Chapter 246: Grief

"Let's play!"

Mo'er looked at her sister and expressed her opinion happily, Yan'er turned her head to look at her mother again, Gu Yunshan put down the cup in her hand, looked at Yan'er lovingly and said:

"If you want to play, go play."

Yan'er's smile bloomed, Mo'er pulled Yan'er to stand up, and was about to run out, Yan'er pulled Mo'er back, pulled his courteous bent knee and retreated, and went out of the house, Lan Chu and Zhuqing led, called a few little girls, took all the girls and women, and accompanied the two to play in the back garden.

In the house, I got up early in the morning, and the jade book, which had been excited for a long time, yawned sleepily again and again, and after a while, I stretched my body and fell asleep in Li Xiaonuan's arms.

Li Xiaonuan instructed the little girl to take a few more cushions and pillows, and Zhu Ye took two thin quilts and covered them on their laps respectively, Li Xiaonuan and Gu Yunshan were comfortably crooked on the couch, and withdrew the maiden who was waiting in the house, Li Xiaonuan looked at Gu Yunshan worriedly, frowned and asked:

"Why is the big sister like this? He looks like a forty-year-old! Yesterday, Gu Xiao's daughter-in-law also said that you are very old, and you didn't do a good job in confinement when you gave birth to Yushu? ”

The smile on Gu Yunshan's face froze, subconsciously raised her hand to stroke her face, stayed for a long time, looked at Li Xiaonuan, nodded straight, Li Xiaonuan's eyes shrank, sighed secretly, and changed the topic,

"In May this year, Jin Zhiyang's term of office expired, and I heard that he wanted to find a job in Beijing?"

"Hmm."

Gu Yunshan lowered her eyes expressionlessly, nodded, Li Xiaonuan squinted at her, and said slowly:

"This is really the best, you family, up and down, inside and out, except for the Jin family, are all gathered in the capital! In your house, you are a beautiful wife and concubine, so harmonious and beautiful, it is really a great blessing for Jin Zhiyang!"

Gu Yunshan's face became a little embarrassed, she raised her head with difficulty, her eyes were full of sadness and pain, and she looked at Li Xiaonuan, and after a while, she choked up and said:

"Xiao Nuan, I can also talk to you about this, you are the most reasonable, and you will persuade people, you enlighten me and let me ...... Let me, virtuous ......"

Gu Yunshan lowered her head and covered her mouth tightly with a handkerchief to prevent herself from crying, but she couldn't say anything anymore.

Li Xiaonuan looked at her sadly and silently, waiting for her to ease her mind, Gu Yunshan tilted her head slightly, closed her eyes and paused for a long time, took a deep breath, and then continued:

"I have followed my mother since I was a child to learn three from the four virtues, and I also know that in the seven out of the article, the word 'jealousy' is the most unacceptable, I and Yunqing have been married for so many years, and my son has also given birth to two, what my mother said is, I should also take care of the house, wait for my in-laws, raise my children, who he accepts, who he spoils, men...... It's not all like this......"

Li Xiaonuan listened to Gu Yunshan's persuasion in silence, but he didn't speak, Gu Yunshan looked at the window attentively, and then continued:

"That noble concubine, no matter how expensive it is, it's just a concubine, what can it be? Israel is a person, and if it is declining, it will love it, and then there will be a new person, what can it do? ”

Gu Yunshan was talking to herself, Li Xiaonuan frowned, seeing Gu Yunshan like this, her mood was extremely depressed, go on like this......

"But, Xiao Nuan, you see, I can think about it, I know it, I don't need to be persuaded by anyone!"

Gu Yunshan turned her head violently and looked at Li Xiaonuan, tears flowed down the corners of her eyes, as if she wanted to shed all the sadness under her eyes.

"I know it all...... But in my heart, why can't I let go? Why is it so sad that Ling Chi is burning? ”

Gu Yunshan covered her face with a handkerchief, her shoulders shrugged, and she desperately suppressed her crying, Li Xiaonuan straightened up, supported Gu Yunshan's shoulders, and persuaded in a soft voice:

"If you want to cry, you can cry, I'm here, no one can hear me."

Gu Yunshan lay on the pillow, buried her head in the pillow, and cried so much that her liver and intestines were broken.

Li Xiaonuan sat next to her, stroking Gu Yunshan's back with her hand, and didn't persuade her, just let her cry, if she could cry, it would be good if she could cry.

Gu Yunshan cried for more than a quarter of an hour before she gradually stopped crying, raised her head with red and swollen eyes, looked at Li Xiaonuan, sobbed and nodded,

"I ...... in my heart Open ...... It's better. ”

"Then I'll ask Bamboo Leaves and Cicada Wings to bring water in, and you wash your face?"

Li Xiaonuan asked Gu Yunshan in a low voice, Gu Yunshan hesitated, nodded, Li Xiaonuan raised her voice and called Zhu Ye in, Zhu Ye suppressed the surprise in her heart, her face was calm as if she didn't see Gu Yunshan who was crying and her eyes were red and swollen, she listened to Li Xiaonuan's instructions, turned around and went out, didn't call anyone else, only two cicada wings, waited for Gu Yunshan to clean her face, re-brewed tea, and retreated.

Gu Yunshan's face was a lot soothed, her eyes were lowered, and she was drinking tea a little absent-mindedly, Li Xiaonuan also held a cup, looked at Gu Yunshan, and tasted the tea in one gulp.

