Chen Lou asked himself more than once, what is the meaning of your rebirth?

Is it to correct the mistakes of the previous life one by one and return to the peak of life? Get the career you want and stand at a height you have never had before? Or do you want to get rid of the relationship with Guan Yu completely and stop torturing each other?

He often asked, but he didn't dare to think about it. Because every time in his head, there would always be another voice that sneered and asked, "What if there is no rebirth?" ”

What if there is no new birth?

What if rebirth was just a dream? What if this rebirth could end at any moment, and you would eventually go back to the past?

What about Chen Lou, are you a loser?

Was your last life so bad?

Is it because of Guan Yu that you feel so bad at all times?

Chen Lou didn't dare to think about it.

He has been smooth sailing these years, he has been successful in his studies at a young age, he has been promoted by teachers, he has been promoted by nobles, he has gone abroad for further study, and he has also traveled to Africa, but it is just a few years, and when he returned to school again, he can even speak as an alumnus.

Even before he spoke at the school celebration, some students in the audience complimented: "Senior Chen is our role model, and I will strive to become a person like Senior in the future." Chen Lou smiled lightly at the time, but he still couldn't hide his smugness and said: "You other seniors are not bad, I'm still a nerd who just graduated, and I haven't saved much money." ”

The junior said, "Others, like Senior Guan?" But although Senior Guan has a lot of money, who wants to go to Africa? Although they are all self-made successful people, there are still differences in the quality of success. Chen Lou didn't speak again at that time, but he vaguely agreed in his heart.

Compared with Guan Yu, and even compared with most of his peers, his achievements are enough to make people envious. Even if he can be a partner with a young talent like Jiang You again, then the wish he made in Sanqingguan can be regarded as fulfilled.

He still remembers that he was standing on the gray and abrupt mountain, wiping and wiping the stone statues of the three Taoist masters, and made a wish: Let me stay away in Guan Yuli, don't call me again. It's best to go well in graduate school. Of course, it would be better to have a little fresh meat.

He even promised that after all this was achieved in the future, he would go back to reshape the bronze bodies of the three Dao Masters - the bronze bodies have not yet been molded, but his wishes have been fulfilled one by one, smoothly and naturally. All his doom and failures ended in the summer when he and Guan Yu parted ways, and the humble plea and his fierce accusation at that time became the last silhouette in his mind.

So far, he hasn't looked back.

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After that, Chen Lou went out with Jiang You twice, and then a friend persuaded him to drink, Jiang You really stretched out his hand to block it, using the excuse that Chen Lou would be allergic. The group shifted the target to vent their anger, but he didn't insist, grinning and carrying the car keys, asking a group of friends who would be willing to send him into the class.

Jiang You is a very principled but well-versed person, rarely embarrassing people, but the actual actions he makes often make others take the initiative to give in. Chen Lou sighed to himself in this regard, and when he said goodbye to the other party that night, he also said his plan.

Jiang You really agreed, just glanced at him and smiled: "Don't praise me for my high emotional intelligence, what's the use of others giving in to me, you don't mention anything to me like a saw-mouthed gourd." ”

Chen Lou made him feel a little guilty at that glance, and said sincerely: "I'm just alone for a few days to relax, and after figuring it out, I will naturally tell you some things." Now I'm not trying to hide it, but I don't know what to say myself. ”

Jiang You saw that he was serious, and hurriedly said: "Yes, this is your freedom, just now it was a little complaint of mine......" He smiled when he saw Chen Lou, and said with a smile: "Don't you tell me that we can't meet in the next few days." ”

Chen Lou didn't know why, Jiang You said helplessly: "Didn't our foundation just participate in a charity medical aid in Q City, and now we are about to sign a contract, and the other party has proposed to meet me alone." I might be on a business trip for two or three days. ”

Chen Lou breathed a sigh of relief silently, and listened to Jiang You again: "But it's all come to this point, and the problem shouldn't be very big." You relax by yourself these days, and when you want to contact me I can call me after nine o'clock in the evening, and I will definitely answer at that time. ”

