Chapter 15: Is It Okay to Regret It?
Zeng Shao talked to Qin Zhen all the way, although Qin Zhen didn't say a few words, but Zeng Shao felt that he and Qin Zhen were already good friends who talked about everything, which made Qin Zhen a little embarrassed.
Zhou Ziyao wiped his mouth after eating a big bowl of spicy tang, took out a box from his schoolbag and handed it over: "Your gift." ”
Yun He raised his eyebrows and took it.
After eating, Zhou Ziyao accompanied her to the hospital to see Yun Xiao, and as soon as they entered, they saw Qin Zhen sitting on the edge of her bed, and Yun Xiao talked to him again, smiling very happily.
Yun He stood by the door, she could only see half of Qin Zhen's face, and vaguely felt that he was also smiling.
Zhou Ziyao looked at Yun He's lonely appearance, his hand fell on her shoulder, he didn't know what happened between Yun He and Qin Chen, with her character, no matter who Qin He was with, she would not intervene, let alone her sister.
So in the end, it was only she who was hurt, but everyone didn't know how bitter her heart was, but she could only swallow it herself, and then smiled and said it was okay.
When Qin Zhen turned his head, he saw Yun He and Zhou Ziyao standing at the door, so he said goodbye to Yun Xiao and left.
When he came out, Yun He silently turned sideways and gave her a way.
Qin Zhen walked out, but didn't take two steps and retreated: "I think I should talk to you." He looked as if he had made a big decision, nervous but determined.
Yun He looked at Yun Xiao lying on the hospital bed, turned his head and said, "I don't think there's anything to talk to you about." ”
"One last time, give me a little time and let me die." Qin Zhen said.
When Yun He heard this, his heart was very uncomfortable, as if he was blocked by something, and he was about to suffocate himself.
Zhou Ziyao pushed Yun He: "Go ahead, it's better to talk about things than to hold them all in your heart." ”
Yun He nodded: "I'll go with you." ”
It was already a little dark outside, and the two sat on benches in the open space of the hospital.
Yun He didn't like the awkward atmosphere, so he took the initiative to ask him, "What do you want to tell me." ”
Qin Zhen leaned on the bench and looked at the already dark sky, and his tone was extremely dull: "I thought I could persevere, but as soon as I saw you, I couldn't help but want to talk to you and smile at you." ”
The wind was blowing gently, and the leaves on the trees fell lightly with the wind, and Yun He lowered his head and looked at the ground in front of him a little distracted.
"Yun He, can you be kind to me, not too much, as long as you are one-tenth of Yun Xiao's good." Qin Zhen said almost pleadingly.
Why didn't she want to! But as soon as she thought of Yun Xiao, she couldn't stand in front of Qin Zhen in front of her, and even talking to him was a betrayal of Yun Xiao.
"Qin Xu, you should have never known me!" She looked at Qin Chen's eyes reddening: "I can't stay by your side as if nothing happened while facing Xiaoxiao." ”
Qin Chen's palm was slightly cold, and his heart was like falling into the deep sea and slowly sinking, decaying and shattering, sinking little by little: "You are so cold-blooded." ”
"If Xiaoxiao can get better and be hated by you, I don't care." She said that her eyes were getting redder and redder.
Qin Zhen was gone, on her birthday, she completely lost Qin Chen, and he didn't even turn his head back.
They may never have each other, so how can they lose, as one poet put it, "Many times, because they are afraid of the end, they avoid the beginning." "Yun He should be such a person!
But some beginnings can't be avoided, so she can only deceive herself, thinking that she has avoided a beginning that she doesn't want to end!
When Yun He returned to the ward, Zhou Ziyao had already left, and Yun Xiao looked out the window quietly, a little distracted.
"Xiaoxiao." Yun He said softly.
Yun Xiao turned his head to look at her and grinned: "Sister." ”
Yun He sat next to her and asked, "What are you looking at?" ”
"Nothing." She shook her head and looked at Yun He, who was a little haggard: "You have a conflict with Qin Chen, right?" ”
"Nope." How can two people who have never known each other contradict each other.
Yun Xiao was not stupid, she didn't poke her, but said, "Sister, in fact, I really like Qin Xu." ”
Yun He nodded, as if expecting her to say something like this: "I know." ”
"But compared to you, Qin Zhen is nothing." Yun Xiao tilted her head and leaned on the pillow to look at her, her long hair was messy on the bed, but she was extremely good-looking: "So, sister, if you are unhappy, I will be more sad than you." ”
"I'll be happy, as long as your illness gets better." Yun He said.
She thinks so, as long as Yun Xiao's illness improves, she will be able to live as before, without Qin Xu's days, days when she can talk to Zhou Ziyao and Yun Xiao, live unscrupulously, do whatever she wants, no expectations, no disappointment, no sadness.
"Actually, if you tell me, as long as you are with Qin Xu, you will be happy, I can understand." Yun Xiao said but his eyes looked at the roof, snow-white!
