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It seems to be many years ago, and it seems to be just yesterday, Dongzhu said to me: "I must be going to the palace, you have been a literary talent for a long time, you are young and precocious, give me a poem." Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ”

But I was already in a state of confusion, and I knew the meaning of the sentence 'The young man doesn't know the taste of sorrow, and he is worried for the sake of new words', and when I can chant poems to express my feelings, it is not a critical juncture, at least for me Nalan Rongruo.

I promised Dongzhu that I would write it to her after thinking about it in the future, and later, I did write a lot of poems for her, 'A pair of people from generation to generation in a lifetime, fighting for two places to eliminate the soul', 'The intestines are broken and the moon is bright and red cardamom, the moon is like that time, and the person is like that time', 'If life is only as first seen, what is the autumn wind sad painting fan', but in the final analysis, what I want to tell Dongzhu most is this sentence 'A piece of ice heart is in the jade pot'.

Seventeen years before Shunzhi, Dongzhu and I were childhood sweethearts, two cousins and brothers, although the Shengshang Shunzhi Emperor at that time favored Dong E's family to the harem restless, but also worked hard.

My Ama Mingzhu Tongwen, Uncle Kubilong's good martial arts, Niu Colu's family and Nalan's family are both nobles in Beijing, and they have always been on the move, my aunt often brings Dongzhu to my house, and I often follow my mother to visit Kubilong's mansion.

Dongzhu and I are childhood sweethearts, with similar temperaments, and the adults in the family are happy to see it happen, but when we become adults, Uncle Suppilon and Amma will make decisions for us.

Who knew that the change was abrupt, the Shunzhi Emperor's beloved imperial concubine Dong E's illness died, which brought a great blow to the first emperor of Shunzhi, and since then he couldn't afford to be sick, and he died not long after, this year I was only eight years old, but I also knew what happened, and I clearly remember that after the death of the first emperor, due to the succession to the throne, Prince An Yue Le, Prince Kang Jieshu, several young little brothers and the Empress Dowager secretly wrestled, and the calm waves were treacherous.

At the beginning, Amma frequently went in and out of Uncle Kupilon's house, Uncle Kupilon was a martial artist, with military merits and a famous position, but he was not very good at scheming, I thought Amma must have gone to give advice, and it didn't take long for the third elder brother Xuanye, who was only a few months older than me, to inherit the throne, and Uncle Kupilon also became one of the four auxiliary ministers.

Maybe from that day on, everything has quietly changed, like a silk cocoon, just waiting for the moment of transformation, and just like a few years later, in order to avoid the prince's secret, I changed my name from Nalan Xingcheng to Nalan Xingde, this change is quiet and inexplicable.

Within a few years, the new emperor reached the age of the wedding, and the Gege of the four auxiliary ministers' families were announced by the Empress Dowager into Cining Palace, saying that it was 'talking and watching the play', but in fact, it was for the emperor to choose the queen.

It's just that when I went to Uncle Kupilon's house to ask for advice on riding and archery, my uncle's attitude had changed, and when he heard me mention Dongzhu, there was an extremely strange look on his face, and Dongzhu took advantage of the excuse of sending snacks to see me, and said, "Donglang, the Empress Dowager seems to be interested in choosing me as the queen." ”

I was shocked, a piece of cake in my hand fell on the bluestone road, and the soft osmanthus cake was shattered, and it could no longer be bridged.

Dongzhu's black and bright eyes like grapes didn't blink, but he looked at me quietly and said: "I went to ask my father-in-law, but my father-in-law didn't agree to me. ”

I don't talk much, Dongzhu knows, she sighed softly, tore off the newly knotted buds on a magnolia flower next to her and kneaded the sticky pale green juice, threw it aside again, turned her head and asked, "Hui'er is about to enter the palace too, do you know?" ”

Hui'er is the daughter of a distant uncle's family, because their branch has long been scattered, in the second year of Kangxi, her grandmother took Sister Hui, one to be elected to the palace, and the other was to pity her loneliness.

