There was no coercion and temptation, no big noise, Qiu Xisheng defeated Chen Wan with a few words and a dream.

After Qiu Xiyan left, Chen Wan lay back on the bed and looked at the ceiling in a daze. He always felt empty in his heart, as if a piece was missing.

There were two voices arguing in my head, and one voice said, "Since it's so uncomfortable, let's go and chase people back!" ”

Another voice said, "What about chasing it back?" Anyway, they all have to break up in the end. ”

The first voice said, "How do you know that you will break up without trying?" ”

The second voice said, "Then you can't bear to let him be separated from his family?" ”

The first voice came a long time and said, "You may lose him forever......"

Chen Wan sighed, feeling that it was a little difficult to breathe.

Lose him forever...... In other words, no one will always revolve around him in the future, no one will be tired of calling him "senior" in a crooked voice, and no one will wait for him with hot milk tea and an umbrella on a rainy night in early spring.

No one wakes him up in the morning, no one pushes him to sleep at night, no one shares with him when he's in a good mood, no one makes him happy when he's in a bad mood......

Qiu Xiyan's three words have long permeated his entire life.

"It's okay", Chen Wan pressed her hand to her eyes and comforted herself, "Anyway, I've been alone for so many years, and now I'm just back alone...... Never mind...... It really doesn't matter......"

He kept saying "it's okay" to himself, but tears still flowed disobediently down his eyes.

I don't know how long I lay in bed, but it was about noon, and Chen Wan was woken up by a knock on the door outside.

He opened his eyes, and the urn cried out angrily.

I don't know if the cold got worse, and his headache got worse. But thinking that the person outside might be Qiu Xiyan, he didn't care about this at all.

When she got down the escalator, Chen Wan's foot slipped and fell directly to the ground from the penultimate ladder. His knee hurt on the iron escalator, but he went straight to the door as if he didn't feel it.

When she opened the door, Chen Wan thought in her heart: "If it is Qiu Xiyan standing outside, no matter what he says, no matter what he wants to do, I will take him away!" It doesn't matter if I can't graduate or don't have a job, as long as I have him, I can do nothing! ”

Chen Wan opened the door, and the people outside shouted, "Senior......"

- but not Qiu Xiyan.

Chen Wan's disappointment was beyond words, but he still reluctantly smiled and greeted the comer: "Ah Zhao, is there something wrong?" ”

"I'll come and see you." Lin Zhao said, and suddenly shouted, "Senior, why don't you wear shoes!" ”

Chen Wan lowered her head to see that she was indeed barefoot. It should be that he was too anxious when he first opened the door and forgot to put on his shoes.

"Come in and put your shoes on, it's so cold, what if you catch a cold." Lin Zhao pushed Chen Wan into the bedroom and watched him put on his shoes.

In this process, Chen Wan recovered from a state of loss of soul. He felt ridiculous, obviously he proposed to break up, but he made himself feel like he had been dumped.

"Senior," Lin Zhao pulled a chair and sat down opposite Chen Wan, as if he didn't know how to speak, "You...... You and Qiu Xiyan ...... You ......"

"We broke up," Chen Wan said generously, "just now." ”

"Why?" Lin Zhao frowned, very puzzled, "Did Qiu Xiyan do something that made you angry?" ”

"No, it's not his fault, it's my ......" Chen Wan was silent for a while and asked, "Did he go to you?" ”

"Well," Lin Zhao nodded, and said sadly, "As soon as I entered the door, I cried a lot, didn't ask questions, and didn't let me go out, I was in a hurry." ”

Chen Wan imagined that scene for a moment and couldn't help but laugh. For a moment, his smile was quickly replaced by worry and solemnity: "So how is he now?" Still at your house? ”

"Yes, I cried for more than two hours, and fell asleep on the sofa." After Lin Zhao answered, he still couldn't help asking, "What's wrong with you?" ”

"Our dad found out, and he wanted him to break up with me."

Lin Zhao's eyes widened, and he said in disbelief: "And then he broke up?" ”

Chen Wan shook her head and said in a low voice, "I wish he was like this...... He didn't agree, got into a fight with his dad, and was locked up. This morning he escaped from his house and found me and asked me to take him away. I...... I turned him down. ”

"Why?"

