It was night, the brightly lit Yanagi house was very quiet, the big cake was placed on the dining table, Yanagi Zhili sat on the sofa in a daze, and Yanagi Hirushi sat not far away and looked at her with a serious expression.

"Butler, remove all the dishes on the table." Yanagi Zhili turned her head to the butler standing aside, and her tone was calm without a little fluctuation.

"Miss......" The butler glanced at her, folded his hands in front of him, and didn't know whether to do what she said, and looked at Yagyu Hiryushi with some hesitation.

"Zhili ......" Receiving the housekeeper's gaze, Yanagi pushed his glasses against Lu Shi, looked at Yanagi Zhili and said, "Mom and Dad may come back in a while......"

Today is Yanagi's birthday, but none of the Yanagi couples have returned. On Yagyu Hirus's birthday, both of them rushed back from abroad.

From the evening hours to the present, Yanagi was more anxious than Lu Shi and even more anxious than Yanagi Zhili.

Since childhood, Yanagi and his wife have been more laissez-faire towards Yanagi Zhili, especially Yanagi Huilingsha, the mother and daughter should be close, but the two of them have never been very close. Or that Yanagi Zhili has been trying very hard to get close to Yanagi Memori, but Yanagi Memori has always been cold and distant from her. He has seen everything in his eyes for so many years, and he was not sensible when he was a child, but now that he is so old, Yanagi Birushi can't figure out why his mother doesn't like his sister.

Every time I watched Yanagi Zhili being ordered to be obedient and well-behaved in front of Yanagi Megumi Lingsha, and put away all the cheerful side, Yanagi was a little resentful of Lu Shi. He complained that his mother was not good to his sister, and he was obviously kind to him, but when he faced Yanagi Zhili, he always put on another serious face.

These small details made Yanagi more distressed than Lu Shi, and also made him love Yanagi Zhili even more.

Putting aside the strange atmosphere between the two some time ago, Liu Sheng is more helpless than Lu Shi at this moment, why did she celebrate her birthday, and Liu Sheng and his wife didn't even show their faces?

For so many years, they have never given Yanagi a birthday.

Yanagi is more upset than Lushi for her, but Yanagi Zhili has a completely different feeling in her heart.

She was also puzzled for a long time, what did she do badly, so that they refused to spend even a birthday with her. But since she looked at that notebook, she hadn't thought about this stupid question again.

Why not help her with her birthday? Because the day she was born was the day of the sacrifice of Yanagi Megu's own flesh and blood. Seeing her face on such a day, I'm afraid that Yanagi Mei Lingsa will only think of her dead flesh and blood, and her mother who is the murderer. Hanatoriji Yun's daughter, Hanatajiji Chiri, met with Yanagi Megumi Lingsha on such a day to celebrate her birthday? I'm afraid I'll want to kill her to be real.

Although she knew the reason for all this very well in her heart, she didn't show it on her face, she was sitting on the sofa with a somewhat ugly face, and she didn't answer Yanagi Bilushi, and turned her face away slightly, but it just happened to let him see his somewhat lost eyes.

That trace of fragility, a trace of sadness, a trace of loss, and the eyes holding back tears, such a wonderful look, entangled and woven into a net, does not need to be too big, as long as it can trap Yagyu Birushi. As long as he can envelop his heart and make him worry about her more and feel sorry for her, it will not be in vain for her to put on this heavy mask, and even be suffocated by this disgusting expression.

"Yes, miss, just wait." The butler also bowed down and nodded his head to persuade.

"Withdraw, it's already cold anyway." Yanagi Zhili insisted with a faint smile, with a hint of self-deprecation in her eyes.

The housekeeper also knew in his heart that for so many years, Yanagi Zhili had celebrated her birthday, and Yanagi and his wife had not come back once. He came to Yanagi's house a year after Yanagi Zhili was born, and he watched the two brothers and sisters grow up, and he was a little chilled by the eccentric attitude of Yanagi and his wife, but the affairs of the master's family were not their turn to be servants, and now he only comforted her. If he did, he wouldn't have been left untouched, not even a phone call.