"No, he doesn't like me, and I don't like him, how can we be happy together." Yun He shook his head, what does it mean to be happy? is to hide her sadness and smile at everyone, she seems to be talking to Yun Xiao, and it seems to be saying it to herself.
Sometimes self-deception is more terrible than others deceiving themselves, Yun Xiao turned her head away from looking at her: "Sister, go back first!" Don't come to see me when you're fine. ”
"Xiaoxiao!" Yun didn't understand why she would make such a request.
Yun Xiao dragged the quilt to her body: "If you want to make me uncomfortable, come here!" I don't feel comfortable when I see you. ”
"I see." Yun He got up, picked up his schoolbag and left.
Yun Xiao actually wanted to sue her, Qin Zhen didn't like Yun Xiao, Qin Zhen liked Yun He, Qin Zhen was good to Yun Xiao just because Yun Xiao was Yun He's sister, Qin Zhen was Yun Xiao's boyfriend, but he pitied her, just so that he could appear in Yun He's life more peacefully.
But she couldn't say it, she was afraid that if she said it, Yun He would hate her, and she would have nothing, so she wanted to have the two of them selfishly, even if they were estranged from each other, she didn't care, because she knew that even if she was selfish, she wouldn't survive this winter, so let her live forever in their hearts before she died, even if the disgusted ones remained in their hearts, it was better than being forgotten.
The sky was raining lightly, sparsely cold, an autumn rain and a cold, and this day was a little colder.
Yun He stood in the rain with an umbrella, since Yun Xiao was sick, Zhou Ziyao resumed the task of going to school with Yun He every morning, and the two of them walked and ate hot buns.
"It's such a great place to find traffic lights." Zhou Ziyao took a bite of the bun, his mouth was full of oil, and he said indistinctly.
Yun He glanced at him: "Why is it good?" ”
"When the light is red, even if you are in a hurry, everyone will stop and take a look at the scenery that they usually ignore, or have time to quietly take a bite of the big meat bun." Zhou Ziyao said and took another bite of the big meat bun, his face full of happiness.
Yun He snorted and smiled: "It will also make you more haggard in the cold wind." ”
Zhou Ziyao pursed his lips and didn't speak.
At the green light, Yun He and Zhou Ziyao walked side by side on the sidewalk, talking about something from time to time.
Under the dark umbrella, with a cold face, he stood quietly looking at the two people who were gradually moving away, his feet seemed to be frozen, and he didn't move a step until the end of the green light, just like little by little away from her life, as if he had never wanted to see it!
In the classroom, the one that Zeng Juvenile had dislocated was tied with a bandage and hung around his neck.
Seeing this, Yun He was like seeing a new continent, and pointed at him in surprise: "You really came to the classroom like this." ”
Zeng Shao rolled his eyes, and simply and indifferently spit out a word from between his teeth: "Get out!" ”
"Don't roll, do you still have bandages? Give me one, I want to hang my hand around my neck too, it's fun! As soon as Yun He's schoolbag was lost, he stood next to him and played with his bandages.
Zeng Shao immediately became angry, stood up and slapped his palm on the table with his only hand: "Yun He, you are not human!" ”
Yun He was taken aback and couldn't help but take a step back: "The gentleman doesn't move his mouth!" ”
"I'm a man!" As he spoke, he threw the notebook on the table towards Yun He, as if it was a homework book, and threw it all at Yun He.
Yun He continued and retreated: "This is a homework book, and your class representative is too irresponsible." ”
"Hey, young man, how can you throw our notebook." The classmate next to him couldn't stand it and couldn't help but ask.
Zeng Shao shouted in annoyance: "Lao Tzu is going to destroy Yun He if he doesn't do it today, it's really too deceitful." ”
This Zeng boy can't afford to joke too much!
Yun He saw a huge thick English dictionary flying towards her in the air, Yun He jumped, almost instinctively dodged backwards, and a wall suddenly appeared behind him, Yun He hit the wall hard, unable to escape.
She instinctively closed her eyes to protect her head, there was an exclamation in her ears, she only heard the sound of books falling, and when she opened her eyes, she saw an arm in front of her just blocking all the books in front of her, and her shoulder was protected by the other arm in her arms.
"Zeng boy, you want to kill someone!" The others couldn't stand it anymore and yelled.
Yun He glanced back, the more she was afraid of something, the more she came, when Qin Xu's cold face appeared in front of her eyes, the surrounding qiē seemed to disappear, her ears couldn't hear other sounds, his eyes couldn't see anything else, as if he was the only one in front of her in this world.
She opened her mouth to speak, but she seemed to choke her throat, only a silent gaze, but there was no longer her in his eyes, and the cold gaze, with alienation, slowly left her side.
He was gone completely, leaving only an empty shell that came and went in and out of her life from time to time, silently as if it were not there. She regretted it a little!