"Look at me! Look at me! Cui Desheng shouted to Li Xiaoxue I don't know how many times.

The more Li Xiaoxue shouted to Cui Desheng, the more panicked she became, and the more she didn't dare to look at Cui Desheng.

"What the hell are you here for? You're a model! Models, you know? You're going to put your best foot forward in front of the camera, you know? What are you thinking? You think you can just stop there and put your money in your pocket, don't you? You girls, I really don't know what kind of dreams you have all day long! Can pie fall from the sky? Even if it can be dropped, it will definitely hit you in the head? With a good face, I want to eat this bowl of rice, and the beautiful things in the world make you people who don't think about it anymore! I'm really getting more and more confused about the boss, so I try everything and think of it here. Cui De's voice was thunderous, blowing his beard and glaring at his eyes, like ants on a hot pot, while walking in the studio without stopping, shouting.

The girl who rubbed Cui Desheng's shoulders yesterday also followed Cui Desheng's impatient body, walking back and forth, and persuaded in her mouth: "Brother, she has just entered the industry, if there is anything that is not in place, you can advise and advise, it will be fine, why be so angry?" ”

"Advice?" Cui Desheng was still snorting and said as he walked, "What else am I going to do with her?" I'm a photographer! I'm not a model coach! I've been very accommodating to her! Too many movements can't be done, and it also makes her pose at will, can't laugh, and whatever kind of expression she has, but can't she even do it when she looks at the camera? ”

The girl who followed her also persuaded: "Brother, you are too anxious." You weren't ...... to Sister Lily back then."

"Alright, alright! Don't talk to me about that again! I've had enough! Cui Desheng said, and walked out of the studio without looking back.

The girl looked at Li Xiaoxue helplessly, and followed out like yesterday.

Li Xiaoxue, who had never behaved so badly at work, watched Cui De snort angrily, and tears filled her stomach.

The whole studio became extremely quiet because of the owner's sleeves.

Li Junhao, who had been silently watching everything that was happening here in a corner of the studio, finally slowly came to Li Xiaoxue's approach after the silence lasted for two or three minutes.

The two of them were separated by two feet, and their heads were drooping, as if they were all at fault.

Li Junhao whispered, first comforting Li Xiaoxue: "Maybe, you are still too nervous." He really shouldn't have yelled at you like that, it's just that he has that temper. When he doesn't lose his temper, he's a pretty good person. ”

Li Xiaoxue shook her head slowly: "I really didn't expect that I would do so badly. I want to do it well, even though I don't have any intention of doing it forever. I've always been dedicated to my work. ”

"I can see it." Li Junhao said affirmatively, and a little helpless, "Sometimes it's really like this." The more we deliberately try to do something well, the result is often not ideal, and the things we make very casually are more appreciative. As a result, many times, we don't even know what kind of mentality we should have to face work. ”

Li Xiaoxue let out a long breath again, and in this breath, there seemed to be a dampness of tears: "In the past, I never thought that there was any job that was not suitable for me to do. I thought that as long as I was willing to work hard, there was nothing I couldn't do. I really know now that there are always things that a person can't cope with on his own. ”

Li Junhao obviously couldn't approve of Li Xiaoxue's self-imposed limitations, raised his face, and said sincerely: "Although I don't know your current plans, your conditions are really very good. As long as you are willing to do it, there will definitely be a place for you in this circle! ”

"Perhaps, my starting point is problematic." Li Xiaoxue said very seriously, "This is a stage that is either up or down, and it is really unrealistic to want to fill up the number and eat a bowl of soup." ”

"Actually," Li Junhao's sincerity was a little more urgent, "I think you still seem to have some prejudice against this circle." This circle does make some people a little muddy, but there are still many excellent people among them. You remove such biases, or you will do ......"

Li Xiaoxue didn't let Li Junhao finish his words: "Maybe, and this kind of concept, not only is it difficult for me to change, but also the people around me." ”

"What do you mean, the people around you don't support you in this business?" Li Junhao asked a little sadly.

Li Xiaoxue turned her face to the side again, but did not respond.

"Why do you have to live in the eyes of others?" Li Junhao was excited, and also said this argument to Li Xiaoxue, "Life is our own, we should live our own style according to our own hearts!" ”

"Your own style?" Li Xiaoxue repeated in a low voice, as if she smiled disdainfully.

"Would you like to hear my story?" Li Junhao asked, couldn't help it, and walked closer to Li Xiaoxue.

Still like in the dressing room, Li Xiaoxue once again felt a wave of heat rushing towards her, and instinctively took two steps back.

In Li Xiaoxue's panic, Li Junhao felt his recklessness, withdrew some feet back, and whispered, repeating what he had just said to Li Xiaoxue.

Li Xiaoxue only lowered her head even more.

