105. Emotional wounds
She said, my name is Kuang Xihan, and I am the most honorable prince of Dawu Kingdom.
She said that her name is Kuang Xixi, and she is the emperor of the Great Wu Kingdom and my sister.
The bloody hole in my chest was wounded by the loss during the encirclement and suppression of the rebels. At that time, the situation was urgent, and my life was in danger, so I had to use a secret medicine with excellent blood clotting effect, Tianji Pill, but it hurt my consciousness, so I lost all my memories when I woke up.
This side effect cannot be explained even by the user, and it may last for a while, maybe a few days, a few months, or it may be a lifetime.
- This is what Kuang Xiyu told me when he changed the medicine for me.
I was not without doubts and doubts, but under her calm gaze, I did not have the urge to continue asking, as if once I asked, a bloody scar would be revealed, and she would be uncomfortable, and I myself would be no better.
Every word she said, every word she described, gave me a sense of unreal strangeness, but she taught me to believe involuntarily, as if there was a voice in the dark, a thought that guided me to get close to her.
It's weird, but I don't want to go into it.
After changing the medicine for me and telling me to rest in bed, under the repeated urging of the attendant outside the door, Kuang Xihui finally flicked his sleeves and impatiently followed him to deal with important matters.
Before leaving, she looked at me for a while, and it was not until I came back to my senses and smiled and waved goodbye to her that she bowed her head slightly, and a touch of joy crossed her eyes, and she left with her hands.
Seeing the change in her expression, I couldn't help but laugh, but when I was the only one left in the room, the previously suppressed worries quickly surfaced in my heart.
Judging from the furnishings here, it should be a hierarchical dynasty, but it is very different from the impression that drifts through my mind from time to time.
Most of the attendants at the door were young and beautiful men, and from their previous speech and demeanor, they were vaguely aware that this was a country where women were inferior to men, after all, the rulers and rulers were women. But somehow, I always can't ignore the awkwardness in my heart, as if in my impression, this is not a matter of common sense, it has nothing to do with my position, but I always feel that something is strange.
Silently thinking, I patted the soft bed and yawned boredly.
After staying in bed for a long time, my whole body was sore, but I really couldn't sleep, after thinking about it, I tentatively called outside, and sure enough, immediately a handsome young man hunched over and quickly approached the bed, and asked softly, "What does Your Highness command?" β
Touching my empty belly, I turned my head sideways and asked the young man with a restrained face, "Do you have anything to eat?" I am hungry. β
"Your Highness wait, the servant immediately ordered the food to be served." He gently helped me to my feet, set up a small table on the bed, and soon came in with a tray full of food.
I stared at the rich aroma of the food, and my stomach was "gurgling", especially in the quiet and empty room. I glanced at the young man who was close to me and was concentrating on the cloth, but I saw that his eyes were lowered and his expression was deferential, as if he did not dare to trespass at all, which made me breathe a sigh of relief and frown: It seems that the hierarchy of this big Wu is really strict to a certain extent, and my status as a prince is far more powerful than I imagined, otherwise this young man would not have revealed such a ...... Fear, yes, is a look of fear, as if he was always worried about what I was going to do to him.
Did I have a bad reputation before?
Or am I bad-tempered?
Touching his chin, he thought uncertainly, but then shook off a question in front of the prepared dish in front of him, and feasted.
Ignoring the look of surprise hidden in the waiter's eyes, after solving the third small bowl of shredded chicken and whitebait porridge, I put down my chopsticks unsatisfactorily - I have to say, this imperial chef's craftsmanship is unexpectedly good, if it weren't for the hard work, I would have liked to add another bowl.
It's just that I'm in a hurry, and I can't help but get some on the placket and shake the neckline, so I feel that I have been lying down for a long time, and my body is a little sticky, and I don't know how long I haven't cleaned it...... I felt uncomfortable for the first time, and every part of my body was thirsty for bathing.
Listening to my request, the attendant looked embarrassed, but then gritted his teeth and nodded under my repeated questions, and turned to order someone to prepare.
After he turned around, I wiped the corners of my mouth with a silk scarf, and couldn't help but sigh: In fact, Kuang Xihan's majestic status as a prince is also very useful.
When I was ready, I slowly walked to the tub that was lifted into the corner with the support of two attendants, a screen separated the smoky space, and the hot and humid steam spread out, making me even more eager to get close to the water.
"Please allow the servant to serve His Highness's wide clothes." The squire asked respectfully.
ββ¦β¦ Well. "Although I don't want to untie my clothes in front of others, but I do have a weak body, I don't have much strength, I want to come to my palace a prince, and I am also used to teaching people to serve, so it is naturally not easy to twist, so I nodded, opened my hands, and let him move.
