2. Sigh and sorrow to cross and recall the past

You children's shoes may have to ask, Cheng Yanzhi, who are you? How can you visit the legendary Golden House?! It's not fair, we want to go too, huh~~

Cheng Yanzhi is really full of inner cows, full of inner cows, I rely on, (Cheng Yanzhi: I'm sorry, I really can't help but burst into a foul mouth, it's too uncivilized, I'll pay attention next time!) sorry，sorry~~）

Do you think I would like to visit here and quietly engrave 'Cheng Yanzhi is here' on a pillar of the Golden House with a knife?

Oh, no, if only it was just a visit, dear!

At least, I'll be able to go back after I'm done here!

But now it's okay, the Time and Space Tourism Bureau under the jurisdiction of God has forcibly sent you to the golden house built by Comrade Liu Che, the Emperor of Xiaowu of the Han Dynasty, for sightseeing, and at the same time told you very badly that due to the tight budget of the Tourism Bureau, only the lucky tourist Cheng Yanzhi paid a one-way ticket.

555…… Well, let's put it bluntly, that is-she, Cheng Yanzhi, accidentally crossed over very, very sadly!

In other words, without the help of any fantasy powers, such as immortal power, magic power, mana, etc., and it is impossible to invent the creation of zào or find the time shuttle qì, she, Cheng Yanzhi accidentally traveled to the era of Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty thousands of years ago, and if there are no special circumstances (it seems that the probability of this happening is so small that it is slim), she will never be able to return to her modern home!!

Okay, just cross it, I'll bear it!

But in the world, there is always no saddest urge, only more sorrowful. This truth can now be regarded as completely carried forward in Cheng Yanzhi's body - not only did she tragically travel to the period of Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty in the Han Dynasty, but she was not wearing it, she-she-she was still a damn soul to wear it to an ancient person, and even more - more - more - even more sad is that the owner of her body is actually surnamed Chen Gillian!

That's right, at this moment, her soul pierced the body of Emperor Wu of Han's original queen and cousin, Chen Ajiao. This...... Is there anything more tragic than that?!

Alas, to be precise, she Cheng Yanzhi, at this moment, now, and in the long years to come (I don't know if it's that long.) Chen Ajiao in history was imprisoned after being deposed as the queen, and died of depression in her forties. If it weren't for God's 'favor' again, she would have to be Chen Gillian until the end of her life!

Now, dear children's shoes, you finally know why Cheng Yanzhi appeared in the legendary 'Golden House', right?!

Alas, as long as Cheng Yanzhi thinks of this terrible crossing, his heart feels as if there are 10,000 top-level divine beasts-grass mud horses galloping!

How so? How so? How can this be?!

She doesn't want to cross into a stupid girl Chen Gillian!

This girl is a tragic female cannon fodder!

What's more, she really doesn't want to let a wolf-hearted scumbag be her husband anymore! One time is enough! She really doesn't want to live with a scumbag man who is a scumbag anymore!

That's right, in modern times, Cheng Yanzhi has had a failed marriage that hurt her very much. She once mistakenly trusted her life and married an out-and-out dead scumbag.

That scumbag (Cheng Yanzhi: I don't want to mention this girl's name, I'm afraid of dirtying my mouth, he only deserves me to call him a scumbag, you understand?!) She used to be a colleague, and the two worked in the same government agency.

Cheng Yanzhi is also a beauty in modern times, 165cm tall, slim, fair skin, delicate facial features, simple and kind, and her family background is also very good. When Yun Ying was not married, the young men who pursued her could line up from their department to the gate of the compound of the unit.

Among them, there are many young and promising young talents with superior family backgrounds. However, at that time, Cheng Yanzhi was obsessed with ghosts and fell in love with that dead scumbag.

How else to say that love is always blind? Not at all!

Well, that's it, she and her scumbag ex-husband fell in love and got married very smoothly.

My ex-husband's family is very poor, and his ancestors have been farmers living in remote ravines for generations, facing the loess with their backs to the sky, and they can't read a basket of words.

