It's very tangled,

I'm really sorry to start with those three words, but I'm really struggling. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Writing isn't my full-time, not even part-time.

But I really put a lot of effort into this book.

From May 18, 2014 to the present, two years have passed unconsciously, and 1.11 million words have been written in the book.

Maybe it's because my level of writing is really average, from the beginning so many people followed, and then it decreased little by little, and now I don't even see much anymore.

The old people basically disappeared, and then they joined the new people, and the new people disappeared not long after.

In the end, it felt like I was the only one left.

When I came back from work, I turned on the computer codeword and thought while cooking.

After writing it, it was uploaded to the computer, and it took about three hours to process.

Read one, two or three minutes at a time.

There is no comparison at all.

I used to say that no matter whether anyone reads it or not, I will insist on finishing the book.

But now there is a real feeling that I can't hold on.

From 2014 to the original book lovers, and then to the present, there are few of the original ones left.

Crystal coffee is one, Yanagi Xinyue, Yanagi Shaki, Fuji Kumabo, and ......

I feel like I can't find a name.

Fewer and fewer people are watching.

The heart is very complicated, I want to be a eunuch, but I still have the ----desire to write down, but I don't have the motivation I had for 14 years.

A lot of the time it's torn between breaking and not stopping.

I don't know how tired it is to write a book without writing a book.

The writer doesn't know the anxiety of waiting for the book.

It's always contradictory,

Just like now, I don't know whether to give up or not to give up on this book.

In my imagination, it was only a matter of time before the match with the Chinese = national team,

But in reality, it seems that it really can't catch up......