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When Karenin entered the bedroom, Grisha patted Seryosha on the arm to wake him up.
"Not that exaggerated, right?" Grisha asked curiously.
"My dad would sometimes send flowers to my mom, although it was usually the day after they got into a fight."
Seryosha swallowed, opened a pair of Bambi eyes, and said as if sleepwalking: "But that's my father." ”
Seryosha continued to look in the direction of the bedroom, and Grisha said, "Why don't we go and have a look?" ”
"Peeking?" Seryosha furrowed his little eyebrows, "No, my father said that peeking or eavesdropping is inappropriate." ”
Grisha also frowned: "My dad is the opposite, he said that men must learn to eavesdrop and have sensitive ears. He wrinkled his nose again.
"Isn't he right?"
"Well, I don't know, but I'd suggest it's better not to." Seryosha said.
Grisha was still unsure who it would be better to listen to, so he thought he shouldn't think about it for now.
"Shall we go play, then?"
Seryosha glanced at the bedroom again, and although he didn't want to leave, he didn't want his father to misunderstand him and eavesdrop, so he nodded and went down with Grisha.
in the bedroom.
The two men looked at each other.
Karenin's expression looked calm, and Anna could still see his tightness from his slightly pale fingers.
She put it away in surprise, and the book in her hand was not put down, like a shield, across the distance of two meters between the two.
"I'll tell you in all seriousness that I didn't buy it, it was Slyuddin, and he thinks it's good to mistake you for the roses I bought for you." Karenin said word by word, a little restrained, if Slyuddin saw it, I am afraid that he would be angry.
"If you do what he does, I will wonder if you are my husband." Anna smiled.
She is not the kind of woman who does not know it, she has long understood the power of a smile for a person, and she is skilled in smiling angles to deal with anything, such as now, the corners of her mouth are pulled up, her eyes are slightly curved, but she can see the gray clear eyes under her eyelashes at a glance.
There is an instinct that is deep in the bones, and Anna herself is not completely able to distinguish it. Now that things have fallen to this point, she suddenly didn't want to hide it, but asked calmly: "Now do you want to ask me again, is the smile at this time also perfunctory and pretending?" ”
Although she smiled and looked confident, her hands were quietly folded under the table.
Karenin, as she could think of, uttered the right words.
"Never again, Anna."
Karenin walked towards Anna, and he naturally wouldn't do anything like kneeling down on one knee, but he bent down slightly and gestured to his wife.
Anna blinked, she took the flower, and by the way got a kiss on the lips.
"I'll tell you, I don't like roses." She said, lowering her eyes and chuckling again, "But it's nice to receive flowers, thank you." ”
Karenin did not show surprise, but nodded slightly: "I remember." ”
"Sit down, I'll make you a cup of black tea, to be honest, my tea making skills are okay." Anna got up and said, holding the bouquet of flowers in her arms tightly, and then gently placing them on the table, she was going to pick a beautiful vase and put them up later.
Anna rang the bell and asked the maid to bring the tea set.
On the sofa, Karenin watched the woman's movements with a serious expression, from her soft side face to her white wrists, and finally back between the bridge of her nose and eyes, which were dimly illuminated by the light, and wandered slowly, carefully observing.
He found that the strangeness he had felt before had now been replaced by a softness.
When his mood changed, when his jealousy dissipated, and after acknowledging his wife's differences, Karenin found that everything was not so acceptable.
Maybe it's a little strange, unfamiliar, and a lot different, but in any case, this moment alone is enough to make up for everything.
"You've been looking at me, I'm afraid I'm going to spoil the tea." Anna said, the curvature of her mouth rising slightly.
"I just think I have to apologize for what happened last night and this morning."
Anna's hand paused, but she didn't speak, she continued to listen. For the first time, she found that she wanted to hear someone speak from the bottom of her heart, or that she cared.
"I think I'm overwhelmed by some of your shifts, Anna." Karenin is always so different, cunning and ruthless in officialdom, when everyone thinks he is an ice sculpture without a heart, he has the softest heart.
"People always panic when faced with the unknown, and I, I'm not used to letting panic and helplessness control me. I'm in a position that doesn't allow me to do this, it's not just about me. Karenin said in a deep voice, his calm analysis of everything about himself, which seemed a little cold, but the meaning of the sentence itself made people blame him for his thoughts.
If Anna were any politician, she would have understood what Karenin meant, and there would have been a tacit agreement not to mention it, so she would have exposed it.
But Anna, despite having a corresponding IQ that is not inferior to that of men, does not intend to be as reasonable as ordinary people.
"You mean, I'm the only one who will leave you at a loss and panic."
Karenin's expression stiffened for a moment, and then he glanced at Anna with some reproach, as if to complain that he could not say it so bluntly, that it was really unseemly.
"But that's true, isn't it?" Anna smiled, and the waste in her chest seemed to have vanished.
Karenin coughed lightly to ease his embarrassment.
