Zhu Yeqing said that she hated two people.

The first one is a man named Cheng Shan.

She almost couldn't remember the man's appearance, only vaguely remembered that it was a tall and handsome man.

When she was very young, the man was not bad to her.

When she was in kindergarten, she had a bad appetite, ate very slowly and rarely, and always grinded until the end, when she was called over by the teacher and fed with a spoon. After he heard about it, he seemed to have gotten some great skills, and he was happy for a while, and as soon as he finished eating every meal, he fed her one bite at a time, and sometimes she didn't want to open her mouth when she was killed, and he coaxed her in every possible way.

When I was in the first grade, every day's homework must be signed by my parents before the teacher was willing to accept it, and once my mother was not at home, he came to sign, but he had no choice but to look ugly and look like a primary school student wrote it, and was criticized by the teacher by name, insisting that she was cheating. Aggrieved, she went home and told him that he angrily called the teacher and talked about it.

Later, his job changed, he got off work later and later, and the time he arrived home changed from five o'clock to seven o'clock, and the time for cooking at home was slowly getting late.

At that time, after dinner, he would entertain her with toys or help her with her homework under the lamp.

Neither she nor her mother liked him to smoke, so he smiled and touched her head and said, "When you get 100 points, Dad will quit smoking." ”

She studied very hard, but it was in vain that she didn't have time to get into those ten.

Because after that, everything changed.

His work became more and more unsmooth, and he didn't know what day he would start to go out early and return late.

He began to huddle at home all day long, smoking non-stop in front of the TV, and there was always a smell of smoke in the house, living room, kitchen, bedroom, bathroom.

At that time, she didn't understand anything, only that they were arguing more and more, so much so that she couldn't get a word of encouragement even when she held the perfect test paper.

He began to play what looked like a bloody and violent game on his home computer, which had no internet connection.

She stood outside the house several times, and even saw "he" in the game screen using a knife to shred people's corpses, and burning people alive with oil and matches.

Gradually, the game was no longer enough for him to vent, and he began to lash out at home at every turn, and even slowly became violent.

At first, it was kicking the door, and later, it was throwing things.

One day, she saw him do something to his mother, and then turned around and slammed the door and left.

That night, my mother cried for a long, long time, and the howl slowly turned into a choked sob, and finally subsided.

She didn't do her homework, she just stayed by the side, until her mother reached out and hugged her into her arms and asked her, Xiaojing, Mom and Dad live separately, are you willing?

She didn't know if she wanted to, so she only asked why.

She saw her mother crying again, I don't know how long she cried, her mouth was repeated, and all she kept reading were three words: "He has changed." ”

He changed, but his mother endured it in the end, as if relying on the last glimmer of hope for him, gritted his teeth and survived, no matter how sad the hurdle was, he could cross it.

After all, that's also the person my mother once loved.

No, if you think about it, it doesn't seem that it is because of love that you continue to forbear.

For a long time, he barely touched his feet, and when he came back occasionally, he was drunk, unshaven, and fell asleep, which did not have much impact on the family.

Her mother told her several times at the dinner table that it was better for him not to come home, to fool around with his friends, to drink alcohol, to find a woman, and that it was better to die outside. I don't need such a person in the family, I only take care of you, serve him, and I will suffer...... I don't want to mind him, I don't want to ......

Every time, my mother was very indignant, but in the end, she was choked up.

Suddenly, one day, he ran home in a panic and discussed something with his mother.

She sat under a small desk, writing her homework.

It was a simple math problem, addition, subtraction, multiplication and division of two or three numbers, but she was distracted by the increasingly obvious noise in the bedroom.

She didn't know what was happening, only to hear her mother's voice grow angrier, and the man's tone of voice gradually changed from consultation and request to command, with a bit of anger.

In the midst of the dispute, she heard the word "divorce", but she was surprised and didn't feel anything.

It's like this is long overdue.

It's good to leave, so you don't have to be so noisy.

She couldn't help but cover her ears and shouted, "It's noisy!" Can you be quieter? ”

After a moment of silence, it was the man who slammed the door again.

That night, her mother lay next to her, and there seemed to be a few more bruises on her body.

She heard her mother ask her, is it okay to leave her father?

She said, OK.

From that day on, she didn't see the man come home again, and the clothes and daily necessities of the man at home were gradually removed by the man when she was at school.

The house seems to be empty, but in fact, there is only one person missing.

If she could, she really, really hoped that the person who was missing would never appear in her world again.

But that's just a hope.

……

A few months later, the man returned.