In his generation, he finally came out with a boy with excellent academic performance, his parents tightened their belts, pooled money everywhere, coupled with various welfare policies of the state to subsidize poor college students, in short, the ex-husband finally walked out of the small ravine where his ancestors had lived for generations and became the first college student in the history of their village.

The ex-husband is also competitive, and he has lived up to the ardent expectations of his parents and fellow villagers, and his academic performance has been excellent in the four years of college, and he is also very good in all aspects, and after graduation, he was admitted to work in the hottest large-scale government agency in C City, the capital city of S Province, and since then he has completely jumped out of the farm gate and become the 'golden phoenix' that flew out of their small mountain village.

Well, the 'Golden Phoenix' does sound very good, however, it can't stand the cruelty of reality: that is, the down-and-out phoenix is not as good as a chicken!

In their remote mountain village, the ex-husband is the 'Golden Phoenix' praised and talked about by his father and fellow villagers, but in C City, he is just an ordinary person at the bottom of society, a small civil servant at the lowest level of government agencies, no money, no power, no house, no car, and a large amount of debts owed due to studying have not been paid off.

At that time, Cheng Yanzhi did not dislike her ex-husband for being poor, but empathetically proposed that after the two of them registered their marriage, it would be good to go on a 'trip'.

And the destination of this so-called trip is the ex-husband's hometown - that desolate and impoverished mountain village. The marriage house where the two lived after marriage was a small two-bedroom specially bought by Cheng Yanzhi's parents. At that time, Cheng Yanzhi was very considerate of her ex-husband, for fear that her ex-husband would feel faceless because of this, so she comforted him over and over again:

"The little difficulties now are temporary, you are a very good person, take your time, our days will get better and better!"

"What's mine is yours! Why do husbands and wives have such a clear separation? How sad it hurts! ”

"I don't want any diamond rings, lavish weddings, or anything like that...... Living in a big house, how can our nest be warm?! As long as the two of us are together, it is better than anything else to live our little life well! ”

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In fact, what woman in this world doesn't want to marry beautifully and decently?

And what woman doesn't like a dazzling diamond ring, a gorgeous wedding dress, and doesn't want to live comfortably in a spacious and bright house?!

But for the sake of her ex-husband, Cheng Yanzhi didn't care about anything. At that time, she just stupidly thought that two people knew each other, loved each other, and knew each other, and it was not easy to walk together along the way, so she had to do it and cherish it.

What they never expected was that only a year after they got married, they were hit by a thunderbolt on a sunny day. The ex-husband was arrested by the authorities on suspicion of abusing his power for personal gain and accepting bribes, and was eventually sentenced to five years in prison.

At first, Cheng Yanzhi stubbornly believed that her husband was innocent, framed, and framed, and insisted on appealing for her ex-husband and returning his innocence. However, her ex-husband calmly sued her that he was indeed derelict in his duties and took bribes, and took 100,000 yuan from the other party......

She was so shocked...... Cheng Yanzhi can't forget it for the rest of her life, and she can only describe it as a thunderbolt in the clear sky!

She only remembered that she was stunned on the spot, and she couldn't feel anything, only the helpless and eager call of her ex-husband kept echoing in her ears:

"Yanyan, I don't want to, I'm all for our family! I want you to live a good life and not have to suffer with me to take risks! Yeon-yeon, I love you! It's because I love you too much that I don't want you to suffer with me, so I ...... That's why I took that money! Woowoo...... Yanyan, don't leave me, I really can't live without you~~"

At that time, Cheng Yanzhi had just been diagnosed by the hospital as being two months pregnant, and her parents, relatives and friends learned the news and tried their best to persuade her to rush to the hospital for an abortion while the fetus was still not big, and then quickly divorce her ex-husband.

"The child's father is now a criminal, and he has been sentenced to five years in prison, five years, a full five years, this is not a short year!"

