Li Xiaoxue didn't listen to Cao Yingying's words, her two hands had already covered her ears hard, and she was begging in pain, almost begging: "Don't mention him to me again, okay?" Not only don't you talk to me about him again, but you don't mention anything about my past, okay? ”

"Xiaoxue!" Cao Yingying still had Li Xiaoxue a little bit, screaming like this, so she grabbed Li Xiaoxue's wrist and pulled it to the side, "What are you?" Even if I don't say anything, I don't say anything, what has happened, it has already happened, can it still be erased? You covered your ears, so what? If you can't hear, are you quiet? The best way to solve the problem is to face it! What are you? Are you going to be a deserter for life? You're just going to do it, do you think, you're really going to do it? Have you forgotten that most of the money for the art exhibition you are holding is borrowed from Jiajia? Now, if you don't continue to hold this exhibition, your previous efforts will be wasted, and your money will be wasted? ”

Li Xiaoxue cried, shook her head vigorously, and said, "Don't say it!" Stop it! I don't care about that! ”

"Xiaoxue!" Cao Yingying shook Li Xiaoxue's body vigorously again, "This is not like you!" Li Xiaoxue has always been like this! You cheer up some, can you? There's a lot more to do! How can you do that? ”

"Do you think I want that? I don't want to! But why? Why do I have to live the way I am? I haven't done anything unconscionable, so why should I bear it? Yingying, I don't become, I really don't! I'm not crazy yet, I'm really lucky! Leave me alone! Just let me have some peace! Who's owed me money for the exhibition, I'll definitely find a way to repay it. Please, let me be quiet......" Li Xiaoxue cried, and struggled a few more wrists, where did Cao Yingying earn it?

Cao Yingying once again firmly controlled Li Xiaoxue's wrist in her palm, and said unceremoniously: "You can be quieter, you do need a period of rest, but you can't be sluggish!" What you need to face, you have to face. After you've rested, you need to regroup......"

Li Xiaoxue only felt that a mountain was pressing on her, and she couldn't listen to it anymore: "Don't say it, please don't say it again!" I don't have the strength to fight anymore. To be where I am today, I am already gritting my teeth. I really can't! Stop pushing me! ”

Cao Yingying and Li Xiaoxue shouted: "Am I forcing you?" Did I make you what you are today? Li Xiaoxue, even if there is a lot of helplessness during this period, but, in the final analysis, which path you took was not chosen by yourself? Since, you have chosen, you are responsible for your choice! You especially can't hold back, it's really hard, and you can only go down! ”

Li Xiaoxue's scalp was numb when she heard this, and she couldn't help it, and shouted to Cao Yingying and the world: "No! It's not the life I want at all! ”

Cao Yingying will never allow Li Xiaoxue to shout like this, not only does she not want Li Xiaoxue to stop, but she can't let Li Xiaoxue go back: "The way it is now, of course, is not what you expected, but is life really what you want?" Life will never change its trajectory because of anyone's preferences. The world is unpredictable, not just for you, but for anyone. Otherwise, there will be no sighs in this world. Don't say how helpless you are in life, it's much worse than you. How to say that it is not the life you want? What step did you take that you didn't take on your own? Speaking of which, I'm sorry, but I'm still going to mention your emotions. You and Han Haitao broke up, and there are indeed some objective reasons, such as Aunt Han's obstruction, but did who imposed something on you about Zhong Youcheng's choice? Not only did no one impose anything on you, but some people strongly objected to you and Zhong Youcheng being together, especially, my aunt was even more optimistic about you, but, did you listen? The reason why I've always been on your side is naturally because I don't want you to get too entangled in it. I think you can always make your wise choice, and I always support you. Can you say that your feelings for Zhong Youcheng at that time were fake? If you don't love this person, will you conceive his child? You must say that the current life is not what you really chose, I'm sorry, I can only understand that your heart has changed. ”

Li Xiaoxue especially listened to Cao Yingying's last, slightly blunt words, and was stunned again, collected some tears a little, and said sadly: "My heart is indeed different from before. But, emotionally, I've always been serious. Zhong Youcheng was indeed my own choice, and when I chose him, I did love him, although that kind of love still makes me not very clear. I thought I could use my love to fulfill his dreams, but it was so bad. He even complained to me that I had wasted too much of his precious time. My mother's side, in particular, made me feel a deep sense of guilt. Little by little, I felt the stones on my shoulders, and the stones were so heavy that I couldn't breathe. It's just that this child makes me, I ......, but I ....... Yingying, you may not believe it. This child has come to my dreams several times. Don't shake your head, what I said is true, I really saw this child in a dream, otherwise, I don't have so much courage and determination to keep this child. This child seems to be an emotional connection for me, and what I said in my dreams can almost be connected to reality. It was also this child that made me decide to stay by Zhong Youcheng's side again. For the sake of this child, really, Yingying, I have no complaints about what I am asked to do. I ......"