"Don't remove the cake, you can go to rest after packing up your things, I want to be quiet for a while." It's back to its usual appearance, Yanagi added.

"This ......" the butler was a little embarrassed.

"Go ahead, do as Miss says." Liu Sheng was extremely stunned in his heart, seeing that she looked serious, knowing that she was not just talking casually, and he felt a little sorry for her, so he took the initiative to help.

When the butler saw that he had both said this, he said no more, and ordered the servant to remove the cold food from the table, leaving only a large cake alone.

"Do you want to do some more cooking? You and the young master haven't eaten yet......" The butler asked thoughtfully.

"No, go get some rest." Yanagi smiled softly at the butler.

The butler was speechless and had to leave with the servant. In the spacious living room, only Yagyu Chiri and Yagyu Hirushi were left.

"Zhili ......" was quiet for a while, and Yanagi Bilu Shi was the first to speak.

"Brother." Yanagi interrupted him, squinting at him with smiling eyes, "Shall we eat cake?" ”

Yanagi looked at her fixedly for a moment, pursed his lips, and spoke, "Okay." ”

I forgot how many times it was, her disappointed birthday, all of which he spent with her. In previous years, she would complain to him that her parents would never come back, but now she doesn't say anything anymore, just laughs. Squinting, hiding the tears in his eyes, and laughing non-stop.

People will always grow up, or they are used to being disappointed, and they will no longer have expectations. She had learned to hide her complaints and unhappiness, and had begun to accept it all.

Thinking like this, Yanagi was even more sad than Lu Shi. Everyone thinks that she is the much-loved princess of the Yanagi family, and her cheerful and lively appearance makes everyone think that she will not be sad, and even he himself thinks that he can give her what she wants. But he forgot that in this world, she still has many regrets that he can't fill.

The two of them got up and walked towards the dining room, where the entire table was full of dishes and now there was only one cake left.

Neither of them had eaten, but neither of them felt hungry or hungry. Yanagi Pyrusch removed the ribbons from the cake box, then removed the box and began to insert candles into the cake one by one.

"I don't have to light candles, it's so troublesome." Halfway through the candle, Yanagi suddenly spoke, and then stretched out his hand to pull out the candles he had already inserted one by one, and directly began to cut the cake.

Yanagi was speechless, put down the candle in her hand, and she had already cut a piece and handed it over.

"Give." She smiled, then cut another piece for herself, sat down and ate it one bite at a time.

She was very fast, eating a piece and cutting it, and then she kept eating. At first, Yanagi thought she was hungry, but when she later evolved into swallowing without chewing, Yanagi immediately became anxious. snatched the plate containing the cake from her hand, and forced her to drink some water with a glass of water, Yanagi Bilushi frowned and scolded: "What are you doing here?" ”

"It's a birthday, of course you have to be happy." Yanagi sat in a chair, his wrist tightly grasped, looking up at him with a smile.

Hearing this, Liu Sheng's brows furrowed even tighter than Lu Shi, "Happy? Where are you happy? ”

Yanagi Zhili only smiled and didn't speak, looking directly at Yanagi Birushi, and there were indescribable complex emotions in his eyes.

"At least ......" Yanagi said in a low voice, as if he was suddenly deflated, "and my brother is with you." ”

"It's my brother who accompanies me every year." Yanagi's smile widened, and she smiled for a while and then lowered her head to look at him, "But...... Someday, even my brother will leave. ”

"I get it." Before he could speak, Yanagi Zhili preemptively said: "It is impossible to say that he will always accompany me." I just want to hear from you, that's why I pestered my brother to ask such a question at that time, no matter how you answer, one day we will still be separated. We will have our own lives, no matter what kind of existence I am in your heart, and no matter what kind of existence you are in my heart...... My brother can't be Zhili alone, I understand it. ”

Yanagi was stunned for a moment, and at this moment, Yanagi Zhili faded away from all the simple and naïve child appearances in the past, and said these words with a smile that seemed to have nothing to do with him. When did she start growing up? Obviously, not long ago, she was still like that little girl, why is she like this now...... He had never seen her before, and just looking at her and smiling made him feel like he was about to die.

