。 I wanted to kill your brother so that you could taste what life is worse than death. But because you asked for a word, you never touched him again. ”

"Bai Sang, I don't blame you, I only blame myself, I can't be as ruthless as you are." Gao Xun lowered his head and buried his face in his arms, but his body couldn't help but tremble, and a low whimper echoed in the dim room like the cry of a young wolf: "You can beg me to kill you, but I can't do it, I can't do it." ”

Bai Sang lowered his eyes, and his whole heart softened completely because of her words. She couldn't help but raise her hand, her cold fingertips stroked the man's soft hair, but she was stabbed in the heart and trembled fiercely, and suddenly softened her tone: "Ah Xun, don't do this." ”

Gao Xun raised her head again, her eyes were red with blood, and she held the hand of the person in front of her tightly, as if she was begging bitterly: "Then what should I do?" Bai Sang, tell me, what the hell should I do? ”

"These days, because of the hatred for you in my heart, I think of ways to torture you and ridicule you, but I don't know that every time I look at your forbearance, my own heart hurts like a knife." Gao Xun shook his head and muttered in a low voice: "Lu Baisang, I really have no way to deal with you." ”

She closed her eyes, and suddenly opened them, her warm palm wrapped around the man's soft jade hand, and her eyes were already rippling in front of her, but she couldn't untie the shallow furrow in her eyebrows: "That night, I shouldn't have provoked you like that, and said something that didn't exist, Lu Baisang, did you ask me to be happy?" I wasn't happy, I didn't want to. ”

Her words suddenly made Bai Sang stunned: "You don't have ......"

"Yu Yan is only my sister-in-law, she doesn't know my identity as a woman, how can she have other thoughts?" Gao Xun let go of her hand and smiled sarcastically: "I have already made it clear to you what I should say." I've always told you plainly. ”

"But what about you? Lu Baisang, did you tell me? It's been so long, whether you've been sad or happy, and you've never thought to tell me how many secrets you've hidden in your heart. She raised her voice slightly, and the faint afterglow of the setting sun came through the window, and the unwillingness and complaints in her eyes were completely vented: "When I woke up in the mountains, the master told me that you have become the concubine of that person's harem, do you know how I feel in my heart?" ”

"You said that your father was innocent, and you set up a situation just to take revenge, but why did you want to join forces with that Gao Yan, why didn't you tell me anything, just because he saved you in the first place, just because I am a woman?"

Bai Sang moved his lips slightly, and when the words of the person in front of him fell, he saw that in those deep eyes, crystal clear tears finally rolled down.

"Then I realized that I was just your pawn all along, and how could you ruin all your plans for a pawn. But I'm still unwilling, goodbye to you, I'm so self-deceiving, thinking about whether you and that Gao Yan are innocent if you can explain half a sentence to me. I can not believe what others say, as long as you tell me well, as long as you say it, I will still believe you after all. ”

Gao Xun wiped the tears from his face and smiled bitterly: "And when you speak, you are still so hard-mouthed." Lu Baisang, all I want is your sincere words, why is it so difficult? Why is it so hard? ”

Bai Sang lowered his eyes, and when he saw the sad appearance of the person in front of him, his heart was already sour. She is not a person who can speak well, so she can only hold the handkerchief in her hand at the moment and keep gently wiping the tears on the man's face. But I don't know why the tears are flowing more and more, no matter how they can't be wiped away, she is uneasy and flustered in her heart, and the pain is more and more uncontrollable, and she begged in a low voice: "Ah Xun, don't cry." ”

"I should have known, Bai Sang, you have always been like this." Gao Xun helped her hand away, lowered his head, wiped his tears, and muttered: "Even today, the person who gave in first is still me." ”

Lu Baisang pinched the handkerchief in her palm, what the person in front of her said was true, but it was clearly not what she thought in her heart, she shook her head gently, wanting to explain, but she didn't know how to say it. The words of the mouth were the same as her face, still so pale and weak: "Ah Xun, I'm sorry. ”

Gao Xun was stunned, and he never thought that the person in front of him would also open his mouth to apologize. She stared deeply at this familiar face, as if she remembered something comfortable, and the corners of her mouth couldn't help but add a little smile: "Bai Sang, since I was a child, I have felt that since I was a child, I must hold it tightly in my hand. When I was with you, you treated me well, and treated me with tenderness and concern. ”

She paused, gradually lowered her eyebrows, and sighed softly: "Even if it's all fake, I'm happy." ”

Bai Sang bit his lip tightly and raised his arm, trying to hold her hand firmly again, but the man's tears fell again, completely soaking the fingertips of the two of them.