Chen Lou pondered for a moment and blessed: "I wish you well." ”

Jiang You nodded, and when he turned around to leave, he paused his steps, reached out and touched the tip of his nose, and said with a smile: "I'll wait for your news." ”

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The next day, Jiang You's noon flight coincided with Mr. Gao's admission to the hospital for the first round of chemotherapy, so Chen Lou went to help pick up the second elder early in the morning, and went through the admission procedures with Jiang You, when he went to buy gloves for Mr. Gao, Jiang You happened to be called by the doctor to understand the chemotherapy plan, Chen Lou took a look at the doctor's office, and when he came back after buying gloves, it was already empty.

Jiang You was in a hurry and didn't have time to say goodbye, Chen Lou was stunned for a while, got up and went to Sanqingguan.

Today's Sanqingshan generation has been planned, and the scenery along the way is almost the same as the previous life. Chen Lou even saw the small garden in the previous life, but it was late spring at that time, and now it was early autumn. After the peony failed, it was probably cleared out by the owner, and now there is a small rose blooming in the garden.

Chen Lou asked the master to drive all the way to the gate of the Taoist temple, but did not go to the place where the tourists gathered, only bought a few tributes, and after putting them on the same respectfully, he went straight to the main hall to find the master. Chen Lou came over this time to repay his wishes, but the current Taoist was changed to a golden statue as early as when the Taoist temple was rebuilt, and the bronze body he promised at that time was estimated to be useless, so he wanted to donate some items to the Taoist temple.

Who knew that the Lord was not there, and then went to find the hall master on duty in the main hall, and was told that the hall master had something to do and had just gone out. The mountain breeze was cool and comfortable, and Chen Lou didn't have anything else to do today, so he simply said to the people in the main hall, and he walked along the path of the Taoist temple and waited. This Taoist temple itself is built on the situation of the mountain, and later rebuilt when the nearby residents rarely got together, donated a cultural health garden behind the Taoist temple, the place is not big, but there is a wooden house verandah, and the terrain is open, so it attracts many tourists to rest there.

Chen Lou found a shady place to sit down, and as soon as he took a breath, he felt someone around him squeeze him.

He turned his head to look at the man, stunned.

It turned out to be a monk with a full face, with a loose yellow robe hanging on his body, he couldn't see that it was dirty, with a burden on his arm and a pair of sneakers on his feet.

Chen Lou: "......, this monk who doesn't look easy to mess with, why is he still shy?"

He paused, felt that something was wrong, turned his face to look at the monk's face full of flesh, and then looked at the scar on the other party's forehead, how familiar it looked.

The monk was uncomfortable with him, coughed and shouted sullenly: "Donor—"

As soon as the words fell, Chen Lou was stunned, and he actually remembered - isn't this an old liar at the gate of their hospital?

Oh no, to be exact, he is the worst of the many fortune tellers at the gate of Taishan Hospital. Chen Lou had long been familiar with these people when he was working in the hospital in his last life, and generally speaking, there were not many fortune tellers at the entrance of the hospital, and most of them were hung with signboards of "counting words and taking names".

The old liar was famous here at that time, when a family of five escorted their daughter-in-law to give birth, and it turned out to be a boy, five generations of single transmission, born on Qixi Festival, according to the eight characters, it is a pure yin person in the lunar year and the moon. The family originally believed this, but when they saw that this birthday was special, they were nervous, so the group went to find someone to tell their fortunes and take their names.

It's the old liar who's looking for it. The old liar said at the time that he still had a clear eye, Balabala was a gossip from heaven to earth, gossip from the five elements, and finally said that the child was short of water in the five elements, and it was good to have a single name and a Miao character. Let him be safe and secure in the future, and there will be no calamity.

The family was grateful to Dade and paid a name fee of 666.