"Zhili......" his throat moved, his voice a little choked, "don't say it...... In that case......"

"I'm sorry." She suddenly took his hand in turn, "Brother, it's me who is too willful. It would be nice if I kept it hidden...... If you don't say it...... We'll be able to keep ...... like we used to It's all my fault......"

Her voice was also slightly choked, and a layer of mist appeared in her eyes, "Ah...... Really. I lost my family...... Is...... Stupid ......"

Tears flowed out of her eyes uncontrollably, she laughed to herself, but the corners of her mouth trembled slightly, tears crossed her lips, she kept wiping them with the back of her hand, but the tears flowed more and more, more and more.

Yanagi Hirus took her into his arms, touched her hair and comforted her silently, with an anxious meaning in his voice, "Zhili...... Zhili ...... It's not your fault...... I don't blame you...... It's true...... Is my brother bad...... It's not your fault......"

He kept repeating the words, and Yanagi Chiri put his chin on his shoulder, hugged by him, pursed his lips and couldn't stop crying.

"It's gone...... she whimpered.

"Yes...... It won't be without......" Yanagi Hirus patted her on the back, "Brother didn't leave...... Won't leave ......"

After crying for a while, Yanagi Zhili stopped, grabbed Yanagi Birushi's clothes and wiped away his tears, and said hoarsely: "I want to drink......"

Hearing this, Yanagi Hirushi took her shoulders and looked at her, "Drinking?" ”

Seeing his disapproval on his face, Yanagi Zhili looked at him with red eyes and whispered, "I can't sleep...... I haven't slept well in days and I want to drink......"

Yanagi Hirusch didn't want to agree, first of all, minors are not allowed to drink, and secondly, she is a girl.

Her hand tugged at his sleeve, looking at her pleading eyes, and thinking of her birthday every year like today, Yagyu Hirusch finally nodded in agreement.

"You can only drink a little, and when you are sleepy, you go to sleep." As he spoke, Yagyu Hirusch got up and went to the wine cabinet to take out two bottles of red wine.

Yanagi nodded, then stood up to get the cup, and the two of them walked towards her room together.

Sitting on the carpet of her room, Yanagi Chiri and Yanagi Hirushi took small sips of their wine glasses. She chattered to Yanagi Hirusch while drinking, talking about her mood these days, saying that she didn't do anything when she was with him, and before she knew it, the two bottles of wine had bottomed out.

"Alright, Zhili, it's time for you to sleep." Looking at her slightly red face, Yanagi Birushi reached out to pack his things.

"No...... I still want to. Yanagi Zhili was a little drunk, she shook her head, "I still want to drink." ”

"Obedient, it's time for you to sleep." Yanagi Hirusch frowned.

Tears welled up in her eyes again, and she was about to cry, so she rushed over and hooked his neck with a crying voice, "I still want to drink...... Let me drink a little more...... Please......"

Yanagi was also a little drunk than Rushi, but listening to her dry howl gradually developed into true crying, he had no choice but to agree.

Yanagi Zhili didn't make a fuss at this time, sat cross-legged on the carpet, and obediently waited for him to go and get the wine.

Two more bottles were lowered, and both of their faces turned red, and Yanagi sat dizzily, while Yanagi Zhili went to get the wine again.

Glass after cup, the scene in front of him was a little blurry, Yanagi Zhili blushed and giggled, took a sip of the wine in the cup, threw the cup aside, and threw it all over to him.

The smell of wine lingered, she hooked his neck, and the two of them sat among the crooked wine bottles, hugging and kissing each other.

I don't know how many bottles I drank, but the smell of wine wafted through the whole room, and neither of them looked very sober. I don't know if it was Yanagi Zhili who was helping Yanagi Hirushi, or Yanagi Birushi who was supporting Yanagi Zhili, and was tripped by the wine bottle that was staggering on the ground, plus he was not conscious, and the two of them both fell on the bed.

