At first, I thought that Bai Xiaotong was my calamity, but later I learned that it was not like this.

The sadness of life is not that the person you love is not you, but more importantly, that you love her without knowing it, but you are still hurting unscrupulously.

This life seems to have been destined in the dark, and it will be entangled with the name Song Xi until he dies.

In fact, I met Song Xi much earlier than Ling Ran, she was very young at that time, but the south of Sioux City already had a good reputation. She is so beautiful, even the actresses who are praised in the entertainment industry can't match her in the slightest.

Some people resent that they met too late, but I resented, why did we meet so early?

Early on, I could only see her arrogance and willfulness on the surface, but I couldn't see her inner perseverance and firmness.

When I went to Song's house at that time, she was still a high little princess, held in the palm of her hand by her father and brother, and Shen Zhimo, a childhood sweetheart, stood next to her.

When she entered the door, she was making noise because the food did not fit her mouth, and Mr. Song lost the shrewdness and ruthlessness in the mall, half-hugged her in his arms, and coaxed her softly, while asking someone to replace the table.

The little princess was still not satisfied, and stiffened her neck in Mr. Song's arms: "I don't like this person's cooking, it's so salty." ”

"If you don't like it, don't let him do it." He smiled, "Everything has to be happy with our little princess." ”

At that moment, she gave me a very bad impression, it is understandable that the daughter of a rich family is arrogant, but if she is willful like this, will she be able to become a big weapon in the future?

Maybe I was staring at her for too long, Song Xi looked at me and asked impulsively, "What are you looking at me/for?" ”

I turned around and didn't want to look at her.

has such a daughter and is still so spoiled, the Song family is only afraid that it will fall quickly.

I was only a sideline at that time, and I hadn't taken over the Ning family yet. Mr. Song didn't look down on me, and even when I came to visit, I was received by the young Song Gongzi.

"Ning Shao just came to Sioux City, if there is anything you are not used to, you must tell me, I am a good helper."

The strong dragon can't suppress the head snake, no matter how powerful the Ning family is in the capital, in the end, Suzhou City is not their own place. With Song Xiyan's words, it is actually better than anything else. At that time, I was not the head of the Ning family, so I responded with a smile.

After saying a few words, I turned around and went down the stairs, and I saw that Miss Song, who was a pet of thousands of people, rushing in with a cat, and was obviously stunned when she saw me: "Why haven't you gone back yet?" ”

I straightened the cuffs and felt that although the girl in front of me was beautiful, she really didn't have any charm. casually said, "That's it." ”

Later, I thought about it, if I had been willing to stop and say a few more words to her, would the plot have been completely different later? Probably...... There was nothing Ling Ran could do.

Ling Ran is the only son of the Ling family, and the family has so much money that they can bury half of the capital. Everyone rushed up to call him the prince.

Later, Song Xi turned between Ling Ran and Bai Xiaotong, and sometimes I wondered, does she have a brain?

Ling Ran's love is a little dull, why not mine? At that time, I was too young, and we all thought that we liked a woman like Bai Xiaotong.

Beautiful and gentle, at a glance, it is so moving, even crying can be as beautiful as rain hitting pear blossoms.

White and clean, with a soft heart.

It was many years later that I realized what kind of misunderstanding I had fallen into. The world is never clean, and who can be spotless?

Actually, I hated Song Xi very much at the beginning, when did I start to be tempted? What do I like about this selfish and self-righteous woman who has nothing but a face and has even been in prison?

Most of the heartbeats are for no reason, maybe it's just because she squatted down on the streets of Pengcheng and hugged her knees in the snow and cried. I held up an umbrella for her, and she looked back at me with tears in her face.

At that moment, there was a thousand sparkles in her eyes, and I couldn't find out where I was in that layer of ripples.

The neon lights on the streets of Pengcheng were too flickering, and her tears were too bright, which made people's hearts ache.

With tears on her face, she said to me, "Go away." ”

I tightened the umbrella in my hand: "I didn't want to see you laugh. ”

No matter how I explain it, it doesn't seem to work. She spontaneously stamped me, believing that I liked Bai Xiaotong, and it would only bring her humiliation.

I felt bitter in my heart, but I felt that this was something to blame. I really liked Bai Xiaotong at that time, and I knew that Ling Ran was lying to her, but I still watched coldly. In a way, I was also the murderer of her father and brother.

Once the Song family was high, Song Xi was the little princess held by Song Cen and Song Xiyan in the palm of her hand. Later, the Song family was defeated, and she was not finished when she fell to the ground, and she was sent to prison, repeatedly stepping on the mud to play.

I watched from the sidelines, and when she was released from prison four years later, I sneered at her.

Sitting back in the car, I smiled bitterly at the brilliant lights in front of me.