"Xiaoxue," Cao Yingying, who had also calmed down a bit, was really not willing to talk to Li Xiaoxue about a child who now seemed to be ethereal, "Let's stop talking about this." Saying this will only make you more miserable. ”

Li Xiaoxue shook her head, as if unwilling, and continued: "Do you know, this girl,—— Oh, Yingying, what I dreamed of was a girl,—— she was really ......, and she really died in my dream." She left me in a storm, and she fell into the abyss. She ......"

Listening to Li Xiaoxue's more and more sadness, Cao Yingying interrupted Li Xiaoxue's words again: "Xiaoxue, let's talk about something practical, okay?" Let go of others and don't talk about it, after all, you still have to live yourself. There's still a long way to go. ”

"I can still hear her voice calling out to me as she fell into the abyss." Li Xiaoxue still said this, as if deliberately, she wanted to confine herself to the cage of pain forever, "Her voice, like an arrow, penetrated my heart......"

"Say no more! Stop it! Don't talk about her anymore, okay? Cao Yingying begged Li Xiaoxue instead.

"For her," Li Xiaoxue also said, stunned, "I chose this kind of life, for her, I ignored my mother, for her, I endured everything, doing what I didn't want to do......"

"For her sake, you're no longer yourself!" Cao Yingying said angrily, "You are glorious, you are great, you can use all the words in the world to describe a mother." But now, you're knocked out! Can a mother, a glorious and great mother, be knocked down? If you see your little girl in your dreams again, what kind of face do you have? Is a woman who can give life a knock out and is qualified to be a mother? Even if that little girl knew that her mother was such a fragile person, she would be disappointed, and she would not be able to raise her head in front of the children, right? Xiaoxue, if you think you are still a qualified mother, simply, turn your grief into strength! You still have that long life, how can you just go on like this? ”

Li Xiaoxue's tears suddenly changed to a different taste, as if the child in her belly was really watching her quietly somewhere.

- It was a pair of eyes as clear as a stream, and what those eyes saw should also be blue sky and white clouds.

"Xiaoxue," Cao Yingying also clearly saw a look in Li Xiaoxue's eyes that was different from that of Li Xiaoxue at any time before, she knew that this was the awakening of a person after a heavy pain, "You have always been an excellent person." Be strong, for the people who love you, especially, as you just said, the girl of your dreams, live well. ”

Li Xiaoxue could feel that the tears flowing on her face were hot, but there seemed to be something missing in her body.

Cao Yingying couldn't let Li Xiaoxue hesitate any longer, so she grabbed Li Xiaoxue's wrist tighter: "Life won't always be unfair to you like this." As long as you don't give up, your life will only be more exciting. A lot of people are looking forward to this day. You shouldn't disappoint everyone who thinks about you. Especially, you can't let your aunt be sad for you anymore. Regroup, even if the next one is another vicious battle. Give yourself confidence, give yourself strength, like your once favorite Hemingway's "The Old Man and the Sea", the last beautiful life must belong to you. ”

"The Last Beautiful Life?" Li Xiaoxue repeated these words in a low voice, and couldn't help but ask Cao Yingying, "Can I still do it?" ”

Cao Yingying pulled Li Xiaoxue closer again: "Why not?" Who can't just think about it? ”

"Who can't just think about it?" Li Xiaoxue repeated Cao Yingying's words again, and her eyes gradually became focused, as if she was weighing something in her heart.

Cao Yingying lost no time in letting go of Li Xiaoxue's wrist, got up and took Li Xiaoxue's mobile phone, and said, "Don't think about anything more, just make a phone call to someone, tell people that there is something going on these days, and postpone taking pictures." ”

"This ......" Li Xiaoxue hesitated again.

Cao Yingying solemnly handed the mobile phone to Li Xiaoxue again: "Listen to me, there must be nothing wrong." ”