"Quan Zhilong! What are you?! Why do you always point me out?! Please touch your conscience while educating me, is your starting point really for my good? ”

"Brother, I'm so disappointed in you!"

"Don't I have the right to choose my life? Do you keep saying it's for my good? But have you ever asked my opinion? Would I like to? ”

"Yes, you helped me and I am so grateful! But can you worry a little bit about my feelings, eh? Really, living under your so-called shelter is so tiring, breathless, and about to suffocate!! ”

"Forget it, so be it! Let me be quiet, please, brother, don't say any more, let me be quiet for a while"

"Brother, will I disappear to calm your anger?"

"Okay, then I'll go, I'll just go, and I won't let you cāo heart for me anymore."

Looking at the desperate back, the man who was struggling between the bed quilts gasped and sat up instantly: "Shengli!" ”

The breeze blew the curtains, slowly brushing the beads of sweat on his forehead, and he couldn't help but shiver.

Victory

The same dream for several days in a row tormented him from time to time and exacerbated his chagrin!

He should keep him, when his brother pulled down his face to apologize, hug him, maybe

"According to the accident vehicle detection, we ruled out brake failure and other conditions, and determined that the owner of the car crashed into the barrier with autonomous behavior. That is, the possibility of suicide is not ruled out"

"Fuck you!"

"Brother Long! Brother Long, calm down."

"You sue me, why do people who commit suicide call the emergency number?! Sober up and talk to me with your brain, you know? ”

"This is also impartial"

"Recheck! Check it out now! Something must have gone wrong, I can't accept this result!! ”

How could Shengli commit suicide?!

That kid's skin is thicker than the city wall, and he can't even wear it! I just scolded him a few words, how could he commit suicide?!

He couldn't accept this result! Absolutely not!

Quan Zhilong supported the sink with both hands, raised his eyes to look at himself in the mirror, and those resentful eyes appeared in his mind, painful and resentful, he slowly bit his lower lip, and his delicate face was covered with a layer of deplorable and cold breath, but after supporting for a while, as if deflated, he slowly lowered his eyes, hiding the resentment, leaving only a sad, painful frustration

In the afternoon of the same day, Cui Shengxian called: "Zhilong, let's go to the hospital to see Shengli." ”

"I have something on my hands"

"He doesn't seem to be doing well."

After half a month, Kwon drove to this private hospital in the outskirts of Seoul again. As soon as I entered the elevator, I remembered the situation that night.

After the argument, Shengli slammed the door and left, and within two hours the news of his accident came. He thought he was scaring him, but he didn't expect that the person who had a red face and a thick neck who had quarreled with him just now was unconscious in a blink of an eye. He stood on the periphery of the crowd in a daze, watching the limp Shengli being carried on a stretcher, and that glance became his nightmare. Just like now, he instinctively feared to face him, and couldn't believe that his lively and convulsive brother was struggling between life and death.

These days, he avoids seeing him with every excuse he can think of, afraid of the sudden ringing of the phone, and is constantly entangled in remorse and self-blame. He prayed every day, silently awaiting the news of Victor's awakening, and even assumed that he was in the recovery phase. However, it backfired, and the news he waited for was not optimistic: cardiac arrest, blood transfusion rescue, and temporary stability continued to expand his fear and anxiety, as if he was in a meat grinder that could be turned on at any time, tugging in horror, waiting tormentedly, and being tortured again and again.

Eventually, in the midst of unbearable angina and condemnation, he decided to come and see him.

When the elevator reaches the twelfth floor, the VIP ward area is exceptionally quiet. Far away, I saw a girl standing in the corridor wiping away tears, it was Sheng Li's sister, Hannah Lee.

What happened?

His pace slowed down, but he continued to move forward again and again, his heart lifting, and his tone became strange, "Hannah? ”

"Brother Zhilong." Hannah covered half of her face and sobbed lowly.

"How's Shengli?"

Hannah Li shook her head, tried her best to suppress the urge to cry, and only squeezed out a few words for a long time: "Cerebellar necrosis doctor identification, no vegetative person is excluded"

At this moment, Quan Zhilong felt that he had been sentenced to death!

The three words that pierced into his heart like a sharp blade made him dare not breathe in pain, and he trembled uncontrollably, as if he had been thrown into a cold abyss. Heart-wrenching despair!

After calming down for a long time, he gently pushed open the door of the ward, looked at the haggard and helpless father and mother Li sitting inside, and forgot to say hello, so he looked at the person on the hospital bed in a daze, and his vision was dim again.

I haven't seen him for more than ten days, is he victorious?

It's a little strange and I don't dare to confirm it.

The features were not familiar to him: dark circles were deeply sunken, a pale and bloodless face, thin as a piece of paper, sleeping quietly.

