicable impulse is the beginning of a story, and even the protagonist doesn't know why the story unfolds the way it does.
In short, it was a definite fact to say hello, but the girl didn't seem to appreciate it, she waited for the boy with cold eyes, and then turned and left.
No, you can't go. The boy stopped the girl, and then
A [Magic-Enhanced Type 18 Sonic Hand Knife] (a kind of enhanced magic, which belongs to the useless melee magic that magicians disdain to use and magicians are unwilling to use, but it can work wonders in some way) threw the girl to the ground, and everyone present was stunned by the boy's actions, and the boy also took the girl with him, and ran away with a smoke.
While the school was in a hurry to find the boy and girl at Hogwarts, the boy was in a hidden attic, waking the girl.
Your heart is breaking down and needs healing. Saying inexplicable words, the boy ignored the girl's resistance and stretched out his spiritual tentacles into the girl's soul. This time, even if the girl is proficient in brain defense, it is useless.
It's weird, it's weird.
While flipping through the too much [knowledge] in the girl's mind that concealed her personality, the boy fell into confusion.
Why, I feel like her heart is broken?
Why, would I want to help her?
Why, when I don't have to follow those so-called moral values? I'm a magician.
clearly
(I don't have the idea of saving people at all.) )
(But I'm saving her.) )
A dim glow emanated from the place where the two of them met on their foreheads, a symbol of the boy's spiritual tentacles touching the girl's soul.
(I didn't have the need to help her at all.) )
(But I'm helping her.) )
In the girl's soul, the young man's spiritual tentacles gouge out a large amount of excess [knowledge] and [magic poison] out of the girl's soul, and throw away those things that cover the girl's consciousness and make the girl not a "girl".
(I)
(It's the one that broke down.) )
From a long time ago, the boy was keenly aware of what made him different. I basically don't follow my own will, or in other words, I have never had a "self", and the one that exists in this shell, and examines myself with a rational posture, is just a mass of "flocculent knowledge", and the "personality" has never been formed.
Therefore, I will follow my "instinct" and not harm those who are harmless to me, but insult me in terms of the worldview of humanity. Therefore, I will be like a mirror, just following the will of others.
Even this conclusion, this examination of oneself is based on an argumentative essay on "knowing oneself" mentioned by a certain mother.
Shaking his head, the boy removed those distracting thoughts from his "heart" and devoted himself to sorting out the girl's soul. The dim light became more and more intense, and those faint blue points of light began to surround the two of them, and the boy knew that the girl's body temperature was soaring rapidly without feeling it.
Lowering his head, he silently recited a mantra, visible to the naked eye, and the coldness from inside the soul quickly lowered the girl's body temperature. It's done, the boy thought.
Where am I? Who are you?
After a burst of low blood pressure as if in a daze, the girl woke up.
The boy did not hesitate to tell the girl what had happened to her - for all magicians, the loss of life may not be unacceptable, but the loss of independent personality and the loss of "self" is a big taboo for magicians.
The girl has walked on the edge of the abyss before, and she has gained more knowledge than her age can carry, and even if you count the basic element of "magician: the master", she may be swallowed up by the vast amount of knowledge and lose her "self". Fortunately, the teenager found out early.
Ah, thanks
With her head down, the ten-year-old girl already knew more than men in some aspects, and when she found that she and the boy were maintaining an ambiguous posture, she quickly stood up in a disorderly manner.
It's okay, the boy shook his head.
After hesitating for a moment, the young man looked at the girl's crimson face and spoke.
Hmm, do you want me to help you in the future?
Yes? The girl was a little stunned for a moment.
Yes, I have eliminated your superfluous knowledge that can conceal your personality, but because I am not your reason, I don't know exactly what part of your knowledge I have removed. I think I should apologize for this.
Ah, don't apologize. Subconsciously, the girl used an honorific title.
You've skipped a grade to fourth grade. If I'm laughed at because I didn't reach the level of the fourth grade because of the knowledge I eliminated, then I didn't. So, if you don't mind, the next period of time.
Let me guide you.
The boy said, looking up at the shining soul of the girl he had just peeked into.
"Floccic knowledge" began to spin, it seems
There are signs of condensation.
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PS: Lynn does not have a "self", or this ten-year-old Lynn has not yet developed a "self" of regulatory instincts and superego. Following the "pleasure principle" but being bound by a unique "morality", trusting the decisions of others more than their own judgments and desires, because there is no deformed product of the "self" in the center to regulate - that's why I say that Lynn is a mirror.
PS2: Of course, Lynn was still a normal person after that (various fogs)
PS3: Hey, there's been a lot of things lately, QAQ, I don't sleep enough, I don't talk about it, and I don't have any time code word QAQ, one club thing after another...... Labor and management still owe two planning and four stage scripts QAQ...... So it's normal to have a break that day...... Even if I ignore those things in the group, I don't have enough time