18. Her secrets
Lin Li didn't speak for quite some time.
Eventually, she lowered her eyes and stiffened the corners of her mouth: "I don't have anything unhappy about." ”
Xiao Huai said: "Lin Li, I have no intention of spying on your **, but I can't know that you are unhappy, and I still ignore it." ”
She buried her head and kept silent, exactly the same as at that time, and her sense of existence was weakened.
Xiao Huai got out of the car and approached her.
His fingers touched her cold fingertips, and she instinctively shrank away, only to be pulled together by him into the warm palm.
"It's okay if you don't go back, I'll show you the night view." He said this calmly and pressed her back into the car.
He stood next to the car, stroking her shoulder with one hand and pulling out his seat belt with the other. Slender fingers ran over her delicate collarbone, and she moved, his body leaning down.
"Obedient." He whispered.
The placket of the suit suddenly appeared in front of him, and Lin Li felt that his face was almost buried in Xiao Huai's neckline, so he had to remain motionless, watching him insert the buckle of the seat belt into the buckle lock and close the car door.
The car started quickly and drove on the Old Town Ring Road.
Now that Christmas is approaching, the festive atmosphere in Munich is not very lively, there are not too many dazzling neon lights, shops close early, and the whole city looks plain and unflashy.
The moonlight is frosty, the street lamps illuminate the road, and the car moves gently past baroque churches, past civilian apartments, and around the distinctive high-rise buildings...... The scenery was beautiful, and Lin Li's tense feelings gradually relaxed, and he felt the long-lost tranquility and serenity from the cold night.
Xiao Huai saw that her expression was a little loose, and said lightly: "You came to Munich before last, how long did you stay?" ”
Her lips twitched a few times: "...... Two days and one night. ”
"Did you see your boyfriend later?"
"Nope."
"Did you come this time to see your boyfriend?"
"It's not."
The answer is too brief. Xiao Huai paused: "Lin Li, I didn't mean to embarrass you by asking these questions. ”
Lin Li was silent for a while, and finally talked more: "My boyfriend and I ...... What happened between me and my ex-boyfriend was a little bit more complicated than what you saw at the time. ”
For Lin, a car accident two years ago was a watershed moment in her life.
Before the accident, my parents were the vice president and inpatient director of a private hospital, respectively. Her first boyfriend returned from Germany and held a very romantic marriage proposal ceremony for her; She herself has also learned a lot, and she has passed the recruitment assessment of Guò Hospital.
Every qiē in life can be called perfect, and relatives and friends are very envious of her blessings.
On the eve of the wedding, she proposed a family trip to say goodbye to the single era, and her parents agreed, and her boyfriend agreed.
The trip was short and enjoyable until the day of return.
She drove on the highway, and although she pulled the distance to stay straight, she was unable to dodge the large truck that suddenly came from the ramp.
After the car accident, she regretted it all day long, developed depressive symptoms, and almost had a nervous breakdown - her parents died on the spot, her boyfriend was in a dying coma, but she, the culprit, was the first to get out of danger.
However, this is only the beginning of a sea change.
There were many voices in her ears, either talking about her harm to her parents, or slandering her for secretly planning a car accident in order to obtain the man's assets.
Those who had blessed her with good words and good words actually ridiculed her with the greatest malice.
She struggled to get through it, waiting for her boyfriend to regain consciousness.
Unexpectedly, reality is unpredictable......
Lin Li stared at the thick night outside the car window, omitted specific details, and only said part of the facts: "I had a car accident two years ago and almost killed my ex-boyfriend. When he regained consciousness, he felt that he no longer loved me, proposed to break up with me, and canceled the wedding. ”
Xiao Huai was stunned, parked the car on the side of the road, and listened carefully.
"I chased him to Munich and tried to get him back, but he refused to see me."
"As you can see, this is the end of my relationship with him."
Lin Li's tone could not hear the ups and downs of emotion, and concisely summarized an extremely complicated past, but Xiao Huai realized that she and her ex-boyfriend were entangled fiercely when their relationship broke down.
He couldn't help but ask: "Does the car accident have anything to do with you?" ”
"I set the driving route, and I drove the car. I had a private prenuptial agreement with my ex-boyfriend, and one of them worked in my favor – if anything happened to him, the assets in my name would belong to me. ”
After listening to the explanation, Xiao Huai immediately understood why the dispute in the exhibition came from.
The night was getting colder and colder, and the windows of the car gradually fogged up, so he lowered the windows on both sides and left a small slit, and only after seeing that the fog disappeared did he speak steadily: "Lin Li, I believe that you are a person, and you will never do anything that violates your conscience." ”
Lin Fei glanced at him, and his pursed lips opened slightly: "Thank you for your comfort." ”
"Not comfort. Judging by the fact that I traded an old bungalow with you, you will not lose your principles for the sake of money. I have come into contact with all kinds of people, and in my eyes, you are a person who abides by the bottom line and a person with a pure heart. ”
Lin Fei suddenly felt as if his heart was being pulled by something, it didn't hurt, but it was indescribably gentle, and the negative feelings that had accumulated in his heart slowly dissipated with the flow of blood.