They are all about the same age, and the relationship is also very good, that year when I looked at the lights at the entrance of the lamp market, Dongzhu once said to me with a smile: "Hui'er seems to admire you very much." ”

I just thought she was joking, and I didn't take it to heart.

"Donglang, if I am really the queen of the Qing Dynasty, I will keep Hui'er by your side." Dongzhu turned her back, I couldn't see the look on her face clearly, and naturally she couldn't see the loss and distress on my face.

"Dongzhu, do you want to marry the emperor?" I suddenly raised my eyes and asked her aloud.

Dongzhu still had his back on his back, but just said: "Donglang, I don't want to marry the emperor, but I want to be the queen, I can't disappoint my father-in-law and Amma, and besides, my self-confidence is no worse than Hesheri Fangyi." ”

She had mentioned her admiration and admiration for the Empress Dowager more than once, and once aimed at it, and I seemed to understand her choice, but I raised my hand to grab her and not tell her to leave, but Dongzhu turned around and walked away quickly.

Since then, I haven't met Dongzhu in private.

All the sorrow and depression are just turned into poems, falling into the pen, Hui'er often holds her cheeks aside to read, and when she writes a poem, she always carefully holds it in her hand and gently blows off the ink, and then says with a smile: "Big brother, you write so well." ”

She looked at the spring trees outside, turned her head and said with a smile: "Look at this begonia flower blooming again, it is so red, so good, big brother, another day, let's invite the second sister, the fifth sister and the aunt's sister Dongzhu, let's go back to the poetry club and make another poem." ”

The begonias in spring are gorgeous, the gusts of wind blow off the petals and the branches are like spring rain, thinking of Dongzhu, I only feel stunned, the begonias are still, so people are afraid that they will no longer be the same, thinking of this tone will seem dry and lonely: "Dongzhu wants to prepare to enter the palace to be elected, how can you still come to us to start a poetry club?" Besides, the second sister in Dongfuli is also going to get married......"

Hui'er only lowered her head slightly, and said in a low voice: "Whoever goes, I won't go!" ”

I just laughed at her for being stupid, and where did the little girl's family understand what was in my heart.

Not long after, I heard Ama and Eniang say that the queen chosen by the Empress Dowager was the Hesheri clan, but at the same time, she had to be the concubine of Emperor Nadongzhu......

Imperial concubine? I don't know what Dongzhu will think, I was thinking blindly, so I saw the grandmother of Niu Colu Mansion coming to see Eniang in a hurry, and asked Dongzhu if she had come, I learned that Dongzhu went out to ride a horse, and the people who followed did not pay attention and did not follow, and I couldn't find her everywhere.

I know that she must have gone to Peach Blossom Creek, we go out to walk the horses and always go there, she has always liked there, saying that the peach blossom source of the Wuling people is nothing more than that, thinking of this, I immediately rode a horse to find her.

Dongzhu sat under the peach blossom tree with her knees crossed, as if she had been sitting for a long time, and a thick fall fell from her shoulders. She has always been proud, always wearing a fierce red makeup, not inferior to her eyebrows, but at the moment she is extremely quiet, and even a little frustrated.

Her slightly curled eyelashes quivered slightly, and a petal of Falling Ying slipped down her cheeks, and she said in such a frustrated tone, "I lost to Hesheri in the end." ”

"It's not that you're bad, I heard from my Ama that the Empress Dowager is trying to balance the situation and win the support of Sony," I said.

Dongzhu took a deep breath, turned to me, regained some pride and calmness on his face, and said, "Thank you, in fact, when I sat here, I kept thinking about whether you would come, and I waited for a long time. ”

I felt a surge of emotion in my chest, and said: "Dongzhu, if you can't be a queen, do you still want to enter the palace?" ”

Dongzhu swept the piled up flowers on the ground with a horsewhip in his hand and said: "The Empress Dowager has decreed that I will be a concubine, and besides, Hesheri entered the palace and helped each other with Sony, and Ama and my father-in-law were alone outside, so I had to go." ”

