Chapter 21: The Lonely
September 6, half past five in the afternoon
"Excuse me, how long are we going to sit here in a daze? I still have to go back to the classroom to clean up my things" Hikiya Hachiman ——— an ordinary teenager who just hopes to be a househusband in the future, but at this time he is at an important turning point in his life, and the reason is the two in front of him
Okay, let's take a look at this person than Qigu Hachiman.,Looks handsome except for the eyes.,Liberal arts is the top ten in the grade (the original text is the top three in the whole grade.,But after thinking about the grades of other characters, I pulled down a little) Science countdown.,For people who have fallen into a desperate situation without friends since junior high school.,The only confession ended with eternal pain.,I wanted to follow what my sister said in high school, "Make a friend after changing yourself a little, my dear brother~" and learn a little about communicating with people, But it's definitely not because I'm happy with the latter title.,But because of a car accident on the road and hospitalized for four days (the original text is three weeks.,I forgot it when I wrote the previous chapter) So the result of missing the best time for communication is to be isolated by the class body.,Human communication is really strange.,And he was brought here because he turned his dissatisfaction into a gorgeous literary algae - Hiratsuka Jing, who was brought here later.,No way.,The other party's fist is not vegetarian.
Then let's take a look at the two in front of him, one is Xue Nai under the snow, one of the outstanding talents of Class 4, and was enshrined as one of the class flowers in just three days, and sure enough, women who grow well are more than men to eat, how can this unfair world not be destroyed, the results are omnipotent, the appearance is beautiful, the family is relatively wealthy, and she is a woman who is like a celebrity even here, and the other is even more terrifying than her, Yuyun Chong, who is considered her classmate, won the crown of eight schools in one fell swoop during the entrance test, In one day, the fame spread throughout the campus, and although the face could not be seen clearly because of the strange hairstyle, the above two points alone were enough to become a celebrity, and at this time, the two beings who could not climb in front of him were engaged in some kind of "comparison and communication" with their eyes that only the superior was qualified to carry out
And they've been staring at each other for hours! Are you human or not?
"Ah, are you still there? I thought you couldn't stand the atmosphere and ran away, "You really know me, and I want to run too, but obviously the figure outside the door is waiting to kill the deserter!"
"Eyes are looking this way to me! It was evident from one of my 108 stunts that the meaning in his eyes was, "Is there anyone else?" "Isn't there such a thing as a sense of existence anymore?! Akalin-san, it's not me, okay! Neither is Akali!
"Okay, then I'll give you an answer about what this ministry should do now, people over there, listen well, don't give some strange answers" Thank you really for mentioning me
"Those who have it give it compassionately to those who are in need. People call them volunteers. Just as developed countries give out development aid, people provide food to the homeless, and girls speak up to undesirable boys. Helping people in need. This is the activity of this club" under the snow stood up from the chair at some point, and her gaze naturally changed to looking down on Hikiya from top to bottom, of course, in terms of height, she obviously couldn't look down on Chong sitting at the table
Biqigu and Chong silently looked at the snow in front of them holding their arms like nobles, and then both of them probably fell into an indescribable strange feeling, like a civilian listening to a speech by a terrorist organization, Chong wanted to find a doctor and Biqigu wanted to call the police
(With the other party's character and strength, maybe it's true) Biqigu, who has never seen the world, thinks so
Chong jumped off the table and walked to the door, then opened the door after turning the doorknob a few times, and entered Shizuka Hiratsuka, who was leaning against the door drinking coffee, and Shizuka, the "ghost" who was standing in front of the door and smiling at him, so under the terrifying courage of the other party, Takashi silently closed the door and locked it
(Genius lives a very sad life) Bi Qigu was a little sad and at the same time a little gloating
"So do you have an opinion? I won't listen to any opinions," said Xue Xia as he sat down again
"Are you the Emperor of the Earth somewhere?!" Biqigu couldn't help but say
"What? Can a guy with rotten eyes speak too? ”
"Apologize! Apologize to the guy with rotten eyes all over the world! ”
"Shouldn't I thank me for giving people like you a place to live?"