He carefully squatted in front of the bed, for fear of disturbing him, and called softly: "Shengli? ”

Mother Li behind her suddenly let out a sob, and was silently helped out by Father Li. Leave the space for them.

"Shengli, brother is here, can you hear me?"

The extremely gentle voice did not come back in exchange for any response. Tears slammed into his eyes, Quan Zhilong sucked his sour nose, and tried to say in a relaxed tone: "Stinky boy, this time you won, I admit defeat and I apologize to you, I'm sorry, I ignored your feelings, and said those things that made you sad I admit that I am an incompetent brother, let you suppress your anger and endure me, I'm sorry." ”

The calm face did not move.

Quan Zhilong stared at him tightly, "Ah, are you snickering?" Stinky boy, you can't do this to me. ”

"After all these years, you should know my temper best. I was angry, and I was talking irrationally, and I thought you were talking angry. His voice gradually weakened, he stroked the warm hand, clasped it in the palm of his hand, and asked, "Shengli, isn't it boring to lie down like this?" Wake up, wake up, brother will play with you, please eat something delicious. Those arrears, brother will help you get back twice this time, brother doesn't protect others, only protects you, you are my brother, what does our brother can't say, huh? Why do you think you're so childish?"

Before I knew it, tears were wet on my cheeks.

Quan Zhilong stared at him for a moment, his heart throbbed, and he choked up: "Shengli, the doctor said that you only have a five percent recovery rate." However, brother has faith in you! Isn't it hard to get 10% of the chance to enter YG? You've also caught the possibility of, so five percent shouldn't be a difficult thing, right? Gotta wake up, you know? Brother is waiting for you, if you are tired, you will sleep, but you can't sleep for too long, brother promises, when you wake up, let you scold and vent, and never turn your face to settle old accounts. So, I'm going to give you a chance, and you're going to give me a chance, you know? ”

All he answered was the dripping sound of medical equipment, mechanical, and disturbing.

"Stinky boy, I'm going to say the pain in my heart! What are you doing so quietly? Punish me? Quan Zhilong squeezed his hand tightly, and the soft touch was so vivid that he burst into tears, and begged weakly: "Even if it's a punishment, let's change it in a way that I can accept, huh?" This sin is too heavy, you, how do you let me bear it? How can you feel at ease that I am your brother and treat you as a brother of your own brother, how can you bear to punish me like this"

He fell on top of him, his body trembled slightly, and he sobbed weakly: "Give me a chance, please, Shengli, don't let me wait, you know I don't have much patience"

On that day, Quan Zhilong came to the place where Shengli happened, hid in the car and cried bitterly.

He kept imagining the situation, imagining the anger and despair of Shengli's car crashing into the barrier, and the huge condemnation he endured physically and mentally, almost suffocating him from tears.

However, what happened did happen.

A dispute, in exchange for such a result, the cost is too great, too big to bear.

The nightmare continues.

In his dreams, he apologized and kept countless times. But after waking up, it will always be empty melancholy and endless regret.

And Shengli, who often yelled about being tired and annoyed, left his brothers who missed him, and fell into a deep sleep quietly. Is it suicide? Was it an accident? became a mystery.

BIGBANG had no choice but to become a four-member group. For a day, two days, three days, everyone never gave up on the miracle.

They believe that Victory is a miracle in itself!

It's just that BIGBANG without Victori makes it difficult for everyone to adapt. Fans prayed day and night, and the members also found in their nostalgia that the noisy and jubilant busyness on weekdays occupied a large place in their hearts. It was as if the ship had lost its direction, and his sudden absence made them uneasy and faltering.

There was less and less laughter in the lounge.

In the midst of busyness, everyone will unconsciously call out Shengli's name, and then look at each other awkwardly.

Before going on stage, there were only four pairs of hands left, and the power of one voice was missing, as if they had sucked away their strong foundation. Finally, come to the stage with regrets

Sometimes, everyone will invariably think of all kinds of victories, and they were so angry at that time, but now they only sigh helplessly when they think about it.

"Brother, isn't that cool lawlessness!"

"Haha, the pride of Gwangju is me! Defy? You hit me! ”

"Brother Long! Yikes! Power to Dragon! GDragon！ Haha, I'm your busy~! ”

In the beginning, without those five reasons, BIGBANG would not have won the award.

However, when the old man who was above the captain lay there quietly, no longer saying stupid things to make them angry, they belatedly realized that the five reasons why they couldn't live without him were like a curse -- BIGBANG is indispensable, and Shengli's survival is very important!

It's just that it's too late to wake up. sighed again, prayed day and night, Sheng Li was still "snoozing", still heavily branded in Quan Zhilong's heart, and became a nightmare that he couldn't let go