It turns out that I don't deserve to love her for a long time, and it turns out that I can't even say love.

Later, many things happened one after another, and in the clouds, just like the plot in a TV series, there is always something unreal.

I saw her on and off several times, and she was happy for a while, and her whole person was rejuvenated. I wanted to smile when I looked at her, and I was satisfied as long as she was doing well.

Later, I couldn't see each other, and Ning Silun, the head of the Ning family, gave up a qiē for a woman and left the capital to go to Yunnan. The Ning family was in a mess, and the situation was getting worse. I was forced to give up my profession as a doctor and return to the capital to shoulder the burden of the Ning family.

The bigger the family, the more fragmented things will be. It took me a lot of work to suppress those who were stupid/stupid/lustful/moving, and I was calm again. When the news of Song Xi's death came, I was attending a blind date reception held by the Ning family for me, and when I heard the news, I didn't hold the wine glass in my hand. The beautiful goblet smashed to pieces on the ground, as if to foreshadow something.

I could almost feel myself standing up with a hideous face, grabbing/grabbing the man's shoulders and asking her, "What did you say?" What happened to Song Xi? "I tried my best to control my expression, but I found that I couldn't do it anyway.

The woman seemed to be frightened by me, and stumbled and said, "Car...... Car accident... I heard that it was the car driven by the prince. She...... She died instantly...... Blood flowed all over the ground......"

The car driven by the prince? Died on the spot?

I feel like I'm going crazy. How could Ling Ran do this to her? By my side with Shen Zhimo, and even Zhuo Feifei, she is the whole world. How did it come to him and become nothing?

The blind date didn't work out, and I ran away. I'm in a hurry to Sioux City, where my most beloved woman died, and I'm going to give me an explanation.

When I arrived in Suzhou City, Song Xi was still placed on the door panel, and those who should and shouldn't come were here, and even Bai Xiaotong came, holding a child in his hand.

After asking, I realized that it was Song Xi's daughter. Ling Ran wanted to give the child to Bai Xiaotong to raise, but Song Xi was desperate......

I nodded, grabbed Ling Ran's collar, and slammed it at him, punch after punch. The mourning hall was in a mess, but Ling Ran didn't fight back. But I didn't think it was enough.

How can it? My beloved Xiao Xi'er is lying alone in the ground, why is he still alive? He killed her, but he didn't even need to go to jail, why?

It was Song Xi's cousin Song Anran who slapped me awake, and she had red eyes: "Don't be stupid, what if you kill Ling Ran?" Maybe he'll get better. Pity our little Xi'er......"

I took a few steps forward and saw Xiao Xi'er's face. She didn't wear dead makeup, her face was a little paler, her eyes were closed, but she was already beautiful, and no one could compare to her.

Xiao Xi'er ...... "I couldn't restrain myself and burst into tears." Finally able to shout at her in the open, but she couldn't hear it anymore.

The last one to arrive was Zhuo Feifei, who probably escaped from Zhuo's house just to see her for the last time.

I thought I was crazy, he was probably even crazier than I was. As soon as he entered the mourning hall, he hugged Song Xi's corpse, and he didn't cry, but just muttered: "You said that you would go with me for the rest of your life......"

Standing on the side, I saw Ling Ranqiang's cold face, and the deep grief in his eyes.

I had been away for too long, and only then did I realize that this was the case! It turned out that Song Xi's heart was no longer Ling Ran, it turned out that what she loved now was Zhuo Feifei!

It's ridiculous, I laughed with tears on my face, it turned out that Song Xi could fall in love with someone else, but it wouldn't be me anyway.

On that day, I sent away the woman I loved most in my life, her name was Song Xi.

After that, I became the head of the Ning family who was sober and self-controlled, vacant as the head of the house, and women raised one after another. One day if I go and see Song Xi, I want to say to her, don't think I don't love you, you see, more or less, they look like you.

Su Weimu's eyes are the one that is most like Song Xi, and at a glance, I thought it was really Song Xi coming back.

I used a little trick, so Su Curtain became my woman. I never wanted to be like Ling Ran and make my own women sad. In the end, I broke the hearts of many people, including Su Veil.

She bore me a son, and the son resented me for killing his mother, and would not call me father until I died.

When I closed my eyes, I thought about a lot of things, and I said that people are very confused when they die, how can I become more and more awake? Song Xi's face was gradually enlarged in my mind, and it was finally fixed when she walked up to me with a cat in her arms when she was young.

Her gaze turned upside down, and that glance overturned the city and me.

If there is an afterlife, I hope that if I don't meet her, I won't be sad. I can treat other women well and wipe away their tears.

If there is an afterlife, may we just rub shoulders and live a lifetime of ignorance and ignorance, better than going back and forth in love and hate in this life, bumps and turns, and when we come, we are still empty-handed, full of melancholy.