The scent of her body was dizzying, and even she was addicted to it. From the gentle touch of the inextricable, the end of the nose touches the end of the nose, feeling each other's breath, the breath between the lips and teeth is heating up little by little.

I can't stop, the drive of alcohol and the unknown stimulus, the reason has disappeared, and only the most primitive feeling is in control.

It was like drowning, and pain and relief surrounded her, as if a big hand was dragging her down and preventing her from escaping.

The light in the room was turned off by her raised hand, and her eyes sparkled in the darkness.

It's just for this day...... If you can't get Yagyu Hirushi, how can you be considered Yanagi Zhili......

It doesn't matter if everyone else is there, as long as she has all the love of Yanagi Birushi, everything from beginning to end can only be hers.

The real Yanagi Zhili should be the princess of the Yanagi family who is loved and has no pain.

Only in this way is she the real Yanagi Chiri.

Whether it's a minute or a second, my brother's love must be given to her alone.

If you can't break free from the darkness, you can only merge with the darkness obediently, and then get a brief hope from the endless darkness......

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"Zhili." Hanajiruo stood not far from Yanagi Zhili, and asked with a gentle smile, "Why don't you come in and play with everyone?" ”

"No need." Yanagi Zhili frowned, and then returned to expressionlessness, "I can do it here." ”

Hanajiruo walked towards her step by step, and then stood beside her, "What's so nice about this pool?" ”

There was no one around, the tennis club members were in the living room, and in front of Yagyu Chiri and Hanatera was a huge open-air swimming pool.

Yanagi didn't answer her, just quietly looked at the surface of the pool in a daze.

"Zhili doesn't seem to like me very much?" Hanajiruo raised his eyebrows slightly, and then chuckled: "The previous few times were just accidents, and they also misunderstood Birushi, I explained to them, those few accidents have nothing to do with Zhili, you won't be angry with me because of this, right?" ”

Yanagi Zhili turned his head to look at her expressionlessly, "No, Hanaji-san thinks too much." ”

"Really......? I thought ......" didn't care about Yagyu Chiri's coldness, Hanatera continued, "I really want to be friends with Chiri." ”

"I'm sorry, I don't like making friends." Yanagi Chiri faintly refused.

"Ah...... What a pity. I thought we could get along......" Hanatera stood in front of Yagyu Chiri with his back to the pool.

There seemed to be a figure flickering at the gate, and Hanajiruo lowered his voice and said the last sentence, "Actually...... I hate you too. ”

Then Yanagi Zhili watched in amazement as Hanajirua screamed, pulled her and let go, and the whole person fell backwards. Hanatera fell into the pool, but Yanagi's hand remained outstretched and paused in the air.

His eyes widened, and before he could come back to his senses, he heard the voices of everyone in the tennis club behind him.

Yanagi Zhili stiffened and froze in place, subconsciously moved her feet, accidentally stepped on the splashing water, and fell in her feet as soon as she slipped and fell in.

The water was pouring in from all directions, and the feeling of her breath being taken away made her struggle in the water, her eyes hurting, and her eyes were a blurry blue.

You can still hear the sound of splashing into the water, a series of bubbles coming out of her nose, and Yanagi Chiri can't swim, and her body keeps sinking.

She's afraid of water......

Fear enveloped her, like the overwhelming water, but she had no strength to struggle, only the pain of suffocation.

On the glowing water, there seemed to be a familiar figure coming towards her, and Yanagi reached out to the figure, as if she could catch it at once, but as if she could never catch it.

The slender figure swam freely in the water, and he hugged the other figure, then swam quickly towards the surface.

Quickly disappeared from her sight, without a hint of attachment, without glancing in her direction from beginning to end.

The feeling of lack of oxygen became more and more uncomfortable, and after that, Yanagi lost consciousness.

The outstretched hand gradually drooped, and at the last moment before closing the eyes, there seemed to be a warm feeling in the corners of the eyes, which melted into the cold water, and it was fleeting......

When she opened her eyes again, it was in her own room, there was no one, she raised her hand and rubbed her temples a little uncomfortably, and the next second she was attracted by the sound of the door opening.