Gu Yunshan put down the cup, looked up at Li Xiaonuan, and said with a wry smile:

"I can talk to you about these words, and you won't laugh at me."

Gu Yunshan paused and sighed sadly,

"When I say this, it's all mine, it's all I'm not virtuous, I know this, I'm just talking, we grew up together, you know, the ancestor is a very enlightened person, and the mother is an indispensable character, so I am used to me and Yun Huan having such a temper, Yun Huan is a blessing, the Zheng family has such rules, and she also gave birth to a son early, so I stumbled on this hurdle."

Gu Yunshan's expression darkened, and her voice was full of bitterness,

"I know everything, I know everything that a woman wants to understand, but you don't know, this understanding is one thing, it's really on the head, it's not like that! On the day of Yunqing Na Zou's family, I was really like ashes, I was busy from morning to night, I felt that I was the walking dead, and I also talked and laughed, but I always felt that it was not me, I was floating in the air, and half of the person was already dead. ”

Li Xiaonuan straightened up and looked at Gu Yunshan in a daze, Gu Yunshan lowered her eyes, slowly turned the cup in her hand, laughed lightly, and looked up at Li Xiaonuan,

"That night, I really didn't want to live, and the silk was thrown on the beam, if it weren't for ...... Yan'er suddenly came to knock on the door......"

Li Xiaonuan's fingers trembled, the water in the cup spilled all over his hands, hurriedly put the cup on the table, wiped his hands with a handkerchief, looked at Gu Yunshan, his eyes were full of fear, Gu Yunshan looked at her, handed over the handkerchief in his hand, sighed and said:

"Don't be afraid, after a while, I also felt that I was really stupid, as soon as I stretched my legs and left, what should I do with the three children? I don't know if I can live without a mother, but for the sake of my children, I have to live well, don't you, don't worry. ”

Gu Yunshan smiled distractedly, and her voice fell down little by little,

"Do you have any plans for the future?"

Li Xiaonuan looked at Gu Yunshan and asked tentatively, Gu Yunshan was dazed with indifference, and shook his head,

"What can you do? What can we women plan? In the future, I will take my children and practice Buddhism. ”

Li Xiaonuan tilted her head to look at Gu Yunshan, and asked slowly:

"You will always dwell in one house, and you will live under one roof."

Gu Yunshan shuddered slightly, looked at Li Xiaonuan, and said with a miserable smile:

"In the past few days in Changqing County, I watched my ...... every day Looking at the tenderness and affection of those two people, you still have to smile and be generous...... I took the child and went to Taizhou Mansion, and then ...... Just cultivate the mind, when I look at it, it's like I don't see it, the heart is like a dry well, and it is cultivated. ”

Li Xiaonuan straightened up, looked at Gu Yunshan, and asked bluntly:

"What if I send Zou away?"

Gu Yunshan looked at Li Xiaonuan with stunned eyes, seeing that her face was solemn, and she didn't mean to joke, she was stunned for a while, Li Xiaonuan looked at Gu Yunshan and explained:

"Jin Zhiyang is fanatical about eunuchs, if I force him to send the Zou family, it is just a gesture, even if I force him not to take a concubine from now on, it is not a difficult thing."

Gu Yunshan was stunned, and it took a while to react,

"Xiao Nuan, you? It's a big deal...... You? ”

"Well, I know, I received your letter last year, and I was ready, but I waited for your words."

Li Xiaonuan looked at Gu Yunshan, and said firmly and frankly, Gu Yunshan sat straight, and only came to her senses after a while, and closed her eyes slightly,

"Before the old ancestor left, he wrote me a letter, and there were a few sentences in it, saying, 'Xiao Nuan is his mother's family', I thought at that time, the old ancestor finally gave you to Gu Xiao, who knows...... I don't know until now...... Only then did I understand what the ancestors meant. ”

Li Xiaonuan was stunned, met Gu Yunshan's gaze, her eyes were full of smiles, and she spread her hands and said:

"We sisters, we can't let people bully them for nothing! Just waiting for your words and commands. ”

Gu Yunshan's eyes gradually brightened, and she pondered for a long time before she looked at Li Xiaonuan and said hesitantly:

"It's said that it's hard to collect the water, and when I say this, it's too much, but I ...... in my heart Even if there is no Zou family, there will be no one else in the future, and it will be difficult for him and me to be ...... as before."

Gu Yunshan's voice became lower and lower,

"I know, I'm a little past ......"

"I understand, if I change it, it's the same way, this heartbreak is broken, and I can't make it up if I make it up."

Li Xiaonuan moved forward, took Gu Yunshan's hand, and comforted her, Gu Yunshan breathed a sigh of relief, looked up at Li Xiaonuan, and tears slipped out again,

"I know that in this world, you know my heart...... This is ...... heart"

Gu Yunshan pulled out her hand, wiped her tears with a handkerchief, and took a deep breath,

"Forget it, don't mention it, in the future, I don't want to live in a room with him anymore, and I don't want to care who he accepts or spoils, I just want to keep the children quietly, and when I look at these three children, my heart is the quietest."

"Separation?"

Li Xiaonuan asked in a low voice, Gu Yunshan stayed there for a while, and after a while, he looked at Li Xiaonuan with bright eyes, and asked slightly excitedly:

"Can it work? The kid? ”

Pink ticket, pink ticket, pink ticket!

This slogan shouts, in fact, leisure should be more euphemistic, first say some foreshadowing, and then finally say by the way, "If there is powder, it will be better." ”

Well, next time.