PS: This chapter seems to be a bit too fragile, but in my understanding, people who value feelings care a lot about every word said by the people around them, if you don't like it, then don't read this chapter, skip it.

"Oma, aba, I'm going to school!"

"Be careful on the road, listen carefully in class, pay attention to your body when practicing, and don't demand too much from yourself."

"Inside, I see. Oma, aba, goodbye. ”

An ordinary conversation in a family, but it contains all the care that parents care about their children.

Closing the door, Xu Zhuxian walked to another building in the community with her schoolbag on her back, and there was a sister in the building who needed her to go to school, obviously she was the one who was the younger sister. As usual, it was the eldest sister of the Lin family, Yun Zhen Oni, who opened the door for herself, and her target Yun Er Oni still looked like she hadn't woken up at the moment. The little head was lit up and down, the sleepy eyes were closed one by one, and the crocodile's mouth was stuffed with toast, and there was hardly a gap in it.

It seems that Yun'er Oni had a long phone call with Xiuying Oni last night.

In order to give their Taeyeon Oni an unforgettable birthday, Seo Joo-hyun's sisters discussed the birthday celebration plan early, and to put it bluntly, they actually hid the camera, and the one who proposed this plan was Choi so-young, who was brutally poisoned last month. In order not to let Kim Taeyeon guess their thoughts, they implemented this plan several days in advance, deliberately picking on the thorns in front of Kim Taeyeon, deliberately quarreling in front of her, and this heavy responsibility was handed over to Zheng Xiuyan, who has serious facial expression management, in order to be more realistic, the person who quarreled with Zheng Xiuyan was responsible for the good human rights Yuli.

There is no way, who made Jin Xiaoyuan's nerves jump too strongly, they are afraid that they will not be able to keep up. Choi so-young's mouth is too fast, and sometimes it is difficult for Jung so-yeon to keep up with what she says. Lee Soon-gyu can't do it either, and she has to rely on her to appease Kim Taeyeon, who is cranky because of their targeting and quarrels. Huang Meiying is even worse, the two returnees will 'quarrel' in Korean? They don't want to listen to the bunch of blind people here. The rest of the post-90s legions don't have to think about it, God knows what Lin Yun'er's eyes will say, Xu Zhuxian's reputation is not for nothing, it's good if the sisters don't agree with the outside world, and the three don't have the courage to quarrel at all.

Although Xu Zhuxian did not agree with this proposal, or did not agree at all, because she knew very well that she could not afford to play with feelings. It's a pity that the right to no opinion in the busy house was implemented very thoroughly, and no one paid attention to her opinions, and she was even strictly guarded by Lin Yun'er. Xu Zhuxian, who wanted to say it but couldn't say it, had to silently follow behind the hidden camera team as an audience.

At noon on this day, another 'quarrel' began, and the two sides were friends for many years, Kim Hyo-yeon and Choi so-young. In the calm rush to grab vegetables, Choi so-young 'inadvertently' knocked over the bowl of soup, and most of that soup flowed to Kim Hyo-yeon's legs, and then...... In the past few days, Kim Hyo-yeon, who has a 'bad temper', broke out, and 'scolded' Cui Xiuying in the court, no matter how good his temper is, he can't stand being blamed in public, and Cui Xiuying 'can't help it'. One of the nerves jumped out, the other spoke fast, and they didn't know how to speak.

"Don't ......be like this," Kim Taeyeon rushed up to pull away the two who were about to 'fight', but they were unappreciative of it, and threw down a hurtful word.

"You don't need to worry about our business!"

In a word, Kim Taeyeon, who was going to persuade him, froze his movements, and his outstretched hand retracted awkwardly, and he lowered his head and didn't see that the two of them, who she thought were angry, were smiling at this time with a smile on their faces and making a victory gesture.

Seo Joo-hyun was very uneasy, and she who had been paying attention to Kim Taeyeon clearly felt Kim Tae-yeon's depressed mood. After lunch, she didn't follow her to the practice room, but secretly followed behind Kim Taeyeon. Although she has no experience in tailgating, the distracted Kim Taeyeon does not know that she is followed by a tall little guy.

Crying? I guess so. Xu Zhuxian hid outside the toilet and listened carefully to the quiet sound of the wasted tap water. Seo Joo-hyun wasn't sure if Kim Taeyeon was really crying, but the back of the washbasin in front of the mirror made her regret not telling the reason earlier.

In Seo Joo-hyun's cognition, Kim Taeyeon is a very strong person, she can face it with a smile no matter what, even the moment she loses, the first time is not to vent her emotions, but to comfort the emotions of the people around her first, which is still known from the mouth of the comforted deceased Lee Hwan Hee. What would she do if she were herself? You don't have to think about it to guess, you must be crying all day.

