Li Xiaoxue's eyes suddenly brightened, and she couldn't help but breathe, and slowly, she let go of Cao Yingying's arm.

"Sit down." Cao Yingying said to Li Xiaoxue again.

Li Xiaoxue was puzzled, looked at Cao Yingying, and said "ah" in confusion.

Cao Yingying smiled slightly, didn't say anything, and sat down on the ground.

Seeing Cao Yingying sitting directly on the ground, Li Xiaoxue felt that her legs were even more sore, and she didn't care about anything, so she also sat on her knees beside Cao Yingying.

Cao Yingying raised her face again, with full innocence, and said to Li Xiaoxue: "Look, God." ”

Li Xiaoxue really looked at the sky, and she was stunned for a moment, as if the sky here was really blue.

"Every time I sit here and look at the sky, the troubles of life and the pressure of work drift away like those clouds." Cao Yingying rushed to the sky and said to Li Xiaoxue.

Li Xiaoxue let out a long breath, and said in her heart: "It's just temporary." Can you always look at the sky here? You can't always detach yourself from real life, and people living in modern cities, which one will be completely carefree? ”

Cao Yingying seemed to sense Li Xiaoxue's thoughts, and said slowly: "Here, not only will you have feelings that you don't usually have, but you can also think clearly about many problems that you can't think about clearly." ”

"Maybe." Li Xiaoxue said.

"Xiaoxue," Cao Yingying turned her face to Li Xiaoxue, "You can't figure out your own feelings, right?" ”

"Feelings?" Li Xiaoxue asked softly, as if she was extremely unfamiliar with these two words.

Cao Yingying moved closer to Li Xiaoxue and said softly: "Xiaoxue, do you know, looking at the way you are now, as a friend, I am both sad for you and anxious for you." You really can't go on like this anymore. ”

"Me?" Li Xiaoxue laughed self-deprecatingly and shook her head again.

Cao Yingying grabbed one of Li Xiaoxue's arms and said encouragingly: "Now, you try to put aside all the interference under this blue sky, and just think about your feelings in your own heart." ”

"Interference? Putting aside? By your own heart? Li Xiaoxue asked again and again, and smiled bitterly.

Cao Yingying glanced at Li Xiaoxue: "Could it be that you went down like this?" Do you have to live your life with others? Xiaoxue, if you really do that, it's too stupid. ”

Li Xiaoxue shook her head a little helplessly, and lowered her face.

Cao Yingying was anxious, and she could only sigh heavily: "Xiaoxue, think about it, people have only been in this life for decades?" And now, Xiaoxue, you're in your twenties, a third of you, -- oh, count you a little longer, -- a quarter of the time has passed, have you really been in charge of your own affairs? You have everything arranged by others, especially by your mother. I can't say how my aunt's arrangement is, but, Xiaoxue, I can see that you are not living happily under your aunt's arrangement. ”

Li Xiaoxue heard Cao Yingying say this, although she still shook her head, tears flowed down.

"Xiaoxue," Cao Yingying continued, "I may disagree with my words now, but, one day, I think you will regret it." For your own sake, you haven't fought for anything, I don't believe it, you are really willing! ”

Li Xiaoxue still shook her head and begged Cao Yingying bitterly: "Yingying, don't say this again." ”

Cao Yingying pestled Li Xiaoxue with her elbow and said unhappily: "If we weren't good sisters, I wouldn't be able to annoy you." I really don't want you to live like this. In my case, even if it costs my own life, I must fight for the life I yearn for. ”

Li Xiaoxue sighed and said, "Everyone's environment is different. ”

"Don't emphasize these objective reasons for me here!" Cao Yingying couldn't get angry, pushed Li Xiaoxue, and stood up, "Just like you, you deserve to suffer such a crime now!" ”

When Li Xiaoxue heard this, she also blushed, stood up with "Teng", and cried and said, "Of course I deserve my sin!" ”

Cao Yingying shouted again, "Isn't it your mother?" If you shouldn't say something, how many years can her old man guard you? You are only happy for your mother, you gave up the life you wanted, are you really completely willing? ”

"yes!" Li Xiaoxue also shouted, "I'm just willing!" My mom worked so hard to pull me to this big, I don't want her to be unhappy because of me! ”

Cao Yingying smiled coldly at Li Xiaoxue: "Do you think that if you are like this, you have fulfilled your filial piety as a daughter?" Do you think your mom will really be happy if you're like this? No! You're wrong, you're completely wrong! The times are different, the way of life is different, your mother is still using the thinking of the past to guide your life now, think about it, what will be the consequences? Will you be happy when you truly realize this, and your life has been lived the way your mom designed it for you? And your mother finally saw the misfortune she single-handedly brewed you, and she would really be happy? Oh, Xiaoxue, I really shouldn't have called your mother that, and I shouldn't have said that, but, not only your mother, but my mother and her are like that. I also know that they are all for our good, and their words and practices cannot be said to be wrong in a sense. Not only do I not think they are wrong, but I also think that they are out of love for us. But, Xiaoxue, who said that love will definitely bring us positive things? Therefore, we must respect and respect, and we must have our own ideas. We are only at their mercy, and we are always the children who don't grow up in their eyes. Only when we can make decisions for ourselves and take responsibility for ourselves, can they see it and actually feel truly gratified. Xiaoxue, it's time for you to take responsibility for your own life. ”

Li Xiaoxue's heart has been rising and falling with Cao Yingying's words, and her body is sometimes full of strength, and sometimes she is pressed hard, until Cao Yingying stopped, she took a long breath and said, "But, Yingying, I really don't know what to do now." My life doesn't seem to be mine. I really want to do things well, but the harder I try, the worse it gets. ”

Cao Yingying looked at Li Xiaoxue's eyes and said firmly: "When you can really control your own destiny, Xiaoxue, you will make everyone around you happy." ”

Li Xiaoxue still shook her head and said: "I have no direction, really, Yingying, many times, I don't know what I should do and how to do it." ”

"A lot of times, you don't even know what you're doing, do you?" Cao Yingying added to Li Xiaoxue again.

Li Xiaoxue nodded vigorously and said, "Not bad." ”

"No," Cao Yingying shook her head and said, "It's not that you don't know, you're running away." You know what you should do, but you don't want to do it. ”

"No, I really don't know." Li Xiaoxue said, and turned around in pain.

Cao Yingying took another step closer to Li Xiaoxue: "Xiaoxue, why are you bothered?" Since you love him so much......"

"I didn't!" Li Xiaoxue didn't wait for Cao Yingying to finish speaking, so she loudly denied it.

"You have!" Cao Yingying also shouted.

"Nope! No! Li Xiaoxue said hoarsely.

"You have! I only said that you loved him, and I didn't name him, and you already knew who I was talking about, and you still said that you didn't love him? Cao Yingying said with reason.

Li Xiaoxue still denied it: "No! It's because you've always thought of me that, that's why I say that! ”

Cao Yingying said again: "Do you know what you look like when you are anxious for him? You still say you don't have him in your heart? ”

Li Xiaoxue tried her best to explain: "I'm just worried about him, just like worrying about a friend!" ”

"You talk nonsense!" Cao Yingying said, turning directly to Li Xiaoxue's body, "The parties are confused, and the bystanders are clear!" Xiaoxue, I hope you can listen to what I said above! In addition, I would like to reiterate to you that many people have said that it is not easy to find someone you love and love you in this life and this life. This may be too vulgar, but it is really right. If you can't grasp it, you will only live in endless regret for the rest of your life! ”

This book was first published in Reading Books