16. Self-deception
His heart was cold, and he closed his eyes weakly. After the desolation, there was an unquenchable resentment, one day, he would take her away from this qiΔ, and he would not hesitate to make the initiator pay. He pulled her hands away and held them firmly in his hands, ignoring her angry and terrified gaze, forcing her to listen to the cruel words in her ears, "I may have bad intentions, but what I said is true. Listen, the late princess's name is Gu Xiyue, and you ...... Your real name, surname Ye Mingxuan. β
Xiyue doesn't remember how she returned to Jiyue Palace that night, she has been in a state of confusion for days, and Zishuo's words echoed in her mind all the time, like a sharp awl all the time, piercing into her heart all the time. She even regretted that she had sneaked into Yan Xu's secret room that night and spied on a secret that she shouldn't have known, and this secret was exactly the evidence of Zishuo's words, so that she didn't want to believe it, but she had to believe his words.
She sat on the stone steps of the corridor with her knees crossed, looking at the lanterns hanging under the porch, and Yan Xu gave her on the night of the Stove Festival. The wind was blowing, the lanterns were swaying, and the two small daylily flowers were also swaying, which was very delicate. This lamp is related to you, it can only be yours...... He said that to her that night, and she now finally knew the meaning behind it. Daylilies represent her name.
Gu Xiyue...... Cherish the Moon...... It turned out that she was just a stand-in for the man.
There is a small chamberlain to report that the prince is coming, Xiyue retracts her gaze, since the last time she asked Yan Min to investigate her life experience, Yan Min has not had any news, and today she suddenly came over, it should be found. She nodded to indicate that she was invited, but suddenly ordered: "Slow down, tell Prince SΓΉ, that guard named Zishuo, don't enter the Jiyue Palace, I don't want to see him." β
The little chamberlain showed a look of embarrassment on his face, after all, it was the prince and the former celebrity. On the side, Yunzhu hurriedly volunteered to pass the word, she didn't forget the last time Zishuo teased her.
After Yan Min heard Yun Zhu's words, he only said that Xiyue was still annoyed by Zi Shuo's arrogance and rudeness last time, and he didn't care, so he asked Zi Shuo to wait for him at the palace gate, and he went in.
Zishuo knew the real reason in his heart, when he was parting that night, the hatred and resentment in her eyes when she looked at him made his heart like a knife, he realized that he was probably too radical that night, but he never regretted it, this day will come sooner or later, and the long pain is better than the short pain. She fell into the abyss, and it was up to him to pull her up.
Just as Yunzhu was about to turn around and leave, he asked, "How many days has she been?" β
His voice was low and hoarse, as if he hadn't rested well, Yun Zhu turned around in surprise and looked him from head to toe, seeing that his cheeks were slightly sunken, and his expression was tired, only the lone wolf-like eyes were still burning. Yun Zhuhu said suspiciously: "Miss Xiyue has been doing well these days, what does it have to do with you?" β
Zishuo's thin lips pursed, ignoring the doubts on her face, and said, "It has nothing to do with me, I just want to know." β
After Yun Zhu was surprised, he made a sudden realization, sneered, and said mockingly: "Chirp, I really don't know the height of the sky, and I don't take a bowl of water to take care of my appearance, but a mere bright flame envoy actually dares to cherish the moon girl, she is the person we care about the most." Who are you? How dare you compare with the prince? It's just unexpected. β
Zishuo sneered, the person he cares about the most? Yes, of course he cared, if he didn't have her, how could he sprinkle another handful of salt on Yili's wound? How could he let Yili push him into the abyss of no return, after he had just come out of a life and death parting with great difficulty? One is Yili's favorite woman, the other is Yili's dearest sister, and the two most important people in Yili's life are all held in his hands, he is really calculating.
Zishuo looked at Yun Zhu with a side face, her tense face was cold, which made Yun Zhu's heart feel a little weak, she wanted to say something more to stab him, but she couldn't say anything at this time. Zishuo faintly retracted his gaze and walked away without looking back.
Yun Zhu looked at Zishuo's back as he gradually moved away, and couldn't help but be a little distracted, what kind of man is this? Obviously, she is from the same humble background as her, but she is just a dog who works hard for others, but there is always an uninhibited elegance on her body, she suddenly gave birth to some envy, not for him to get the prince's appreciation of the opportunity to rise to the top, but for his calm bearing that does not bend his waist for the powerful. It's just that...... Such a man would actually care about someone else's favorite concubine? Yun Zhu only felt that this person was too unpredictable, and shook his head and didn't think about it anymore.
