Chapter 43: Unreasonable Feelings

Gao Min has a regular life, no matter how late he sleeps, he will get up on time the next day and go for a morning jog. He jogged along the path behind the hotel that led to the boardwalk, and before he knew it, he came to the glass observation deck where he and Shu Neem looked out over the river last night.

He paused, hesitated for a moment, and climbed the stairs.

What is she doing at the moment when the buildings on the other side of the river are shrouded in mist, and Shune's apartment is on the top floor of one of them? Making coffee in your dressing gown or just opening your eyes in the morning light?

A smile climbed into the corners of his eyebrows, Gao Min stood quietly for a while, and suddenly felt that he was inexplicable, what was there to laugh at, what was there to be happy about, he asked himself, and then he felt depressed and difficult to express, this kind of contradictory and insoluble psychology was the first time in the world.

Since talking to Shu Neem last night, something has been wrong with him...... On the way back from his morning run, Gao Min took his "abnormality" as a topic for general analysis and research.

He attributed the chaotic love to unwillingness, why unwilling? A conversation where the guests are happy is regarded as a heart-to-heart conversation, but the other party is regarded as a social interaction when the plan is staggered, it is true that Shu Neem is clever and talkative, and his words are funny, which is a good chat partner. He asked himself about sincerity, and the words he said to him were not something that anyone could say, and he should have been treated with the same specifications as Shu Neem, but she hid herself very deeply, and it didn't hurt to change the topic of small talk to another person on another occasion, and he was not an exhibitionist who was used to basking in * seeking attention, Shu Neem was the first friend who made him take the initiative to mention the past - yes, he treated her as a friend, but she kept a cautious guard even when she was drinking, and calmly explained his original intention of inviting guests.

He had no room to complain about this, could he blame Shu for not reciprocating the same sincerity? He couldn't, because at the beginning he did intend to use Shu Neem and Ai Bilin to beat the zeitgeist, and at that time would he care what a chess piece thought? Isn't it business spirit to make deals with a lot of money? So why bother with Shu Neem's attitude in business now?

What's more, Shu Neem is not without confession, she said that she doesn't like to hurt others, and she doesn't like to be hurt, although it specifically refers to feelings, in fact, it is not difficult to see that her way of life has always been like this, she can quickly mingle with people, and she can also talk and laugh with devotion, but it does not mean that she takes it to heart, hot on the outside and cold on the inside is a portrayal of her character.

After sorting it out, he was still depressed, and there was no reason for him.

Gao Min didn't know what he was expecting, he didn't know what he was missing, this kind of psychological rainy day was wrapped in strange feelings, he was at a loss and had no choice but to speed up his running, trying to resist the disordered thoughts through physical fatigue, he said to himself, sweating happily, showering happily, and then returning to normal.

The life of unemployment is not all without benefits, at least you can sleep until you wake up naturally every day, how many sub-healthy office workers want to sleep can't ask for it, no matter what situation you are in, it is very important to adjust your mentality. I forgot which book said that suffering can also blossom, the key is to think about it.

Shu Neem Hengchen in the 1.8 meter bed beautiful experience of life, when you spend the most difficult days, will give birth to a glance at the mountains and small spirit, feel that a qiē difficulty is not a problem, the ancestors have a saying, oh, by the way, the boat to the bridge is naturally straight - hey, lie down to a few high kicks to exercise and get up, Shu Neem's thinking instantly switched channels, pondering what to eat for breakfast.

Living up to Mr. Gao's beautiful imagination, Shu Neem did not wear a silk nightgown to drink coffee elegantly, she was dressed more exquisitely except for specific days, such as classical music nights, aromatherapy meditation nights, and poetry nights.

Gao Min's imagination split, but as a science student, his logical reasoning ability is still very good, his analysis of Shu Neem's personality is basically □□ from ten, the same dinner, the two ate different tastes, for Gao Min is "cut constantly, the reason is still messy, don't be a general taste in the heart". For Shu Neem, waking up in the morning, her memory is automatically updated, and all the inconsequential things are put into yesterday's water, as for the classical entanglement of "there is no way to eliminate this situation, only to frown but to heart" she can't quite understand.

