Chapter 120: Self-hatred

"Venerable Lord, there is news from the Young Venerable Lord that Yang You has ascended the throne."

"Good! Qing'er did a good job! In this way, Beizheng is under our control. In the dimness, the old man's chaotic eyes suddenly burst out with two rays of light, where did he look like a dying man?

"Congratulations, Lord!"

The old man waved his hand meaninglessly and said, "It's not worth anything!" Sue sΓΉ Qing'er, be careful in everything, and never be careless! ”

"Yes!" Yu Fuyao responded.

"What about the little prince?" The old man asked uneasily.

"Did the lord ask Yang Ji? He was saddened by the death of his father and committed suicide and followed. ”

When the old man heard this, he smiled with understanding.

"What's the news in the palace?"

"There was no news. The Jing clan took the control of the Imperial Forest Army and the internal guards into his own hands, and even a few commanders had to obey He Chong, and He Chong was only loyal to the Jing clan. Jing's methods are extremely sharp, and most of the people we have planted in the palace have been discovered in the past few days. Fortunately, they were loyal to the lord and did not leave any handle in Jing's hands. ”

Yu Fuyao said, his brows tightened, and he said apologetically: "It's the incompetence of his subordinates!" Please rebuke the Lord! ”

The old man sighed, shook his head, and said, "It's not all your fault for this. It's also the old man's negligence! Back then, only the Duan clan was a bad one, and she retreated, thinking that there were two small ones left, what could she do? I can't think of it! This eldest lady of the Jing family is inconspicuous and seems to be gentle, but in fact she is such a ruthless character inside! ”

While we were discussing, there was a sudden sound of hurried footsteps outside the dark room.

Yu Fuyao was shocked first, and hurriedly protected the old man's body.

There was a muffled "bang", and the door of the dark room was slammed open from the outside, and the slender figure of the young man was projected in the darkness.

"Why is he here?" The old man groaned, with a hint of anger.

"It's the negligence of the subordinates!"

Yu Fuyao blocked the young man's way, bowed down and said, "Lord Wang! This is the old master's resting place, not the place where the prince should come. Please also ask the prince to ......"

Before he finished speaking, he was robbed by the young man and said, "The surname is Yu!" Have you not done enough? ”

Yu Fuyao was not frightened, and smiled disdainfully: "Lord Wang, you can't afford to say this!" I don't know how I offended you? Is it a loss of your food and drink, or a loss of your ...... Medicine? ”

Hearing the word "medicine", the young man subconsciously trembled. He burst into a loud cry, and seemed to have regained his former braveryβ€”

"I hate ......"

Before he finished his cruel words, the old man interrupted him coldly: "Da'er! If it weren't for the love of raising you since childhood, you would think you still have a life! What did you do in secret, don't you know what the old man does? Or are you ...... Tired of living? Want to die? ”

Yu Wenda faced the old man, his fists clenched and "gurgled".

The old man snorted and said, "The old man knows that you are not afraid of death. But the taste of that medicine also makes you enjoy it very much, right? ”

He glanced at the cold sweat on Yuwenda's forehead, as well as the fragile body that couldn't help but tremble, and said coldly: "Do you want that medicine again?" Fu Yao, give him medicine! Let him fuck off! ”

For a few days in a row, Shi Ran personally boiled the medicine on time every day, personally sent it to Kuntai Palace, and watched Jing Yan drink it into his stomach with his own eyes, and only after cutting the pulse did he dare to leave with confidence.

Jing Yan's illness has improved greatly, although "the illness comes like a mountain, and the illness goes like a thread", the accumulated heart disease can not be cured overnight. But seeing that the Queen Mother's face was becoming more and more ruddy, and her lips were becoming more and more like a healthy person, Shi Ran couldn't help but sigh that the miracle medicine was the miracle medicine.

Today's Sleep Soup is the last pair. No matter how good the medicine is, it can't be used every day, not to mention that this medicine is extremely powerful?

Shi Ran is sure that the Queen Mother has taken the Mianxin Soup, and then supplemented by the prescription she prescribes for dietary therapy and conditioning, and she will be able to heal after a long time.

Jing Yan stared at the medicine cup in the tray on the table, still with a faint smell of blood-

How long does it take to get used to a zΓ i?

How long does it take to get used to someone's sustenance?

Her plain hand swiped over the pattern on the tray, and the love that had been turbulent a few days ago had calmed down a lot.

What was the faint aura that wafted in the Kuntai Palace, she knew very well.

That's the smell of blood.

Whose blood is it, her heart is even more like a mirror-

Including Wuwu, all the people's reactions before and after, she saw it in her eyes.

The only thing she didn't know, and the only thing she wanted to know, was that ...... How is that blood......

Can't think!

Don't think about it!

Because, even if she thought about it a little, she wanted to kill herself!

Yes, at this moment, compared to the deep complaint that Yu Wenrui didn't care about the society, she hated her own existence even more.

She hated her own existence and let the child hurt herself; But she couldn't kill herself because of this, because it would make the child even more sad.

Think about it: if you are just sick, the child can't wait to overturn the sky and the earth; If it's your own...... That kid is going crazy, isn't it?

She hated herself, hated this body that was still alive, but she couldn't abandon it, because she couldn't live up to it.

Jing Yan smiled bitterly, laughing at himself, thinking that he had read thousands of books, and thought that he had insight into the world and people's hearts, but he ended up in a situation where he couldn't help himself.

Since you can't die, you can only try to live!

She trembled slightly, clasping the edge of the potion cupβ€”

Drink it!

Drink the medicine and the blood!

At this moment, Bingbi suddenly came in and said, "Master! General Wu is back! ”

Wu!