Li Junhao, who had neither an answer nor an opposition, paused slightly, but still said: "I was born in a lawyer's family. From a very young age, my parents have planned my whole life for me.

"Of course, I want to pursue a career related to law.

"The reason is as simple as the plan they gave me, that is, not only will I have a good bite to eat, but I will also have a weapon to survive in society.

"But when I didn't graduate from elementary school, I liked, oh, I should say that I was fascinated by photography.

"In the beginning, my parents only regarded it as a hobby for me, so I didn't interfere too much.

"What I didn't expect was that I seemed to be quite talented in photography by nature. Finally won a provincial first-class photography competition juvenile group award, was absorbed by the provincial photography association, and became the youngest member at that time, he was out of control, and almost put all his energy on the camera.

"My grades in school have naturally plummeted, from the top three in the original year group to the bottom all of a sudden.

"Seeing that my studies were affected, my mother forcefully confiscated my camera.

"And I felt like I was going crazy, I couldn't touch the camera, and I felt uncomfortable. Don't do any homework, don't want to eat, and can't sleep.

"For this reason, I don't know how much I listened to my parents' reasoning and how many beatings and scoldings my parents were. But my whole soul is already in photography, what effect can any preaching have on me?

"Finally, one day, after my mother scolded me again, she started crying.

"I will never forget that cry for the rest of my life.

"My mother was crying and talking to me, hoping that I could do my homework again and continue to follow the path they had laid out for me to the 'glory' of my life.

"I've never seen my mom so sad, and I cried and agreed.

"I started to play catch-up.

"But suddenly I was missing that string of learning in my mind, and despite all my efforts, my grades were still not satisfactory.

"Mom and Dad just didn't try my best and continued to nag in front of me.

"I was really miserable at that time, on the one hand, I couldn't do what I wanted to do, and on the other hand, I felt sorry for the people at home, and I even had the idea of committing suicide.

"Maybe I didn't have the courage to die at all, so I just started to give up on myself.

"Seeing that I was depressed at a young age, my parents' reproach for me became much worse.

"I felt their disappointment in me deeply. This disappointment bothered me and enveloped our entire home in a tense atmosphere.

"Soon, my parents turned from blaming me to arguing with each other. This one said that he didn't know how to educate, and that said that there was a problem with this method.

"I really didn't understand at the time, how could I have such a strong influence on them in the distant future?

"I'm actually working very hard, so why do they have to ask me to reach the heights they want me to be?

"Could it be that in my life, I can only do everything they want me to do according to their arrangement, so that they can be comfortable?

"They're relieved, but what about me? What about my heart? Will I have to wait until I see my next generation fulfill the hopes I have placed on me before I feel comfortable?

"When will I be able to be more comfortable with myself?

"Really, don't laugh at me for being just a schoolboy, I really thought that.

"Until one day, I came across an article in a magazine called 'Live for Yourself'. Although I am a little vague about who the author is, I still remember the content of the article vividly.

In this article, it not only tells people to live for themselves, but also shows that it is better to pin their hopes on others than to work themselves.

"The hope pinned on others is easy to be lost, and your own efforts are more effective.

"Not only should no one be controlled by others, but no one should be controlled by others.

"To be controlled by others is to be irresponsible to oneself, and to control others is to be cruel to others.

"Only by doing a good job and giving yourself a sense of accomplishment and happiness can the people around you live a better life.

"It turned out that my parents and I were wrong.

"They pinned all their hopes on me, and even more put the burden of nurturing me on their shoulders.

They could have done something to achieve, but the results were mediocre, and I didn't have the sky I wanted to soar into.

"I showed this article to my parents, and although they can basically agree with most of the views, they still talk hard and explain to me what they think is love.

"I had already made up my mind, I just had to be myself. So, I made it clear that I wanted to get a relaxed environment for growth.

Naturally, they couldn't agree, and they repeatedly stressed to me that I was a sapling that had not yet grown up, and that I would have to be pruned again and again before I could become a towering pillar.

I told them that I had not thought about achieving anything, and that I was not willing to follow the path they had set out. The life that goes against my heart's desires lies with me, and there is no happiness at all.

"They just tore me to shreds the magazine I showed them.

"But I know that if I can't hold on at such a time, my own ideas will only be in vain.

"I started a hunger strike, forcing my mom to return the camera to me.

"At first, they didn't think I was here for real, until one night two days later, my mom finally got me back the confiscated camera.

And then, she cried again.

"Seeing my mother's sad appearance naturally made me feel uncomfortable, but when I was finally able to get my camera back, I still told myself that my life had really begun.

"Speaking of all of this now, of course, there is also the rebellion and recklessness of my youth, and my parents still can't even understand the choices I made for myself. However, in the end, I chose and had what I wanted, even if I would suffer a lot because of it, I could have no regrets. ”