Of course, about last night, Shu Neem didn't have all the amnesia, she vaguely remembered something when she used the microwave to heat the overnight buns, as if Boss Gao said that he wanted to find a nearby house to settle down, and felt that the community near her home was quite good, and hoped to visit another day to see the layout of her house for reference.

In view of the capitalist's fine scraping characteristics of "spit it out to me if I eat mine, and send me back if I take mine", Shu Neem does not expect Gao Min to have a meal for nothing, so he should return the favor to Gao Min's request as soon as he responds to it.

However, your nobleman is busy, and he may forget it in two days, so he doesn't have to worry too much...... Shu Neem immediately put this little matter behind him.

Biting into the sauce and mushroom stuffed buns, Shu Neem felt that the private number of the mobile phone had been too quiet recently, and pinched her fingers, Ms. Fang hadn't guided her work in the air for a while, so there would be nothing wrong, so she didn't worry about dialing the phone.

The phone was dialed immediately, and before Shu Nem could say half a word, Ms. Fang's unique bright voice took control of the scene.

"Did you do what I said on the day of the autumnal equinox?"

"What did you say?"

"Transshipment! What, you forgot? Ms. Fang was anxious, for fear that her daughter would take her words as a deaf ear again.

"Where do I dare to forget, I will follow Yiyi's decree on the day of the autumn equinox and close the door for a whole day, not to mention people, the flies have not seen a single one, if the transfer is not successful, Mom, you will go and smash the fortune-telling signboard, see if he is still swindling"

"You're not a big man, so it's taboo to speak! The fortune teller is splitting the eight characters for you to calculate, don't you take it seriously."

"Okay, okay! I remember, Mom, what have you been up to lately? Shu Neem paused, and thought of a possibility, "Shouldn't you be hot again with my father, Ms. Fang, you can't be hot-headed, he is a family man!" ”

Shu Yuming's mother liked Shu Yuming for half her life, and after the normalization of diplomatic relations a few days ago, the two talked on the phone from time to time, discussing her daughter's affairs.

"I'm going where do you want to go, I'll call Guò three times, and I'm still talking about things related to you, am I hot with him, he has a Kochi wife, even if your mother and I are no longer educated, I also understand where the bottom line of being a man is!"

Shu Melia withdrew the phone a little farther, and her mother's voice was like a lion's roar, which shook her eardrums, but she was still appeased, "Don't get excited, my mother can see the sun and the moon in the world, how can she do that thing to pry the corner!" ”

Ms. Fang puffed angrily, "It's not! Do I need to pry him an old cucumber, I have been generous enough to let him go when he is young and young! Some people just think too much, but if I am ruthless, I insisted that I would not divorce back then, what can he do with me, and will he have the opportunity to gild abroad? It is said that the draught does not forget to dig wells, my predecessors planted trees and her descendants enjoyed the shade, what did I say? Not to mention the relationship between me and your father, let's just say that there is always a comradeship of going to the mountains and going to the countryside to work together for more than ten years, and it is not an exaggeration to greet her, and it is worth making a fuss about her! ”

"She" is Shu Yuming's current wife, who was born in a scholarly family, and this alone can make Ms. Fang, who used to eat in the soil, lose her confidence.

Ms. Fang's confidence is still there, since she has let go, she has no regrets, whether Shu Yuming has a good life or a bad life has nothing to do with her, and she doesn't care about the wife he married later, most of the mentions this time have hidden feelings.

"Mom, is Aunt Xia giving you an unpleasant word?"

"Hmph, dignified academician's wife, her style is high, and if there are unpleasant words, she will also say it to Shu Yuming!"

"But I'm so angry when I hear you mean that."

"Did I take the initiative to find Shu Yuming after divorcing him? Did you cause him any trouble? He also contacted me for your business, I heard that you resigned and wanted to find you a job in Beijing, let me be a lobbyist to persuade you, can I promise him to give his wife a lukewarm face. You just graduated and interned in Beijing, and for three months, you were stunned and didn't let you live at home, saying that you had a nervous breakdown, and you weren't used to being disturbed by outsiders. Are you an outsider, you are Shu Yuming's daughter, okay, let's not give people a diaphragm, can you rent a house by yourself - look at me, where is this, Shu Yuming didn't give up, and called you again after two days to say that the transfer of work is to let our mother and daughter get closer to each other and take care of each other, I also understand his kindness, just wanted to say to him Don't bother, the other end of the phone quarreled"

Ms. Fang was so angry that she couldn't tell outsiders, she had nothing to hide from her daughter, so she naturally had something to say.