However, this matter is not over, the child was born with a weak constitution, and there is a child with jaundice, after returning home always crying and fever, long cure, and then the family hurriedly held the child back to see a doctor, the child and his grandmother cried, and remembered the old liar. She thought about it, and this time she went to the old liar's stall, but she didn't say that she knew her, but only said that she would let the master see the birth date and name of her grandson.

The old liar thought that another big fish had taken the bait, slapped his thigh, and shouted, "This name is unlucky!" Elephant of the Calamity! ”

The child's grandmother jumped up, lifted the brick he was pressing and smashed it......

When Chen Lou passed by after work, the child's grandmother had already left, the old liar's head and arms were bloody, and the money on his body was also looted, and he was shrinking on the ground to hold back tears. Chen Lou relented for a moment and took him back to the hospital......

Calculate the time, the Qixi Festival in this life has passed, and I don't know if the old liar was beaten miserably this time? And who sent him to the hospital?

Since Chen Lou was reborn, he only felt that the farther away from the things of his previous life, the better, but now he had a little nostalgia. He couldn't help but sigh when he thought of this, so he simply got up and gave up that little position.

Who knew that as soon as he sat down for a while, the "monk" came over again.

Chen Lou: "......" He only remembered at this time, is the other party taking himself as a target customer?

Sure enough, the "monk" sat down next to him again, and held out a bowl and said, "Donor, you have a relationship with the old man!" ”

Chen Lou nodded with a smile and said, "It's quite fateful." ”

The old "monk" was not good at his skills, and his eyes suddenly lit up. Chen Lou thought about the common deception before, and couldn't help but smile in his heart, but his face was extremely solemn: "I have been troubled by an incident recently, and I don't know if the master can solve it?" ”

The other party nodded like pounded garlic.

Chen Lou said again: "But I only have ten yuan on me." ”

"......" The old monk squinted at it, thought for a while, and said, "Then draw a lot, draw ten yuan, and untie fifty." ”

There was no movement on the side of the main hall, Chen Lou was idle, and he really took the lottery holder and shook it twice. After a while, a stick fell to the ground, Chen Lou went to pick it up, and the old monk had already received it in his hand.

Chen Lou: "......" is this afraid that he won't give money?

Chen Lou took out the ten yuan in his pocket, saw the old monk looking at his pocket with a thief's eyebrows, and said with a sigh: "Master, the monks don't speak, if I give you money, will you sign it for me?" ”

The old monk smiled: "Of course." After speaking, according to the signature, he took out a small paper ball from his pocket on the side.

The handwriting in the paper ball is very delicate, it is a small short sentence: "round and missing, missing and round, low and dense to circulate, time to see the fate."

There is a note in the upper left corner: sign down.

Chen Lou laughed, wrapped up the note, and threw it directly into the arms of the old monk.

He just saw that this old liar was difficult to move, and he just saw that he had a whole amount of money in his pocket, so he moved his right hand when he handed over the lotter, if he was not mistaken, he should have moved his hands and feet.

Sure enough, the old monk shouted in shock: "Sign up, donor, you have to pay attention." ”

Chen Lou said: "Pay attention to what? Notice that your lottery holder is full of signs? Seeing that the other party was stunned for a moment, his eyes were about to roll away, and he frowned and said, "What are you doing?" If you don't do this foolish business, haven't you heard of karma? What's more, it's not easy to make money, right? ”

Old Monk: "......"

"It's not easy to earn," the old monk said, "there is no place to go, the scenery here is good, and there are not many repeat customers, so you can fool one by one." ”

Is this a long experience?

However, looking down from this temple, the clouds are steaming in the distance, and the surrounding green mountains and green waters are indeed a good location to enjoy the scenery.

"So how many have you fooled?" Chen Lou asked: "Is anyone really fooled?" ”

"Three or four," said the old monk, rolling up his robes, sitting on the steps with his legs curled, squinting his eyes, "but not all of them are as stingy as you, and the least is given fifty." He paused, probably bored, and sighed, "That's all I have for the rest of my life...... Hey, it's no wonder that I didn't have experience back then......"

