50 Thinking too much
"When did you fall in love with me?"
This question has been haunting Yu Zilian's mind for a while, and it stands to reason that the more Yu Zhile likes him, the happier he should be, but at the same time, there is an incredible uneasiness hidden in his happiness.
It went so well.
Yu Zi's rough childhood and tormented teenager made him always feel that the things he longed for could not be easily obtained and lasted for a long time, and if Yu Zhile did not respond to him so quickly, it might make him feel normal. Now such a smooth progress and intimacy with each other made him both happy and uneasy, and even worried that Yu Zhile didn't like him as much as he appeared, and he might just be unbearable if he didn't refuse.
He has been burying this question in his heart, and he is afraid that he will not be able to bear the answer asked, anyway, as long as Yu Zhile is by his side, it will be enough.
However, in the dead of night at this time, I don't know if it was the ghosts who were obsessed with his mind, or the heartbeat and breathing that accompanied each other gave him courage, Yu Zilian finally decided not to torture himself anymore and wanted to hear Yu Zhile's answer.
Yu Zhile was suddenly asked by him, and he couldn't think of how to answer for a while, so he thought about it seriously for a while, from the time she knew Yu Zihuan to reminisce, until she got along these days, thinking about it, she unconsciously showed a sweet smile.
But in the dark, Yu Zihuan didn't see her expression clearly, and he didn't wait for her answer for a long time, and when he spoke again, his voice was a little imperceptible trembling and difficult, "Do you prefer me now?" Or was it me ten years ago? ”
To Yu Zhile's ears, it seemed that Yu Zihuan was jealous of herself when she was a teenager ten years ago, she couldn't help laughing, and said: "I like it all, whether it is you ten years ago or you now, you are my favorite Xiaolian." ”
Yu Zihuan tensed his nerves suddenly, no matter how he sounded like he was ten years ago, there was no difference between him and now in Yu Zhile's eyes, and this was what he was afraid of.
"You...... Did you like me 10 years ago? If the answer to this question is yes, Yu Zilian's heart can feel better, at least it shows that Yu Zhile accepted him not entirely because of sympathy.
"It depends on what kind of liking you are talking about, if it is the kind of love between men and women, and I am not a fetish/child/fetish, how can I like you ten years ago?" Yu Zhile felt that Yu Zilian, who was holding her, became more and more stiff, and stopped a little strangely, thinking that he wanted to say something, but he didn't hear him, so he continued, "Although I said that I like you now and you ten years ago, these are two different likes. ”
When Yu Zihuan heard this, he understood that he had thought about it, Yu Zhile still made a clear distinction between him as a teenager and him now, and his hanging heart finally began to slowly fall.
"For you ten years ago, I liked you like it like a younger brother, you should have known this for a long time, and for you now, I am ......" Yu Zhile was a little shy, didn't want to continue, and wanted Yu Zilian to understand.
But Yu Zihuan was unwilling to let go of the opportunity to listen to her confession, lowered his voice and coaxed her, and guided: "What are you to me now?" ”
Yu Zhile lowered his head and wanted to shrink into the quilt, but he was cut off halfway by Yu Zilian and fished up.
"Oh, it's not like you don't know, why do you have to let me say it." Yu Zhile was clamped by Yu Zilian's waist, and he could only look at him face to face.
"I want to hear you, and I'll sleep when I'm done."
His long eyelashes almost swept into her face, but his glittering eyes in the dark completely attracted her attention, and even made her forget the itching on her face and just stare at him.
Yu Zhile couldn't help his pleading tone and eyes, so he took a light breath, and still said the answer she had just thought of: "I like you as an adult man now." In fact, when I first came back, I saw that you suddenly grew from a thin child to an adult, and I really didn't feel comfortable, and I always wanted to treat you as a younger brother, but then I ......"
Later, Yu Zilian coaxed and tricked her into letting her live under the same roof with him again, and I can't say when it started, Yu Zhile found that she couldn't treat him as the lonely little boy back then.
She was really tempted, and unlike the feelings of sympathy, pity and pity for Yu Zilian when she was a teenager, he became a lover who could make her rely on and coquettish without any scruples, and could make her blush and heartbeat, and look forward to becoming better with him.
"Later, you came to tease me when you were fine, and you are so good-looking, how can I hold it?" Yu Zhile changed his words, and confidently accused Yu Zihuan of bringing her to bad behavior, and then suddenly had some doubts about Yu Zihuan's intentions, "Wait, you don't want to regret it now, right?" Ask this kind of question in the middle of the night. I said before to try to see if we get along as boyfriend and girlfriend, and I was worried about whether our relationship would deteriorate because of this, but now that I try it, I think it's good, so don't think about going back. The goods are out of the cabinet and will not be returned. ”
Yu Zihuan smiled very happily, and his eyes were as bright as the only star in the night. He smiled with a mouthful of white teeth, a rare look of silliness, but still a beautiful little fool.
"I don't regret it, and I won't regret it for the rest of my life."
Yu Zhile nodded to indicate that she knew, and the sleepiness that had been driven away before returned, she yawned, slowly closed her eyes, and said, "If you are at ease, go to sleep." ”
Yu Zihuan also nodded, approached her, found a comfortable position and closed his eyes.