"My dad and Aunt Xia had a fight?"

"Yes, it doesn't matter if they quarrel, I'm not embarrassed or embarrassed here, the insinuation surnamed Xia said that I destroyed her family under the guise of my daughter, hey, I provoked a fishy name for no reason!"

"Is Aunt Xia going to menopause?"

"Who knows, suspicious, anyway, I never answered Shu Yuming's phone again. Then again, your dad has been in the countryside for so many years, I haven't seen him blush, he is known for his good temper, Xia Mengyi quarrels with him, his mouth can't keep up, only dry eyes, I listen to his panting movements are not quite right, I guess my heart is not good, after all, you are old, you have nothing to call him more and ask him about his physical condition"

"Mom, do you still care about him?"

"Nonsense! I don't have anything to do with him anymore, but he's still your dad! ”

"I know, but my dad is very busy, I have called him, every time the secretary transfers, sometimes accidentally call his house, and it will make Aunt Xia unhappy, I don't want to be a □□ that causes their family conflicts."

Ms. Fang was silent for a while and smiled, "This Xia Mengyi is also interesting, when I went to Tsinghua University to see your father, the people around him, including the tutor, persuaded me to understand the righteousness and let him study abroad, as if I didn't agree to delay a genius, among them, the most enthusiastic is Xia Mengyi, she is your father's younger sister, don't look at her righteous and stern reasoning, I know what she thinks in her heart, don't you just think that I am not worthy of your father as a rural person, and my lack of culture does not mean that I am dull."

Shu Ling had never heard Fang Ling talk about this, to be precise, she didn't understand the relationship between her parents, even Fang Ling couldn't help but laugh at herself when she talked about the past□□ she wanted to eat swan meat. Whenever Shu Neem asked deeply, she said softly: The gap is too big, and the group is scattered.

Could it be that there is something else hidden in the parents' breakup?

"Mom, Aunt Xia is three of you?"

"The interesting part is here, when she looked at me like a class enemy, hateful and contemptuous, I felt that she had thoughts about Shu Yuming, full of thought that I, the setter, had racked the ball out, Xia Mengyi, the setter, would catch it, hey she turned around and followed a man to Germany to study, this matter came to an end, and I didn't pay attention to them, after all, the emperor is far away, and I also have my own life, who knows that after a few years, Shu Yuming suddenly called and said that he was going to remarry, he was very nervous, and asked me for advice, Ridiculous, what do I have to say, and when does my opinion matter, all I can say is wish them happiness......"

Fang Ling's voice trembled imperceptibly, and was caught by Shu Neem's ears.

"Later, someone sued me, the person who married Shu Yuming is called Xia Mengyi, the two have the same family background and knowledge, the only fly in the ointment is that both of them are married for the second time, Xia Mengyi also brought a boy, but I think he can find a better one under Shu Yuming's conditions, since he accepted Xia Mengyi and her son, he should really love her, and what a fate they have come together after going around and around, so Xia Mengyi is suspicious and funny to me, who does my man like in my heart, I really thank her for looking up to me!"

"Eh, our lady Fang is not as good as others, the age is just 49 a week and a week, a good age, my dad and the two of them are running for 60, I can't keep Aunt Xia jealous of you, see my dad is jealous of you, let's ignore them, you dance and go shopping, go out to play if you have nothing to do, even if you want to start the second spring, I support it!"

"you!" , Fang Ling took a sip, "But you're right, I really don't have time to get involved in their, a few of us who often dance have set up a dance team, specializing in tango, we have totaled, and when we are ready, we will participate in the competition."

"Hey, mom, you old arms and legs, can you dance tango, don't flash your waist!"

"The dance troupe that danced the sunset on the Spring Festival Gala knows no, the average age of the members is 62 years old, everyone can dance, why can't we!"

Ms. Fang's greatest strength is that she is optimistic, she will not blindly immerse herself in tragic feelings, she strives to run her life well, and lives her life with enthusiasm. Shu Neem felt relieved for a while, Ms. Fang didn't need her to worry about it all the time, and she could do what she wanted to do.