When she came home from school, she opened the door with the key and saw him come out of the bedroom in a panic.

His expression was even more depressed than a few months ago, his body had been fat, and his back was rickety, which was more than a world away from the appearance she remembered.

She smelled a faint smell of blood in the room, and lowered her eyes as if there were some blood stains on his hands that had been wiped but had not been wiped clean.

At that moment, her gaze turned from doubt to extreme surprise, and in the surprise, there was also a fear.

She saw a strange emotion flash in the man's eyes, she didn't know what it was like back then, but after many years, she realized that it was a killing intent that arose instantly.

But the man didn't kill her in the end, but just stuffed a little money into her hand and told her to go downstairs to buy something to eat and go to the same school to play.

She was terrified, and stood in the corridor clutching the money in her hand, her legs as if they were out of control.

In the next second, he gritted his teeth and clenched his fists, rushed to a classmate's house, and asked an adult for help.

She panicked, she said wherever she thought, she didn't know what she said at all, she saw that her aunt's expression became more and more solemn, and finally gritted her teeth and said to the male owner of the family, call the police?

They called the police, and when the police arrived, the man was cleaning up the blood in his home.

He couldn't wipe it clean, and finally wiped his hands and eyes.

And she, almost numb, stood beside her mother, unable to feel her breath and heartbeat anymore.

The sunny day in June suddenly became so cold.

The man confessed to his crimes, saying that he owed a lot of debts and wanted to sell the house, but the woman would not let him, so there was an argument.

He said he had missed and had not thought he would kill her.

He asked the child what he was going to do when he was only 10 years old.

In the end, he was sentenced, seven years.

But she longed for him to die.

He didn't go home much for two years, and every time he came home, he would bring with him alcohol and quarrels. This last time, it is to make a good home, and if you say no, it will be gone.

Her mother had no relatives at home, so she lived with her grandmother for a while, and her grandmother was depressed and went not long after.

She lost her last family and was sent to a welfare home.

At the age of eleven, she met her master.

***

Zhu Yeqing said a lot, and his tone was light, like a bystander.

It's so profound, and every detail is remembered so clearly, but it's as if none of this has happened to her.

Gu Sanqi didn't know what to say, she kept holding Zhu Yeqing's hand, even though it was just a game, she still felt that her fingers were a little cold.

These experiences were something she couldn't have imagined.

Her biggest childhood worry was probably that she had too much homework and too little time to play.

So much so that now she can't even say "I understand you".

Zhu Yeqing didn't continue to say everything about her master, only said that if she was a dark part of the center of thousands of people, then her master was a madman who brought her from hopelessness to lightlessness...... But then, she made a lot of money, a lot of ......

At this point, there is no follow-up.

Gu Sanqi thought that there were some things that Zhu Yeqing might never be able to say. It's not that I don't want to say it, but I don't dare, and I can't say it.

There are always some secrets in everyone's heart, Gu Sanqi thought, some secrets, knowing, not necessarily better than not knowing.

She wanted to comfort Zhu Yeqing and say that everything was over, but when the words came to her lips, she felt that such comfort was terrifyingly pale.

After thinking for a long time, she reached out and took Zhu Yeqing into her arms, without any words, just quietly accompanying her.

In the gang, everyone talked and laughed.

Even if the people of the two gangs of robbing houses and floating shadows no longer rob those sacks, the trend of snatching sacks in the main city has been set off, and it really can't stop for a while.

There were also a few hooligans in the gang who thought about it, and they could show off the sacks, pretend not to be happy to sell them at a high price, and then show off in the gang in a smug manner......

"...... you now" Gu Sanqi thought for a while and said, "He has already completed his sentence, what will happen later?" ”

"More than ten years have passed, and whether he is dead or alive has nothing to do with me." Zhu Yeqing said, lowered his head, and didn't know whether it was true or false: "It's better to die." ”

For more than ten years, she followed her master several times, and after her master's death, she came to another strange city alone, and everything in the past was no longer relevant to her.

All that was left behind were those lingering memories, which woke her up in countless dreams.

"Are you having insomnia?" Gu Sanqi thought for a while and said, "When I first went to college, my mother said that she always had insomnia when I was not at home, and then when I went home to sleep with her during the winter and summer vacations, she would sleep soundly." It's a bit of a mystery, I think I'm a person who has a sleep-inducing effect, it's very mysterious, don't believe it......"

“……”

Gu Sanqi said, rubbed his nose, and said, "When, will you try it too?" 166 Reading Network