"Even if he is released from prison, there will be nothing left. Well, he didn't have anything in the first place, but he used to have a relatively stable job, right?! No matter how much money you make, it can be regarded as a guaranteed iron rice bowl! But now that he has entered like this, this iron rice bowl is also lost, and people who have been in prison cannot sell social security and enjoy the government's pension treatment, this is the old man has no place to rely on! What can he do after you say it? ”

"Xiaoyan, hurry up and kill the child and divorce him, you are still young, you don't have to ruin your life for such a criminal! Don't say that we are unkind and impersonal, we are all for your good. You go and inquire, which man has sinned and gone to prison, and the wife will wait for him to come out without complaint? Who isn't a man as soon as the front foot enters, and the back foot of the wife is in a hurry to hand in a divorce agreement, anxious to clear up the relationship?! There are a lot of old husbands and wives who have been in love for decades! ”

"How long have you lived with him, you can't say anything about ruining your life for him, this is something that will drag you down for the rest of your life! What era is it, don't do the stupid thing that Wang Baochuan has been guarding the cold kiln for 18 years! ”

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The admonition of his parents and friends is still in his ears, but the simple and kind Cheng Yanzhi said that he didn't want to kill the child in his womb. It is the crystallization of the love between her and her ex-husband, how can she give it up lightly?! She couldn't bear to leave the man she loved so much and let him suffer in prison alone.

So, she ignored her family's opposition and did not choose to divorce quickly and completely dissociate herself from her, as most prisoners' wives do. Instead, they chose to give birth to their love crystallization, support their ex-husband's parents, who could not continue to work due to old age and frailty, and had long lost their source of income, silently waiting for the day when their ex-husband was released from prison.

In these long five years, she has tasted the hardships of life.

Financially, she had to cut back on food and clothing, use her own income to maintain the daily expenses of the whole family, and be filial to her in-laws and raise children alone; Mentally, she also has to endure the ridicule and ridicule of colleagues, neighbors, and gossip from all sides from time to time, and swallow bitterly such gossip as commonplace as 'you see, her husband is in prison, and I heard that he is a corrupt ......criminal'.

In the past five years, she has been busy alone, wearing many hats, making money to support her family, being a mother and a father, raising her son with hard work, and being a competent and good daughter-in-law, serving her in-laws, tired half to death every day, physically and mentally exhausted.

However, every month when the family meets, she will clean up properly, go to see the child's father with a smile on her face, and tell him: "Our family is doing well, don't worry about it inside, our family will wait for you to come back!"

In the end, there will be some things that the prison allows the families of prisoners to bring to prisoners, and these things are all things that Cheng Yanzhi carefully prepared and that her ex-husband used to like very much.

At that time, Cheng Yanzhi thought that the taste of being in prison was not pleasant, if there was anything good, just give it to him, save a little for yourself, and his life in it would be a little better, right? !

Under the double pressure of spirit and life, in the past five years, Cheng Yanzhi has felt that she is about to be unable to survive many times, but when she thinks of his eager face every time she visits her ex-husband, thinking of her baby son who is crying and saying that she wants her father, and thinking of her in-laws who are looking forward to her ex-husband's return as soon as possible, Cheng Yanzhi has encouraged herself again and again in her heart, gritted her teeth and worked hard to maintain this family.

She always comforted herself silently: Cheng Yanzhi, you have to hold on, hold on for a while! It would be nice to hold on a little longer! It's hard now, but you have to hold on! When the child's father is released from prison, our family will be reunited, and we will all get better!

Many years later, Cheng Yanzhi, who has been baptized by various experiences in life, has become more mature and rational, and once again recalls that when her ex-husband was in prison, she feels ridiculous every time she looks at her eager and eager gaze.

The reason why my ex-husband at that time seemed so eager every time he saw him was probably not that he was eager to see him, but that he was eager to see all kinds of good things that she sent him that could greatly improve his life in prison!

Just as a puppy will cry when it hears the bell ringing, it is not that the puppy likes the bell, but that it has long been accustomed to the food that will appear immediately after hearing the bell. This qiē is just a kind of conditioned reflex out of animal instinct!