Chapter 108: She Didn't Abandon You
Maybe a person lives too happily and even God is jealous. For the sake of fairness, it will bring you happiness as well as unexpected misfortunes.
Liang Xia clutched a seven-inch color photo in his hand tightly, and trembled uncontrollably. What is this, the happy family of four in the photo, what is going on?
Who exactly is the woman in the photo? How can someone who is already dead suddenly come back to life? Are they the same person, or twin sisters?
Today is the day when my grandfather visits his grandmother in the nursing home, and it is normal for him to stay there for a day.
Liang Xia was idle at home on a whim and packed up the old goods at home. While tidying up her grandparents' room, she accidentally pulled out a photo of her grandmother's baby-like old-fashioned jewelry box.
The photo shows a family of four, the man is wearing rimless glasses, Sven is handsome, about thirty years old, the woman is beautiful and gentle, the same age, holding a cute boy about four years old in her arms, and a beautiful girl about ten years old stands beside her.
And the woman with a happy face holding the boy and smiling, every midnight dream, filled her mind like a nightmare, the face that made her remember for a lifetime, she would never forget until she died.
Liang Yulin, the woman who is called her mother, is exactly the same as the woman in the photo.
Who can explain to her what is going on?
Is she mistaken, or has she been living in a huge lie.
Liang Xia sat quietly on the cold floor, the weather in November was already cold, but she couldn't feel it, and her whole body seemed to be numb.
She waited from the sun until it went down, until the door rang and her grandfather approached with the sound of his staggering steps on crutches.
Grandpa Liang pushed open the door, and the room was already dark, without a trace of light. He turned on the light casually, and when he saw Liang Xia sitting on the ground with his head down, he was startled, and asked urgently, "Xia Xia, why are you ......?"
When he saw the old photo in Liang Xia's hand, his voice stopped abruptly, his pupils shrank tightly, and his hands trembled uncontrollably.
Liang Xia looked up at the door, his dull eyes full of doubts. When she saw her grandfather standing stiffly at the door, the last trace of hope in her heart was completely extinguished.
She pursed her dry lips, her voice was slightly hoarse, and asked, "Can you tell me, is the woman in this picture her?" ”
Grandpa Liang walked up to her crookedly on crutches, and sat down on the * next to him with a weak foot.
He stretched out his trembling hands, took the photo in Liang Xia's hand tremblingly, looked at her with a sad face, and stopped talking.
Liang Xia knew his concern, looked at him with wide eyes, and smiled miserably, "It's okay, you say, I can bear it, I just want to know the truth, can you tell me the truth?" I don't want to live for more than ten years and still be like a fool and be kept in the dark by you! ”
Hearing this, Grandpa Liang's wrinkled and tight eyes were overflowing with deep sadness, he expected that one day Liang Xia would know about it, but he didn't expect that day to come so quickly, and he didn't have time to remedy it, so that the pain in her heart was reduced.
Grandpa Liang closed his eyes, tightened his hand holding the photo, sighed for a while, looked at Liang Xia with a sad face, and said slowly, "Okay, I'll tell you." Your mom she's ...... It's not dead, and what you see is true......"
Boom, Liang Xia only felt that his brain was blank, he couldn't hear anything, he couldn't see anything, and his grandfather's words kept lingering in his ears, what you saw was true...... It's all true, it's all true?
So what is yourself? She has children, daughters, and husbands, what is she that counts as her? Abandoned daughter? Or is it a dispensable concoction in a failed marriage?
"Xia Xia...... Xia Xia, what's wrong with you, don't scare Grandpa......" Grandpa Liang's hoarse and anxious voice pulled Liang Xia's consciousness back.
Liang Xia was unconscious, turned his head and looked at him in a daze, his voice was hoarse, like a broken gong and drum, which was particularly ugly, "Why, why did she do that?" Why did you abandon me? ”
"No, it's not what you think, your mother she, she also has a hard ......time," Grandpa Liang hurriedly explained, the big stone pressing on his heart became heavier and heavier, and he could barely breathe.
He calmed his breathing, hid the suffocating pain in his heart, and explained, "This matter starts when you were six years old, you know that at that time, after your mother and your father divorced, they were stimulated and suffered from Yan zhòng's depression, and later Yan zhòng went insane......
In order to prevent her from hurting you and the neighbors, your grandmother and I had to send her to a mental hospital, you know that in the mental hospital, people who are not sick can go insane when they go in, not to mention that your mother is just sick in the heart, sometimes good and sometimes bad......
This man's name is Yan Churui, he is one of my students, and he is also your mother's first love, the two were forced to separate because Chu Rui went abroad for further study, and later your mother met your father again, and the couple was so separated.
