After a kiss, there was a long silence.

When the stars were gone, and I didn't know when there would be a bright moment again, my interest had long since faded, and my mood had fallen to the bottom, even though she was beside me, it was as if there was an invisible barrier between us—I could not touch her true thoughts, and she did not want to confess to me.

In a moment of silence, the boat moved again - and despite reluctance, the boat finally came to a halt on the shore, and she carried me off the boat without asking me, and returned the way I had come by the sporadic glimmer of light.

The mood of the return trip was very different from the surprise on the way here, and I couldn't help but bury my head in her shoulder socket again in the bumps, but the familiar breath taught me to be so sour that I almost cried.

The silence lasted until she carried me back to the door of the dormitory.

I sniffed, suppressed the tears, struggled to jump out of her arms, deliberately ignored her expression, and ran into the room without looking back, threw myself on the bed, and buried my face in the soft pillow.

Choked up and couldn't hold back anymore when he heard the door being gently slammed shut, tears quickly wetting the pillow towel.

――Isn't it just a broken love?

No big deal.

I didn't have much hope...... At least if you fight bravely, you don't have any regrets.

Despite this comfort, the pain in his chest did not diminish in the slightest.

I locked myself in my room, said that I was sick and pushed off the court, and also sent away the medical officer sent by Yan Ke, except for reading the ancient books on the shelves without sleep or food, I was not interested in anything else.

After more than half a month like this, Yan Ke really couldn't stand it anymore, so he forcibly moved me to the garden along with the bookshelves and soft couches, and sent me to bask in the sun, and sent C33C4 to firmly guard both sides, insisting that I stay outside for half an hour before I was allowed to return to the room.

This situation is different from the moment when I tried every possible way to persuade me to lie down in the house and rest.

I also knew that she was for my good, for fear that I would be moldy in the room all day long and suffocate my illness, so I simply squinted my eyes and leaned under the specially built sunshade canopy, idly in a daze, killing time.

The view of this garden is very pleasant, and after watching it for a long time, the mood is also soothed a lot.

Taking a bite of the soft and sweet pastry, and then taking a sip of the fragrant and slightly astringent tea, I closed my eyes comfortably and enjoyed this rare silence.

However, the appearance of uninvited guests suddenly broke this comfort.

I frowned, and looked displeased at the teenagers who were scurrying across the garden.

"Your Highness, are the eight acolytes in the backyard." Bingsan leaned close to me and whispered.

"How would they know the king is here, huh?" Although I asked her, I already had the answer in my heart.

I guessed with my heels that Yan Ke had sent someone to inform me, otherwise these delicate and weak boys would not have risked being tanned by the sun to wander around the garden, let alone find the secluded corner where I was.

I really didn't want to deal with them, but I couldn't just leave with my sleeves up, so I just ordered Bingsan to stop them ten feet away and not teach them to continue to approach.

"This king needs to be quiet when he reads, and he tells them to stay away." Putting the book on my face, I avoided the eager eyes of the teenagers, and calmly thought back to the "History of the Great Wu: Chengle Benji" that I had just seen, but a few traces of emotion emerged.

According to this historical record, Emperor Kuang Yunfei of Chengle, who was so happy and unreasonable, was seized the throne by Emperor Kuang Yunwei of Yongjia, demoted to the king of Xu, and was known as the abolished emperor; There is only one person under the knees of the king, Kuang Xinqi, the daughter of the world, who is dead, and there is no successor, and the king is in the lineage.

It turns out that Kuang Xihan's ancestor did not get the throne rightly...... History is always written by the victors, and there is no way to verify the truth, only the parties know it.

I thought about it for a while, and felt that the movement over there had subsided, and I thought that the little ones who had waited for no result should leave obediently, and I relaxed and took off the book covering my face, and was about to stretch my waist, moving my hands and feet, when I saw a group of young people standing or sitting, who kept quiet—all eight of them stared at me and never left.

"Bingsan, what's going on?" Glaring disapprovingly at the sneering guard, I asked in a low voice.

"Back to Your Highness, you only said that you would not let the servants approach, but you did not let your subordinates drive them away......" she explained with a little grievance.

I was speechless for a moment, so I waved my hand and motioned for her to lean over a little more, intending to explain to her and find a way to lure away these young people who were about to move, and then take advantage of the situation to leave. Before the words could be spoken, another bright color of red and willow green broke into his sight, and the leader was a woman - one of the thirty beauties that Kwong Xiqing had admired.

In this case, is it said that the road is narrow? Or is there a wolf in front and a tiger in the back?

I sighed silently, and watched as the group of people relied on their numerical superiority to block the eight acolytes who arrived first, along with their attendants, while the leading girl carried her skirt and crossed Bingsan, who was intent on stopping her at a safe distance, and bowed not far from my couch, and said in a manly voice: "Slave and maid, please say hello to Your Highness." ”

"Get up." Holding the shelf and letting her finish her salute before shouting, I looked at the tall and beautiful young woman lightly, waiting for her to explain what she meant.

