Later generations have a very mixed evaluation of Pope Conte I, a man of great literary literacy, who preserved many Renaissance works during his reign, but never left a portrait during his lifetime; At the same time, he reversed the attitude of the previous popes to investigate and suppress the science of the same era, and actively supported the development of astronomy, mathematics, biology and other disciplines, and even facilitated their research; At the same time, he was the most devout believer, living an ascetic life, which is quite puzzling to later historians from his upbringing.

But what everyone is most talked about is the "Matthew case" during the Pope's reign, he was famous for his justice and compassion, the fourth great master of the Renaissance, Jin Pingfan, it is his insight that has enabled the works of this cross-era literary and artistic giant to be preserved.

This genius painter had a short and splendid life, and his paintings created a new genre, focusing more on the ordinary and even lower class people of the time, and his works truly reflected the daily life of medieval Emerald and Rome, in addition to a whole series of his paintings about his life and his homosexuals, but I don't know why historians have not found the life of his lover in the relevant documents - until the end of the 20th century, the Conti family extinction, From the family's collection, people found the extremely precious autobiographical manuscript of Conte I, and the love story that had been sealed for hundreds of years was unveiled from history, and since then the story of Conte I and Jin has been frequently moved to the screen, causing everyone to sigh.

"October 12, 1556, fine

I met again the teenager who was painting in the square and he invited me to his birthday.

It's a funny kid, at least there are very few people like him who invite strangers to celebrate their birthdays, we share a cake together, and to be honest, it doesn't taste very good, but I'm really happy at this moment, I've been very upset with the Griwald family lately, I really don't understand what they have to do with their dying struggles, isn't the peace of Emerald bad? What about simply provoking a war to gain power, even if it is a wild dog, it must always assess whether it is enough before meeting an opponent. ”

"December 6, 1556, fine

Jin and I became friends.

Before I met Jin, I never knew that there was such a person who could make me feel extremely relaxed, he was like a breeze in the sky, always able to find peace of mind. I recommended him to Conte and his talent was as good as I thought he would.

I am about to travel to Rome to be crowned by the cardinal, and I hope to see a better Jin when I return.

PS: Although we haven't separated yet, I feel like I'm starting to miss him. ”

"On January 18, 1557, the first snow

Not long ago, I received the news that Jin had been falsely accused of being expelled from Conti's College, and I was tempted to ride back to support him, but the servant told me that he had left Fei Lengcui, and the news made me restless, but I saw him when I was giving alms in the church today.

He was huddled in a blanket with a cat in his arms, sleeping soundly, the sun shining on him, and for a moment I thought I had seen an angel.

When I finished giving alms, I found that he was gone, and although I don't know why he didn't want to see me, I thought I should respect his choice, and I believe that he is like the jade of the East that he told me, and all the trials from the outside world are polishing that will help him finally bloom, and I also hope that a qiē in Rome will bring him a different inspiration.

In the end, though, I got the Guards to pay attention to help him inadvertently. ”

"February 20, 1557, fine

God, I think it's either I'm crazy, I'm crazy.

He actually said he liked me, and he kissed me. I have to say that my whole person was chaotic at that moment, and I should blame him, but I could only flee in a hurry. ”

"June 18, 1557, fine

It's been almost half a year since I arrived in Turin, and my busy work still can't make me forget what happened half a year ago, and I also communicated with the Pope, who said that most of the suffering of time is self-inflicted...... All the tragedies of time are that we did not stop in time, but some of them are original sin.

I began to find it sad that the farther away I became, the more I missed the elf-like boy.

Was he a temptation from the devil, a test of the Lord, or was I guilty of admiring the same sex? ”

"On October 28, 1560, it snowed heavily

After coming to Turin for more than three years, I realized how immature I used to be, and in places where the pope and family forces could not be fully protected, I had to find a way to balance the forces of the diocese in all aspects, avoid conflicts, pacify the people affected by the disaster, and suppress the righteous peasants...... The busier I became, the more I found that Jin took root in my heart, kneeling in front of the Lord and praying every day, I prayed over and over again for the Lord to forgive my sins, but after all, I still couldn't let him go. ”

"On December 15, 1561, it rained lightly

I have returned to Rome after a five-year absence, and I will be in Rome tomorrow, and I think I should be able to meet the young man, no, I should say that he is a young man now, and I don't know if he is doing well. In fact, I really miss him, but I also understand that no matter how much I care about him, or even say that I love him, I can't let others see it, and such a betrayal of love will completely destroy him and destroy me. ”

"On December 20, 1561, light rain

I don't know exactly how this qiē happened, I went to the prison to see him, I never knew that this place could be so cold and dark. He leaned against the stone wall and looked at me quietly, and I could tell that he was covered in wounds.

……

He made me choose between God and Him, how could I!

We both knew that there was no possibility of talking to each other anymore, that his hands could no longer paint, and that I could not leave everything I had now, especially now that my uncle was seriously ill and the Holy See was in turmoil. ”

"On January 12, 1562, it was fine

How painful does the fire hurt on the body? Even if the candle flame burned on his hand and was soaked, the servants were terrified, but how could such a small wound compare to the pain of the man burning in the blazing fire.

Go to TM God!

I regret it, I really regret it! ”

"January 25, 1562, fine

I went to the courtyard where he lived, and the studio was full of his paintings, frame by frame, lifelike, but the person who painted them was no longer there.

I put all his paintings together, especially his paintings of the days we spent together, but unfortunately the last one was the one I left five years ago, and he hadn't finished it yet, but I don't think I'll ever be able to complete it.

I kept them all in the Papal Palace in the Vatican, and now that I'm pope, it's all that accompanies me. ”

……

"December 25, 1592, light snow

It's been thirty years since he left, and lately his eyes have often been blurred, and his hands have been shaking when he holds a book...... I think it's not long before I go to see him, and people like me may have to go to hell, but it doesn't matter, as long as I can be with him, I don't want to go anywhere.

It's just that I've never dreamed of him in all these years, is he still angry with me? Hopefully he won't be angry when I see him.

Jin, all I could tell you was sorry was before, and now I can finally say I love you, but would you still be willing to listen?

Yesterday I fell asleep, and the servant was worried, but what is there to worry about, we will finally throw ourselves into the arms of death, and I just hope that he will still wait for me. ”