"Zhao, you know what? If he had gone with me, he might never have been able to go back to that home. ”

"No," Lin Zhao hesitated, "Doesn't Qiu Xiyan's family love him very much?" ”

"It's because his family loves him so much that I can't take him away," Chen Wan said, "His family is very important to him, and I don't want him to lose his family because of me." ”

Looking at Chen Wan, Lin Zhao seemed to see his former self: "But senior, are you sure that after Qiu Xiyan and you are separated, you will be able to go home and soften as you wish?" He's a gay, and even if he's not with you, he'll be with other men. When the time comes, he will also have trouble with his family. ”

Chen Wan raised her head suddenly, looking a little flustered: "No...... No, it won't. Qiu Xiyan is a double, he has been in love with a girl before. ”

Lin Zhao thought about it for a while, Qiu Xiyan seemed to be really double: "Even if this is the case, but do you think that with Qiu Xiyan's temper, things have come to this point, will he really give in to his family?" ”

Chen Wan shook his head slowly, and after a while he said, "But if he breaks up with me, his family won't force him too hard." ”

Lin Zhao said: "Okay, let's not talk about family or not, let's talk about Qiu Xiyan." Did you just drive him away and think about his feelings? ”

"I thought about it, maybe he's going to be upset, he's going to be hard to accept. But it's better to be sad now than to regret it later. ”

"How did you know he would regret it later? Lin Zhao frowned, his tone a little stern, "Senior, what's the difference between you and those family members who insist on their children changing their sexual orientation?" You wishfully think it's for his good to leave him, but have you asked him what he thinks? ”

"What does he think?" Chen Wan smiled bitterly, "He's like a child who hasn't grown up, what else can he think except to make choices on the spur of the moment?" ”

Lin Zhao looked at Chen Wan's eyes and said calmly: "Senior, Qiu Xiyan is already twenty years old, and he has long been an adult. ”

Chen Wan wiped her face with her hand and took a deep breath: "Ah Zhao, I had a dream last night. ”

Chen Wan told Lin Zhao about his dream, the dream was very long, but the scene in the dream was still clearly engraved in his mind.

In the end, Chen Wan's voice was already unstable: "Ah Zhao, I don't want him to resent me in the future!" ”

Lin Zhao took Chen Wan's hand and comforted: "Senior, it's just a dream, and it's not true. Qiu Xiyan is sometimes quite ignorant, but you really don't know how far he can do for you? ”

Chen Wan thought about it, and over the past year, Qiu Xiyan has really changed a lot for him. Most of the time the two go out by bus, and they usually go to a small restaurant to eat. Every time, Qiu Xiyan looked like he was willing to eat, and did not show any discomfort.

Others say that two people with too big an economic disparity are not suitable for this together, because one is accustomed to luxury and the other is accustomed to frugality, and it is difficult for anyone to change for whom.

But when she was with Qiu Xiyan, Chen Wan never felt sad. Sometimes these are not embarrassed because he is accommodating Qiu Xiyan, but more often because Qiu Xiyan is accommodating him.

He always felt that Qiu Xiyan was ignorant, but he suddenly found that he was wrong, very wrong!

Lin Zhao persuaded on the side: "I know that when two people are together, it is difficult to ensure that they will not be separated for the rest of their lives, and there are still divorces after marriage." But just because the outcome may not be good, do we have to give up? If that's the case, everyone should not fall in love, stop studying, and stop working. Anyway, if you fall in love, you may break up, you may fail your studies, and you may be fired if you work. ”

Chen Wan lowered her head and was still thinking, but her heart had already begun to waver.

Lin Zhao was about to speak, when the phone suddenly rang. He stood up and stepped aside to answer.

About a minute later, Lin Zhao hung up the phone, his face solemn: "Senior, Qiu Xiyan's family has already found us." Although Qin Muyang hid him from my father in advance, he was not discovered for the time being, but with the power of the Qiu family, it should not be long before he could find him. If you don't go over, it may be difficult to see Qiu Xiyan again. ”

Chen Wan stood up with a "whew", and she didn't have time to put on her coat: "Then let's go over quickly!" ”

Lin Zhao took the coat and shouted after him: "Senior, put the coat on, it's cold outside!" ”

Sitting in the taxi, Chen Wan was so anxious that she couldn't wait to fly over immediately. He secretly prayed in his heart that Qiu Xiyan would hold on until he passed.