Crying, it seems that she often cries secretly from people, because of the time when she first entered the company, she practiced and couldn't keep up with the teacher's scolding, and the lessons of her predecessors during the break, and often hid in the corridor and cried secretly in the bed.

Isn't that too much...... Looking at Kim Taeyeon, who slapped her face with cold water under the reflection of the mirror, Seo Joo-hyun unconsciously bit her lower lip and frowned tightly together.

"Ernie ......"

It seemed that Seo Joo-hyun's sudden voice was startled, Kim Taeyeon wiped his face in a panic, and turned his head with a smile, "Why is Xiaoxian here?" ”

"I'll go to the bathroom." For the first time, Seo Joo-hyun felt that Kim Taeyeon's smile was a little ugly, and the close distance allowed her to see Kim Tae-yeon's eyes that were still a little red under the stimulation of cold water.

Still not lying, the gradually dyed cheeks red, and the burning sensation told Seo Joo-hyun that her lies were completely failing. But fortunately, Kim Taeyeon didn't pay attention to Seo Joo-hyun's reaction, but patted her on the shoulder and said with a smile: "Don't stay too long, be careful that they are in a hurry." ”

After saying that, he patted it again and left with a smile. However, the moment he lowered his head, the smile on his face faded instantly.

"Ernie ......" Seo Joo-hyun quickly turned around, looked at Kim Taeyeon's departing back, and stopped talking.

Oni, we seem to have gone too far......

Ernie is sorry......

The weather in early March was slightly cool. Spring has arrived, and fresh green shoots have emerged from the branches of each tree, adding vitality to the dead air after winter.

Carrying a schoolbag and walking on the bustling road from school, Kim Taeyeon's lonely appearance is in stark contrast to the crowds of students around her. It's the second year of high school, and the schoolwork is still the same easy, although it is not as easy as the Japanese school under the control of the same Mei Dad, at least it is much easier than the next door next door. After all, the hard work of a semester has paid off, and the position of the deputy class leader is becoming more and more stable, and even those who look at her unpleasantly have obeyed a lot, although their faces are not bad, at least they will not be disobedient.

Choose...... Is it wrong? Looking up at the sky, Kim Taeyeon was confused again, and Jung so-yeon's sudden change made Kim Taeyeon at a loss. Zheng Xiuyan's 'don't have to worry about it', and Kim Hyo-yeon's 'don't have to worry about our business'. No matter which of the two sentences made Kim Taeyeon have an illusion, that is, they had not officially accepted themselves, knowing that this was just their momentary anger, but she still couldn't let go, she couldn't let go of the feeling at that time, sad. Just like in Long Wu's memory, a misunderstanding, a quarrel made her friends almost die of old age, every time they meet, they are strangers, you ignore me, I ignore your strangers.

Will it be like them, and become like that? In the end, only the first one remains, or is it like there has never been?

"Taeyeon, what's wrong?" The sudden sound, the hairs on the whole body stood up in fright, and the body suddenly stiffened.

"It's Xianyi, it scared me to death." Kim Tae-yeon patted her chest and soothed her frightened heart.

"It's that you're too immersed in your own world." Min Xianyi rolled his eyes speechlessly, "What's wrong with you these days?" It's only been a few days since school started, and Kim Taeyeon's depressed mood lasted for three days, and many people asked what was wrong, but unfortunately no one got the answer to the question.

"It's nothing, it's just a little bit of a bad mood." smiled, another useless answer, Min Xianyi's eyes rolled even more. Who in the class doesn't know you're in a bad mood, we want why you're in a bad mood, not you're in a bad mood!

Min Xianyi shook her head helplessly, Kim Taeyeon is not the stuffy one in her company. Sao Xiao steamed buns, my sister's name is taken out to scare and scare, and everything is recruited. Kim Taeyeon's months are still five months older than her, what does she use to scare and put the score of her predecessors? The two of them are not the same company, who is she showing them.

Walking silently on the road, each with its own thoughts, the journey of a few minutes will be over soon, and they will go to each company at will.

Negative thoughts linger in the brain, taking up most of the space, and the practice room is empty at this time. Choi so-young transferred to Peihwa Girls' High School when she was promoted to high school, and Lee Soon-gyu was in the same school, it is said that Choi's mother wanted to cultivate Choi's long-legged ladylike habits, and she didn't want her to be left unattended, so she was specially thrown to Lee Soon-gyu, a high school without any male creatures of the same age. However, looking at the appearance of Lee Soon-gyu, who has been in the women's high school for a year, Choi's mother still has a long way to go for Choi so-young's ladies' training.