She looked at him and looked away for a moment: "We haven't known each other for a few days, and you don't know me at all." ”
"Sometimes to understand a person, a small thing is enough. The fact that you chased the car and wanted to return your coat to me that day is enough to show that you are of good character. ”
Hearing this, Lin Fei couldn't hold on any longer, and his eyes turned red.
But she didn't shed a single tear, only thin tears swirled in her eyes: "My ex-boyfriend and I have known each other since we were children, and we grew up together, and we have been dating for a whole decade. How many decades can there be in life? ”
The pain that has been suppressed for a long time is now all triggered by Xiao Huai, so that she can't hold back the ** she can't hold back: "What kind of person am I, how kind of family education I receive, he should know better than anyone else, and my parents are also ......"
Lin Li stopped talking and did not say anything about his parents.
Xiao Huai asked, "What's wrong with my parents?" ”
Lin Li didn't want to use his parents' affairs to gain sympathy, but said: "My ex-boyfriend's relatives felt that my family background was not good and I was not worthy of him, and they slandered me even more after the car accident." It doesn't matter, as long as he believes in me. But he didn't, and he was so disappointed in me that he couldn't trust me anymore and transferred a breakup fee to my bank account so that I wouldn't pester him anymore. ”
"I don't need money, so I chased him to Munich and did everything I could to get him back, but, but ......" she bit her lip and said no more.
She will never forget that night, when her boyfriend's love was extraordinarily repeated.
He refused to answer her phone at first, but later took the initiative to call her again and agree to see her.
She stood with an umbrella in the cold night of rain and snow, waiting with hope, but he never appeared. Her phone ran out of battery, so she had no choice but to borrow it from a stranger and dial him.
When the phone was answered, he seemed to be a different person, and impatiently told her to get out.
She was scolded and stunned, constantly apologizing, and constantly explaining. But the more she said, the more disgusted his attitude became, and finally humiliated her mercilessly: "Lin Li, what do you want from me?" All the assets in my name? ”
In fact, after the car accident, she faced so much slander and ridicule, and she once doubted herself, and even wanted to destroy herself on the death day of her parents...... didn't do anything stupid, the fundamental reason is that I am sure that my first boyfriend will definitely believe in her innocence and will never give up.
But her boyfriend didn't trust her and didn't love her anymore.
Overnight, the most solid faith in my heart was destroyed.
She lost her parents, lost her warm home, lost a relationship that had lasted for ten years, and even lost the most basic trust of a person.
Her happiness came to an abrupt end, but every one of the consequences was caused by herself, and she was to blame.
She doesn't blame anyone, she only hates herself.
If there is no mention of yì travel.
If you don't insist on self-driving.
It will not be indulged in regret every day.
……
The unbearable past attacked Lin Li at this moment, and she seemed to have returned to the day of the car accident. The fragmented scenes, the painful struggles on the verge of death, all the details replay in the mind.
There was a sudden heart-rending pain in her chest, and she had to take a few deep breaths, clasp her fingers together, and straighten her body.
Xiao Huai was surprised to see that she had just expressed a little bit of her true thoughts, and then took back all her feelings. She no longer revealed a word, no longer let go of her mind at all, showing an overly restrained attitude.
Xiao Huai decided to expose her pretending to be strong, and went straight to the most vulnerable place in her heart: "Lin Li, have you been regretting it?" I regret that I didn't have a designated driving route, I didn't drive, I didn't have a car accident-"
He didn't finish. He saw her tears burst out of her eyes at once, like bursting a levee, flooding uncontrollably.
But she didn't make a sound, and sat quietly. Her pain was obvious and profound, but she classified it as her own affair and had nothing to do with the outside world.
She did not use catharsis to pollute others, but tried to maintain her composure and not let others feel pity. Seeing her so stubborn, the wisps of compassion in his heart condensed and turned into a different kind of emotion.
"Lin Li, listen to me." Xiao Huai spoke, his voice hoarse.
"You don't have to set yourself up as the perpetrator. Actually, you are also a victim. ”
When he heard the last sentence, Lin Li's eyelashes fluttered slightly.
The bloody picture in her mind quietly froze, and the chaotic noise in her ears suddenly stopped, and now, she only heard Xiao Huai's gentle voice.
The voice was saying that she was also a victim.
Barely resisting the urge to cry, she asked, "Xiao Huai, can you repeat that sentence again?" ”
Xiao Huai didn't repeat, leaned down/leaned over, hugged the person intimately into his arms, and let her face touch the broad chest.
"It's all gone." He said.
She was forced to snuggle up to his chest, and there was a heavy and powerful heartbeat in her ears, and she dodged uncomfortably, but he held her shoulders and hugged her more intimately.
"It's encouragement from friends." He sighed.
She worked too hard alone, but this time she didn't refuse, silently closed her eyes, and let the tears that had lost control fall straight down, all dripping on his collar.