Not long after your mother entered the mental hospital, Chu Rui rushed back from abroad and invited the best psychologist to treat your mother. In order to completely cure your mother, the doctor used hypnosis to wash away your mother's memories from the time she met Song Dingguo to the time she divorced.
In order to prevent the recurrence of your mother's old illness, Chu Rui decided to take your mother to settle abroad. We knew that Chu Rui was divorced at that time, but he still had unforgettable feelings for your mother, so we ......"
"So you promised him to take her away and fly away, far away from here, and never come back, for fear that she would see something familiar and restore her memory, and that her old illness would recur, so she chose to abandon me?" Liang Xia continued to say what he couldn't say, she suddenly felt very cold, from the scalp to the bottom of her feet, she felt both ridiculous and pathetic.
It's ridiculous that so many unbelievable things in the world can happen to her, and the sad thing is that she was really abandoned alive, but it's a pity that the person who abandoned her doesn't know it, and she will never have to be condemned by her conscience.
"She didn't abandon you, she couldn't help herself, she would never make a ...... if she was sober"
"Sober head? When your mind is clear, when you encounter your first love and the revival of your old love, you will even more dislike me as a drag bottle! Liang Xia retorted, she wouldn't believe them anymore, even those who could give up their own flesh and blood relatives at will, how ruthless their hearts should be!
Why should she pay for their mistakes, why should she forgive generously, she is not a generous, kind-hearted person, and she can laugh at the harm of others.
Her heart is also fleshy, and it hurts, and when it hurts, she can only hide in the middle of no one and lick her wounds.
She will never forget the bullying and abuse of those children in her childhood, and she will never forget that she has been living in a ridiculous lie for more than ten years.
Grandpa Liang's sad face darkened a little, he couldn't express his guilt for her, the damage had been done, he just wanted to do something to make up for the damage to her.
"If you want to blame your grandfather, it's all my grandfather's fault, I was the one who made this decision back then, and I ...... I can't bear to see your mother ruined like that, so you have lost your mother's love for so many years, it's me a bad old man, Xia Xia hate your grandfather if you want to hate it, it's all grandfather's fault......"
Liang Xia had red eyes, forcibly held back the tears that came out of his eyes, got up from the ground, looked at his grandfather, who seemed to be much older, and smiled faintly, "Blame you?" How can I blame you? You have worked hard to raise me all these years, and the kindness of raising me is beyond words. This is what you taught me, no matter how much I am a jerk, I understand this truth, so, I don't blame you, if you want to blame, blame me for my bad life, fate is destined to be an unlucky child born by his parents and raised by his parents.
Grandpa, I should actually thank you, thank you for taking me in and raising me when they all abandoned me, compared to the same fatherless orphans in the orphanage, I have a much better life, right? ”
Grandpa Liang looked at her and smiled so indifferently, and his heart tightened even more, he knew that her heart was not as calm as it seemed.
He knows that she has always been a strong child, but being strong does not mean that she can bear everything, the stronger she is, the weaker her heart becomes, after all, he has raised her for so many years, and he still understands the child's temperament.
Grandpa Liang stretched out a hand full of wrinkles, trembling to pull her hand, she dodged it, froze in mid-air, forgot to take it back for a while, and looked at her in a daze, with a look of pain and pain.
Liang Xia knelt down, kowtowed respectfully to him three times, looked up at him with burning eyes, and said firmly, "Grandpa, thank you for your years of nurturing, I know that just kowtowing a few heads can't repay you anything, but this is the only thing I can give you now."
I know that it has always been because of my drag, and you and your grandmother have not even enjoyed a little blessing in their later years, which is all my unfilial piety. ”
"No, no, you didn't drag us down, it's us, it's us two old guys who are selfish, they only think of their daughters, they don't estimate your feelings, it's our ......" Grandpa Liang looked at Liang Xia who was kneeling on the ground, his eyes were wet, and his hands trembled and stretched out to her.
"Grandpa, in the future, in the days without me, please take care of your health, you and grandma must be well...... Take your grandmother to her, she won't leave you alone. Grandpa, take care! Saying that, Liang Xia bit his lip to avoid his outstretched hands, got up suddenly, and ran out without looking back, ignoring the exclamations of Liang's grandfather behind him.
The moment the door of "Xia Xia ......" closed, Grandpa Liang stared blankly at the shaking door, muttered in despair, and the photo in his hand fell down, lying on the lonely cold floor.
The smiling faces of a family of four with happy faces became more and more dazzling in this cold and empty room.