I know her, and I understand her, so I just said: "What you said is that the younger brothers and sisters are still young, and we as eldest brothers and sisters naturally have to take responsibility and can't do foolish things, but I still want to ask you a word." ”

Dongzhu's subordinates were a little flustered and hurried, pushing the falling flowers all over the ground into a mess, and then stood up again and said, "I said, but Donglang, I want you to send me a poem first." ”

My heart seemed to be filled with chaos, and I couldn't think of any verses that could be dedicated to my Dongzhu, no, she was no longer mine, and in a few months, she would become the emperor's, the one who was high up in the sky, but was held hostage like a puppet, I only said: "Wait two days, and I will give it to you." ”

Dongzhu patted the dust on his body and said with a smile: "Wait for you to send the poem, and I will tell you the answer." ”

"Okay," I only replied with such a simple word, and walked out of the peach forest side by side with her, Dongzhu suddenly turned his head and glanced at the peach forest again, and said: "After returning home, I will call someone to shovel this forest, Donglang, I won't come, and you are not allowed to come!" ”

When she said this, a tear fell from her cheek, and I was stunned, Dongzhu was raised by Uncle Kubilong as a daughter and a son since she was a child, and she has always been firm, this is the first time she has shed tears.

Dongzhu seemed to realize the gaffe, quickly turned his head, got on his horse and left.

I haven't been to the Peach Forest since then, and I know what Dongzhu has said, I will definitely do that, and the Peach Forest must be gone.

After Dongzhu entered the palace, we had no contact. I heard E-Niang accidentally mention to her grandmother, saying that there was a concubine in the palace who was pregnant first, the emperor and the queen Qin Se were harmonious, but it was not very good with Concubine Niu Colu, I suddenly seemed to be holding back the fire in my heart, and ran out like crazy, in the late autumn season, I ran to the river to wet my clothes, but I didn't feel cold, what should Dongzhu do!

Does the emperor not like her...... I was worried and pitiful, but I couldn't help but feel a little happy, I don't know if it was because 'Dongzhu didn't like the emperor, and the emperor didn't like Dongzhu'.

When I went back that day, I had a high fever, and Eniang sent the doctor out, sighed slightly and said to Amma: "It's time to set a family affair for Donglang." ”

Ama said: "A while ago, I was social, and I got acquainted with Lu Xingzu, the governor of Liangjiang, and I heard of some talents, but the girls in his family are of the right age. ”

It didn't take long for the Empress Dowager to enrich the harem for the emperor, open the emperor's heirs, and select the Eight Banners to enter the palace.

I held it in my hand as if it were boiling coal, and I only handed it back to her and said, "I am a very selfish person, you should know, take it away, and live your life well." ”

Hui'er didn't have time to say anything, but she was called away by her mother's grandmother. Soon after Hui'er entered the palace, Ama was promoted to a bachelor of Hongwen Academy, and the people who came to congratulate him secretly said: 'Concubine Niu Co Lu seems to be sick', and at this time, Dongzhu's aunt, who had always regarded her own mother, also died of illness. I just can't rest assured that she can't get off her, but in the deep palace high court, how can I set foot in it.

I don't know if God heard my wish, it didn't take long for the emperor to select some guards of the same age among the children of the Eight Banners to practice Buku, I entered the Forbidden City with everyone, stepped into the gate of the Qianqing Palace, and bowed according to the advice of the inner servant, and only saw the pair of ink-colored court boots.

The emperor's voice was very young, but it was calm, and he ordered us to compete first. I easily threw a small Buku to the ground, and the Emperor clapped his hands and said, "What a handsome skill! Then he asked, "What is your name?" ”

I replied, "Slave Nalan is sexual." ”

The Emperor asked, "Who is your father?" ”

"My father, Nalan Mingzhu, a bachelor of Hongwen Academy." I replied again.