The clothes were halfway faded, and they were hanging on their waists, but they heard the sound of hurried footsteps outside the doorβthe steps were hurried and heavy, not suppressed at all, showing the eager and angry mood of the master.
I felt a pang in my heart, and when I turned my head, I saw Kuang Xixi's cold face as cold as jade had bypassed the screen and appeared in front of me.
As soon as she came in, her eyes swept over me, and fell heavily on the attendant who was in wide clothes for me, and only one look pressed his knees to weaken, and he knelt on the ground with a pop, and kept kowtowing: "Your Majesty spare your life, your Majesty spare your life......"
"It's none of his business, it's my idea......" Without thinking about it, I just thought that it was my unauthorized bathing that annoyed her, and it was inevitable that the innocent would be implicated, so I took the first step to explain.
It's just that in front of her faint gaze, I'm really not sure that I can end this matter.
She looked at me faintly for a moment, and then flicked her sleeve when I lifted my breath: "Stand down." β
The attendant withdrew as if he had been pardoned.
And she finally turned around and faced me, her eyes looking at me from head to toe as if she were substance, without saying a word, as if smiling rather than smiling, and teaching people to guess her thoughts.
I had to look at her awkwardly, and I gestured to her, hoping that she would understand and take her away.
- I can be calm in front of the attendant, but I suddenly feel embarrassed in front of her, and I also feel a little weird.
Unexpectedly, her eyes sank, and she suddenly stepped forward and said casually, "Han'er is going to bathe?" The wound may not be watery. When I was about to pull back my shirt and think that I could only continue to be uncomfortable, I casually added, "I'll help you." β
"I'm tired." After thinking for a moment, I was relieved: she and I are both women and my sister, so naturally there is nothing unpleasant, and since she offered to help, it would be better.
Having made up my mind, I simply took off the dispensable robe outside, bent down and took off my trousers, and endured the lingering shyness, and took off the most intimate pants - there was nothing on my body except the gauze wrapped around my chest.
Kwong Xixi's eyes were very deep, as if there was nothing, but it seemed to hide a lot of things that I couldn't see through and couldn't understand.
With my back to her, I carefully stepped into the tub to keep the water from reaching above my chest.
The warm water was just right for me to sigh comfortably.
The next moment, there was a breath behind me, and the sound of water splashed down, but she carefully picked up the water and wet my back and shoulders, and gently wiped it with a water-soaked silk scarf.
Neither of us spoke, enjoying the silence of the moment.
Time passed imperceptibly, and this silence gradually added a little more charm, I could no longer suppress the strange feeling in my heart, and opened my mouth to break the silence.
"Twilight, sister......" I don't know why I don't want to call her sister in my heart, subconsciously by her name, but the next moment I changed my words, but it was too late to delve into the thoughts in my heart, but I opened my mouth in disguise in order to divert the inexplicable weakness of my heart at the moment, "What kind of person was I before?" Tell me about it. β
In fact, what I want to ask is: Why are those palace attendants so afraid of me, could it be that I was really a big villain who did all kinds of evil before?
The hand that gently wiped the back behind me, I only felt a warm breath close to the side of my neck, and the cool chalcedony voice said softly: "You used to ...... What a fool. β
"Huh?" I thought about many answers, but I didn't expect it to be such an answer - I didn't care about the warmth and itchiness on my neck at the moment, and quickly looked at her sideways for verification, "You mean, I used to be here...... Questions? β
Pointing to my head, I gasped and asked in disbelief.
"......" She didn't speak, she looked at me expressionlessly, with a look in her eyes that seemed helpless and depressed, and suddenly taught me to think that the situation was worse than I guessed.
After a long time, I saw her sighing, hooked her lips shallowly, and sneered that Ye Yu was involved in the obituary of the obituary Ξ and that she was swollen and pan ye, which source of Yi wandered, and said that it was paradoxical in front of the coffin. Huan Haze Hui is thin!
However, although she hooked the corners of her mouth and smiled, her eyes seemed to be staring at a touch of crystal brilliance, and when I twisted my brows and didn't see clearly, I suddenly opened my eyes, threw a silk scarf, and said softly: "The water is cold, get up." β
In the blink of an eye, he changed into that calm appearance again, as if he had never revealed half of his sadness.
But I know that there must be something I forgot, and she will never take the initiative to tell me.
Because the eyes don't deceive.
The way she looked at me, it hurt so much, it hurt so much, I felt as if I was throbbing in my soul - I felt it.