Chapter 38: The Only Self-Esteem (1)

Do you think I'm going to stay here insignificant? Do you think I'm an emotionless machine? Do you think that if I am poor, lowly, unbeautiful, and small, I have no soul and no heart? You're wrong, I have as many souls and as full hearts as you. If God gives me a little beauty, a lot of money, I will make it hard for you to leave me, just as I can't leave you now. I do not speak to you by the rules of social life and customs, but my heart to your heart. - Jane Eyre

Those people in Buqing have been gone for so many days, and Zhang Zinan is very bored.

Like Buqing, he gets a good salary, his working hours are relatively free, and his work content is also very leisurely, where to find a second one. But Bu Qing's salary is not for nothing, when she is not needed at all like this, how can there be a salary at all.

It doesn't matter if she doesn't have money, the key is that the place she can usually use to hide from Liu Yan has been lost.

Liu Yan has become more and more excessive since she fell out of love, relying on her own lovelorn, and her behavior is more arrogant than before, not to mention, it is not only the three of them in the dormitory that have been affected, basically the girls in the whole class are not better.

It's just that as Liu Yan's roommate, this feeling will be more obvious, Zhao Gang is from the city, and he has a good temper, basically he won't get angry, so after a long time, he got used to it. But Gong Xiaobei and Zhang Zinan can't stand it, but the place where Gong Xiaobei works is not like Buqing, who has no concept of time at all, she has a place to go, Zhang Zinan can only make her own plans.

But it doesn't matter, my sister is here.

Zhang Zinan's sister, Zhang Ziwang, is also in this city.

It's just that Zhang Zinan is studying here, and Zhang Ziwang, who is only 22 years old, has been working here for four years.

There is no way, to support Zhang Zinan's tuition, and to be responsible for the milk powder money of the youngest brother in the family, Zhang Ziwang, who is eighteen years old, does not have too many choices, who calls her the eldest child, who calls her a daughter who is not loved by the family. In order to keep her sister from suffering the same fate as herself, she can only sacrifice herself.

It was very hard at the beginning, but Zhang Ziwang was beautiful and could speak, and soon found a job at the luxury counter, and as soon as his performance improved, the salary he could get in a month was rich, and his sister Zhang Zinan was also angry, and he got a scholarship every year, and he also went out to work, almost half of the expenses did not need to worry about himself, so he had a lot of spare money in his hands, and he could almost buy Zhang Zinan a better computer.

But Zhang Zinan found that something was wrong with her sister recently.

It shouldn't be a problem at work.,My sister gets along well with my colleagues and bosses.,Occasionally, there will be guests who come to find fault.,But it's generally plain.,Even if you occasionally meet the kind of people who come to make trouble.,It's basically solved by the manager.。

Could it be because of what's going on at home?

Zhang Zinan buried his head in the pillow and thought uneasily.

If I could, I would like to disconnect from my family. Obviously they are all their children, why can the younger brother get such love, but when he even goes to college to take the train, no one at home comes to send it, and even after knowing that he is also working, he also asks to send money back, but the school always has to pay some fees, so demanding of their sisters, don't you feel uneasy in conscience?

Of course, this is just Zhang Zinan's idea, she doesn't have the courage or the courage to say it to her parents in person, even if their natural face is hurting herself again and again, but there is no way to be ruthless.

If my sister is concerned, is she also embarrassed by things at home?

As the closest family member, Zhang Zinan naturally wanted to ask on the side.

But Zhang Ziwang shook his head and said that it was none of his family's business, as long as he sent the money back, and then asked her: "Where you work, do you take all kinds of things?" ”

Zhang Zinan blinked his eyes: "Kill people and set fires, what do you want to do?" "It can't be like last time, I met a suitor comparable to kraft candy, so I want to find someone to solve it.

Zhang Ziwang hesitated for a moment, but smiled again: "It's okay, I'm just asking, it's time to eat, aren't you hungry?" Let's go out for a bite to eat with my sister. ”

Zhang Zinan was naturally full of doubts, but he didn't want to ask anything.

But that doesn't mean she'll give up on the truth.

Taking advantage of his sister's inattention, Zhang Zinan secretly called home, wanting to see if his parents' attitude was still the same as usual.

The phone was quickly connected, but it was the younger brother who had just entered junior high school who answered the phone: "Hey, second sister, is there something wrong?" ”

Zhang Zinan was stunned for a moment: "Today Wednesday, you don't go to class, what are you doing with your father's mobile phone?" ”

Zhang Chengjie looked at him left and right: "Dad bought me the latest Apple mobile phone, but the new card has no traffic, so he gave me this number." ”

Zhang Zinan was silent for a while, not knowing what to say.

Apple's mobile phone is not cheap, even Zhang Ziwang, who makes the most money, this mobile phone is worth more than a month's salary, her parents are ordinary people in the countryside, in order to save this younger brother was fined a lot of money, and now the family still owes debts, this is just a mobile phone, they are a relatively remote place, there must be no place to sell, they are all entrusted to bring back from the city, how can it be six thousand, are about to catch up with their own tuition.

It's a pity to use their money to buy things for their younger brother, but if they have to buy something that exceeds the family's expenses, Zhang Zinan doesn't understand why, her own mobile phone was given by her sister, and her sister's is still a mobile phone in their in-store lottery last time. Isn't it good to buy a slightly cheaper one and buy clothes or something for the rest of the money?

Zhang Zinan was a little sad, and he didn't speak for a long time, but Zhang Chengjie started talking about it himself: "Sister, do you know? As soon as I took this mobile phone to school, everyone was envious to death, and no one in our village had such a good mobile phone, haha, everyone regarded me as that local tyrant. By the way, second sister, do you still have money? ”

Zhang Zinan came back to his senses: "What's the matter, what do you want money for?" Someone in the family is sick or what. ”

"No, no, I promised my classmates to invite them to play in the county, probably more than 500 yuan, anyway, I asked my parents for it, and in the end you took it out, this time it's not so troublesome, just give it to me."

This is not a lot of money, but for Zhang Zinan, it is not a amount that can be taken out with a wave of his hand, how to say that it is also two weeks' living expenses, and after being silent for a while, she still agreed: "Okay, call me tomorrow." ”

Anyway, even if they don't agree now, their parents will call them and ask them to remit money, this is their fate, an entanglement that cannot be resolved.