"I really don't want this kind of shelter if I could!"
"Well, forget it, Mr. Jieyun over there, what is your opinion?"
"Why do you use honorific titles for him? The difference is too big! ”
"Whatever, besides, don't call me Mr. Yukumo," Chong replied as he blocked out the frivolous remarks, anyway, it was just a matter that could be solved in one day today, and he didn't care anymore
"Is it solved? I'm in," Hiratsuka said as she said outside the door
"Wait, I'll open the door for you......" Biqigu, who was about to get up, immediately heard the sound of the key opening the door, and said that the privacy was good?!
"It looks pretty good, so I'll send the report on the establishment of the club right away."
"Wait! I haven't said anything about joining yet! Bikiya hurriedly got up and shouted, he felt that if he had to spend the next three years with the two of them, his life would definitely be a mess
"No promise?" Hiratsuka clenched her fists and smiled
"No Comments"
"So what about Chongyou, do you have any opinions?"
"It doesn't matter"
"That's right," Hiratsuka nodded in satisfaction
"Well, I can agree to join this club, but I think there may be some problems with our minister's theory" Hikiya couldn't help but raise his hand to signal that he had something to say
"What's the problem? Let me hear what Mr. Hikiya, whose eyes are rotten, has to say, "My eyes under the snow are getting colder, and I am so terrible that I won't die."
"Although the club activities you mentioned sound very elegant and great, I am afraid that we can't do such a thing as reaching out to people in need," Bi Qigu said in a tone as tactful as possible after thinking about it
Chong, who was in the meditation stage, also looked away with interest after hearing this sentence, he also scoffed at the extraordinary community norms under the snow, unlike the previous one, the theory under the snow contains more of a joke, a game used to prove himself, so he hates this psychology even more, proving that this kind of thing is not achieved by helping others, but by hurting others to prove it, because compared to the hypocritical respect of others, The real fear of others is a more effective means
"Really? So what's your theory? ”
"To put it bluntly, in fact, everyone in this community is an excluded existence, right? Then a group of lonely people get together just because they want to keep warm, once one person gets warm, then he will choose to leave, and then the others will continue like this until everyone walks away and only one person freezes to death because he can't keep warm, so lonely people like us get together and plan to share their insignificant fire and warmth with the tribal life who is still very warm, isn't it tantamount to a fool's dream?" Biqigu said, his tone burning, He knows very well that the essence of this community is just an offline gathering of lonely people, and no one here has such a thing as friends, although it is only about four days, but in fact, isolated people, people who should not join any small world have long been decided at the beginning, people who are too perfect, people who are too independent, this world is so unfair, whether it is a person at the bottom or a person in a high position, for those who are too ordinary intermediate creatures, they should not communicate, than Qigu Hachiman, He knew it a long time ago
That means you mean that all people are born lonely, right? And I just want to rely on ideas that don't work to get something like Moments? He stood up under the snow, his eyes cold
"In general, it should be" Bi Qi Gu swallowed, he can't retreat now, or he will be chased and killed!
"So what do you think? Tell me about it" under the snow sneered, woo, it's dangerous
"I'm sorry, but I can't tell anyone the secret of the Biqi Gu family," because once you say it, there's no turning back
"Well-said" Oh! That's great! The really dangerous people have their back! I feel so much better!
"I don't think so, if you think so, I won't give in obediently" The momentum under the snow is undiminished, and he is really born with an imperial appearance
"So what do you really think, do you want to live your life without making any changes?" Than the enterprise valley does not give in to the inch of land, step by step
"Why do you know?!" There was a brief look of surprise under the snow, and sure enough, she was exactly what the book said
"Then you can't even solve your troubles, so nothing can save you" It's broken.,I went too far and moved the sentences from the book directly.,There's no connection.,It's a big failure than Kiya Hachiman's essay this time.
