61 CHAPTER 61
When Wen Yan walked out of the café, his face was pale, and both legs were shaking.
She hurriedly flagged down a taxi on the side of the road, and when she got into the car, she urged her to go, but she couldn't give a clear and accurate address.
The car went back and forth on the central avenue twice, but Wen Yan still didn't come back to his senses.
She couldn't determine what Shen Jing, who had grown up with her, had done, and she couldn't explain that Yin Zhan's joke with a typo had reminded her of Bai Xiao's last message before she died. Silence, silence! Is it silence or silence that she wants to send out?
At first, she was full of hesitation, and at the moment she saw Shen Silence, she was still laughing at her suspicion and sensitivity. But Shen Silence's attitude was ambiguous, and her eyes were full of ambiguity and evasion, although she didn't pierce her temptation, but her expression and words made people feel scared.
Wen Yan's chest seemed to be pressed against a big stone, extremely suffocated, and he couldn't make a sound.
It's a strange feeling, and I haven't experienced it in this life. And her whole body was pulled by this strange feeling, she couldn't move, she couldn't escape, she could only let it wander around.
The phone rings suddenly.
The voice was not too loud, but it startled Wen Yan, looked at the caller ID, and hurriedly picked it up.
"Sister, the eggplant noodles are ready, when will you come back to eat them?" It was Yin Zhan's coquettish voice with a hint of creaminess.
Wen Yan didn't seem to hear Yin Zhan's words, but subconsciously called his name: "Yin Zhan." ”
"Huh?"
She held the phone tightly and slowed her tone to try to make her voice sound as quiet and steady. Even so, there was a slight tremor in her slightly lowered voice.
"I'm a little scared."
"Huh?" Yin Zhan didn't seem to hear clearly, and even more like he didn't understand Wen Yan's meaning, "What's wrong with you?" ”
Wen Yan couldn't tell himself. She is twenty-six years old this year, and the people she has met are neither good nor bad, and she has experienced neither more nor less, but it has never been smooth sailing. Even if he has been slandered and abused, he has faced violence. Force and death, seeing the hideousness and ugliness of human nature, did not feel so frightened, so disheartened.
And now, as long as she recalled the scene just now, remembered Shen Silence's completely unfamiliar expression and his desire to speak, she couldn't help but tremble all over her body.
Wen Yan gasped.
"It's okay, you can go back first." She hung up the phone.
Yin Zhan was confused, and complained dissatisfiedly on the phone: "I haven't eaten yet, where should I go back?" You're unloading the mill and killing the donkey! Feed? Ah, hey? ”
Wen Yan walked to the door of the house in a trance, and heard the sound of talking from inside.
She took out the key, pushed open the door, and saw Yin Zhan and Gu Heng facing each other, Gu Heng looked relaxed and natural, while Yin Zhan looked helpless.
Hearing the sound of the door lock, the two looked at each other.
"Sister, are you back?"
"Why are you here?" Wen Yan looked at Gu Heng steadily.
Before Gu Heng could answer, Yin Zhan hurriedly trotted forward to complain: "Sister, it's none of my business, he broke in by force, and then he couldn't leave, you see that he has a dead skin and a faceless temperament all over his body, why is this person so undisciplined and bottomless." ”
Gu Heng just looked at Wen Yan and smiled. Then he said something that made Yin Zhan almost lean back.
"I miss you."
Wen Yan froze.
She was silent, and looked back at the eyes with bewilderment.
Over the years, she didn't understand Gu Heng's feelings, even if she had bruises all over her body. She just stubbornly forced herself to believe that he had changed, that there was no warmth between them, and only a deal remained. It seems that in this way, he can leave with confidence, and he can hate it as a matter of course.
But in such a barren, lonely, and torn life, he went back there, smiled at her, and said unabashedly that I miss you.
The trance was just for a moment, she quickly came back to her senses, walked over and looked at Gu Heng, but smiled bitterly and indifferently.
"Let's go back." Wen Yan said, "I don't want you. ”
After saying that, he went straight to his cabin. As soon as he walked to the door, he turned his head again, his eyes looked at Yin Zhan, there was no expression on his face, but his tone was jerky and cold.
"You go back too."