Anna knew that it was good to have the point, but she just couldn't help it, as if she was thinking of a prank, and she continued to say slowly: "Admit it, Alexei Aleksandrovich, you care about me, I'm special." ”
Karenin wanted to say that of course he cared, because Anna was his wife, but he quickly remembered Tao Li's words, so he spoke calmly, expressing his emotions in straightforward words that did not match him.
"Yes, Anna, of course I care about you."
He thought about it for a while, and then continued: "In order to avoid confusion, I think I must fully explain the meaning of the previous sentence. As I have said, I will love my wife according to the teachings, and my wife is you, so I love you, and I have always conveyed this to you, and it was only after being reminded by Daria Alexandrovina that I knew that maybe you don't like it," Karenin paused and continued, "no, I should say very much that I don't like it. ”
"I still don't fully understand the meaning of what I said, and it seems to me that what I said is very logical, and that a husband should naturally love his wife, but I have to consider the advice of Daria Alessandrovina. After some assumptions and reflections, I thought that if my wife was someone else, maybe I could still control my brain very rationally. ”
Karenin pursed his lips slightly as he said that, and he looked at his wife, who kept looking at him until he stopped.
"Can you accept and understand my explanation?" Karenin reached out and took Anna's hand, his tone softer than ever.
These words may still be so vague, but Anna knows that for this man, it is completely straightforward.
Wrapped in the cloak of his sanity and logic, she did see something that the whole world might not see.
"By now, it would be despicable for me to run away, Alexei Alexandrovich." Anna said.
Karenin frowned slightly, not understanding what Anna meant.
"Do you think we love each other? Alexei Alexandrovich. ”
Listening to Anna's words, Karenin looked at the other party.
Anna looked up, she could read Karenin's thoughts in his furrowed brow, and she actually regretted it a little, because she went against her own reason, and allowed her impulsive sensibility to dominate it all, and began the conversation between the two of them with love or not.
Think about it, it was she who mentioned love.
If those who had known her knew her, how would they be shocked and disdainful to laugh when they knew all this, and perhaps they would have said that how could a heartless and selfish person like her know how to love?
But after the words were spoken, Anna saw those blue eyes, and the countless excuses that could make the words come true in her stomach were accumulated in her stomach, which made her feel a little painful, but she didn't want to confide it.
"Anna." Karenin simply called her name.
A few days earlier, Karenin had heard Anna ask this, and he would have frowned and told her the answer, as if the question was not worth thinking about, but now, he was not sure.
For a moment, a man like Karenin was terrified.
"Don't worry." Anna said, and then smiled again, but although the smile was not relaxed, it did not carry any burden, as if it was her smile.
"I just, want a request."
"What a request." Karenin asked, his tone soothing and relaxed.
Anna looked at Karenin, her gray eyes shining with water, but not weak.
"If I can't, I wish I could leave." She said quietly.
Karenin said in silence, reminding him of Anna's previous sensitivity to the topic of divorce.
"You want a divorce?"
"Not necessarily, maybe, or just not in Petersburg." Anna said.
"I don't understand." Karenin said, pursing his thin lips, "Tell me why, Anna." ”
Anna looked at Karenin, and then said: "I can't tell you, you can't ask anyone else, if one day I will tell you, or you yourself can understand......"
"You're not confident." Karenin interrupted Anna's words, and the latter was stunned for a moment.
"Nope." She pursed her lips and said.
Karenin's blue eyes were filled with a cold emotion, and he analyzed Anna as if he were analyzing someone else, which also proved that the divorce sentence made him a little angry.
"Although I don't understand why you are like this at this moment, but Anna, we are not going to divorce, I don't ask you to think about my situation, but you have to think about Seryosha."
Anna looked Karenin in the eye and said, "You know me very well, and I am not the kind of person who would be afraid of that. She approached Karenin, "I'm not that kind of good woman, I'm selfish and cold, I'm that kind of person, don't you understand?" ”
"I understand." Karenin's eyes moved, and just as Anna was about to say something, the man kissed her on the lips.
Anna was a little surprised, she instinctively refused, but was pressed hard by the other party, and then, Karenin let go of her hand.
Anna tried to push Karenin away, but a warm, dry hand lifted, took her slightly cold hand, slowly moved upwards, and pressed it to the position of the pulse.
Karenin's voice was low: "You are trembling. ”
"And you're forcing a woman, even though she's your wife." Anna said sarcastically.
Feeling Karenin's hand press on her pulse, the former calmly said just before Anna could come up with a better explanation: "You're lying." ”
"I didn't." Anna said.
Karenin left Anna's body slightly, then lifted Anna's wrist, glanced at it, and said, "I know from Dr. Cullens that when people are afraid or lying, their pulses and hearts always beat faster."
Anna was stunned, Karenin gently rubbed the skin on her wrist, lowered her voice and said: "Don't say that kind of thing easily, Anna, that's terrible, I also beg you, think about my feelings." ”
After half a ring, Anna said, "You did it on purpose. ”
"Maybe Slyuddin's method is good, but I have my own way." Karenin said. 166 Reading Network