"Xuan!" Jing Yan's palm, which was originally holding the medicine cup, suddenly clenched into a fist, and his nails almost cut into his palm, and he was red and bloody.

Shi Ran looked at the palm that had left the medicine cup, and his heart also tightened.

Wu Bin strode into the inner hall of Kuntai Palace, and he didn't care about the etiquette, and said hurriedly: "Queen Mother!" ι™›xiΓ  is back! ”

Jing Yan's delicate body was shocked, Rao is resolute temperament, and forced herself to stay, "Where is it?" ”

"Your Majesty has already entered the Imperial Capital City with the White Arowana!" Wu Bin's face was overjoyed, "Your Majesty is afraid that the Empress Dowager and the Empress Dowager will be alarmed, so I ordered the ministers to rush back to report the news first!" ”

Hearing the news that the man was close at hand, Jing Yan actually felt a sense of grievance for no reason in his heart. But why do you feel wronged? She didn't have time to think about it, let alone think about it.

"Who else is with her?"

"There are also Master Meng with a few masters, plus the guards in the palace to escort them." Wu Bin replied truthfully. He suddenly thought of something, and a look of embarrassment appeared on his face.

Jing Yan was secretly shocked and said solemnly: "What? Is there anything wrong? ”

Wu Bin is a sincere person, and he hurriedly said: "There is nothing wrong!" It was only when the Queen Mother asked who else was beside Her Majesty, and the minister ......"

Jing Yan's mind swept over the voice of Queen Mo Nan that he vaguely heard in his sleep that day, and the expression on his face was about to freeze, "Who else is there?" ”

"And ...... And a little girl! ”

Little girl? Queen Mo Nan's age is not younger than Sanssouci, right? Can you describe it as a little girl?

"Where's the little girl?" Jing Yan asked this sentence, and he didn't realize the sharpness hidden in it.

Wu Bin's back tightened, and he said truthfully: "The minister really doesn't know ......."

"That's it! The mourning family knows! You've done a great job of escorting you, and you've worked hard! ”

Jing Yan said, turned his face and saw the medicine cup in the tray, grabbed it suddenly, tilted his neck, and drank it cleanly.

Shi Ran was a little stunned.

"Shi Aiqing." Jing Yan slowly turned to Shi Ran, and the corners of his mouth still had a touch of maroon.

"The minister is here."

"Mourning your family's order, from now on, prepare the dietary prescription to replenish qi and blood and hand it over to the imperial kitchen to do."

"Don't worry, the queen mother, the minister has already prepared the food therapy prescription for you." Shi Ran was confident.

"It's not for the mourning family," Jing Yan looked at him deeply, "It's for the emperor." ”

That person has already arrived in Jingshi, and it probably won't take half an hour to see him, right?

Will she go and say hello to the queen mother first? Or go to Chongyang Palace to deal with state affairs first? Maybe...... Coming directly to Kuntai Palace?

Jing Yan looked at the person in the rhombic mirror, vaguely the old appearance. The difference is that he is no longer haggard as before, and his cheeks are still a little thin, but they have a shallow and healthy flush.

Jing Yan hasn't looked in the mirror for a long time, even if she is doing her usual daily makeup, she still lowers her eyes and is at the mercy of the maids.

The self in the mirror is no longer young. Shaohua did not leave her, she was almost twenty-eight years old, such age and experience made her a little more charming of a mature woman and the dignity of a superior, the two temperaments are intertwined in one place, and she has a breathtaking look.

Jing Yan pursed his lips at himself in the mirror-

She knows that she is very beautiful at this moment.

Bingbi observed the words and looked at the color, and said tentatively: "The master wants to change into bright clothes?" ”

Jing Yanxiu frowned slightly: "What to do?" ”

Bingbi was embarrassed, so he had to bite the bullet and say: "Your Majesty has returned to the palace, master, you ......"

Jing Yan seemed to have been poked in the sore spot suddenly, and said angrily: "She left the palace without permission and ignored her family and country, is there any merit?" Do you want to dress up to meet her? ”

Bingbi shrunk his neck, silently looked at Shi Mo, and scolded in his heart: You are so angry with her, just facing the mirror, what is that expression? seems to be angry and happy, what kind of trouble?

"Master, then what should we wear to greet Your Majesty?" Shi Mo is not afraid of death.

"What you usually wear, wear today!" Jing Yan was stunned and said hurriedly, "Why did the mourning family greet her?" The mourning family is the queen mother, she should come to confess her mistake to the mourning family in person! ”

Bingbi and Shimo glanced at each other, and they both saw the same sentence in each other's eyes-

Hard mouth!

The little wrongdoer finally appeared in front of him again, alive, neither in a dream nor in an imagination.

She really didn't go to greet the queen mother first, nor did she go to Chongyang Palace to ask about politics, she entered the palace, and went straight to herself.

Jing Yan watched the man come in, watched the man walk towards him, and said that he was not moved, not sad, and said that his heart was not sour, bitter, itchy, or painful, it was all fake.

She seemed to be getting taller again, more like a big girl. No, she's eighteen years old.

Her face was a little emaciated, a little haggard, and her face was pale, lacking blood.

It was as if the two of them were upside down, and all the qi and blood she had been withdrawn from her body were poured into her body.

Jing Yan sat upright, his fingertips trembled invisibly, and he wanted to pull over the person and ask her: Why did you leave your home, country and ...... Yourself, just gone?

I want to ask her: What have you done these days, and why is your face so ugly?

However, the man was smiling and groaning, not as turbulent as himself. She actually pulled a little girl of seven or eight years old, what did she say to that little girl?

"Auspicious, call the queen mother!"

At that moment, Jing Yan thought that he had recovered from a heart disease and suffered from an ear disease again.