23. The wall of the heart

Lin Li walked through the Brandenburg Gate to the west.

Contrary to the imaginary ruins, there is only a line on the ground symbolically indicating the approximate location of the Berlin Wall. In a small square nearby, crosses are erected to commemorate those who fled from East Germany to West Germany during the Cold War as they tried to climb the Berlin Wall.

Lin Li has seen the information that the Berlin Wall is actually two parallel walls, about 150 meters apart, and the area in the middle is the so-called "death zone", which contains police dogs, watchtowers, floodlights, barbed wire, roadblocks against vehicles and armed guards, completely separating West Berlin from East Berlin.

It can be said that this wall is a bloody and painful memory.

Lin Li had a lot of imagination about this wall. Now that I have witnessed the remains of the wall, my imagination space has become less, and my mood has become depressed with the painful history, and I plan to go to the east exit to meet Xiao Huai, and I asked a circle of tourists, but no one knows what this place is.

She turned to the locals for help, and learned that the East Exit was actually Checkpoint Charlie to the east, which was the gateway between East and West Berlin for all foreigners during the Cold War, and was only a twenty-minute walk from the Brandenburg Gate.

There was a lot of snow on the road, and she walked forward with one foot deep and one foot shallow, and saw many dilapidated old houses full of graffiti. According to the strategy, after 1989, East Germans fled to West Germany in large numbers, and the vacant buildings became the objects of improvisation by modern rebellious youth and neuroartists.

Lin Li approached the empty house and was about to take a selfie, when an old man with a wrinkled face and gray hair suddenly poked his head out of the broken window, and spoke Russian with a fierce look. She was startled and slipped away without looking back.

After passing through several commercial streets, she found the small checkpoint in the middle of the road, looked around, and did not see Xiao Huai.

At the checkpoint, several actors cosplayed Soviet soldiers, and tourists leaving "East Berlin" for "West Berlin" were declaring the customs clearance procedures of the two German periods, and the atmosphere was very joyful. She also lined up with tourists, paid a few euros for "customs clearance", and then handed her passport to the Soviet soldiers, waiting for them to be stamped and released.

The Soviet soldier looked at her with eyes sharper than an eagle and threw back his passport: "You are a man of Mao, why do you want to go to a capitalist country?" We suspect that you are suspected of treason and officially reject your application to travel to West Germany. ”

The acting is very realistic. Lin Li couldn't help but laugh and said cooperatively: "I didn't commit treason. ”

The Soviet soldier frowned: "Take the people away." ”

Lin Li was stunned. What's the situation?

Several soldiers "expelled" her from the checkpoint, and a Beetle car made in the former East Germany of the last century drove slowly by.

The tall and handsome German ** officer opened the car door and walked down, showing a charming smile: "In accordance with the national security policy, we officially arrest you and return to East Germany." ”

Lin Fei asked suspiciously: "Is this a supporting experience?" ”

A smile on the officer's lips rippled: "Please get in the car." ”

The Beetle drives around the Old Town, confronted with a variety of old mottled bungalows and high-end luxury commercial buildings, and the chaos reveals a strange mix and match harmony. Lin Li found a good mood in this East Berlin street scene.

The East German officers also turned into funny tour guides, introducing various attractions along the way while interspersing a few black jokes, which made Lin Li purse his lips and smile.

The Beetle ended up at an old abandoned railway station, which now seems unremarkable, but it was the Cold War-era dividing line between East and West Germany and the only railway link between Eastern and Western Europe.

Lin Li got off the train and stepped into this railway station that has been washed by decades of wind and rain.

The red bricks of the walls have turned a dull ochre red, the platform signs reflect the icy German words "Hauptbahnhof", and the lonely tracks stretch into the distance, giving the sight a sad and somber tone against the snowy winter background.

She walked through the deserted and silent platform passage, her stiletto boots reverberating crisply from the cracked floor tiles, and when she reached the end of the road, she turned around and saw a man at the empty passenger entrance.

That person was Xiao Huai.

He walked up the stairs, his pace steady and unhurried, and he became more and more tall and graceful, as if he had suddenly stepped into the current years from the old history.

Lin Li looked at him, and his heart beat again inexplicably.

Xiao Huai took a step forward and said in a calm tone, "You're early, you have to wait a while." ”

The sentence was said without beginning or end, and Lin Li guessed that he might have something for her.