He didn't say anything about his experience, and Chen Lou didn't want to ask. The two sat side by side for a while, and the old monk was bored, muttering about what to do in the next life, and shook it out with his hand. The two words at the beginning of the signature are "Ding Boiling".

Chen Lou glanced at it and was immediately happy. This guy forgot to change his signature, and he also signed it. He laughed, "How's that?" What did you say in the sign? ”

"Ha," the other party read it carefully, but after reading it, he pouted and said: "He said that I don't deserve it, and I can't complain about others." ”

He said it casually, and Chen Lou also felt that this was reasonable and funny, but he just pulled the corners of his mouth, but found that his face was wooden.

On this day, he sat idle until late, the Taoist temple and the hall master did not come back, and finally could only go back to the house first, and when he was separated from the old liar, he also received a small business card, which said to undertake fortune telling, naming, transfer and other businesses, and the mobile phone number was written below.

Chen Lou didn't take it to heart, and took a shower after returning to the hotel, but he felt bored.

On this day, he was busy in vain, and he didn't pay it back, and he didn't talk about how to let go of the past when he wanted to ask for advice from the Lord. Jiang You was still waiting for news from him, but he was having an inexplicable awkward relationship with himself. Thinking about it like this, I was a little irritable, and I sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling window for a long time, my heart was up and down, and I thought of the old liar again.

He remembered that after taking the old liar to the hospital in his previous life, he went home with half of his body stained with blood, and frightened Guan Yu, who was waiting for him to get off work at the gate of the community. At that time, he was irritable when he saw Guan Yu's figure from a distance, and felt that this person was like supervising something at a fixed time, so he often deliberately delayed on the road, either to take a detour to buy something he wanted to buy, or to be on duty for his colleagues, or to take a few stops on the bus and then come back.

Guan Yu rarely said anything, and every time he saw him walking home from the intersection, he would smile and wave at him, but that time, before he had time to frown impatiently, he heard a sharp sound of brakes on the road...... Fortunately, Guan Yu ran over fast enough, and the owner's skills were also excellent, otherwise they would never have been scolded that day.

Chen Lou remembered that when he was abroad, he had dinner with a few senior brothers, and everyone coaxed him to tell the truth, and said the answer within three seconds, otherwise he would drink and admit punishment.

Everyone is uprooted from their hometown, and they don't feel embarrassed to talk about their privacy. When it was Chen Lou's turn, the person who hosted the topic asked: Do you regret breaking up with your ex?

Chen Loudao: No regrets.

The other party asked: Are you happy after leaving him?

The rest of the people protested against this senior brother's eccentricity and asking such an innocent question. Only Chen Lou was stunned, and drank the first glass of wine at the party after a while.

Memories are not a comfortable thing, because once they start, it is difficult to end, and as a person, they will subjectively deliberately favor themselves, but intellectually they know right and wrong very clearly.

It's like an old liar begging for a signature, thinking about the good fortune and wealth of Hengda in the next life, but he also knows all the things that happen in this life in his heart, and he can't complain about others.

Half an hour later, Chen Lou asked the hotel for a drink, turned off his mobile phone, and didn't use a wine decanter, only barefoot, carrying a wine bottle while drinking and looking at the lights outside.

After a few sips, his brain was a little dizzy, but Chen Lou didn't stop, took another sip, only pressed his hot forehead against the glass window, the railing in his hand was cold to the touch, and the glass window was quickly covered with a thin layer of water vapor.

He remembered the night before he was reborn, the meaningless quarrel between him and Guan Yu, the lights on the upper floor opposite, and the distant and blurry children crying.

He remembered his anger that had erupted from time to time in the last two years, and Guan Yu's blank eyes.

He remembered the bottle of ketchup that had broken on the refrigerator, and Guan Yu silently bent down to wipe his back.

He remembered that evening, Guan Yu hurriedly went to him with two Carrefour bags, and was knocked to the ground by someone, and the sun apricot jumped away one by one......

