I know that in this college, Daystar is omniscient.

Late that night on the day I declared my loyalty, Daystar came to me and said he was glad I had chosen him. I asked him, don't you doubt my loyalty? He smiled and said that he knew me, and he knew that I would never change my mind.

Yes, he understands me, he knows, he knows everything.

Then I became a vicious dog under him, and I did anything for him except good deeds, which he only did, even if it was only superficial good.

I grew up under him day by day, and I removed obstacles for him, obstacles on the surface, obstacles under the dark tide, I wiped out countless living beings, involving all races and all classes. It wasn't long before anyone who knew Daystar knew that he had an excellent hound under his seat that would bite anyone who was disobedient.

Later, I had a problem with my body, and every once in a while I would lose my mind, and I would attack anyone I saw, and every time I lost my mind, the scene would be a mess for me. I told Daystar about it, and Daystar gave me a full physical examination, and then he said that he couldn't find the reason for it, so I could only let myself stay away from the crowd when I felt the omen, and try not to hurt innocent people.

He's lying, I know he's lying, these sudden frenzyes came after an operation, and he must have done something to cause it. Yes, that's right, after the organ replacement, he operated on me many times, and he also moved countless hands and feet in it, I know it, maybe he also knows that I know, but he and I also know that no matter what he does to me, I will always be as loyal as ever, this is probably the dead man written in the novels that students love to read, right? No emotion, absolute loyalty, only obedience and the rising star.

Once my mission was to kill Alice, who had changed her mind, but Alice thought I was fighting for favor, I didn't understand, I was already Daystar's most loyal dog, and there were countless obstacles to clear for him, so why should I compete for favor?

But I failed, I couldn't match a golden dragon on my own, she and I were bruised in a fight far from the academy, but she still had her husband, another golden dragon to take her home, and I had no friends, the only family was Daystar, and he wouldn't come to pick me up.

I'm dying in the jungle, I'm not from the jungle, I'm from the snow, I don't understand the rules of survival in the jungle, I'm lost in the jungle, but I'm only more dying if I stay in it.

On the third day, thinking that I was going to die in the jungle, Mr. and Mrs. Dilland saved me.

Mr. and Mrs. Tilan were bounty hunters, but they were very kind people, they healed me, they gave me hot soup, they were gentle, there was no malice in their words and deeds, and there was no deception.

The soup cooked by the huntress was delicious, but the stir-fry with the iron plate was a mess, but the male hunter made up for the lack of the female huntress with barbecue, although the dishes stir-fried by the male hunter were also unpalatable.

They like to drink a glass of freshly boiled milk in the morning and boil a pot of soup with bones and red moon grass in the evening. The peculiar thing is that the red moon grass is obviously not delicious to eat, raw and cooked, but the bone broth boiled with it is particularly fragrant, but the fragrance will not spread ten meters away to attract other hungry beasts.

They always like to sit around the campfire and chat, talk about family things, talk about news, talk about big things, or gossip.

They told me that they had a lovely daughter who had just been born, and that his wife was going to name her Asah, which means the rising sun in the east, and that she wanted her to be as bright and enthusiastic as the sun, and to bring dawn to others. The husband plans to name his daughter Lan, he hopes that his daughter will become a noble and elegant lady, and he also hopes that his daughter can be fragrant for a hundred years in the most beautiful posture.

The wife insisted that her daughter would become a good huntress like herself, but the husband hoped that her daughter could be quiet and become a noble woman with great power, but the quarrel was fruitless, and their daughter's name was always vacant.

After the conversation, we will go to the tree to look at the stars for a while, when we fall asleep, and when we see it. Although I always can't find a comfortable place to sleep in a tree, the advantage is that there are fewer mosquitoes, and I hate bugs the most, and there are no bugs in the snow.

The next morning, after which they would finish another glass of boiled milk and begin to lead me out of the jungle.