Yan Min came with joy, thinking that she had promised to check her life experience in the month, but now that there is finally news, she will definitely be full of expectations for his arrival, but when he gradually approached the corridor, he saw her sitting on the stone steps, her expression was gloomy, and even the flying look on her usual face disappeared without a trace, he was a little disappointed, but more of an accident.
"Huh? I haven't seen you for half a month, why do you look like this? Sick? He sat down next to her and waved his hand to let the people retreat, "I know, it must be that Yan Xu hasn't come to see you these days, and you feel uncomfortable." β
Seeing that she didn't open her mouth to refute, his face showed some disdain, "It's really promising, for a man, it seems like he has made himself a complaining wife." I heard that my father's health has been getting worse and worse recently, so I am anxious to go to Weidi. Also, on the Queen Mother's birthday next month, the father specially asked King Rui to go to Yicheng to congratulate the Queen Mother on her birthday. Don't think about it, just relax and live your own life. β
Xiyue fiddled with the silk silk in her hand, and saw that although he despised himself for caring about Yan Xu, he still said something against his heart to comfort her. Her previous life only revolved around Yan Xu, and once Yan Xu was gone, that feeling of loneliness and helplessness haunted her all the time. But at this time, Yan Min's words made her feel warm in her heart, it turned out that in this deep palace, there was another person who cared about her. She smiled at him and thanked him.
Such politeness made Yan Min uncomfortable.
He scratched his head and said, "Didn't you ask me to check your background last time?" Why don't you ask me? I've really found some clues. β
Xiyue was slightly stunned, she already knew something from Zishuo's mouth, she was an orphan, grew up in the Great Compassion Temple and Caowei Hall, and had a deep relationship with Yili and the late crown princess, but that's all, as for more things, such as how she lost her memory, how she came to Yan Xu's side, and what Zishuo's relationship with her was, why she knew about her past, she didn't know anything about these things.
In fact, she knew in her heart that if she asked, Zishuo would tell her truthfully. However, she didn't want to know, or rather, she didn't dare to know. She vaguely felt that the truth was too much for her to bear.
She hesitated, "Actually...... Look no further......"
Yan Min said excitedly: "You asked me to start with the Great Compassion Temple of Wuhuang Mountain last time, I really found some of it, you must not have guessed that the old monk we met when we were hunting in Xiaoshan last time was actually the host of the Great Compassion Temple, Master Duyi." I heard that he was over 100 years old, so old that he couldn't even remember his age. β
She was stunned, "Do-ichi...... You mean, the one who was almost shot by your order was actually Master Wataichi? β
"Hey, you know this guy too? But no, I really didn't expect that the old bald donkey was actually a famous monk. It's also weird, you said that he is an old monk who is so old that he can't even walk, what are you doing all the way to Xiaoshan? Just to stop us from killing that roe deer? These bald asses are acting inexplicably. β
Xiyue was stunned in her heart, it turned out that the compassionate and kind old monk was Master Duyi...... But if he was Wataichi, he should have recognized himself, why didn't he recognize her that day?
She asked, "What about ...... Beyond that, what else have you found? β
Yan Min patted his head, "Hey, I almost forgot, I found out that the Great Compassion Temple took in an abandoned baby girl more than ten years ago, but after the baby girl grew up, she was sent to nowhere." I suspect that the baby girl was you. But what happened next is not known for the time being. Speaking of this, his face was a little sneering, "That's all I found, isn't it useless?" β
Xiyue breathed a sigh of relief and smiled at him: "How come, I am already grateful if you are willing to help me." Actually, I was just about to tell you that I don't have to look it up again in the future. β
He was stunned and said, "Why? Are you worried that Yan Xu will know that he doesn't like it? Don't worry, I'll be careful not to let him know. β
Xiyue shook her head, "No, I'm just ...... I just think it's good to be like this now, and since I've forgotten about it, I'll let it pass. If this is the will of God, why do you have to go against the sky? β
Yan Min was puzzled: "But...... Don't you want to know why you have no memory? Don't want to know what happened to you? β
"I used to want to know, but now I don't want to know, I just need to stay by Jinyun's side and be satisfied, as for the past, forget it." Maybe the more she knew, the less she could feel at ease by his side, she didn't want to continue to dwell on this matter, so she changed the topic and said, "What has the prince been busy with lately?" His majesty is unwell, and the prince should be more filial to his side with him. β
Yan Min's face became a little ugly, "Don't mention it, do you think I don't want to be filial?" The old man doesn't like me, he thinks I'm not doing my job when I do anything, and it's useless for me to do anything! β
She was surprised, "What happened?" β