The north wind was blowing, blowing into a bleak and bleak tone. I don't know how long I waited, Lin Fei found that he had underestimated the sub-zero temperature in Berlin, his face was frozen, his limbs were extremely cold, and his body was trembling uncontrollably.

Xiao Huai walked over, took off the warm scarf with both hands, and put it on for her.

She froze so hard that she shrunk her neck and asked tremblingly, "How long will you have to wait?" ”

He reached out and grabbed her shoulder: "It won't be long. ”

In the bitter cold, a wait became extremely long. Seeing her face turn pale, he tightened his arms and embraced the person into his arms.

The two of them did not have their chests close to each other, which was not too intimate, so she lowered her head without hesitation, relying on his tall and straight body to avoid the wind.

He thoughtfully covered her ears with his hands to shield her from the cold.

Her body gradually warmed, and indescribable feelings spread around her heart, and she looked up at him, and the cold winter wind blew, ruffling her long hair and covering her eyebrows.

She reached out and flicked it down, her gaze returning to his handsome silhouette. It so happened that he lowered his head, his clear gaze intertwined with hers.

Time seems to freeze for a moment and then flows slowly.

Xiao Huai said in a deep voice: "The last train, you get on." ”

Lin Li was stunned for a few seconds, revealing an incredulous expression. This is the dialogue between the female writer and the moral ** official in the prose story.

She took over uncertainly: "You...... Come with me? ”

"No way, I have parents, you get in the car."

"I'm going to stay for one day, please let me stay one more day."

The end of the story is a helpless parting, and the conversation should end here, but Xiao Huai connects the topic seamlessly: "Do you know what you're doing? ”

If it is the heroine of the story, she should answer, "I know, I just want to be with you." ”

However, in reality, Lin Li was dumbfounded.

Xiao Huai stared at her, and his dark eyes flowed with a touch of unclear meaning: "If the prose story is true, this is the place where a female writer and a moral official are separated." ”

Lin Li realized: "You brought me here to relive their parting?" ”

"Nope. Those who should part will part, and those who should meet will meet again. ”

When he said this, his voice was lowered, deep, slowly, as if sighing, Lin Li was stunned for several seconds.

Suddenly, she wanted to tell him somethingβ€”two years ago, before the car accident happened, she found a German version of the financial magazine "The Banker" in her ex-boyfriend's study, and saw him on the cover.

She asked curiously, "Who is this person?" ”

Her ex-boyfriend hugged her from behind, rested his chin on top of her head, and replied with a smile: "His name is Xiao Huai, he is a German-Chinese, an investment banker, and an alumnus of mine." ”

Should I sue him? She had heard of him before.

Should I sue him? She has been avoiding him, just because when she sees his face, she thinks of her ex-boyfriend.

In the confusion, the ground suddenly trembled, and the sound of howling wind and the rumble of wheels colliding with rails at a rapid rate approached from afar.

Lin Li followed the prestige -

Two old-fashioned trains born during the Cold War appear in view, as if they have crossed the gap of the times and crossed the ideological differences, speeding towards each other.

Empty cars swept past the platform, with an exhilarating momentum, and ran into the distance at lightning speed, never to return.

For a few minutes, Lin Li's ears were full of deafening loud noises, and the unprecedented shock and indescribable emotion grabbed his chest in an instant. She closed her eyes suddenly, and she couldn't see anything, but she seemed to see something.

Much like what happened to the city, her heart was divided into past and present by an invisible wall.

The bloody past has been cast into a series of gloomy and depressing barbed wire inside the "Heart Wall", locking the intellect and splitting the will. Her soul and body were bound by a deep sense of guilt, and she dwelt on the past and wanted to get rid of it.

Now this "heart wall" has been torn open by some kind of enterprising and high-spirited force, she in the past and her in the present have taken a look between the lightning and fire, all the suppressed emotions have been released, the impermeable barbed wire, the bleak wall, and the heavy guilt in the bottom of the heart have collapsed suddenly, and only one voice has been left to say to her constantly -

Lin Li, let's move forward.

The thick eyelashes trembled a few times, and Lin Li opened his eyes, and his eyes had a kind of crystal clear with tears.

Xiao Huai asked softly, "Are you crying?" ”

She rubbed her eyes with her hands and did not answer.