Quietly, only breathing, the homework in my hand for the first time I had a headache, I knew how to write, but as soon as I picked up the pen, I forgot everything. He threw the pen out of his hand in anger, and his crisp voice seemed to be mocking. Kim Taeyeon leaned against the wall, regardless of whether it would show a little or not, and propped up one leg at will.

Who will tell me and what to do......

Thinking back to the happiness of being with Zheng Xiuyan and their play, the corners of their mouths rose slightly. Suddenly, the two pictures of the quarrel that had just happened came to mind, gradually expanding and crowding out other pictures, and the two sentences of 'don't worry about it' echoed in my ears, and the corners of my mouth sank. Finally, the sunny mood was once again shrouded in dark clouds, as if the weather was gloomy today.

The lunch meal was the quietest and most dreary meal the girls had ever had, and even Choi so-young and Lin Yun'er, who were the most restless at the dinner table, were obediently eating their own meals. The source of what makes them ladies is the silent Kim Taeyeon, who looks at them from time to time with 'I'm sorry' in her eyes. The lips pursed from time to time made them really embarrassed to look at her, and it was them who were wrong......

Because of Seo Joo-hyun's small report, they realized that they had gone too far, not only muttering about Kim Tae-yeon's imagination, but also underestimating Kim Tae-yeon's emphasis on feelings. After full reflection, they gave up all the next arrangements and planned to celebrate their birthdays directly tonight. But unexpectedly, Kim Taeyeon, who was not wrong at all, apologized to them inexplicably before the meal, and the girls were dumbfounded, the script was wrong...... Shouldn't they apologize? What's the other way around?

The embarrassing lunch is finally over, and the relieved they ignore Kim Taeyeon, who is stuck in the dark background, and hurriedly leave the canteen that makes them tangled, leaving only Lee Soon-gyu, who is responsible for appeasing Kim Tae-yeon, and her little friend Hwang Mi-young.

"Taeyeon, don't pay attention to what they say, it's just a joke."

"Hmm." casually coped with Li Shungui's answer, and the chopsticks in his hand were still poking at most of the bowl of rice.

"daedae......" Huang Meiying frowned worriedly, faintly uneasy.

"I'm fine." Kim Taeyeon looked up with a smile and said that she was fine.

A far-fetched smile is better than not smiling in the eyes of Lee Soon-gyu and Hwang Mi-young, because it worries them even more. glanced at each other, worriedly followed Kim Taeyeon around the company, and the mobile phone in his hand was busy contacting Choi so-young and them.

The Instrument Room, where all S.M's instruments are placed, is also one of the most attractive places for trainees, after all, everyone wants to show off their hands. In order not to destroy the instruments, they are usually locked, but today they are not locked. When you open the door, you will be greeted by different musical instruments, large and small, arranged in an orderly manner.

Sitting in front of the piano, stroking the black and white elves arranged on the wooden frame, gently pressing, the sound of the heart resounding in the room, each key has a different sound, similar but different.

From one finger to one finger to ten finger flexible dance, a piece of music that Lee Soon-gyu and they have never heard came out of the piano, the melody is quite simple, not much change, slowly but a little sad. Inspiration is surging out like a fountain, the betrayal and departure hidden in the depths of memory come to mind little by little, the feeling is very worrying, very painful, not her own but like her own experience, this kind of pain she doesn't want, and she doesn't want to experience, because she doesn't have such a strong heart to dare to try, and there is no extra heart waiting for another to be broken.

Lee Soon-gyu's mobile phone was quietly dialed. With the sound of the piano, Kim Taeyeon's singing voice joined, her singing skills are worthy of being the leader among the trainees, telling her heart like a whisper, the clean voice echoes softly in her ears, and the integration of feelings, listening quietly has a feeling of wanting to cry.

“I－can’t－figure－out

Is－it－meant－to－be－this－way

Easy－words－so－hard－to－say

I－can’t－live－without

Knowing－how－you－feel

Know－if－this－is－real

Tell－me－am－I－mistaken

Cause－I－don’t－have－another－heart－for－breaking

Please－don’t－let－me－go”

A song of confession? Hwang Mi-young shook her head and dismissed the idea, preferring to believe that the song was born because of their words.

【Tell-me-am-I-mistaken】There's nothing wrong with you, Taeyeon......

Unlike the returnees Hwang Mi-young and the Jeong sisters, Lee Soon-gyu, who received Korean English since childhood, and others don't know much about the lyrics, and they don't have time to think about what they mean, but this does not affect their appreciation of the songs.

The music stopped abruptly, and the girls who were listening quietly came back to their senses, and a few upstairs hurried down, and the two downstairs stayed quietly to the side so as not to disturb Kim Taeyeon's inspiration.