The days went on for nearly a week, the jungle was so big that I was lost too far and dragged me, the wounded, and the couple had to walk for a week to reach the edge of the jungle.

Today is the day of the bandage, and my various serious injuries are healed very quickly regardless of the expensive consumption of potions, although there are still some minor injuries on the body, but in general, there is no major problem, as long as I sleep a little better in the past two days.

I didn't see any serious injuries and turned into human form, and the couple was shocked to see it, they probably thought I was just an atavistic orc, right? No, it's not, I'm a proto-beast.

But this relaxed atmosphere didn't last long, because Daystar came.

Daystar's first sentence was a thank you: "Thank you for healing Kamanos, which saved me a lot of medical and surgical expenses."

But the Dillans didn't buy it, they looked at me in disbelief, and even their voices trembled as they spoke: "Haman, you're Levitra's dog?!"

Yes, I am, I'm Daystar's dog, the notorious rabid dog Kamanos.

"Haman, kill them."

This is an order, no doubt. I don't understand, why would Daystar want me to kill the person who saved me? These two people are so kind, they didn't get in the way of becoming a morning star, they even saved me, why do you want me to kill them?

"Father...... Do you have a grudge against them?"

"That's right, I have a grudge against them, go ahead, kill them, and the time has come to prove your loyalty."

Loyal?

Loyal.

Loyal!

Loyalty, loyalty, loyalty!

LoyaltyLoyaltyLoyaltyLoyaltyLoyalty!!

「……」

Loyal...... ?

"I see."

Sorry, Gverelle Tilland; I'm sorry, Joy Mark Dilan.

I am a dog, a loyal dog, a ...... Only loyal dogs remain.

On this day I finally understood the true meaning of madness, and I also understood why so many people are afraid of the morning star, and I finally became a dog that lived up to my name, the rabid Kamanos.

Since then, Daystar has believed in me even more, because he finally saw that I was an absolutely loyal dog; But he didn't believe me anymore, for fear that I would lose my loyalty and bite back.

I suddenly had some envy for the students in those colleges, for whom life is only truth and themselves, and their innocence is always childish and cute.

……

One day, after the first surgery, Daystar told me that my condition had deteriorated, and that every time I lost my mind, my time was shortening. But it doesn't matter, he recently developed a drug that is still in the experimental period, and taking a pill every three days can prolong my loss of mind as long as possible.

I am very obedient and I take my medicine well every time. But it didn't work, this time the time to stay sane was still shorter than the last time, and the time for my next madness was still earlier.

Finally, one time, the time for my madness came the day before I took the medicine, and the suppressed outburst in my chest was extremely painful, and I hurriedly left the border of the Mage Country before I had time to take the medicine, and ran far, far away, far away from the center of the main continent.

It was this time that made me realize my rebellious heart, it turned out that I had never been loyal, maybe Daystar saved me and I would have a good impression of him, but it was not loyalty - this kind of distorted loyalty.

The so-called loyalty is all the illusion that appeared after he controlled me, and when I killed my benefactor and began to doubt myself, he noticed the difference, and then developed a new "loyalty medicine" to continue to control me, and the effect of the medicine lasted for three days, so he asked me to take it once every three days, and never stopped.

I began to fear the person of Daystar, no, he can't be called a human, he is simply a demon in human form, a devil!

At the same time, I was also very guilty, because I killed the innocent Dilan couple, they saved me, but I obediently killed them, and I even wanted to kill myself to avenge them!

But I know it's useless to commit suicide...... Maybe someone else's hand can kill me? They used to tell me that they had a mother besides their daughter, a hunter, and that the once-glorious "Queen of the Lost" was now famous in the Bounty Hunters' Guild. Maybe I can ask their mother to come and stab me against the enemies who killed my son and daughter-in-law, and in doing so, will she be relieved?

I do not know.

On my way to find the Lost Queen, it dawned on me that this was not atonement at all, but a, stupid way of redeeming myself.