The bottom of a pair of eyes

Teardrops are like spring rain

If you have a conscience

Take a good look at me

- Lobsang Rinchen Changyang Gyatso

His Holiness had never been to the White House since he entered the Potala Palace, but on this day, he unexpectedly received a verbal message from the monks of the Red Palace, saying that His Holiness would come to visit him later. Rinchen Ongmu was elated at first and then sad, the letter had been delivered to the palace for some days, but the king of Tibet had not sent a new translator for a long time, which was nothing more than Mingxin made up a set of rhetoric in front of the king of Tibet, which made the king of Tibet have a rift with her concubine. Hmph, such a good sister who forgets her righteousness has tasted a lesson in her life. Renchen Onmu had no choice but to order the bhikshuni to go to the Sutra Pavilion and take out the great dictionary again to wait for the arrival of His Holiness Rosette.

Cangyang Gyatso came to see Maggie Ami in the name of visiting Concubine Ming, and Renzhen Ongmu would not be so stupid as not to even know about it.

When he walked into Renzhen Om's dormitory, glanced at the attendants and servants beside her, and did not see the figure of Maggie Ami, he asked at that time, "Where is Maggie Ami?" Isn't she an interpreter, she should have stood in front of her on such an occasion? ”

The bhikshunis had to look through the dictionary for a long time before they translated it to Rinchen Om. Rinchen Ongmu had already made up a set of rhetoric, and when Cangyang Gyatso asked, she replied: "Sister Mingxin has already gone home, her parents have set a marriage for her, and she will soon get married, so I will give her a hundred taels of silver as a dowry, and in a few days the king will send another interpreter." ”

When Cangyang Gyatso heard these words from the bhikshunis, his head suddenly ringed like ringing in his ears, and his body almost fell, scaring the monks who accompanied him into disarray, and a large number of people came forward to help him at the same time. Renzhen Weng Mu knew that he had said the wrong thing, and he was heartache and jealousy, he thought that he would die for Mingxin if he said this, but he didn't expect that as soon as he heard that she was going to marry, he would be in such a hurry, could it be that his affection for a servant girl has exceeded that of her as a concubine?

After all, Cangyang Gyatso is thoughtful, and he has never heard Maggie Ami say anything about this, so how could a fiancé suddenly appear? So when he calmed down, he was very skeptical of Renzhen Wengmu's words, and when she said it was true, he asked again: "Why don't you go back to me and let her go?" Does Zao know about this? ”

Renzhen Weng Mu pretended to be a favor from her, and she said: "It was my sister who begged me to find a way, but she was afraid that you and the king of Zao would not agree to her marriage, so she begged me to hide it from you for her, give her some money and let her go down the mountain." ”

Cangyang Gyatso thought to herself, if Maggie Ami was afraid that the king would not let her go, it was possible to deliberately hide the marriage, but she shouldn't hide it from me, she should have been able to see the truth of my affection for her from the beginning, and she shouldn't have been engaged to someone else from me, if the engagement was before she knew me, wouldn't she have saved me from pestering her earlier? Could it be that she is trying to play with my feelings as a monk?

His mood was like a lake one after another, and he couldn't help himself at all, and at this moment, he just wanted to go down the mountain immediately to find Maggie Ami and ask her personally.

Renzhen Weng Mu said again: "My sister's age is really not young, and she is also an old girl in the huge city of Lhasa. In addition, on the Zao side, I am afraid that my face is too small, so I have to ask the lotus seat to say a word for my sister. ”

Cangyang Gyatso knew that every word of her words was for one purpose, that is, he didn't want him to see Maggie Ami again, and it was best to take his mind back and put it on her, but when he knew that those poems and verses were not written by her, her first-class beauty lost its meaning to him at the moment.

Cangyang Gyatso did not want to give up the last glimmer of hope, he left Rinchen Ongmu and immediately returned to Kadampaki to change his clothes and go down the mountain, he didn't care about the crowds in broad daylight, and he didn't care about the secret agents following the wall, he just wanted to hear what Maggie Ami had to say.

