In the first Spring Festival after his mother's death, Lu Xingchuan had no expectations for reunion, and he studied in the study until the evening, when he walked out, and instantly heard his father and brother arguing in the living room downstairs.

"If you don't leave that pervert of the dance academy, don't expect me to feed you!" Lu Tao was furious, and his voice was much more deafening than usual.

Hoshikawa probably understood what they were struggling with, and couldn't help but poke his head out to peek.

Lu Yuejing stood in front of the sofa, his head lowered to hide all the expressions on his face.

"It's just that I was too used to you in the past, so you are lawless now, and the whole thing is a gentleman!" Lu Tao smashed the ashtray at his feet, smashed it to pieces, and then gasped and said: "I don't expect you to have any great success, after finishing your business, you can marry a serious girl honestly, what's wrong with starting a family?" ”

"There's nothing bad about it, it's just hurting people." Lu Yuejing sneered pretending to be imposing: "Anyway, I'm not interested in women, and marrying is a lot of furnishings in the family." ”

Lu Tao's face was bloodshot with anger, and he was about to stand up and beat him.

He Mei and Uncle Wang, who had been afraid for a long time, hurriedly rushed out of the corner to stop them.

No matter what mistakes her children make, mothers are always the first to tolerate them.

He Mei sobbed: "Yue Jing is still a child, he doesn't understand things, today is the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, what do you have to do with him about those broken things?" ”

"Are you twenty or a child?" Lu Tao angrily shook them off and straightened the sleeves of his shirt: "I don't think he is as mature as Xingchuan." ”

"Don't compare me to wild seeds." Lu Yuejing did not suppress his inner resistance to his younger brother.

As a result, the slap that had just been blocked fell on his angular face in an instant.

Lu Tao warned word by word: "Xingchuan is my son, he bleeds my blood, you scold him, what is your father?" If you tell me to hear such things in the future, don't stay in this house, whoever it is! ”

Lu Yuejing didn't think that homosexuality was a capital crime, he saw that his father only mentioned his sin of betraying his marriage, but blindly protected Lu Xingchuan, and couldn't help but tremble with anger.

He Mei saw that the big thing was not good, so she smiled dryly and played a round: "Yuejing, this is your fault, how can you say this about your brother, what's wrong with him?" Forget it, wash your hands quickly, and eat together = meals. ”

"Yes, yes." Uncle Wang's face was full of helplessness, and he turned around and said, "I'll call Xingchuan." ”

The young man who was watching quickly took a step back and hid back in the study.

Not every feeling in life can be clearly summarized, just after being maintained by Lu Tao so strongly, there is almost no feeling of happiness in his heart.

Why do you want to live like this?

If we could all stay with the people we love the most and not make any extraneous problems, wouldn't the world be much simpler?

Lu Xingchuan doesn't understand the ups and downs of the world so well, and it is really natural for him to have this kind of thought.

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Due to the dispute that would break out when they met, the Lu family's Chinese New Year's Eve dinner was certainly not pleasant.

Not long after the gala was broadcast, they finished eating in a hurry, and the ones who should go out to play and the friends who should meet friends ended much faster than they got together.

After Lu Xingchuan was satisfied, after learning to make dumplings with the chef in the kitchen, he personally wrapped some egg dumplings for Qiao Bai that he had talked about two days ago, and called the driver to go to the hospital at night.

On such an important holiday, the silly boy who is loved is naturally accompanied by his parents.

Xingchuan rushed to the door of the ward, and saw through the crack in the door that he was silly playing silly in front of the cross talk on TV, and he was still eating the apples that Liu Yunan fed him, how happy he was.

The temperature on that kind of love xù seemed to be contagious, and in an instant, Xingchuan's cold heart gradually thawed.

He took a deep breath, changed his expression to a calm expression, knocked on the door and entered, and said with a smile, "Uncle and aunt, happy New Year." ”

"Why don't you ask me how I have a good New Year?" Qiao Bai half sat up.

Liu Yunan patted his son's head and got up politely: "During the Chinese New Year, your child is still running around, parents should be more worried." ”

"They're going to play mahjong." Lu Xingchuan put down the thermos bucket, and then patted the snowflakes on his shoulder.

"Delicious, give it to me." Qiao Bai didn't care about his wounds at all.

"You can only eat two." Liu Yunan warned him, and then asked Xingchuan about his parents.

After the greetings, the four of them chatted about the TV series, and the atmosphere was harmonious.

Until Liu Yunan suddenly remembered something, straightened up and said, "By the way, there was a company that asked me about you before." ”

Lu Xingchuan was puzzled: "Me? ”

"That's right, when they saw the TV series you played, they asked my agent if you wanted to make your debut." When Liu Yunan said this, he waved his hand and said: "But the company mainly cooperates with South Korea, and you have to go abroad as a trainee, it's too hard, you should still study hard by your parents' side." ”

Lu Xingchuan didn't care about the entertainment industry at all in the past, but after hearing it, he nodded half-understandingly, and then smiled: "There's nothing wrong with being an artist, aren't you an actor, Auntie?" ”

"You are still too young, you have to listen to your father's opinion, I mentioned it to him, but he refused." Liu Yunan pondered for a moment, and smiled helplessly: "This industry is a mixed blessing." ”

Qiao Bai had already eaten a lot of dumplings at this time, and praised him: "Xingchuan, your chef's bag is better than my mother's bag." ”

Lu Xingchuan was slightly stunned, and he was embarrassed to mention that it was his own craft.

But Liu Yunan instantly exploded: "What did you say?" Just asked you to eat a few? You little fat pig! ”

Qiao Bai was not afraid of death at all, and began to retort: "I was born to you, and I am what you are?" ”

Lu Xingchuan was amused by his heartless expression, and kept looking at the mother and son gently and noisyly, with three points of envy and seven points of closeness to them, but when he thought of his home, he inevitably felt sour.

From the attitude of his father towards his brother, you can see how much he hates homosexuality, just like the attitude of most people in society.

If only men could be naturally together with men, then Hoshikawa wouldn't have the courage to express the feelings that sprouted in his heart.

Unfortunately, this is not the case.

He is not afraid of his family or gossip, but he is afraid that he will be hated by Qiao Bai because of this, so that he will never have a chance to get close to his world.

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When he returned home from the hospital, Uncle Wang was already asleep.

The big house is quiet, and you don't feel much popularity.

Lu Xingchuan burned some secretly bought paper money for his mother in the yard, and whispered to the fire rising in the dark: "Mom, I think of you." ”

All that answered him was the crackling sparks and the echoes of the wind and snow.

Lu Xingchuan squatted there, his whole body shrunk into a humble ball, and after closing his eyes, even his voice became blurred.

He was mostly talking to himself.

"I'm in love with someone, and I'm going to like him, for a long, long time."