The world seems to be quiet.
Wen Yan lay on the bed, looking at the gray-white ceiling, gasping for air.
A lot of images suddenly appeared in front of me. The hard concrete floor, Bai Xiao's quiet but pale face, a large area of dark red blood under her, and the dazzling intensity of the sun that day. The screen of the mobile phone that fell to the ground showed that it was dialing...... There is also an important clue that she was judged to have committed suicide, "Silence." ”
Somehow, she remembered six years ago, the afternoon of her mother's accident, the sweltering day, thick cumulus clouds, and the panicked screams of passers-by, and Bai Xiao's tragic situation was almost exactly the same as her, as if it was a copy.
It was like a nightmare, and for any person, it was an unbearable weight in life.
A voice suddenly appeared in her ears, with a hint of vagueness and uncertainty, but the words struck at her heart.
"I remember that day, I happened to go home to pick up something, and as soon as I came out of the elevator, I saw someone enter your house, or the door opened by Mr. Yan, and it should be a young man in the back, and it seems that he is still an acquaintance."
An acquaintance?!
Wen Yan was startled, and sat up from the bed, the more she thought about it, the more scared she felt, although she repeatedly told herself that this was not true, but her own wishful thinking and inexplicable thoughts, but the unstoppable sense of fear still eroded her ups and downs little by little, repeatedly, making her unable to be at peace.
The night was getting deeper, the bedside light became dim unconsciously, Wen Yan felt that his vision had blurred painfully, just like looking at the endless darkness but couldn't find an exit, but there was a voice in his heart shouting repeatedly.
She wanted the truth.
It was early in the summer day, just after six o'clock, and Wen Yan walked out of the room.
The clear morning light reflected on her face, the originally cold face showed a bit of unprecedented haggardness, the slender eyes were slightly sunken, and there were obvious dark circles in the eye sockets.
She didn't sleep well, Yin Zhan saw it, and Gu Heng also saw it.
That's right, neither of them left, but spent the night in the living room. At first, he could still stare at the bottom, and no one would give in. In the second half of the night, sleepiness crept up little by little, the two of them couldn't bear it, Yin Zhan wore headphones and played games all night, while Gu Heng drank a stomach of coffee.
However, both of them tiptoed, and neither dared to squeak.
"Sister, your face is so bad?" Yin Zhan asked.
Wen Yan frowned when he saw them, but his gaze was calm. She hummed, then asked, "Why didn't you leave?" ”
Afraid that Wen Yan would be angry, Yin Zhan hurriedly explained: "He won't leave, I'm staring at him." ”
When Yin Zhan said this, Gu Heng seemed to feel embarrassed. He coughed a little embarrassedly, and was about to say something, but interrupted gently, "You don't need to explain." After that, I went to wash up.
“……”
Wen Yan finished cleaning up, stood at the door and stared at Gu Heng with a frown. Gu Heng turned a blind eye to this silent eviction of customers, and then happily pondered about having breakfast together or something, Wen Yan shook his head helplessly, closed the door with a snap and left.
When she closed the door, Gu Heng and Yin Zhan were dumbfounded. Gu Heng's face was black, and Yin Zhan ran out wildly: "Sister, why are you going, wait for me." ”
Wen Yan ignored Yin Zhan, she called a taxi and arrived at the location.
Old-fashioned villas, neat but not spacious streets, and green willows lined with sun-dried leaves.
Wen Yan knew that she was reckless in doing so, and she could have come up with a more clever way to get the truth and get out of it. But that's her, she's always known to her own problems, but she can't explain it and doesn't want to fix it.
In other words, for Shen Silence, she has never been able to face the problem rationally.
Even if there is no love, the bits and pieces of his past, those ties and the hope and dependence like a family are all real.
There was only Shen Lonely in the huge villa, and even Rong's mother, who had been taking care of his daily life, was not there.
Dressed in a striped shirt and light gray slacks, he was sitting on the couch looking out intently. He held his chin in one hand and shook the wine glass gently in the other. The expression on his face was very complicated, but his eyes were calm.
When Wen Yan walked in, he felt that the sky had changed suddenly.
Perhaps, it has changed a long time ago. 166 Reading Network