The emperor smiled and said: "I see, Hui'er's literary talent is good, she once said that her cousin is knowledgeable all over the world, that is, the eldest son of Nalan Mingzhu, it must be you." ”

I only felt an unknown taste welling up in my heart, and I only said: "The slave doesn't dare." ”

The emperor's voice was very gentle, and he said, "I intend to keep you by my side as a third-class guard, and in the future, you will be a minister in front of me." ”

I'm in a daze, guard? Is it possible to meet Dongzhu? At one moment, he realized that his heart was punished, so he was busy kowtowing and thanking him.

The emperor is very studious, but he has not studied the Han classics very carefully, he was very surprised to learn that I had read the four books and five classics, he was very surprised, often took the scriptures to ask me, I exchanged knowledge with the emperor, Ama was very much in favor of this, and said that the empress dowager did not seem to intend to ask the emperor to learn too much Han thoughts, but governing the country without learning the Han things is not possible.

Along with me was the third son of Hesherinoni, Suo Etu, whom the Emperor trusted so much that he could almost be regarded as obedient, and I told Ama that the Emperor often spoke privately with Suo Etu, and that the palace was afraid that something big would happen.

Ama just narrowed his eyes, his expression was unfathomable, and said, "We don't belong to a faction, you just have to follow the emperor's orders." ”

It wasn't until that night that the emperor left some of his guards and informed him of his plan that I knew that Ao Bai was in danger, Ao Bai was Dongzhu's father-in-law, and he had a good relationship with Dongzhu, if something happened to him, would Dongzhu be sad? But I can't move anymore, and everyone can't leave without permission in the Qianqing Palace.

The emperor knew that I wanted to go and see Hui'er, but he smiled and said, "You are not an outsider, so it doesn't hurt to go." "After all, this move is more auspicious, and he may never be able to get out of the Qianqing Palace.

Suo Etu was deeply skeptical, and the emperor only said: "Rong Ruo's father and son have always been clean and self-conscious, and they have nothing to do with Aobai," and said to me: "I just want to go back quickly." ”

I have some feelings in my heart, the emperor does not have much power towards people, and the reason why he came up with such a bad move must be Suo Etu's idea.

I only met Hui'er in a hurry, suggesting that she was going to inform Dongzhu that something had changed tonight, and Dongzhu was extremely smart and would definitely understand.

On the second day, Weicheng wanted to worship as scheduled, these guards were all well-trained, and attacked them unprepared, and finally subdued people, the emperor captured Aobai in one fell swoop, and the emperor really began to govern himself.

Since then, Suo Etu has become a first-class meritorious hero by the emperor's side, and has been awarded the title of scholar of Baohe Palace, and Dongzhu has also been favored by the empress dowager because of his strong restraint and timely surrender to Aobai, and his situation has gradually improved. Ama was also promoted to the Imperial History of the Left Capital of the Metropolitan Procuratorate because of his outstanding knowledge, and served as the lecturer of the sutra feast.

But the depression in my heart has not changed, the poem I wrote for Dongzhu has not been given to her, and she has not told me the answer, Hui'er knows my thoughts, but she is just a concubine, and then she became pregnant, gave birth to a prince for the emperor, and her grace gradually increased.

That year, during the Shangyuan Lantern Festival, she arranged for me to pretend to be a lama who was chanting sutras to meet Dongzhu in her palace.

"I know what you want to ask, and this has been hidden in my heart for many years'Donglang, I have you in my heart', but I know that you and I are impossible, I didn't say it at the beginning, because I was afraid that if I said it, we would make a mistake." Her voice was soft, like a rich incense of agarwood.

I nodded, I understand Dongzhu, just as Dongzhu understands me. This meeting thought that it would be a good gathering and a good dispersal, and everything would come to an end, but who knew that it was discovered by Queen Hesheri's people, although I escaped, it involved Hui'er, and I felt a lot of guilt for her.

In order to avoid suspicion, Ama settled down to marry the Lu family, the Lu family has a virtuous personality, and I tried to gradually forget Dongzhu and live a good life with the Lu family.

A year later, Hesheri died in childbirth, and Dongzhu also ushered in her spring, Hui'er lost the emperor's favor, but she was not bullied, and Dongzhu took great care of her because of what happened before.

