Qin Hua really felt that his illness was cured, and he and Zhao Yulai nested in the same study for an afternoon, even if the two of them worked separately most of the time and had no communication, Qin Hua could clearly feel that his brain was abnormally clear, and there was no usual inexplicable depression from time to time, as if he had returned to the good old days of his youth, he didn't have to pretend to be a beautiful person, but he was just a beautiful person.

He felt that Zhao Yulai was much better, although the change was not obvious, but he felt that Zhao Yulai was more popular than before, there was no stiffness before, and the whole person was much more vivid. For example, Zhao Yulai called Xu Jun, Xu Jun wanted Zhao Yulai to cast a film for him, Zhao Yulai would say, "Fuck off, you will come and talk to me again if the bellflower box office is 400 million!" I've known you for more than ten years, Xu Jun! You didn't tell me before you knew that little kid was the prince, and the account hasn't been settled with you yet! I'm embarrassed to come to me for a new show!"

The words are full of complaints.

Zhao Yulai may also say such things in the past, but there will be no emotions in it, perhaps because there is no emotion, although Zhao Yulai has a bad temper and scolds people from time to time, most people don't take it to heart too much, and even think that Zhao Yulai is just joking, and think that Zhao Yulai is a good person, so he won't be really angry.

Complaining about this emotion may be negative for a normal person, but it is a sign of improvement for a patient with a post-traumatic emotional deficit.

Qin Hua feels that he really deserves to be the best psychologist in the world, the most proud protégé in recent years, and this kind of traumatic stress disorder for more than ten years is difficult to have an effect, and it has actually improved in his hands.

I feel great!

And then......

That is, on the night when Qin Hua felt that he was great, Zhao Yulai had a nightmare.

Without shouting, Zhao Yulai's whole person curled up in a ball, trembling, cold sweat, Qin Hua, who was awakened, turned on the light, tried his best to circle him with his arm, and shouted Zhao Yulai's name loudly.

When Zhao Yulai finally got out of the nightmare, his eyes were full of fear, he stretched out his hand to hug Qin Hua's waist tightly, and when he buried his face in Qin Hua's chest, Qin Hua could still feel his trembling.

This is completely wrong, having nightmares should be the most basic symptom of PTSD, Zhao Yulai didn't have it in the first place, how could it be possible to have such a recurrence when there is a improvement.

"Tell me what you're dreaming about." Qin Hua said in a tone as relaxed as possible.

However, just as Qin Hua expected, Zhao Yulai didn't say anything.

Ten minutes later, Zhao Yulai, who was relieved, let go of Qin Hua, got up from the bed, walked to the bathroom in the guest room that had not been used for 10,000 years, lifted the lid of the water tank of the toilet that had not been used for 10,000 years, took out a plastic bag from it, took out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter in the plastic bag, and went straight to the terrace.

Qin Hua felt that as a serious master of psychology who was unlicensed, he should try to be gentle and careful at the moment when his patients had major symptoms, their minds were fragile, and they were most likely to have intuitive treatment effects, but in view of the fact that the relationship between the patient and him was not ordinary, he still couldn't help but complain.

"Zhao Yu is coming! You are ruthless enough to hide your cigarettes in the toilet tank! ”

Then, under the dim balcony lamp, he looked at the things sitting in the rattan chair and biting his cigarette with his head down, one hand covering the wind, and the other hand lighting the fire with a lighter Zhao Yulai, the corners of his mouth curled slightly, and then disappeared quickly.

It was only a slight moment, but it seemed to dispel most of the gloom on Zhao Yulai's body.

Taking a deep puff of cigarette, nicotine made Zhao Yulai's mood much better, however, without the support of nervous emotions, Zhao Yulai collapsed on the chair, his collapsed shoulders, his slightly bent back, and the blood of his hands hanging on the armrests had oozed out, and the gauze was red.

This kind of Zhao Yulai is unfamiliar, if anyone who has seen Zhao Yulai in the past sees this man sitting on a chair, they may not dare to recognize this person as Zhao Yulai.

Zhao Yulai, shouldn't he be the man who always has a straight back and is full of domineering?

But now this man is Zhao Yulai.

Then, Zhao Yulai shouted softly: "Little pervert." ”

As soon as Qin Hua thought about it, he saw a white cloud slowly coming from a distance, jumped lightly, and squatted on Zhao Yulai's lap.

To say that Qin Hua has never liked the cat that Zhao Yulai brought back from the United States, because every time he called this cat, it didn't care about people, and now he found out that it was his wrong name.

Zhao Yulai told him that this cat is called Mimi, and it is not at all!

Qin Hua watched Zhao Yulai pet the cat for a while, and then went to the kitchen to make Zhao Yulai a cup of Zhao Yulai's favorite Jamaican Blue Mountain.