When he came to the courtyard of the tavern, he happened to meet Maggie Ami going out to buy groceries, she was wearing a dark blue homespun dress, a black braid hung down at the waist, there was no beads on her head, but she looked more pure and simple, and she carried a small straw basket in her arm, and in the basket was laid a delicate embroidered curtain, on which were embroidered two elegant white lotus flowers, the crystal water droplets on the petals seemed to be about to drip down, and a pair of mandarin ducks under the lotus leaves seemed to be whispering.

The arrival of Cangyang Gyatso was a great surprise to Maggie Ami, I didn't expect him to forget about the cold reception he suffered here last time, although no one came to drink in the morning, couldn't the secret agent be ambushed nearby and watch from afar? Maggie Ami wanted to pretend not to know him, but he blocked her way and didn't let her go, so it was even worse to entangle at the door, Maggie Ami went around behind the courtyard wall and walked into the grove next door to the aunt's house.

Maggie Ami stopped and didn't look back at him: "The young master is back to get the fur hat, right?" I'll keep it for the young master, please wait here for a while, I'll go back and get it for the young master." ”

Cangyang Gyatso grabbed the corner of her clothes and said, "Maggie Ami, it's just the two of us here, can't you stop pretending?" ”

Maggie Ami said: "I'm just a tavern girl now, please don't entangle the young master anymore, just like a cuckoo and a cypress, what future can I have?" ”

Cangyang Gyatso looked at the cypress trees around him, the emerald green branches and buds have been pulled out of the rotten trunks, if the planters are reluctant to repair it, this lovely twig will bend the tall trunk, if it is the cypress tree in the backyard of the Potala Palace, the teachers have already sent someone to cut down these twigs, just like the education of him from childhood to adulthood, not allowing the slightest outrageous words and deeds, but when Shakyamuni Buddha was born in his next life, he also forgot about his previous life because of the pain of being born, and was confused in secular life for 29 years, didn't he also marry a wife and have children? Could it be that he, the reincarnation of the Fifth Da Lai, is even more wise than the Buddha? reads;！

Cangyang Gyatso's contradictory and complicated feelings can not be told to people in just a few words, and at this moment he just wants to ask whether she is really married. He said, "Maggie Ami, can you look at me?" ”

Maggie Ami said: "Men and women don't kiss, please let the young master go quickly." ”

When Cangyang Gyatso heard this, his throat was like choking on a sip of spicy wine, not up or down, the pain was unbearable, he looked at the mandarin duck embroidery in the Maji Ami straw basket, and asked: "You can answer me like this, but please be honest, I heard that you have a marriage contract with someone else, is there any basis for this?" ”

Maggie Ami was quite surprised in her heart, how did this kind of family member of Shengdou Xiaomin enter the palace, maybe it was Brother Ah who told the neighbors in the township, and was listened to by the spies. "Where did you hear that?" she asked. ”

Cangyang Gyatso didn't care about the transmission channel of this news, only about her behavior and words, listening to her tone, it seemed that there was really such a thing, his mood immediately fell into the cold lake, and his voice was trembling slightly: "Is there really such a thing? ”

Maggie Ami remembered that the words promised to her grandmother that day could not be regarded as a verbal marriage contract, although the thing she was going to do was actually difficult to compare, but she still hoped that she could do it, if it really succeeded, she had no complaints about what she wanted, thinking of this, she had to nod: "Hmm." ”

Cangyang Gyatso took a step back at that time, his ankles were weak, his whole body was weak, his heart completely fell into the bottomless abyss, completely disappeared, tears flowed freely from his eyes, and he mourned more than his heart died.

He could not hear even a birdsong in the quiet woods, and after a long lifeless time, he saw Maggie Ami also bow her head and wipe her tears, and this action made him pluck up great courage again, and he asked, "Who is he?" ”

Maggie Ami said: "It's my brother, we have been childhood sweethearts since childhood......"

"Two little guesses?" How did she know that Cangyang Gyatso had already scoffed at the latter half of the sentence, probably out of jealousy, and there was a bit of mockery in his tone.