The wine was sad, but his mind became more and more sober, and the old liar's sentence "If you don't have a good time, you can't complain about others" is repeatedly turned back in your mind. Chen Lou finally couldn't help but ask again - Chen Lou, were you a loser in your last life? Are you living so badly? Are all your failures because of Guan Yu?

He didn't dare to think about it before, didn't dare to answer, and suddenly thought of Guan Yu's question - do you think I don't love him as much as I love you?

The smell of alcohol came back little by little, and Chen Lou suddenly leaned against the window and began to laugh, laughing until his eyes were moist and his chest was stuffy.

Although he and Guan Yu did not have the name of husband and wife, they fell in love when they were young, shared joys and sorrows, and accompanied each other for seven years. It's just that he has to admit that in the two years he got along, he has been deliberately magnifying the other party's shortcomings and mistakes, and he is tired of it, so that the family has a cold pot and a cold stove, and Guan Yu is often treated by him bitterly and tortured after getting off work.

When he broke up in this life, he still only picked out Guan Yu's mistakes and blamed the other party for all the misfortunes in his previous life - he was sad and painful, he was to blame for his gains and losses, because of his bad work, and because of his poor interpersonal relationship management. Guan Yu never refutated, just like in the previous life, he passively endured it, but he didn't want to let go.

Ablaming all our problems and sins on someone else will always give us better relief.

However, Chen Lou had to admit that Guan Yu's question "If I don't make those mistakes again in this life, can you reconcile with me" The answer in his heart was: You were sorry for me, and I am ashamed of you.

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The mobile phone lay quietly for a few days, and Jiang You never received an answer from Chen Lou. He unconsciously began to panic in his heart, but there was no other way to investigate. In addition, what made him even more anxious was that the charity medical project in Qingdao (Q) City was about to start, and the organizers put forward an excessive demand on them.

The reason why Jiang You recognized such a partial rescue activity was nothing more than taking a fancy to the government resources this time. In the end, the project was led by the Western Medical Project Office of the Ministry of Health, and the organizer was Qingshi Medical University, and the coordination with the district and county health bureaus was still directly responsible for the municipal bureau.

Jiang You tried his best to participate in this project, but the hope is that after the completion of this project, the social rating of the Spring Rain Foundation will inevitably increase a lot, and the exemption of income tax alone can save a lot of money. It's just that this kind of innocent thing is not something that everyone wants, Jiang You got the overseas Chinese, but he didn't expect the Qingshi Municipal Government to be unwilling for them to participate - they checked, the total expenditure of the Spring Rain Foundation last year was 820, which included at least ten projects. The source of funds for this foundation is also very limited, only a few young entrepreneurs in C City.

The amount of donations is not large, the source of donations is unstable, and the project cycle of medical assistance is long, and it is difficult for anyone to guarantee that nothing will go wrong. Qingshi wanted to refuse, but he didn't want to refute the face of the overseas Chinese, so he gave Jiang You a compromise solution - hoping that the Spring Rain Foundation could try to get Tunghai University and Qingshi Medical University to cooperate.

Jiang You rushed over at the beginning, saying that he didn't expect this situation to be the case. He knew the other party's intentions - such a large project was bound to be greatly publicized through the domestic mass media, newspapers and magazines, and the rest of the five major projects were easy to say, but the "medical poverty alleviation training program" in the first place was a little unsightly. Because Qingshi Medical University, which is in charge of the training program, is only a B-class institution.

Qingshi wanted to be pretty, but he didn't want to share his political achievements with other cities, so he went to the near and far and fell in love with Tunghai University in City C, where Jiang You was located. Although the Department of Medicine was established only a few years ago, it is one of the 24 A-class colleges and universities after all, if Jiang You can promote the cooperation between the two universities, then the Qingshi will reap the benefits of the fisherman, if Jiang You can't do this, then they will refuse to be high-sounding.

Jiang You grinded with the officials and masters here for a few days, but there was no progress, and finally had to report the situation to Guan Yu truthfully.