There are unforeseen circumstances, I thought life was good, but God just joked with me, Lu gave birth to a rich brother, but after giving birth to a hot child, she once mentioned to me, I want to call Dongzhu's sister Rong Yue to continue the string, Eniang came to ask me, I only said that it was not appropriate, Eniang said, when the aunt named Yue'er, she deliberately chose a Rong word, which is to compensate, and now it is also considered to be feng shui in turn, and the cause and effect are determined early.

Rong Yue and her sister have very different personalities, Dongzhu will never admit defeat, never cry easily, be simple and decisive in trouble, and never drag mud and water. But Rong Yue is just the opposite, if Dongzhu is the sun, Rong Yue is the moon, cowardly, hesitant, and tears at every turn.

I know that I can't accept Dongzhu's own sister, but E-Niang and Ama both like her, and the rich brother can't do without her, I can't disobey E-Niang, this matter has been delayed again and again, if it weren't for the Empress Dowager or the Emperor's Chrysostom, marrying Rong Yue has become a fact.

But I understand that I can't let go of Dongzhu in my heart, and I can't get close to Rong Yue at all.

After the emperor retired from the court that day, he chatted with me and asked: "Xiao Gege of the Niu Colu family, is you a cousin?" ”

Although the emperor is unfathomable, he is naturally much more sensitive after a long time, and I hurriedly said: "Yes, it's just that there is a difference in age in the middle, and it is not ordinary to see." ”

The emperor sighed, picked up a book of folds and flipped through it and asked: "It is said that you know your daughter's heart best, do you know what the little girl's family likes?" ”

I was stunned in my heart, but I just said: "Neiko had a very personal relationship with Cousin Rong Yue before her death, and I vaguely heard Cousin Rong Yue mention that Cousin Rong Yue likes to read some idle books and eat some snacks. ”

The emperor sighed and said, "I just ask, in a few days it is the birthday of the eldest princess, and I want to prepare some gifts for her." As he spoke, he vaguely revealed it and did not mention it.

I vaguely felt that the emperor had something to mean to Rong Yue, and on that day's Holy Birthday Day, Concubine Tong suddenly made a mistake and accused me of giving and receiving from Rong Yue privately.

I took the opportunity to refuse this family business, if I marry Rong Yue, it will only bring endless accusations and ridicule to Rong Yue and Dongzhu, and Dongzhu insists on handling this matter for me, which will inevitably displease the emperor, which is not good for Dongzhu.

Besides, seeing Rong Yue's eyes, I always think of Dongzhu, I think this result is better, refusing to marry in public will dispel the emperor's doubts about me and Rong Yue, the emperor is really happy to see it, and immediately named the Guerjia clan.

Dongzhu became ill from hard work, and finally failed to survive this winter, the day she left, I dreamed of her, in our peach blossom forest, she said: 'Donglang, we have lived for others for too long in this life, and we should live for ourselves'.

Dongzhu went, and said that Empress Xiaozhao, a Zhao character is worthy of her.

I think my soul died with her, and all that remains is my body, because I have not yet completed the "Commentary on the Tongzhitang Sutra", and compiling this book is my long-cherished wish since childhood.

Three years after the Lu family's death, the Guerjia family got married, she was arrogant and domineering, she couldn't be compared with Dongzhu, not even the Lu family, at least I and the Lu family could still live in peace and have nothing to do.

Things are getting worse and worse, and I'm getting more and more impatient.

I don't know if the news of my disagreement with the Guerjia clan is well known, during the southern tour, the concubine matched me and Shen Wan, I think if I know Shen Wan, it will be able to resolve the emperor's last doubts about Rong Yue, and it will be good for both the Niu Colu clan and the Nalan clan.

Shen Wan Bingxue is smart, a little transparent, and a good confidante, but ...... Once the sea was difficult to water, it was not Dongzhu in the end.

Before I died, I thought that if I could meet Dongzhu again in my next life, I would say to her the poem "A piece of ice heart in the jade pot", and this heart has not changed since I said goodbye. (To be continued.) )