"If you want to cry, cry as much as you want." He patted her on the shoulder, "If the troubles are not shown on the face, they will be entrenched in the heart. When you vent all your unhappiness, your heart will no longer be troubled. ”

He saw through it again. Lin Li sniffed and asked, "Are you very sympathetic to me because of what happened to me?" ”

Xiao Huai was a little surprised, and replied after a while: "You are so strong, you don't need anyone's mercy. ”

She listened, her eyes flashing with tears, but she smiled brightly.

He grabbed her injured left wrist, moved it down a little, and naturally took the cold hand: "It's windy here, I'll take you back." ”

It was freezing and there was snow on the road, so he was afraid that she would slip and fall, so he took every step very carefully.

Lin Li was dragged a few steps forward and looked at Xiao Huai in the morning light.

It wasn't the first time he had physical contact with her, but this time it seemed completely different. The slender and powerful knuckles held her hand firmly in the palm of her hand. Skin to skin, warm temperature passed from him to her, from the fingertips to the tips of the heart, the touch became extremely clear and sharp.

She bit her lip secretly, trying to keep her face calm, but the heart buried deep in her chest was pounding uncontrollably.

Xiao Huai seemed to feel her gaze for a long time, and turned his face to look at her.

Lin Li was a little uncomfortable by him, barely looked away, and muttered in a low voice: "I found that you are a hidden person." ”

He spat out a monophonic word: "Huh? ”

"On the one hand, they said that I was so easy to deceive, and on the other hand, they tricked me into blowing cold wind. Why is the trip not written in the travel plan? Did you listen to a prose story, so you had a little surprise on the fly? We've only been apart for just over an hour, how did you manage to do that? ”

Xiao Huai listened to every question, but did not answer.

About to walk out of the old train station, Lin Li glanced back at the scenery and stopped his steps: "Wait a minute, I'll take a photo." ”

Three steps and two steps ran back to the platform passage, she took out her mobile phone from her small bag to find the angle, and looked for a long time, either the wind was too strong, or it was against the light.

He looked at it quietly for a moment and said, "Give me your phone." ”

She asked tangledly: "I'm not photogenic, can you help take a few more photos?" ”

"As long as the person is good-looking, one is enough."

…… Well, she's pretty good at that.

After filming back to the silver Mercedes-Benz, Lin Li lowered his head and fiddled with his mobile phone, his sparkling eyes revealing a trace of emotion.

Xiao Huai started the car: "Didn't shoot well?" ”

She shook her head, clicked on WeChat dynamics, and posted a photo.

The golden sunlight poured on the red brick wall, and she stood on the platform of the old railway station with a sense of history, her lips curved and her eyes were bright. Because the shooting angle is well chosen, the light and shadow are staggered and intertwined, and the picture presents the artistic conception of time flies and is safe.

Photo note A word: Goodbye, old times.

Many friends shouted and coaxed under this news: "Bet on five cents must not be a selfie." Say the important thing three times, who is the person who took the photo? Who is it? Who is it? ”

Lin Li didn't reply, dragging the screen down, not paying attention to the random glance cast by the man next to him.

She continued to scroll through the circle of friends and saw Guan Yi's comment: "Oh my God, the person who took the picture for you is Xiao Huai?" Hooking up in broad daylight, the evidence is conclusive, and you dare to say that you don't have feelings for him? Miki, to be a man is to speak of conscience. ”

Lin Li's fair cheeks flushed a thin pink, and he decided to delete the picture.

Finger clicked on the "Delete" option, and her eyes fell on a recent comment.

Hsiao replied to Guan Yi 1988: "Lin Li and I ......"

I didn't read the second half of the sentence clearly, because all the text was deleted along with the pictures.

Lin Li was a little confused, and quietly looked at Xiao Huai with his afterglow.

He stared straight ahead, calmly pressed the gas pedal when the red light at the intersection switched to green.

She was worried that Guan Yi's few complaints might affect his opinion of her, but she was embarrassed to explain. What's even more curious is what did he say to Guan Yi?

She didn't ask him, she thought about it, and replied in her head, "Lin Li and I are just ordinary friends."

However, this speculation was overturned by a WeChat screenshot sent by Guan Yi.

She saw the real answerβ€”

Hsiao replied to Guan Yi in 1988: "Lin Pi and I are traveling in Berlin, we are very happy, please don't worry. ”

Lin Li hung her head and stared intently at this line of words, for a long time, she turned off the screen of her mobile phone, raised her head and whispered a word, her voice revealing a little reluctance.

"Xiao Huai, I'm going to fly back to China tonight."