"What do you say?!!" It's broken, it's a terrifying look, it's over
"Stop, stop, well, since ancient times it has been common to fight for your own righteousness, so do it, from now on you show the way to the lost lambs, save them by your means, and prove yourselves right to each other. Who can better serve others, GUNDAM. Fight.Ready.Go!! Hiratsuka, who had been off the line for a long time, suddenly became excited and raised her hand and laughed
"The G series has been behind for a long time" Oh, this slot is beautiful
"Don't care about this kind of detail, in short, in order to implement your respective justice, there is only a fight against the water, since it has been said that if you want to compete, you must compete, you have no right to refuse" is really an excessive statement
"Do I want it too?" Chong felt that something was wrong, as if he had been shot while he was sitting
"Of course, you can join any side, but I want you to find your third way" I always feel like I've heard this kind of thing in a juvenile documentary (a good old manga, I've seen it in a bookstore before, but I can't remember what the name is)
"The rest of my life is definitely over
"Well, don't be disappointed, in order to make you fight to the death as hard as you can, let's prepare some benefits for you. The winning side can order the losing side to do anything, how? ”
"Anything?" Hikiya looked back at the snow, and then at Chong
"You are changing. State? You're not going to let either of you go? He covered his chest under the snow and stepped back, don't talk nonsense! The other party's eyes already have killing intent!
"I felt that this man would threaten my chastity, so I refused"
"This is prejudice, and boys in the second year of high school are not just thinking about obscene things all day long"
There are all sorts of other things on the table, such as world peace...... Well, it doesn't seem like there's anything else after that
"Is there anything that Yukino is afraid of even under the snow? It seems that you don't have the confidence to win," Hiratsuka-sensei's deliberately bullying words made Yukishimo's expression a little angry
"Okay. Although your low-level provocation is a little uncomfortable, I still accept it, and by the way, I will deal with this man's affairs."
Wow, it's so strong under the snow, what do you mean by disposing of it? Don't, it's scary
"Then that's it," Hiratsuka-sensei sneered, avoiding the gaze under the snow
"Eh, what about my opinion?" Although the other person who has not spoken seems to be going to speak, he has democratic rights
"Just look at your happy face"
Is that the case, my expression, do you really look happy?
"It's up to me to judge the winner. The benchmark is, of course, my arbitrariness and bias. Don't worry too much, just give me the right and proper effort" After leaving a message like this, Hiratsuka Jing left the classroom decisively, and there were only three people left in the club?
In this silent space, there was a sound like a broken radio, which was a precursor before the bell rang, and then a very obvious synthesized melody sounded, and the book was closed under the snow, which seemed to be the bell announcing the official end of school, and the other ghostly member of the department had already left with Mr. Shizuna, and it seemed that he was a legal representative who had come to observe
Then I'm going to go, and today seems to be the time for the novel update that I've been chasing
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"How about this club audit?" Hiratsuka looked at Takashi and asked, "You haven't said anything in there, but you still have a sense of existence."
"It's boring, but there's some fun in arguing," Chong replied, looking straight ahead
"Really? Okay, then I'll go first, and remember that there must be two club activities a week, you know? Hiratsuka reminded, and then jumped out of his sight as if he was happy
"You are born a loner, and you can't change anything," Chong looked at the sky that was already ushering in dusk, and he agreed with this sentence, because this was the summary of his first fifteen years of life, and it could also be the summary of his future life
"But different" themselves are different from them, they are at the bottom here, they are ordinary ordinary people who can no longer be ordinary, there will be people to protect them, there will be people to sympathize with them, they can be satisfied when they succeed, there will be people to understand when they fail, they will have the rules to believe in, the rules to follow, no matter what, they will have people around them who understand, there are people who can hug each other for warmth, and those who have none of themselves
Monsters are always lonely, they are born in high positions, stronger than everyone else, they can only rely on themselves when they encounter danger, no one sympathizes with them, success is necessary for them, that is proof of their life, when they fail, they get only torture and blame, they don't believe in everything, there are no rules to restrain them, even if they want to be with others, they will be pierced and bruised by their own thorns
They are lonely until they die
postscript
"Oh, the next is the application form for several other clubs, I have signed up for you, what SOS group, current research department, music department, drama department or something have been reported, remember to participate in more club activities in the future"
"You'd better kill me"