Guan Yu said: "I'll talk about the school, but you also have to make conditions with them." ”

Jiang You asked, "What conditions?" ”

"The University of Tokyo only sends administrative representatives, and the working professors do not participate in any of their training courses."

Jiang You thought for a while and said, "I'll talk about this." But isn't it bad that there wasn't even a doctor representative at the project kick-off meeting? ”

"This can be a special guest invited by the Foundation." Guan Yu paused and said suggestively: "In fact, participating in charity work is conducive to the evaluation of professional titles, so I have to add one more article, our special guests must be in the newspaper." ”

Jiang You suddenly thought of something, his heart jumped, and he pretended to be calm and asked, "Then Mr. Guan, has there been a candidate for the special guest?" ”

Guan Yu was silent for a long time.

Jiang You held his breath, and finally heard the other end say, "No." Before he could be happy, he heard the other party add: "You can decide on this candidate, and you can arrange the specific matters as you like, and you don't need to tell me anything." ”

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Two days later, the contract was successfully signed, and Qingshi's attitude changed greatly, saying that he had not taken good care of him before, and he had to leave Jiang You for a day, and there was a special person to take Jiang You to visit several scenic spots in Qingshi.

Jiang You was relieved, and he didn't have the heart to play, so after finding an excuse to break people away, he thought about it and made a call to Chen Lou.

Chen Lou picked it up after a while, and he was a little hoarse when he spoke: "Jiang You? ”

Jiang You was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help asking, "Do you have a cold?" ”

"Yes...... It's not serious......" Chen Lou cleared his throat, his voice was still unfavorable, and it felt like a vocal cord injury.

Jiang You realized that Chen Lou might have been sick in the past few days, so he didn't have the mind to go through the snow, and picked out the key things and said, "That's the case, our project has been signed." ”

Chen Lou seemed to be dumb and said congratulations. He couldn't hear it clearly, so he hurriedly stopped: "You're all like this, stop talking about it now, you listen to me." ”

It was quiet. Jiang You said with a smile: "The project has been signed, but because it is a medical assistance project, and there are really few talents here, so our foundation needs to invite a guest to come over and support the venue." I've already talked to them, and in addition to attending the kick-off ceremony, the guests only need to attend their first training session, which lasts for a week. ”

The medical poverty alleviation training opportunities are aimed at medical personnel in the following districts and counties, and the original plan was to have more than 20 sessions, each lasting five days. If the special guest only participates in the first session, he does not need to teach the basic course, and the total class time is only about four or five hours.

Jiang You paused when he said this, and estimated that Chen Lou's side was almost finished, and then asked with a smile: "If the Foundation is temporarily short of manpower and asks Dr. Chen for help, I don't know what Dr. Chen thinks?" ”

Chen Lou was sunk in the quilt of the hotel, his eyes closed. The after-effects of that night's drunkenness were so severe that the headache lasted for four or five days, and it only improved slightly today. But Jiang You's meaning he understands in his heart, both public and private, this is a very good thing for him.

Chen Lou thought about it for a while, and said yes. Jiang You also said the specific time schedule and precautions. In the end, he smiled and said that the foundation's standard business trips were all standard gold, and he planned to arrange Chen Lou with him under the pretense of public welfare, and asked Chen Lou if he was willing.

Who knew that the phone fell silent.

Chen Lou knew what he should say, but when he opened his mouth a few times, he felt that the mobile phone he was pinching was hot, which made him a little upset.

After a while, Jiang You opened his mouth first. He was a little helpless, but he still said kindly, if you don't agree, you can exchange it with others at that time, you don't have to be nervous.

Chen Lou also felt that he had overreacted, and said no in a dumb voice.

Jiang You asked about me and you, have you thought about it?

Chen Lou was silent again, and after a long time, he sighed, and just as he was about to speak, he heard Jiang You smile and said, "I don't want to listen to you on the phone, there are still two days left in the kick-off meeting, so let me be happy at that time, okay?" ”