Sometimes Yu Zhile really felt that he was still the extremely insecure teenager back then, but she didn't dare to say this, and finally coaxed Yu Zili to close his eyes and sleep, she didn't want to deliberately stimulate his nerves and let him fight again.
Yu Zhile's stunt is that she can fall asleep in thirty seconds after her brain is emptied, and there is a white light in front of her eyes, and she is about to meet Zhou Gong, when there is a sudden warm itch in her ears, and at the same time, Yu Zihuan's gentle voice like velvet came, "Lele, I love you." ”
Half-asleep and half-awake, the corners of Yu Zhile's mouth naturally rose, and he replied vaguely: "Me too." ”
After this night, the relationship between the two was further confirmed and sublimated, Yu Zhile felt that the matter of obtaining the certificate could probably be put on the agenda, she thought that Yu Zilian should think the same way, but she couldn't wait for him to put it forward, so she could only express this meaning to him euphemistically with a cheeky face.
"This year's New Year, will you go back to your hometown with me?" When watching TV at night, Yu Zhile tried to say naturally to Yu Zilian, who was watching TV with her while handling official business.
"Of course, I have long wanted to accompany you back to your hometown, visit your parents, and get to know your relatives." Yu Zihuan didn't stop his fingers flying on the keyboard, and responded without hesitation at all, and Yu Zhile wondered if he had the concentration to think about what she said.
"You know what that means, right?"
Yu Zihuan heard the apprehension and questions in her words, stopped working a little funny, and asked rhetorically, "What do you mean?" ”
"That's ......" Yu Zhile thought that he really didn't understand, and anxiously wanted to say that this was her, a handsome man, who was going to take his ugly daughter-in-law back to meet her in-laws.
"I know what that means." Seeing this, Yu Zihuan quickly put away the blankness he pretended, and looked at Yu Zhile with a light smile.
"Tease me again...... Are you okay with that? Yu Zhile saw that he looked like an old god, and couldn't help asking.
"Why have opinions?"
"If you go back with me, then we'll settle down, won't we...... That knot ......"
Yu Zihuan suddenly reached out and pinched Yu Zhile's mouth, and said seriously: "Don't say it, this kind of thing should be said by me." ”
Yu Zhile was actually looking forward to proposing, but Yu Zihuan had never shown any intention of proposing, she thought that he probably didn't care much about this kind of formalized thing, so he didn't plan to force it, anyway, they had already come to fruition, so they almost said it to settle the matter, so although the girl said that it was a little not reserved, she didn't mind it being proposed by her.
But now it seems that Yu Zhile is probably in a hurry, and Yu Zihuan still has plans to propose, she can't help but be a little embarrassed, "I'm not urging you to ......"
"I know, I've wanted to ...... for a long time. But there's one thing I want to fix first, can you wait for me a little longer? It won't be too long, and there will be results before the Chinese New Year. ”
Yu Zhile pursed his lips shyly and happily smiled and nodded, not wanting to act too anxious, but after a pause for a few seconds, he still couldn't help but ask, "Can you tell me what's the matter?" ”
"It's not a bad thing, you'll know when the time comes." Yu Zihuan pulled her into his arms and sat down, looking a little depressed and a little relaxed.
It's not a bad thing for them, but it's not for Yu Yanglin's people. But only after doing this can Yu Zihuan start a new life without distractions, he doesn't want other things to interfere with his and Yu Zhile's wedding, and he doesn't want to bring the past unhappiness to his and Yu Zhile's marriage.
Yu Zhile has Yu Zilian's promise and doesn't plan to get to the bottom of it, anyway, the New Year is coming in less than four months, and she can afford to wait.
"But when it comes to going back to my hometown for the Chinese New Year, will your parents dislike me? Should I get ready first? Yu Zilian was still a little apprehensive about this, worried that he would not be able to satisfy his mother-in-law and father-in-law.
"Prepare what?" Yu Zhile, who thought that this topic had been turned over, sat on Yu Zilian's lap and watched TV again, looking very comfortable and leisurely, and did not regard taking Yu Zihuan back to his hometown as a difficult thing at all, and felt that it was a little strange for him to ask this.
"For example, what is your parents' ideal son-in-law, what do I need to pay attention to, what gifts should I bring to them, can you mention that we are already living together...... There's a lot to prepare, so don't watch TV yet. Yu Zihuan turned Yu Zhile's little face towards the TV to face him, looking very serious and nervous.
Yu Zhile was distracted from the plot of the TV series, and when he looked back and saw him in a state like a great enemy, he couldn't help laughing, and said with a smile in a coaxing tone: "My Xiaolian is the best person in the world, how can my parents be dissatisfied?" ”
"I'm serious." Yu Zilian squeezed her waist hard.
"I'm serious, too." She wrapped her arms around Yu Zilian's neck, and her smiling eyebrows were soft and solemn, "As long as it is what I like, my parents will like it, so don't worry, they will definitely like you." No, they're going to love you to death. 166 Reading Network