"Thanks to the emperor's attention, the slaves and maids and others were given to His Highness, but he has not been summoned by His Highness to sleep, and I am terrified, if there is any rudeness, please make it clear to His Highness." After she finished speaking, she bowed deeply, her back straightened, and her body was full of stubbornness, but she taught me that I didn't know what to say.

However, how can you be embarrassed to say this matter of summoning the servants to be said in such a grand manner?

I turned my head and touched the bridge of my nose, deliberately changing the topic to send her away, but in the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of a familiar figure, and when the words came to my mouth, they turned into two other words: "Come here." ”

She shook her body against the ground, looked up in surprise, and then immediately got up and walked quickly to me, as if afraid that I would suddenly regret it.

As I watched her, I watched the reaction of the figure without a trace—the man who was about to take a slight pause, but turned and flashed into the corner, hiding his form.

I don't know whether I felt compassion for this pretending to be calm girl, or just angry at the estrangement of the man, when the girl came to me, I grabbed her arm, took her to the soft couch, grabbed her waist with one hand, and picked her chin with the other, which was full of the style of a gentleman: "Your name is Ziyi?" How old is this year? ”

The girl who was still trying to keep her composure was suddenly blushing when I was hugging her like this, and replied expectantly: "Slave, slave and maid, this year is fifteen ......."

My hand trembled as she answered, and for a moment I felt an indescribable sense of guilt—at the age of fifteen, not much different from my former student, I was just a naïve and ignorant child.

What kind of ability is it to bully a child?

Besides, even if she used this to test her reaction, what could it change?

After all, I've been rejected.

Thinking of this, that trace of anger also quietly disappeared.

Laughing self-deprecatingly, I withdrew my hand and leaned back on the soft couch with a smile: "That's it, you can go." ”

Unexpectedly, the girl grabbed my hand in turn, hugged it to her chest, and asked with tears in her eyes: "Your Highness dislikes the purple clothes and is old?" Then Bai Qi will serve His Royal Highness, okay? She had just turned thirteen earlier this month......"

The girl's soft breasts were pressed tightly against my arm, and the depth of the depression seemed to sink my whole arm in, and the tears that gradually gathered in her eyes taught me that I could not bear to push it away forcefully, so I had to patiently explain in this embarrassing position: "This is not what the king meant...... You, you let go first. ”

She bit her lip and hugged my arm tighter: "Since Your Highness doesn't look down on slaves and maids, slaves and maids have no intention of living, and there is nothing to love in life, but if you want to die, you still hope that Your Highness will be fulfilled." ”

"Huh? That's not going to work! Taken aback by her fierceness, I didn't care about the embarrassment, so I hurriedly grabbed the girl's shoulders and persuaded bitterly, "Life is so precious, how can you say give up!" Is it because this king does not accept you that you will seek death and life? It's just reckless! Absurd! Very foolish! ”

When I was filled with righteous indignation, my brain was hot, but I immediately calmed down, I secretly glanced at the person's position, met her slightly indifferent gaze, and felt a dull pain in my heart, and hurriedly turned my eyes away, looked at the girl who bit her lips white, and sighed deeply, not only to teach her, but also as if to enlighten myself: "People live for themselves, not for other people, as for the so-called love, compared to family affection, friendship is more ethereal, dispensable, Where is it worth paying with your life? ”

Seeing the girl's dazed face, I suddenly realized that what I said was afraid that what I said violated the feudal concept she had accepted since she was a child, and taught her that she could not understand it.

She insisted on serving me, not out of affection, but out of the responsibility of being chosen by the emperor and the inertia of being taught.

"In short, the king does not dislike you, but he does not need you to sleep - you are all the king's people, and no one is allowed to harm you, including yourselves, without the king's permission, understand?" With a little force breaking away from her hand, I got up from the couch, looked down at her, and instructed earnestly.

Thinking of such a domineering order can teach these children to obey and accept it.

"Yes, slave and maid obey." She lowered her eyes and bowed her head respectfully.

"Well, this king is tired, let's go back." Having informed the squires who had dutifully stopped the acolytes who had been trying to get closer, I turned and walked in the other direction—and Jiang Zhuo was waiting there quietly.

Glancing at the rockery she was holding in the palm of her hand, the hard rock seemed to faintly crack a spider web-like trace, which showed the ups and downs of the person who applied the force.

I had the heart to take her palm to see if it was hurt, but my hand was halfway out but it hung down and was behind my back—I said that I would not be entangled with her anymore, and I could not break my promise.

Besides, she doesn't want my attention.

I closed my eyes hard, forced back the astringency in my eyes, and I walked on.

The moment I passed her, how I wished she could hold me, even if it was a verbal retention...... But in the end, she didn't say a word until I walked out of the garden.

Nothing.

――In a short time, it will be the day of his wedding to the son of the emperor.

Probably, only then will I be able to really give up.