Yanagi pushed open the door and came in with a frosty face, his face very ugly.

Before she could react, Liu Sheng spoke in a cold voice first, "Today's matter, Xiao Rou said that she won't pursue it, I won't care about you." It's an eye-opener for you to be so self-conscious, and your heart is so vicious. ”

After saying that, he sneered, and without waiting for her to speak, Yanagi Hirusch turned around and left.

Yanagi Zhili, who was leaning against the head of the bed, widened her eyes, and it was a long time before she put away the surprise on her face and showed a wry smile slightly.

I see...... Hanajiruo still refused to let her go. There have been similar things several times before, and I thought about it at first, and tried to defend it, but it didn't work at all, and no one believed her. It's because she's too stupid, and if Hanaji gets close, she should have avoided it.

That's fine, Liu Sheng sneered like this than Lu Shi, and she didn't have to be under their gaze to explain tormentedly. In this way, she is better off.

I won't believe it anyway, and it makes no difference whether I explain it or not.

Yanagi Zhili looked sideways at the sky outside the window, her eyes a little distant.

In my memory, there was such a figure before.

When she was seven years old, she also fell into the swimming pool once, and at that time, it was Yagyu Hirusch who jumped into the water to save her.

It was exactly the same as what she had seen in the pool today, vague but recognizable to her, it was him.

Now the figure has become tall and sturdy, no longer the small one it used to be, but the person who made him desperately jump into the water to save it is no longer her.

He should have forgotten it a long time ago, and she was the only one who remembered such an unimportant thing.

The little figure had swam farther and farther away, too far for her to grasp, or rather, she hadn't caught it in the first place.

"Nana ......" Yanagi Chiri took out her mobile phone and dialed Rina Miyama, she looked out the window at the sky as blue as water, "We ...... Let's go see the sea, I think...... Learn to swim......"

Is it attachment, is it expectation, is it an unrealistic fantasy......

In short, something that shouldn't exist.

Things that have never been mentioned, in fact, she has never forgotten.

One day, many years ago, the little man who swam down from the water with the light on his back grabbed her hand and rescued her from the bottom of the blue water. Even with such a blurry picture, she silently remembered it for many years.

It's time to open your eyes from the memories and look at reality, that image should probably be buried in the deepest part of your mind, never again.

Yanagi hung up the phone, sat on the head of the bed, and kept looking at the sky outside the window. It was a long, long time before she sighed, then raised her hand and covered her eyes with the back of her hand.

From this day on, Yagyu Chiri never appeared by the pool that he frequented......

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It is better to wait for others to save than to save yourself. Because even if someone saves you once, he may not save you again the next time.

Yanagi Zhili closed her eyes and felt the pain under her, compared to the unconscious Yanagi Bilu Shi, she was obviously much more sober.

She is no longer afraid of water, she will never sink to the bottom again, and she can swim freely in the water like him.

Overcoming fear, being rusty and becoming proficient, only she knows the bit of what she has done.

The moment the fireworks bloomed in her mind, she seemed to see the slender figure swimming in the water again, and he abandoned everything else and swam firmly towards her alone. This time, the picture was no longer blurry, and she clearly saw the light in his eyes, and in those beautiful eyes, only her figure was reflected—

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The dinner ended hastily, and after the patience left, the atmosphere could not be lively. After the scene was dismissed, the trace department sent Akirina home and went back to rest.

After taking a bath, I went to see Rika Miyama, who finally fell asleep peacefully with the help of An Shenxiang, and Akirina went back to the room to lock the door and sent a message to Yanagi Chiri in the quilt.

[Happy Birthday, I miss you]-After sending it out like this, Akirina, who was going to sleep, received a call from Chiri Yagyu.

There was a hint of pleasure in her hoarse voice, and Akirina heard her say, "Nana, we're ...... Let's go see the sea......! ”

The author has something to say: Ah Xian has something to say: It's another chapter of memory killing, and I always feel that Nana and Lily are not normal...... What will Yanagi do when he wakes up...... Hahahahaha 166 Reading Network