Maggie Ami doesn't want to give him any hope, and he doesn't want to give himself any hope, in fact, the so-called childhood sweethearts and two little guesses are based on spiritual communication, without sincerity, just make a look, even if it is more than ten years, what's the use, not to mention the relationship between Cangyang Gyatso and Deji Meduo If there is no political factor, it can't be maintained for more than ten years.

Cangyang Gyatso said: "But, how can you marry your brother? ”

Maggie Ami said: "He is not my own brother, and I am not the biological daughter of his parents, I was picked up by them." ”

Cangyang Gyatso said, "Then where are your biological parents?" ”

Maggie Ami lowered her head: "I heard that it was from the place of Qiongjie, and they threw me in the mountains at the beginning, and I didn't want to go back to them." ”

Cangyang Gyatso finally knew why he had a sense of déjà vu for her at the beginning, it turned out that the two of them were connected by the same fate, and the feeling of losing his parents and being lonely could only be understood by experiencing it himself. He thought, maybe Maggie Ami's pity for me was just sympathy, and she could understand my poetry because she was deeply touched, and I was so confused that sympathy was love, and I fell into it deeply.

He wiped away his tears with his sleeve, endured the pain of his heart, and asked, "Your brother, ...... Has it been good for you since childhood? ”

Maggie Ami nodded, "Hmm." ”

Cangyang Gyatso said: "Didn't I fight with you for fighting over things? Not once? ”

Maggie Ami thought for a moment and shook her head: "No, never, although my family is poor, no matter what I buy, it is a double share." ”

Cangyang Gyatso said: "Then is he reluctant to eat and reluctant to leave things for you?" ”

Maggie Ami said, "That's a common thing. ”

As if he was still not giving up, Cangyang Gyatso asked, "Will he be staring at the young woman on the street?" ”

Maggie Ami replied, "My brother never goes out to hang out, and occasionally he goes to be with me. ”

Cangyang Gyatso said: "...... In other words, he will only guard you alone for the rest of his life, take good care of you, take good care of you, and even save money to make you happy? ”

"Well, I'm sure my brother will."

Cangyang Gyatso said: "Then let me ask you, if you want to listen to the piano, want to dance, want to answer poems, and want to understand the subtle and profound wisdom and meaning of the world, can your elder brother do it?" ”

Maggie Ami was silent and speechless.

Cangyang Gyatso's voice became low, and tears flowed out again: "Maggie Ami, you listen to me, I can do it, what your brother can do for you, I can also do it, not only that, I can also go to hell for you, I ...... is the best person for you! ”

"Please don't say any more!" Maggie Ami had just run a few steps before he caught up with him and hugged him from behind: "I really can't hold these words in my heart anymore, you just let me say it all in one breath, and then ...... Forget about me again......"

Maggie Ami's eyes were blurred, and she wanted to look back at him and comfort him, but she couldn't.

“…… I am willing to give up my current status and status as a living Buddha for you, return all the precepts to my teacher, and become an ordinary person, I will take you back to the corner of the door, go to my mother-in-law, settle down there, and stay with you for the rest of your life. Don't think I'm talking in a dream, I've already made such preparations, and a few days ago, Ban/Zen came from Houzang to confer bhikshu ordination on me, and I rejected him. I believe that there is nothing in this world that I really want to do but can't do, as long as you nod your head, I am willing to do these things for you, I will immediately go and tell the king that I am not a reincarnated spirit child, please ask him to ask another master! ”

Maggie Ami said: "Don't! Rosette! Please don't do stupid things for the sake of a humble woman! ”

Cangyang Gyatso didn't seem to understand her words, and was silent for a while, it turned out that he had been secretly weeping during this quiet time, just listen to his increasingly hoarse voice, he said: "You don't love me, but why do you say that every word is for my sake?" I can't figure out what your mind is, are you so fond of playing tricks on a lama who has a deep affection for you? ”

"The folk girl didn't play tricks on the lotus, but the lotus misunderstood this matter too deeply, and the folk girl had to go back, please take care of herself." Maggie Ami broke free from his hand and ran away with tears in his eyes, leaving the heartbroken Cangyang Gyatso in the woods