When I realized that I liked Ji Chuyan, it was three years after I met him.

At that time, I was twenty-six, eighteen years old, and I knew about those loves/loves at an early age.

But for these things, I haven't tried them at all, and I haven't thought that I will have such thoughts about Ji Chuyan.

It was also from that time that I saw my first brother die at the hands of Wei Che.

Wei Che is the second prince, but because he is a descendant, he is on the same level as the eldest emperor's brother Wei Lian, and the political / governance talents of Wei Lian and Wei Che are the most outstanding of all the princes.

The third emperor brother Wei Yu is also a talented man with a full stomach for money, and the fifth emperor brother Wei Shen is an all-rounder who knows almost everything.

I'm the only one who only knows how to eat, drink, play and play games, the most useless of the five brothers, but I'm also the latest one to be targeted by Wei Che.

Because Wei Che and Wei Lian's talents are comparable, the father is also very entangled in whether to choose the eldest son or the son-in-law as the crown prince.

When his father hadn't made a decision yet, Wei Che couldn't help it.

On the third day of the autumn hunt, Wei Che asked me to go hunting, and I naturally pulled Ji Chuyan on the board.

When I saw that the eldest brother was already waiting on the top of the mountain, I thought it was really just a game between brothers.

Before that day, I was really too pampered.

The rules of the game are set by Wei Lian, and the place is chosen by Wei Che.

Even idiots know that going to a place like the top of a mountain to compete in a hunt is a game of life.

In order to save my face and my life, I pretended to fall off my horse.

Then there is a righteous and bright reason to stay where you are and rest.

"Little fool, come and stay with this prince." Ever since he forgot to shake off my hand and change his clothes and watch me for a night, I've defined him as a "little fool."

He didn't have any opinion on this title, so the more I called it, the happier I became.

But Ji Chuyan, a little fool, wanted to play with Wei Che and them, so I grabbed the person and told him that hunting would make my clothes dirty.

This little fool really believed it, and sat down with me unwillingly.

After a long time, a sentence came out: "This is the first time my father brought me to autumn hunting, listening to my father, it's very fun." ”

"What a fool, you think it's fun to get mud all over your clothes? Your dad lied to you. ”

I continued to flicker around him without blushing and my heart beating.

This fool looked intently at Wei Che and Wei Lian, who were ready to go, obviously still a little unwilling.

However, how can I let the fool play with them, one of these two is the emperor in the future, if the fool's kung fu is favored by them, won't there be no time to play with me in the future?

Don't.

But am I really just afraid that there will be no one to play with?

The little fool looked at his clothes, frowned, and finally said to me as if he had made some important decision: "I still want to play with the eldest prince and the second prince." ”

After speaking, the little fool was about to leave, but I didn't think about it, and immediately grabbed his hand: "Don't go." ”

Because I was in a hurry to speak, I might have thought I was angry, so the little fool was dumbfounded, staring at me for a long time, without speaking, and without moving half a step on his feet.

"Why?"

After the little fool reacted, he said these three words to a burst of embarrassment, yes, why?

On what basis do I stop a man from doing what he wants to do? No one can sway the will of another person, even if I am the prince.

But I cheekily pulled him on top of me and sat him down, and then held him down, because he was taller than him, and it was easy to subdue him.

"Haha, see how you go."

When I said this, my tone was full of smugness, very inflated, completely forgetting how weird and ambiguous such a posture is.

But it was the little fool's face that suddenly turned red that reminded me.

I let him go a little embarrassed, and he immediately sat aside, never mentioning anything about playing with Wei Che and them again.

When the match between Wei Che and Wei Lian began, a muffled thunder suddenly sounded in the sky.

This ghost weather, obviously the sun was shining a moment ago, and now it has become this ghost.

"Brother Huang, Brother Huang, let's go back quickly, it may rain in a while."

I shouted to the two men, but no one paid any attention to me, perhaps not to hear me, and in the next moment the two horses ran out like arrows from the string.

The two rushed down the hill and chased each other as if they were going to fight for their lives.

"Little fool, that ......"

"What?"

"It's fine."

As soon as I finished saying this, I saw that the eldest brother's horse legs suddenly bent down, throwing the eldest brother off the horse's back.

I thought it was just like this, but I didn't expect that after Wei Lian was thrown off, his body kept rolling down the mountain until he hit a big rock, and then stopped.

Later, the accompanying imperial doctor came and said that he was dead.

During this period, I stood in place, not even daring to approach, this was the first time I saw someone die in front of me, it was still my eldest brother, and the murderer turned out to be my own brother Wei Che.

Because not long after their horse ran out, I saw a silver glow disappearing next to Wei Che, and then I saw that it was on the leg of Wei Lian's horse for a moment.

This is what I wanted to say to the little fool but didn't say it.