How long? I don't know, maybe a lot of time has passed, and they have listened to this unfinished song many times here, repeating and repeating, and it is more complete over and over again. There was a lot of paper thrown on the ground, and there were a lot of alterations on it, and even a lot of places were black. Outside the musical instrument room, there are always many familiar and unfamiliar trainees, some attracted by the song, some called by their peers, but few can stay forever.

The piano sounded again, and the song began again, this time for a longer period of time, and the song was more complete. Some of the hoarse voices did not become a flaw in this song, and the feelings were still so impeccable that they touched their hearts.

It's all over, and when the last note falls, all the trainees gathered at the door are driven back by Jung Sung-chan, and Kim Tae-yeon, who is in the instrument room, is also verbally criticized by Jung Sung-chan. The thunder was loud and the rain was small, and they who thought they would be physically punished were actually let go, and the surprised eyes saw that Zheng Chengcan was directly bombarded, and he was not an impersonal machine, can he be so surprised!

In Zheng Chengcan's angry eyes, the girls fled and returned to the practice room, looking at each other and smiling.

Smiling and smiling, Kim Taeyeon hung up her face again, quietly moved her steps and wanted to stay away, but she didn't expect to fly into trouble, her head was burst, and her head was bursting with chestnuts, and her bean-sized teardrops hung in the corners of her eyes, and she looked up aggrievedly at Zheng Xika, who was planting chestnuts on her head.

"Don't look at me like that."

Kim Taeyeon, who was slapped with a knife, withdrew her gaze and lowered her head like a child who made a mistake and was scolded. Her face was suddenly held up by a pair of hands, and Kim Tae-yeon met Jung so-yeon's eyes in confusion.

"Do you know why I'm hitting you?"

How is it possible to know...... With a pout, Kim Tae-yeon shook her head.

"Who told you to hide from us, say it, why are you crying." Jung so-yeon stared at Kim Taeyeon's eyes, as long as Kim Tae-yeon dared to lie, she was ready to accept it with a slap.

"Nope." The eyes are weak and dare not look at each other.

"Say!" In response to Kim Taeyeon's denial, Jung so-yeon pinched Kim Taeyeon's soft face with some annoyance.

"Taeyeon, you should say it quickly!" Kim Hyo-yeon on the side urged impatiently.

"You don't want me to take care of it." As if angry, Kim Taeyeon pulled out her pinched face vigorously and took a few steps back, red like a ripe apple.

Jung so-yeon smiled, she finally knew why Kim Taeyeon's mood was low, it turned out that she was minding them at that time, but the words they didn't care about were remembered by Kim Tae-yeon firmly, and they were also richly processed. Perhaps, there are some jokes that really can't be messed around with her.

Approaching with a smile, he took the sulking Kim Taeyeon into his arms with both hands, and tightly did not let her leave. I originally wanted to say something at night, but at this time I opened my mouth, and a sweet voice sounded in Kim Taeyeon's ears, "Pabo, happy birthday~"

"Happy birthday, our little daedae!"

"Happy birthday, Taeyeon!"

"Happy birthday to Ernie!"

“daedae，Happy－birthday！”

Happy birthday...... The blessings gradually sounded in her ears, and Kim Taeyeon thought that today was her birthday. It turned out that what I said at that time was just a joke, and what I always took seriously was just a joke......

"Later...... No...... Re-open ...... This kind of joke...... All right? Choked voices, tears flooded in closed eye sockets, "I'm scared ......" "Scared of losing, scared of being alone......

"Okay, don't open it." Jung so-yeon patted Kim Tae-yeon's back comfortingly.

Whatever you play, don't play with feelings, it's more fragile than glass, and once it is broken, it will never return to its original intact.

This birthday celebration has nothing but a cake, which looks quite shabby, but it is very lively. That night, Kim Taeyeon's dormitory was noisy until the early hours of the morning, and there was no cake fight or anything, all of which went into Choi so-young and Lim Yoon-a's stomachs, and they were already 'extremely hungry' when they couldn't eat enough at noon. There was also a small cappella concert at the celebration, the protagonist was of course Kim Taeyeon, who was the birthday star, a guitar version of "Heartbeats" that was just completed today, and a song "We Are All the Same" that they hadn't heard yet, which resonated with everyone more than the previous one.

With the existence of Jin Xiaoyuan and their families, a good concert was turned into a ghost crying wolf howling party, singing some normal songs until it was okay, the point is that they sang songs that I don't know which genius made them, and they don't understand them at all, just howling there, I don't know how many warnings I got from the aunt in charge of the dormitory.

March, the season of spring, is the beginning of another year.