"But I forgot that what is false will never become true. If you can't catch it, let's let it go. ”

Gao Xun let go of the intertwined fingertips of the two and said in a low voice: "From beginning to end, I am the only one who is too obsessed with you, even if I have hatred, I still can't forget it." In the past, I was too unaware of your calculations, and I was gullible to others, which caused a great disaster. ”

"I admit it all."

As the sun set, the house was completely dark. The white mulberry was covered with green silk, wrapped in darkness, and his body became thinner and thinner. At this moment, when she woke up from a serious illness, she couldn't help but leak out a few weak coughs when she opened her mouth, she couldn't take care of it, she threw away her previous stubbornness, raised her miserable little face slightly, and kept shaking her head: "Don't be like this, Ah Xun, I'm guilty-"

"In the future, as you said, who knows one day, you will deceive me again, and I may still listen to you stupidly." Gao Xun lifted the quilt on her body and interrupted her. picked up the letter of resignation that fell on the quilt, folded it gently, and put it back on her pillow: "Bai Sang, I can make a mistake once, and ending up with nothing is already a lesson, but there is no room to make a mistake a second time." ”

"You and I have long been entangled with each other, so why torture each other like this."

Bai Sang half sat up again, gently grabbed the corners of her clothes on both sides, and half hugged the person in front of her. Under the cover of the night, he finally spit out the words in his heart softly: "Ah Xun, don't let me go." ”

She said very lowly, but it still fell clearly into Gao Xun's ears. Bai Sang raised his face, he couldn't see the look in her eyes clearly, and he could only hear the words that had never been resolute before: "I answered you for what you said before, but this time, I can't answer you." ”

"Bai Sang, I let you go, and I let myself go." Gao Xun shook her head, she closed her eyes, and she stopped her tears for some time, and said softly:

"Love or hate, so be it, it's all over."

Bai Sang thought that the tears in her eyes should have been drained in the past few days, until the word "end" made the tears in her eyes gush out again. She buried her thin shoulders in her arms, trembled, and opened her mouth several times, but she was sobbed and speechless.

"What are you crying about, you should be happy."

From now on you will live your life, and neither I will live nor die with you.

Gao Xun raised his hand and patted her back gently, as if gently soothing her.

The person in her arms still grabbed her shirt tightly, hung her head, and almost cried uncontrollably, but all she could say was three words: "Ah Xun, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"

Gao Xun listened to her muttering impatiently for a long time, until there was a faint sound of the beating of the watchman outside.

When it was time, Gao Xun slowly let go of her body and tightened the corners of the quilt for her. Raising his eyes, he continued to whisper: "Your body is still weak, you don't need to come to my room at night, so you live here temporarily." If you are well-nourished, it would be best if you could leave as soon as possible with your brother. Don't worry, Master also told me that there is no big problem, and it will only take two or three days to recover. When you leave, you don't have to report to me anymore, for I won't be in the house these days. ”

As the words fell, she got up and helped light the candle on the table. The room lit up in an instant, and Bai Sang shook his eyes and saw clearly the elongated back that was about to push the door out.

"Ah Xun—" She bit her lip, and finally hurriedly called out, "Where are you going?" ”

"Don't ask me about it again." Before Gao Xun turned around, she had already half-opened the door and stared at the dark night in the courtyard.

She paused for a long time before she spoke again, and for the first time Bai Sang heard such a humble tone coming from her mouth:

"Lu Baisang, I just beg you, don't appear in front of me again in the future."

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