The fewer people who know these secrets, the better, after all, at that time, I still thought Wei Che was my own brother.

Afterwards, I went to Wei Che, and after he knew that I had seen something bad for him, the murderous aura on his body became heavier and heavier.

At that time, I hadn't seen the extent of his suspicions, or I wouldn't have been so honest with him.

Just when I thought he was going to kill me, he told me to go.

What he means is that as long as I don't say it, and it's still his own brother, he will never do anything to me, and this incident will always be considered an accident.

Of course, after a long time, Wei Lian's death was really treated as an accident.

Later, on the day of the funeral, Wei Lian's blue-gray and slightly swollen face still showed a feeling of death, and I almost threw up on the spot, but fortunately Wei Che pulled me away.

The father lost his beloved son, and he seemed to be ten years old all of a sudden, which made people look very uncomfortable.

Everyone thought that the eldest prince was dead, and the matter of establishing the prince could probably be basically settled.

Just when all the ministers began to move closer to Wei Che's side, the father once again announced that there was no need to be so hasty in the matter of appointing the crown prince, and he planned to abolish the rule of the ancestors to establish a successor and choose the best one among the remaining four princes.

This led to the tragic death of the Third Emperor Brother and the Fifth Emperor Brother, of course, since I saw the eldest Emperor Brother die at the hands of Wei Che, I deliberately avoided all the princes.

For people like me, who are very life-sparing, death is still rare.

Later, I wondered when I started to stop worrying about my little life.

Probably after killing the first woman who approached the little fool.

Maybe it was after realizing that my feelings for that little fool were getting deeper and deeper.

Or maybe it was earlier, even earlier?

I don't remember.

But to this day, I still remember the pleasure/feeling of strangling that woman to death for the first time, it was a kind of satisfaction that could not be obtained in any way, like, as long as the woman died, the little fool would always be mine.

Just because the woman looked at the little fool and smiled and threw him a peach blossom, she was doomed to die.

To see who is not good, it depends on the person I like, and who is not good to throw it to, I want to throw it to him.

Speaking of which, I was really guilty in the second half of my life.

I always thought that although Wei Che and I were brothers, the essence of me and him was different.

He's bloodthirsty, and I'm not.

But when I ripped off the leg of the first Gu worm and killed the first woman who approached Ji Chuyan, I realized that the essence of me and Wei Che was the same.

Oh, it's people who have the same blood, even if their personalities are different, but in some ways they are still quite similar.

Perhaps, bloodlust is the most basic similarity between me and Wei Che as brothers.

It's just that the purpose is different.

He's for the throne, and I'm just for my love.

In this way, I always feel that I am romantic and great, but when I think that the love I want is to use the blood of so many women as a stepping stone, it becomes a disgusting thing.

Even I have become disgusted with myself.

On the one hand, he didn't dare to tell the little fool what he thought, for fear that in the end even the only friendship between the two would be broken, and on the other hand, he hated other women approaching him.

People like me can't do anything but do more hopelessly.

Li Anran's daughter was even more bold, she even gave away a close-fitting jade bracelet, and came to the general's mansion every day to occupy the time that the little fool was with me in the name of delivering pastries.

At that time, it seemed to me that this woman was just ignorant of the times and extremely stupid.

They also agreed to marry in front of me, so I killed her, and in order to vent my anger, I dismembered her and threw her into the well water.

It was the worst death at my hands, and the last one I ever killed.

After that, I began to have nightmares, so I proposed to Wei Che, who had already ascended the cold throne, to travel far away.

I, the person who was working against him, was going out, and Wei Che was of course twelve points willing, and immediately helped me prepare my luggage, as if urging me to leave.

It's just what I want.

I've traveled a lot, but I've always had that one person in mind.

The Buddha said that there are eight sufferings in life, birth, old age, sickness and death, love and separation, resentment and hatred, unwantedness, and five yin flourishing.

A good love parting, a good one can't ask for.

Even if I have traveled a long way in the past year and thought about it a lot, as long as I am free, I still think of a lot of time with Ji Chuyan.

And, it seems, the farther away from South Vietnam, the more I miss him.

The longer I was away from him, the more I couldn't let go.

So, in the end, I came back.

I knew that when I came back this time, something big would happen.

On the way back, I had already heard that Wei Che had already attacked Ji Chuyan, and Wei Che knew that I had always been close to Ji Chuyan.

Another purpose of demoting him to his official position this time is to bring me back.

As soon as I returned, I couldn't escape, and Wei Che couldn't tolerate a person who knew too many of his secrets to live in this world, even if it was his own brother, because he also knew that I was also a bloodthirsty demon.

Just as I knew who he killed, he knew who I killed. We knew each other, but we tacitly maintained a semblance of calm, just waiting for the moment when the final storm rose.

When that moment comes, I am willing to die to atone for my sins.

This article is from Reading Rim Novels