In such an early morning, it is really not good to drink coffee while smoking, but when Zhao Yulai took the coffee, he couldn't wait to take a sip.

hot, but Zhao Yulai felt much more comfortable.

Waiting for Zhao Yulai to finish smoking a cigarette, and slowly finished drinking a cup of coffee, Qin Hua, who was silently sitting on another chair on the terrace, said: "Your hand needs to be treated, I asked the doctor to come over, and he is already downstairs, let him come in and help you get it?" ”

"Okay." Zhao Yu said.

The doctor Qin Hua invited was a man in his forties, and there were no more words, so he quietly carried the medical box into the door, quietly changed the medicine for Zhao Yulai's hand, and softly instructed a few words such as not to get wet, take medicine on time, and then left quietly.

When the doctor left, Qin Hua sat next to Zhao Yulai, stretched out his arm and hugged Zhao Yulai tightly.

At this time, it was already more than an hour after Zhao Yulai woke up from a nightmare, and in this more than an hour, Qin Hua kept thinking that he should not let go of this opportunity, he should let Zhao Yulai tell the past, and confiding was a necessary process for recovery, but he still didn't open his mouth in the end.

Before Qin Hua went to the United States to pick up Zhao Yulai, Shu Zhao once suggested to Qin Hua that if Zhao Yulai was unwilling to follow him, he could tell Zhao Yulai about his illness.

Shu Zhao said: "Although he broke through your condition by mistake, he didn't realize that he was right, you have to tell him clearly that you need his help, what can he do to accompany Li Youchao for a year, he won't ignore you." ”

But this suggestion was rejected by Qin Hua, Qin Hua felt that if Zhao Yulai really didn't want to come back with him, he could use various methods to spend time until Zhao Yulai agreed, but he couldn't bear Zhao Yulai to return to him because of pity.

Qin Hua felt that Zhao Yulai was probably the same kind of person as him, a kind of person who would rather have a broken soul than be pitied by him, in that case, shouldn't what he need to do as a partner be fulfilled?

At most, for the rest of his life, he can't see Zhao Yulai looking at him affectionately, but there are so many people in this world who can't get a response to their love until death, he is at least by his side, so don't be greedy anymore.

This night, when Qin Hua, who didn't drink coffee, fell asleep next to Zhao Yulai, and there was only the sound of Qin Hua's even breathing in the quiet night, Zhao Yulai suddenly felt that maybe it was really good to have someone with him, at least when you fell into the abyss, someone called your name loudly, and someone handed him to you when you wanted a cup of coffee.

Maybe he has seen too many bad people, Zhao Yulai thinks that although Qin Hua's little kid is a little bad, it is not unbearable, and he even looks like a good person when he is not sick.

"Brother, did you miss me when you were in the United States, raising a cat is called a little pervert, and you lied to me that you were called Mimi."

", it scratches my clothes and screams."

"I just like to see your duplicity."

"Get out!"

The result of having a nightmare and drinking coffee in the middle of the night was that Zhao Yulai was absent from work again, he was dragged by Qin Hua to eat breakfast in the morning, he fell asleep, woke up at noon, ate lunch and went to work, and within an hour of arriving at the company, he received a phone call that made him a little unexpected.

"Hello, I'm Qin Hua's mother, can I meet and talk?"

"Okay."

"Can you not let Qin Hua know about our meeting?"

"Yes."

In a café in the afternoon, when Zhao Yu arrived, Zhang Yun was already waiting there, Zhao Yulai sat directly opposite her and said, "Hello." ”

"Hello, my surname is Zhang, you can call me Aunt Zhang." Zhang Yun said.

"Aunt Zhang." To say that Zhang Yun was only in his forties, and with good maintenance, he looked like he was in his thirties, and Zhao Yulai, who was already in his early thirties, did some psychological construction before calling out this aunt.

"Son of the grass man every day, do you dare not call your mother an aunt?"

Zhao Yulai has no experience in getting along with his elders, Xu Jun is older than Zhang Yun, and he and Xu Jun are both equals.

"What's the matter with you?" Zhao Yulai asked directly.

"First of all, I apologize to you, there were some things that made it difficult for you in the past, but it was not on our side."

"I accept the apology."

"Then, I came to you today, mainly hoping that you could persuade Qin Hua to receive treatment."

"What do you mean? Is he sick? Zhao Yulai didn't understand a little, thought about it again, and said: "If it's what I said last time about smiling depression, don't take it seriously, I said it casually." ”

Zhao Yulai's answer surprised Zhang Yun a little, and his face suddenly glowed, but then it dimmed.

"Maybe you're really talking nonsense, but maybe you said it, he should be really not good, I found him a doctor, but he even lied to me with the doctor and said that it was okay, but he is my son, even if he has not been by my side, I know if he is okay."

Zhang Yun's words made Zhao Yulai silent for a long time before he said, "This is impossible." “(.)