Under Lin Zhao's guidance, Chen Wan had already figured it out. His self-imposed act of departure is not selflessness at all, but selfishness. He kept saying that leaving was for Qiu Xiyan's benefit, but in fact he was making excuses for his cowardice.

No matter what happens in the future, whether they are separated, together, regretful, or resentful, he has to make it clear to Qiu Xiyan! They may break up one day, but not in a muddle like they do now!

When he arrived at the community, Lin Zhao took Chen Wan and entered through the small door. Worried that the Qiu family would send someone to monitor, Lin Zhao also deliberately bought a mask and a few pairs of medicines, and asked Chen Wan to wear a mask and pretend to be a patient.

When the two of them reached the staircase, they saw a stranger wandering nearby.

Seeing those people coming over, Chen Wan covered her mouth and pretended to cough a few times. Lin Zhao patted him on the back and said in a reproachful tone: "I told you that it will cool down in the next two days, but you still don't believe it!" Now it's all right, it's a cold! I'll take the medicine when I go back in a while, and I'll go to the infusion if it's not good. ”

The two of them walked unhurriedly, and they actually fooled the few people over. Lin Zhao took Chen Wan straight to the fourth floor and opened the door with the key.

Qiu Xiyan was not in the living room, and Lin Zhao guessed that he should have hid in the room. He knocked on the door of his room, and Qiu Xiyan's alert voice came from inside: "Who?" ”

Lin Zhao said: "It's me." ”

"Zhao!" There was the sound of approaching footsteps in the room, and Lin Zhao pushed Chen Wan to the front when Qiu Xiyan opened the door.

Qiu Xiyan opened the door, was stunned for a moment when she saw Chen Wan, and then said with a cold face, "What are you doing here?" ”

Chen Wan looked at Qiu Xiyan's red and swollen eyes, and was so distressed: "I want to talk to you." ”

Qiu Xiyan still had a cold face: "Didn't we break up?" What else is there to talk about. That being said, he didn't close the door.

Chen Wan took Qiu Xiyan's hand and said apologetically: "Xiyan, I'm sorry, I was too selfish and didn't take your feelings into account." What I said this morning was a lie to you, I, I love you. ”

Qiu Xiyan's eyes turned red again, as if he would cry in the next second. He deliberately made a fierce expression and shouted to Lin Zhao, who was watching the excitement on the side: "What do you see, I haven't seen anyone fall in love!" Then he pulled Chen Wan into the room and closed the door.

Lin Zhao, who was also shot while standing, grimaced at the door of the room, and when he turned to leave, he heard a cry of "woo" and a slimy "senior......" from inside

Lin Zhao didn't know what Chen Wan and Qiu Xiyan were talking about, but he knew that Qiu Xiyan's eyes were even more swollen when the two came out.

Chen Wan walked in front, and Qiu Xiyan followed behind without leaving, and it seemed that the two were reconciled.

Chen Wan walked over and said to Lin Zhao sincerely: "Ah Zhao, thank you. If it weren't for you, I might have missed a lot. ”

"It's nothing, I just saw Qiu Xiyan crying so loudly, worried that he would disturb the people." Lin Zhao was a little embarrassed, "By the way, what are you going to do in the future?" ”

"I plan to let Xiyan go back and have a good talk with his family."

Qiu Xiyan seemed to be very dissatisfied with this arrangement, and his face was full of grievances when he heard this. Chen Wan patted his hands as a sign of comfort.

Lin Zhao was surprised: "Let him go back?" What if his dad locks him up again? ”

"His father can't lock him up for the rest of his life, he will always let him out." Chen Wan said, "Besides, he doesn't have anything in his ID wallet now, and we can't escape or hide, so it's better to take the initiative." ”

Although Lin Zhao was worried, he couldn't think of a better way: "Okay, good luck to you." 166 Reading Network